Sohahahahahaaha

Christmas has come and gone.

Ryohei left.It was such a sad experience.I guess i finaly know what it's like to see someone you love leave your life.I miss him.From the moment i went down the escalator i missed him.I cried on the train trip back.I will make it a priority to go see him again.

Yuki spent her christmas god knows where.I was at a BBQ...on the sixth floor of an apartment.I don't know which idiot came up with the idea,but the sure did forget about winds being strong at that height.Paper cups and Paper plates were flying around.But the girls were pretty man.=)
bouhahahahahahahaahhaahhaha.Okay..i am not shallow.

I was a super gentleman at the bbq and before it.Seriously i was. Hahaha. most of the people there were church friends and we surely did have a good time.

Stupid monkey ryohei.The yellowest monkey available anywhere.
Tse Kai...there is a foos bar here in sydney.When i come back,the foos will be strong in me.


Aoi and I have a huge project going.We hope it works when it's done.


Mouhahahahahaha.
Bouhahahaahahaha.





On the other hand,I once again realise I am lonely.

owata

Merry Christmas people.

Only atsumi wished me,and yet still i have not recieved my life's first christmas present.

i went visiting my uncle's patients houses.A few people i knew from the surgery have died and the saddes thing would be is that Jack Blisset is dying.Can somebody pray for the old man?I like him alot and it would be sad to see someone as sane as him die.

I got people some presents already and as a result of that i am totally broke so you people better appreciate my presents.I will have to live on instant noodles for two weeks.My aunty bought the noodles.Lucky i have her here.

When i went to buy two bottles of wine as presents,the shopkeeper didn't want to believe i was above 18.I had to get some random guy on the street to buy it for me.He said merry christmas to me after buying the stuff for me.

I stuck a sticker on my guitar.It looks good.It looks really good.

i've given up on ultraman and pokemon and all that.I won't behave childishly anymore.

Think things over.Please.

How good is this pic?

She left for UK without telling me.

Idiot Marvin diverted my call to her phone.I hate filipinos now.

Potang Ina mo.

I am broke but not in debt.So it is okay.

I have a year's supply of Christmas Presents for me.

Rohan has a blog.Hahahaha.Yes,Rohan the Prick.

I miss her alot.I haven't seen her in some time.

I went through emails I have recieved in the past one year.

One BIG FCUK You to people who don't keep their promises.

Another BIGGER FCUK to you people who don't value my friendship because I value yours highly.


Note:FCUK=French Connection U.K.

a hard days night?

i want to be emo.just live alone,not caring for anybody.

now i understand where there are cold people,
where there are grumpy old men,
where there are emo people like sid,
why there are homosexual people like richard,
why there is suicide,
why there is no trust,
why the beatles broke up,
why friends fight,
why there are lonely people like me,
why there are heartbreaks...

i wish i could create a world where i could live in selfishly with the people i love.

sonna koto ii na

I've had to choose between doing so many [right and hard things] and [wrong and easy things].
Obviously,a self centered clown like me would choose to do the wrong and easy things.
Last night after walking them home,i took the train home and i was thinking to myself.thinking about why i do things for people.i don't know.it's because i love people.i love seeing people happy i guess.even if i don't know them.

ryohei is leaving a 3 days time.i already miss him.he's become the brother i never had.
Onichan.Hahaha.He hates it when i call him that.we went to a bar.(Ryohei,Mari,Yuki,Marvin and I).I think they had fun.I was troubled.They were talking stuff concerning themselves.Honestly,I felt out of place most of the time and after that we walked like idiots to Ramen Kan.It supposedly opens till late and when we reached there at 10.It was closing.Stupid idiots.

It's annoying when people treat me like a kid.I know i am 19 and i watch alot of cartoons.Seriously,when i act matured,you people won't like me.

I've not gone to church for some time.I've drank,I've smoked.When I told my cg people about it,they seemed abit unhappy about it.So i haven't gone to church since.Don't feel like going anyway.let them do what they want and i will do what i want.a few weeks ago i was at the church bus stop and someone tried to sell me marijuana.Hahah.First time i saw what it looked like.

Yuki's housemate is growing the stuff that guy tried to sell me at the church bus stop.
I haven't had proper conversations with many people.Suddenly feel like i've lost my friends.just have to make new friends.

i got an email after we went to the bar.I don't know.When i read that email,I feel happy.When I think about that email,I am troubled.It makes me feel like i am not good enough for anyone.
I know i cannot please everybody but i guess it's human nature to feel liked?

i think i'll just take some time out.Throw my phone away and live by myself for soem time.Don't bother about anybody.Just judge them by the bad things they do.That way i would be more informed about the way the world works.I met this random guy at the station last night and said something which made me think.

"you hear everyone telling you to do good and all that shit,but when you do good you still get screwed.So you might as well go with the world.treat other people like how they treat you."

that's what he said.He was drunk,but what he said made sense and he gave me a lift back home from the station.funny.i gave someone a lift from the station before.some random chinese guy.


there shall be no intevention on Nobi Nobita because he saves the world in the future.

Eleanor Rigby.

Eleanor rigby, picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream.
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?


Father mckenzie, writing the words to a sermon that no-one will hear,
No one comes near.
Look at him working, darning his socks in the night when nobodys there,
What does he care.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?

Ah,look at all the lonely people
Ah,look at all the lonely people

Eleanor rigby, died in the church and was buried along with her name,
Nobody came.
Father mckenzie, wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave,
No one was saved.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?
All the lonely people where do they all belong?

mozzy biting.

babi..tetek aku gatal....kena gigit nyamuk la. [danny punany] 13/12/2006 2.00 am.

random la.

i am moving into a studio apartment.
went for a christmas party last night.I got a cool present.So good.
As of now I have quarreled with a lot of people and those quarrels are mostly due to the
decisions I have made in my life here in sydney.

Decisions such as my way to pursue my religion,falling in love,choice of words and so on.

well I have two words for the world

Mou Diu.
tahu takpe.


danush:mou diu.
sid:pamtat betul la.
danush:why pamtat?
sid:because without pamtat cannot diu.
danush:Can la.I cannot show you but akmal can.=))
sid:pamtat don't give me funny ideas.

Mou Diu World.

I can believe what i want.
I can say what i want.
I can eat what i want.
I can go wherever i want.
I can drink what i want.
I can smoke what i want.
I can fall in love with whoever i want.

Mou Diu again.

she makes me feel like it's raining outside. : Blink 182

I walked her home and most of her make up had gone off.She looked pretty without stupid powder on her face.



Note* Mou:NO
Diu:Fuck

Mou Diu: don't give a fuck.(somewhat like that.)

pantat

Boyfriend and Girlfriend.

It's stupid that people here think that being somebody's girlfriend or boyfriend means that you have to have sex with that person.What happened to reserving yourself for marriage?

Stupid misconceptions and WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG with falling in love with someone whom is already in love?

eat shit world.
Jimmy eat world eat shit.


boku ha jibun no kimoti ga wakaranai

boku ha imamade ni nai kurai kimi no kotowo omotte iru

boku ha kimiga shiteiruyorimo zutto kimiga sukidesu


Those words are from pupus translated into japanese.Sidek asked me to translate so that we can conquer the japanese market.

screw you(plural)

hey... for all of you who think you've been by me..my ass la..


sid is the guy who has been by me the longest..
from making noise to making music..
misconceptions of apryl..

































sid didn't push me aside when he got a friend from national service...
sid didn't leave me because i went to assunta...
sid didn't leave me because he liked a girl....
sid didn't ignore me because i liked him..
sid didn't leave me because he found photography and some new friend...
sid didn't delete me of friendster because i told miss moey about people cheating in exams..
sid didn't leave my band because his mom thought we were satan worshiping...
sid didn't taunt me because i wasn't the same race as him..
sid didn't forget about me in his joy..
sid didn't forget about me existing to be his friend..
sid didn't stop talking to me because his boyfriend in New Zealand told him to...
sid didn't forget to drop me at the airport...
sid didn't not let my play football with him because i wasn't malay..
sid didn't not forget to sms me when i was lost in sungai chongkak because he was driving..
sid didn't stop talkign to me because his mom said i was a bad influence..
sid didn't stop talking to me because of STPM?
sid did not treat me differently because i wasn't christian
sid's brother didn't scream at me because i called him at dinner time
sid didn't choose some girl over me..
sid trusted me to teach him music..
sid didn't say i tried too hard to be a gentleman..
sid didn't say i need to come to church on sunday to be better..
sid came to my house to visit me..
sid sms' me...
sid was there...and sid says he'll continue to be there..


the rest of you..
just shut up and stop making false promises..



dedicated to sid softy..founding member



















Let There Be Love...Oasis of MBSSKL.
Lennon Mc Cartney of MBSSKL.
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you...yes you...i always thought you were busy with your studies...but your six month break has started..have you even messaged me even once?..

sid told me..when someone gets bored of you and don't want to have anything to do with you anymore,they drop you signs...guess it's true huh?
but I don't understand..how dare you do this after everything la?you have no right to be on the same level as those assuntarians..search yourself..