shy away from affection

Sometimes certain persons aren't meant to stay,just to linger.It's abit hard to except but everything that happens,definitely happens for the better even if directly not visible.It's like the parable of the seeds which were sown.The situation is the seeds and our hearts are teh land on which it fell unto.The ones who manage to accept the changes made by God to our lifes and make good use of it are those which hearts are like the good ground on which the seeds fell.But not everyone is capable of that.I certainly am not.

I guess that's why i feel lonely and depressed and what not la..deng...and now,she's gone...a bit the heart aching la..deng..
I feel lonely..i've changed my course..and planning to move out in a few months..looking for another job..working at one place is just not enough..i miss ypf..

I am contended la..i cannot ask for more..i dare not actually..=))

it's just that i cannot cope when some people are just meant to linger..it's a bit the menyakitkan hati..(heart ache:for my international readers)
My best friend in the city is old vicky..it's a statue of Queen Victoria in front of Town Hall..just sit below her and lament la..

My sister said i can borrow her car to go brign esther to sydney for Christmas.=)
It's the best thing so far.=)

everybody has a theory for this world and it's activities..
mine is that everythign here is of no importance..so i don't need a theory about it kua..

Tahi..

I went to church yesterday,with shoko and marvin..I went to the hillsongs city church...the service there was superb la..really superb...i am going to go there every week...A pizza man came in to deliver a pizze to the preacher and ahah..eh got a tip...2 dollars from the speaker..and everyoen else tipped him...even me..ahha..he had to carry all his tips out in the tithe bucket...power la..=))

this friday i am going to powerhouse..will ask kwan shian to come with me.. haihs..i miss home..i might not move out of my aunty's house la..go live in the city near my college..

Esther is at camp,shenis studying,Emerson is somewhere,Mayz is short. =) and not to mention lovely.=)

I still remember..i had her tiramisu cake for her "Farewell" ( of which she came back home inn 4 weeks)....wah..her tiramisu made me go toilet ....and i could smell the cake even after it came out of my anus...wah....power lerr?

I am becoming a different person la now..i hate this change..I cannot change and I should not change..I dreamt about little elysse today..

maki maki

no sms at all for these past few days..I feel lonely..
exams la..this la..that la..
I was going through some conversations i've saved...conversations i've had with people whom i love dearly..It hurs la..to see where we stand now,after the things we've said,It's ironic that we seldom appear before each other as means of comfort..

I am sure it's not my fault,I try my best,I put you people,My Friends as my priority but i don't know la..things just don't work out..I just wish i find just one friend who would treat me the way he or she would treat his or herself..I miss that phrase..yi hei...

Esther's at camp..Emerson has just disappeared la..who else is left la?

somebody call me,please...my fingers have been bleeding on my guitar...it gets really sad and scarry when i become lonely...the weather is too cold as well..

panjat lif...

The last weekend,I went to the blue mountains.Syokign Menoking wei. =))
Went rock climbing and all..hahahha.....ironically,I am afraid of heights..
Last night I called peay pei and my 100% genetically certified daughter.(Ziling)I missed them and I needed company.I called Shen too...hahah..

I was imagining myself going on a date with this guy from wangsa Maju..hahaha....too bored edi la...and someone got jealous kua..

Anyway it was really cold in the mountains,we burnt three whole trees for firewood.hahah..i magien going and getting the trees in the middle of darkness..

Rock Climbing was super syoking Menoking la =) I climbed wei..really climbed.hahahha.
Imagine,We were 1200 metres above sea level.

here are some pics..