she said hurtful things.I guess i did too.But i just can't get over it.Haihs. big big SIGH.unfair la.she doesn't care i guess.
ESTHER...read down...got something for you local influence agent...actually not local la..overseas.Hahah
haihs....becoming emo again..hahaha...deng..I won't succumb to depression la.=))
someone said something to me two days ago,and it's been ringing in my head.
haihs..Esther was wearing a cheong sam..She looked "elegant"..i am so tempted to wear one too...
haihs,My head hurts.stupid head.God is good la.Too good.Emerson,call me.It won't cost too much for you.
Gwen,call me as well.
Ziling,I miss you.Alot.As well as jolly and peay and prussy and tse kai and boon.
Haihs,family forever.
I can't wai until i come back.Another nine months more.I don't like the people here.They're hypocrites.The pretend.ALOT.
was talking to joanne,yeah.Joanne Chan,the oen i could never get along with.
She said that it hurts alot when someone you care for pretends to you.Pretends they understand you.I agree la.My uncle doesn't like the fact that i am living in his house.
An agreement on me going to stay with my cousin here is being contemplated on.
It doesn't matter to me la.I am just disappointed with people la.Not just my uncle.
but yeah,who am I to complain eh?
arrrgh..
wait wait,not done yet...
was reading Mark 15:33-39
He understand our loneliness la..He was lonely as well..
He screamed "Eloi,Eloi lama sabachthani?"
He was so lonely He thought God had forsaken Him.
Imagine such loneliness la,After that,I believe he understands every bit of loneliness us Humans go through.
Haihs.He rocks la.=)))
Just nine more months.I'll be home.with you people.My loved ones la.all of you.
shen...hahah..peay pei...haihs..cartoon la..=)
crap la..I still don't know her much.Babi.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
incesticide
i feel like cursing and swearing,but esther told me that the good people talk about their problems instead of curse and swear.
haihs..
she said that i don't know her much.Period.
I agree,I don't.
finite.
it hurts la,someone asked how i am.
things aren't that great,but God is good.
i wish i read his blog more often la,that way i would have seen all these things coming way earlier.bunty....deng...
Gwen told me about her going to do tambourine dance,Hahah..i told her about the time at youth camp when eunice and wei-li taught sean and I to do tambourine dance at 2 a.m.
I hate this la,i mean this place.I love latha ma.Superb lady.
Grandmother is going back to india in two weeks.I just realised today that i would miss her.
I agree again.I thought I knew you alot.It turns out i don't eh?
I still feel this way,yeah.After the phone call.Still.
Be euphoric while you people still can.
Esther,I am tired of caring for people la.It hurts me,somewhere inside,I don't know exactly where,but it does la esther.
haihs..
she said that i don't know her much.Period.
I agree,I don't.
finite.
it hurts la,someone asked how i am.
things aren't that great,but God is good.
i wish i read his blog more often la,that way i would have seen all these things coming way earlier.bunty....deng...
Gwen told me about her going to do tambourine dance,Hahah..i told her about the time at youth camp when eunice and wei-li taught sean and I to do tambourine dance at 2 a.m.
I hate this la,i mean this place.I love latha ma.Superb lady.
Grandmother is going back to india in two weeks.I just realised today that i would miss her.
I agree again.I thought I knew you alot.It turns out i don't eh?
I still feel this way,yeah.After the phone call.Still.
Be euphoric while you people still can.
Esther,I am tired of caring for people la.It hurts me,somewhere inside,I don't know exactly where,but it does la esther.
Saturday, February 25, 2006
period.
i am taken for granted alot.
shaun told me that something everyone appreciates is being appreciated.
Everytime i feel like i am being taken for granted,someone comes along and shows appreciation.
superb la.=)
this is not a deppressing post because i cannot be bothered less about those who take me for granted.
these few day have had me thinking alot la.i thought alot about esther,emerson and i.We're being stupid la.humiliating ourselves to each other.I want to tell a story.
one day at camp,when this boy got out of this bus,a girl got out of the other bus too.then she knocked the boy on the head as a form of greeting.=)everything else that followed was history.
another story about how one boy and a girl,after vowing internal friendship,failed to be there for each other in times of need,this brought to the swearing of eternal friendship which would never deter.this was done through sms though both parties lost the sms because they lost their phones.
don't know la.
one more story about a boy who swore to never disappoint his friends is caught up between honoring a promise and doing what is right...
it's embarassing la.
haihs...i miss you both la..all the time we spent in church,megamall,mc donalds...haihs...deng...
my cousin sister bought me a phone card.going to call malaysia tonight.
last week,nikita came to my house.she was horrid la.she didn't layan me properly.she was acting snobbish.almost like swathi.actualy,,,just like swathi.
haihs...
i miss the family.
shaun told me that something everyone appreciates is being appreciated.
Everytime i feel like i am being taken for granted,someone comes along and shows appreciation.
superb la.=)
this is not a deppressing post because i cannot be bothered less about those who take me for granted.
these few day have had me thinking alot la.i thought alot about esther,emerson and i.We're being stupid la.humiliating ourselves to each other.I want to tell a story.
one day at camp,when this boy got out of this bus,a girl got out of the other bus too.then she knocked the boy on the head as a form of greeting.=)everything else that followed was history.
another story about how one boy and a girl,after vowing internal friendship,failed to be there for each other in times of need,this brought to the swearing of eternal friendship which would never deter.this was done through sms though both parties lost the sms because they lost their phones.
don't know la.
one more story about a boy who swore to never disappoint his friends is caught up between honoring a promise and doing what is right...
it's embarassing la.
haihs...i miss you both la..all the time we spent in church,megamall,mc donalds...haihs...deng...
my cousin sister bought me a phone card.going to call malaysia tonight.
last week,nikita came to my house.she was horrid la.she didn't layan me properly.she was acting snobbish.almost like swathi.actualy,,,just like swathi.
haihs...
i miss the family.
Friday, February 24, 2006
bunty?
hahahhaa..
gwen didn't lose in interhouse sports...don't know if she won though..
I am tired,been outside of the house too long.
was in college for twelve hours yesterday.Spent loads of time with mustafa and took pictures.
MMS-ed gwen photos i took.
today was in college...exam...and i hate most of the girls there la..Especially the asian ones.They forget who they really are..
anyway...I'm in love....with my NOKIA 6280.Haha.
nikita said the name mathew is gay..babi girl...deng la..i felt so insulted by that statement...
seeing her tomorrow.Yeay.=))
yesterday i did something mad.Mustafa and i were sitting on the street near town hall.People were looking at us like beggars.Hahah..then i called gwen using handphone.Expensive like nobody's business..
i wish i was back home or that you people were here.nothing here seems to be worth leaving you guys la....
people..you should read mathew,chapter5 verse 14...EMERSON...especially you.
p.s.:esther...something wrong with me again...give advice...i get jealous too easily...anybody..give advice la..
gwen didn't lose in interhouse sports...don't know if she won though..
I am tired,been outside of the house too long.
was in college for twelve hours yesterday.Spent loads of time with mustafa and took pictures.
MMS-ed gwen photos i took.
today was in college...exam...and i hate most of the girls there la..Especially the asian ones.They forget who they really are..
anyway...I'm in love....with my NOKIA 6280.Haha.
nikita said the name mathew is gay..babi girl...deng la..i felt so insulted by that statement...
seeing her tomorrow.Yeay.=))
yesterday i did something mad.Mustafa and i were sitting on the street near town hall.People were looking at us like beggars.Hahah..then i called gwen using handphone.Expensive like nobody's business..
i wish i was back home or that you people were here.nothing here seems to be worth leaving you guys la....
people..you should read mathew,chapter5 verse 14...EMERSON...especially you.
p.s.:esther...something wrong with me again...give advice...i get jealous too easily...anybody..give advice la..
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
subaru technica international
| I've been talking to gwen. Lame la....every word that is exchanged between us is lame.Except when we're talking about god la..Ever other word is lame... Adventure is an experience which takes us out of our comfort zone.This perempuan want to study in aussie first,then hong kong then aussie,then new zealand....grrrrr...this is proof of how FICKLE MINDED girls can be. ESTHER.....chun la esther...talked to her as well...her perodua my-vi seriously appear in only her dreams. GWEN!!!....deng...hahahha...I have sooo much chocolate here...remember the chocolate fudge it old you about?...wah..i tell you...my mouth was watering la...so much saliva...mmmmm...i wish you were here...hahahahh.....i know that you are so going to kill me the next time i call. Gwen said she doesn't fancy my mom's cooking..hahahah...when i told my mom that gwen said that,she just was quiet...hahahah....women....mad people la women...MAD... another story about mad women....the cutest thing happened la...two days ago i taught nikita how to use bluetooth...ahhahaha...then yesterday she was calling me and complaining that her bluetooth wasn't working......when she told me what she was trying to do,i laughed like some mad man...hahahahahahhaha...HAHAHAHAHAHHA...she was trying to send a picture to her friend through bluetooth......her friend was God knows how many miles away...HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH |
this post is dedicated to all the extremely mad women i know.no matter how crazy you girls behave,i still love you all alot la..cos all of you are my friends...
list of mad women whom i know.
1.PeayPei 2.Gwen 3.Nikita 4.Esther(a bit the refined) 5.Serene. 6.Amelia.HAHA 7.Eunice Goh. 8.Teh Joo Ling. 9.My Mom tops the list. 10.My Grandmother. 11.Gwen again because her madness is interestingly lame. 12.My feminine side.now you guys know why i go mad sometimes.It's because my feminine side takes over.
Gwen came up with these calculations.
Marriage Cost Electricity-$800 Water-$800 Home Loan-$2000 Car loan-$2000(i think because both parties buy a car.) Groceries-$1000
wah..she really scarred me la...i don't feel like getting married.If i save all that money,can buy a whole fleet of Subaru Impreza wrx sti la.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
I am the way ,the truth and the life.
this week been superb la...
i've been having bad things for soem time la..but in the last two weeks..i turn to My King.
Superb la.He solved everything...
and to day i got an email and there was this statement of ocurage in it which said
don't tell your God how big the storm is.
Tell the storm how BIG your GOD is.=))
superb la...hahaha...awesomenesity la.=)
Aunty mei leng left australia today after a week of being here.I met with her yesterday and had dinner and all..and fellowship as well.Superb nya..=))
No one as big as my God.=))
Serious..i told aunty mei leng about what shen told me.
If Jesus is able to bring celebration to cemetries,make stones which were aimed for an adulterous women fall down to the ground and free men of sin 2000 years ago,there is no reason for me to believe that He can't do it now.=))
superb superb superb...giler la..semangat all the way for God.=)))
been seeing nikita almost every day ..deng..and been hanging out with mustafa too much..
there is an arabic word to describe mustafa and I...Maniac.it's the same meaning as the english word.Maniac.hahahah.=)))
I'll be getting peay pei a phone,my daughter a pretty,cute and smart cap,my sons star wars merchandise,gwen a diamon ring,12 cream roses,1 bottle of champagne and a boox of ferrero...Hahahhaah..when i go back to malaysia that is..=))
well..i got to go now....
ESTHER!!!!!...
our God is an awesome God.=)) true eh?
be encouraged.
I met this man on the streets in the city yesterday..he was preaching the gospel through a megafone.=))superb la.had a chat with him.=)
Jesus is the way,the truth and the life.=)
i've been having bad things for soem time la..but in the last two weeks..i turn to My King.
Superb la.He solved everything...
and to day i got an email and there was this statement of ocurage in it which said
don't tell your God how big the storm is.
Tell the storm how BIG your GOD is.=))
superb la...hahaha...awesomenesity la.=)
Aunty mei leng left australia today after a week of being here.I met with her yesterday and had dinner and all..and fellowship as well.Superb nya..=))
No one as big as my God.=))
Serious..i told aunty mei leng about what shen told me.
If Jesus is able to bring celebration to cemetries,make stones which were aimed for an adulterous women fall down to the ground and free men of sin 2000 years ago,there is no reason for me to believe that He can't do it now.=))
superb superb superb...giler la..semangat all the way for God.=)))
been seeing nikita almost every day ..deng..and been hanging out with mustafa too much..
there is an arabic word to describe mustafa and I...Maniac.it's the same meaning as the english word.Maniac.hahahah.=)))
I'll be getting peay pei a phone,my daughter a pretty,cute and smart cap,my sons star wars merchandise,gwen a diamon ring,12 cream roses,1 bottle of champagne and a boox of ferrero...Hahahhaah..when i go back to malaysia that is..=))
well..i got to go now....
ESTHER!!!!!...
our God is an awesome God.=)) true eh?
be encouraged.
I met this man on the streets in the city yesterday..he was preaching the gospel through a megafone.=))superb la.had a chat with him.=)
Jesus is the way,the truth and the life.=)
Monday, February 13, 2006
DECOMPOSES..Ahhahaha...
| this week has been superb.God worked so much la..So many relationships restored.Alvin,I am sorry..esther..i apologize the most to you... Hahahah..esther and gwen both said I am an agent of influence...Esther gave an example..gwens was way different,She was talking about teh counter bozo laugh..hahahhaah deng..Happy valentines.. Shen was tellign me that nigel was telling that this was his 24th year of valentines without a gift.. deng la..shen has got two already..Hahahahaha...yeong... Babi..i've always been giftless..nigel and I same boat la... Hahahahha...Shen..I'll get you a gift la..happy? buy you a guitar.want? Guess what? I had the choice of coming back home yesterday.I chose not to do so la.This place here filled with family politics la..deng..i can't come home anyway..remember?I gave my word to prus that I'll find MBSSKL 2. hahahahha.. I feel so happy la.. john 1:5-9. Superb la..God will never leave us to be alone.Heheh..he showed me something la..this week...something superb. Gwen is nenek-seemon.Hahahahahhaa... Deng..and I am nobody...hahah.. this scene is superb la..it happened at Mcdonalds in ss2. danush:gwen funny la...yesterday she drive like mad. almu:serious?can challenge my pam* or not? afiq:siapa ni gwen?who's this gwen?Gwen stefani ar? Danush:NO.no...Gwen NOT-fani.... almu:Bozo.... afiq:vomits pepsi through his nose.. talk about pepsi through nose..hahah..rememebr shen? at KFC..the first time you makan with us.. |
afiq: |
Ahhaha,,prussy made a bozo joke,,then i vomit pepsi through my nose..hahaha
shen this year when i come back,you take me driving okay ah girl?
we go kidnap k.j. then torture him with lame jokes..
what does mozart do now that he is dead?
He DE-composes...Hahahah...bozo..
What do you call a fly with no wings? A WALK..hahah..bozo la..
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
MY speech
Good morning i wish my principal,Mr wong and all the superior members of this institution.I am goign to give a speech on hedonism which was written by DAnush Ram and will be read out by me,Hor peay pei or also knownas Hor peay Ram,Shit Chick,Shit Magnet,Kaki Tahi and so on.
HEdonism is the definition of a lifestyle which revolves solely around entertainment and pleasure.A hedonist lifestyle basically is about entertaining his or herself and having as much fun as possible byfrequenting entertainment outlets such as nightclubs,pubs,snooker centers and places of such classification.
This problem of hedonism is most clearly visible among members of the upper class of society.This is because in that class,finacial funding and leisure time seem to have no limits whatsoever.There also are a handful of hedonist who come from different classes of society.
Hedonism wasn't a threat to the human being's way of life until recently when drugs started to become a part of entertainment.Drugs such as amphetamine and ecstacy pills were introduce as a catalyst to getting the best of entertainment and the presence of thesedrugs bring upon very dangerous and potentialy fatal side effects to hedonist as well as the innocent people around them.
Given these circumstances,it is clear that hedonism is something which is or at least should not be a desirable trait in any individual.The is because no matter how much pleasure it seems to bring,it still has negative effects on those whom are directly involved in it as well as to those whom are not.
I hope that as family members of the Methodist Boys School of Kuala Lumpur,we all can set an example to the other memebrs of this society.
HEdonism is the definition of a lifestyle which revolves solely around entertainment and pleasure.A hedonist lifestyle basically is about entertaining his or herself and having as much fun as possible byfrequenting entertainment outlets such as nightclubs,pubs,snooker centers and places of such classification.
This problem of hedonism is most clearly visible among members of the upper class of society.This is because in that class,finacial funding and leisure time seem to have no limits whatsoever.There also are a handful of hedonist who come from different classes of society.
Hedonism wasn't a threat to the human being's way of life until recently when drugs started to become a part of entertainment.Drugs such as amphetamine and ecstacy pills were introduce as a catalyst to getting the best of entertainment and the presence of thesedrugs bring upon very dangerous and potentialy fatal side effects to hedonist as well as the innocent people around them.
Given these circumstances,it is clear that hedonism is something which is or at least should not be a desirable trait in any individual.The is because no matter how much pleasure it seems to bring,it still has negative effects on those whom are directly involved in it as well as to those whom are not.
I hope that as family members of the Methodist Boys School of Kuala Lumpur,we all can set an example to the other memebrs of this society.
Monday, February 06, 2006
Great God who knowest all our needs...Vesper..ahahhhahaaha
hehahahah..
i am not sad anymore..
at my darkest hour,the matrix gave my light <----quote from Transformers The Movie.
Shen,Tse kai,Emerson,daughter,granddaughter.latha ma and Gwen all came together to love me just when i began to think nobody would.
They are my matrix and I arise,as Rodimus Prime!!!!
Hahahahahahah...i've got joy like a fountain,i've got joy like a fountain ,i've got joy like a fountain in my soul,I've got peace like a river....
ahahahhaha...
sorakla hallelujah.... boys brigade memories..
hehehehe...aku terjumpa perempuan christian yang agung la..nyahahaha...dan juga lelaki christian yang agung..
Y.M.C.A. HAHAHAHAH...remember that dance we all performed in school emerson? NYAHAHAHahhahahaha....seee how influencial we are?the whole school sang with us..I'm pretty sure no other performers have got the whole school to sing with them..
hahhahaha...we're good la emerson,good people,good lamers,good friens,good entertainers,(yoyo dance),and of course we are and always will be good MBSians!!! HAhahahaha
School was so secure,ahahah..i love so much la..I will give back alot to it...I wouldn't feel this way if it wasn't for Mrs.Ramani,Yap,Mr.Loo and of course Miss Moey! Hahahahaha
Miss Moey is amazing la.Serious.
I did quiet time last night.Peay,thanks.Your statement helped la.Shen,your emails helped loads and all those feiles you sent as well.Emerson,you didn't help..NYahahahaha
God did. DUH..... =)))) I make emerson promise to kick me in my backside if i backslide again.
Alvin,sorry and NO,this does not mean i will sleep with you.No,really alvin,sorry.=)
okay....GROUP HUG!!!!!
oh...forget..
was talking to gwen..hahahah...came up with nicknames.
Gwennes Stout. HAHAHAHAH...she calls me dan all the time..so s he bozo-ed and came up with Danness Stout.Bozo la she..hahaha..and her emoticons super cute la..always make me laugh..not as cute as tse kai's though...tse kai's is cute in a violent sort of way..
like i posted before...no matter how many times...you run back and He recieves you with arms wide open.i feel like one super big lump of shit la.
segala puji,hanya bagiMu Tuhan,Kerana Kau layak dipuja..Ahahhahaa..i miss those days la..
BOYS BRIGADE...i never liked it at that time..but i miss it la..I used to get bullied alot..hahha..yeah la...always pick on the innocent,Naive ,handsome,charming,black guy la huh?..haahha
=))
i am not sad anymore..
at my darkest hour,the matrix gave my light <----quote from Transformers The Movie.
Shen,Tse kai,Emerson,daughter,granddaughter.latha ma and Gwen all came together to love me just when i began to think nobody would.
They are my matrix and I arise,as Rodimus Prime!!!!
Hahahahahahah...i've got joy like a fountain,i've got joy like a fountain ,i've got joy like a fountain in my soul,I've got peace like a river....
ahahahhaha...
sorakla hallelujah.... boys brigade memories..
hehehehe...aku terjumpa perempuan christian yang agung la..nyahahaha...dan juga lelaki christian yang agung..
Y.M.C.A. HAHAHAHAH...remember that dance we all performed in school emerson? NYAHAHAHahhahahaha....seee how influencial we are?the whole school sang with us..I'm pretty sure no other performers have got the whole school to sing with them..
hahhahaha...we're good la emerson,good people,good lamers,good friens,good entertainers,(yoyo dance),and of course we are and always will be good MBSians!!! HAhahahaha
School was so secure,ahahah..i love so much la..I will give back alot to it...I wouldn't feel this way if it wasn't for Mrs.Ramani,Yap,Mr.Loo and of course Miss Moey! Hahahahaha
Miss Moey is amazing la.Serious.
I did quiet time last night.Peay,thanks.Your statement helped la.Shen,your emails helped loads and all those feiles you sent as well.Emerson,you didn't help..NYahahahaha
God did. DUH..... =)))) I make emerson promise to kick me in my backside if i backslide again.
Alvin,sorry and NO,this does not mean i will sleep with you.No,really alvin,sorry.=)
okay....GROUP HUG!!!!!
oh...forget..
was talking to gwen..hahahah...came up with nicknames.
Gwennes Stout. HAHAHAHAH...she calls me dan all the time..so s he bozo-ed and came up with Danness Stout.Bozo la she..hahaha..and her emoticons super cute la..always make me laugh..not as cute as tse kai's though...tse kai's is cute in a violent sort of way..
like i posted before...no matter how many times...you run back and He recieves you with arms wide open.i feel like one super big lump of shit la.
segala puji,hanya bagiMu Tuhan,Kerana Kau layak dipuja..Ahahhahaa..i miss those days la..
BOYS BRIGADE...i never liked it at that time..but i miss it la..I used to get bullied alot..hahha..yeah la...always pick on the innocent,Naive ,handsome,charming,black guy la huh?..haahha
=))
kenapa?
mun ling...the bananafied girl..
she told me that happiness comes in a bundle instead of one after the other..
I agree with her..I haven't spoken to her in months la..need to call her..
depressions comes one after another..I don't get it..why do you hurt me?
i know it unintentionaly,but still why?
she told me that happiness comes in a bundle instead of one after the other..
I agree with her..I haven't spoken to her in months la..need to call her..
depressions comes one after another..I don't get it..why do you hurt me?
i know it unintentionaly,but still why?
magnet ayam..
i just had lunch with latha ma..
She bought me chicken rice...wah..i love her la..
the lady who sold the chiken rice is from malaysia..
Hahahha...she was amazed when i asked her for chiken rice in cantonese..
Tomorrow is latha ma's birthday..I <---- I said I am baking her a cake..
Chocolate..my aunt's secret recipe ...I blogged about that chocolate cake before..somewhere in my july posts.
I made this statement yesterday, "If my mom were to die,touch wood,I would call latha ma "amma""
serious...=))
Last night had a superb chat with niki...except for the part where she called me stupid..
then i went to sleep after writting some stuff...
at 2:45,my phone rang and woke me up...
DAUGHTER CALLED ME!!!!!!!!!!!
NYAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!
we chatted for six minutes and twenty two seconds..
I told her i love her la...and told her to tell my granddaughter that i love her as well..
I love that family of mine..
I've got three families.
ASOHAN,TSEKAIWALKER and latha ma and I.
PERIOD. <---it means finality,not the menstrual thing la...ishh..
Who wants to marry me now?peay pei supposed to then tak jadi..su ling wanted to,I said cannnot,and rachel and I supposed to..but i've got no free time yet...HAHHAHAHA
babi...i am mad..
yesterday siao la..this girl khushboo whom i met,not sounding narcistic or anyhting..but she lieks me la..
and yesterday day she ask if i like her as in the gf kinda like...ahah..
and she ask me to ask her out..
DENG..i told her no..said i love someone else..
SEE SIDEK? magnet pompuan macam kau.. AHAHAH.
sidek said he's a chick magnet at kuala pilah in his university...HAHAHHAHA
got ot go la..stupid public computers..time going to end...
She bought me chicken rice...wah..i love her la..
the lady who sold the chiken rice is from malaysia..
Hahahha...she was amazed when i asked her for chiken rice in cantonese..
Tomorrow is latha ma's birthday..I <---- I said I am baking her a cake..
Chocolate..my aunt's secret recipe ...I blogged about that chocolate cake before..somewhere in my july posts.
I made this statement yesterday, "If my mom were to die,touch wood,I would call latha ma "amma""
serious...=))
Last night had a superb chat with niki...except for the part where she called me stupid..
then i went to sleep after writting some stuff...
at 2:45,my phone rang and woke me up...
DAUGHTER CALLED ME!!!!!!!!!!!
NYAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!
we chatted for six minutes and twenty two seconds..
I told her i love her la...and told her to tell my granddaughter that i love her as well..
I love that family of mine..
I've got three families.
ASOHAN,TSEKAIWALKER and latha ma and I.
PERIOD. <---it means finality,not the menstrual thing la...ishh..
Who wants to marry me now?peay pei supposed to then tak jadi..su ling wanted to,I said cannnot,and rachel and I supposed to..but i've got no free time yet...HAHHAHAHA
babi...i am mad..
yesterday siao la..this girl khushboo whom i met,not sounding narcistic or anyhting..but she lieks me la..
and yesterday day she ask if i like her as in the gf kinda like...ahah..
and she ask me to ask her out..
DENG..i told her no..said i love someone else..
SEE SIDEK? magnet pompuan macam kau.. AHAHAH.
sidek said he's a chick magnet at kuala pilah in his university...HAHAHHAHA
got ot go la..stupid public computers..time going to end...
Sunday, February 05, 2006
euphoria
hahahahha...
I AM THE HAPPIEST MAN ALIVE...AGAIN!!!..
SEE???....I SAID ALIVE!!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
THANKS to SPUNKY..
NYAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA....
regards..
JAANU!
ANAYAHAHAHHAHAHA......
I AM THE HAPPIEST MAN ALIVE...AGAIN!!!..
SEE???....I SAID ALIVE!!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
THANKS to SPUNKY..
NYAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA....
regards..
JAANU!
ANAYAHAHAHHAHAHA......
moist vagina.
haihs...
babi la...the more i think about things..
the more i think about myself..
there always something i have that people want..or something i can't do..
FUCK IT.
she chose him now...and i feel like aku tak cukup bagus untuk dia..but somehow i think I am..I don't know la..real confused..i know i should slap myself..bu ti don't know why..
because i am drowning myself by thinking about all this or because i should have done more untuk dia?
Prus..i need your advice again man..please...or i am serious..the world will lose another musician..
JAN,a college mate of mine..he takes weed...marijuana..He says that when he smokes it,it makes him really happy..he doesn't have to bother about problems when he does weed..I am seriously considering it la..I am desperate for peace of mind la..will you guys still be my friend if i take just one puff??
SIDEK said he'll leave my band if i do..but that's it man.Kurt took weed too..=)) we live up to him..=)
how much more can I take ar?...babi la..I don't know hwat's bugging me..i don't think it's depression..it's something else...soemthing is terribly wrong with me..ishhh...someone reach out la..grab my hand please..because..sakit la..hati aku sangat sakit...TERAMAT sakit...entah kenapa...
today she sms-ed me..
"you don sound fine when you talk to me.so that is why i kept the phone.that is why i don have anything to say"
her exact words..
what about me la?...you expect me to pretend and mask that i am happy ?
I can if you want that..i did it yesterday..so i guess forever would be fine..
shen...where are you?..the girl who always knocks sense into my head...
WHERE ARE YOU LA?....
i seem to bond easier with girls than guys..look at it la..
MY mom,her mom,her,ziling,peay,esther,shen,prussy,emerson,...well not emerene..,auntie mei ling=))))))) and mrs yap and ramani...hahah..they're all girls...
come on prussy and emerson..you know you have a feminine side in you...
so yeah..till you guys see me again..=)))
aku masih sakit hati la...babi..aku tak cukup bagus untuk dia la..deng...i'm not good enough for anything at all..
my g-string snapped today as i was playing fleetwood mac...
guitar...the nine hurts of kurt.
somebody save me one day..or the world will recieve another cobain..i'll change my name before i kill myself..
moist vagina is a nirvana song..it is also known as marijuana..
babi la...the more i think about things..
the more i think about myself..
there always something i have that people want..or something i can't do..
FUCK IT.
she chose him now...and i feel like aku tak cukup bagus untuk dia..but somehow i think I am..I don't know la..real confused..i know i should slap myself..bu ti don't know why..
because i am drowning myself by thinking about all this or because i should have done more untuk dia?
Prus..i need your advice again man..please...or i am serious..the world will lose another musician..
JAN,a college mate of mine..he takes weed...marijuana..He says that when he smokes it,it makes him really happy..he doesn't have to bother about problems when he does weed..I am seriously considering it la..I am desperate for peace of mind la..will you guys still be my friend if i take just one puff??
SIDEK said he'll leave my band if i do..but that's it man.Kurt took weed too..=)) we live up to him..=)
how much more can I take ar?...babi la..I don't know hwat's bugging me..i don't think it's depression..it's something else...soemthing is terribly wrong with me..ishhh...someone reach out la..grab my hand please..because..sakit la..hati aku sangat sakit...TERAMAT sakit...entah kenapa...
today she sms-ed me..
"you don sound fine when you talk to me.so that is why i kept the phone.that is why i don have anything to say"
her exact words..
what about me la?...you expect me to pretend and mask that i am happy ?
I can if you want that..i did it yesterday..so i guess forever would be fine..
shen...where are you?..the girl who always knocks sense into my head...
WHERE ARE YOU LA?....
i seem to bond easier with girls than guys..look at it la..
MY mom,her mom,her,ziling,peay,esther,shen,prussy,emerson,...well not emerene..,auntie mei ling=))))))) and mrs yap and ramani...hahah..they're all girls...
come on prussy and emerson..you know you have a feminine side in you...
so yeah..till you guys see me again..=)))
aku masih sakit hati la...babi..aku tak cukup bagus untuk dia la..deng...i'm not good enough for anything at all..
my g-string snapped today as i was playing fleetwood mac...
guitar...the nine hurts of kurt.
somebody save me one day..or the world will recieve another cobain..i'll change my name before i kill myself..
moist vagina is a nirvana song..it is also known as marijuana..
Saturday, February 04, 2006
frances bean cobain
silent tears...after all this time,I finally know what it means..
i am pretty sure it those tears that come out of your eyes and the moment they drop on the cold floor,you can hear the splash..
agree?
I let her go.I really did.
Almu,I am not magnificent,because i can't even love myself.I love other people too much and feel sorry for them more than i do for myself.
I read Kurt Cobain's suicide note.He was feeling the same way i am feeling now before he commited suicide.Fuck that bastard,He left me too soon.I wish he was still here because he would know what to do.I am confused.Everything he says in his suicide note,It somehow reflects on me.The more i think about it,the more i accept it as my suicide note.I am almost convinced that i was born to fulfill Kurt's destiny.
I am not in a condition to accept advice,so please save it and not waste my comment sections.
I wish i had better chances in life,better options.I hate myself now.I hate the emotional,empathic,loving and forgiving fool I have become.I give up my pleasure,me desire,m wants so that those people whom i love or feel sorry for will be happy.Even if it meant utter depression for me.Why?Why can't I care for myself?Why?I don't know..
well,Why won't someone care for me then?
Almu asked me this question,why do i love her.I told him i don't know.
He made this statement.
There are people who look for similiarities or difference in love.
There are also people who fall inlove with and without a reason.
There are people who want to be loved and people who want to love.
I don't know nuts about being loved.I've never experienced it.
PERIOD.
By the way..yesterday and the day before nikita had kitar haid going on..HAHAHAH...don't translate that for her...AHAHAHHAHAH..goodness...that reminds me of my granddaughter..=)
I recieved a letter from my granddaughter yesterday.It's the happiest thing i posses here in australia.=)
NIKITA!!!...deng your head la..call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or somebody gonna getta hurt real bad...somebody...could be anybody..i'm not telling you..but you might know her really well..
by the way,what are you wearing baby?
HAHAHAHAHAHA <-----------see this paragraph? I am fine..
P.S.: If i ever commit suicide,I will shoot myself in my mouth with a shotgun.
i am pretty sure it those tears that come out of your eyes and the moment they drop on the cold floor,you can hear the splash..
agree?
I let her go.I really did.
Almu,I am not magnificent,because i can't even love myself.I love other people too much and feel sorry for them more than i do for myself.
I read Kurt Cobain's suicide note.He was feeling the same way i am feeling now before he commited suicide.Fuck that bastard,He left me too soon.I wish he was still here because he would know what to do.I am confused.Everything he says in his suicide note,It somehow reflects on me.The more i think about it,the more i accept it as my suicide note.I am almost convinced that i was born to fulfill Kurt's destiny.
I am not in a condition to accept advice,so please save it and not waste my comment sections.
I wish i had better chances in life,better options.I hate myself now.I hate the emotional,empathic,loving and forgiving fool I have become.I give up my pleasure,me desire,m wants so that those people whom i love or feel sorry for will be happy.Even if it meant utter depression for me.Why?Why can't I care for myself?Why?I don't know..
well,Why won't someone care for me then?
Almu asked me this question,why do i love her.I told him i don't know.
He made this statement.
There are people who look for similiarities or difference in love.
There are also people who fall inlove with and without a reason.
There are people who want to be loved and people who want to love.
I don't know nuts about being loved.I've never experienced it.
PERIOD.
By the way..yesterday and the day before nikita had kitar haid going on..HAHAHAH...don't translate that for her...AHAHAHHAHAH..goodness...that reminds me of my granddaughter..=)
I recieved a letter from my granddaughter yesterday.It's the happiest thing i posses here in australia.=)
NIKITA!!!...deng your head la..call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or somebody gonna getta hurt real bad...somebody...could be anybody..i'm not telling you..but you might know her really well..
by the way,what are you wearing baby?
HAHAHAHAHAHA <-----------see this paragraph? I am fine..
P.S.: If i ever commit suicide,I will shoot myself in my mouth with a shotgun.
Friday, February 03, 2006
poet
I have found the Malaysian version of Chairil Anwar.
Akmal Khatim
1987-2029
This man in my pic...
He is Chairil Anwar of Malaysia.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
aku
hahaha...
chairil anwar....poet extrodinaire..
serious..indonesian guy..
kak yung said that he was a poet who lived to watch the girl he loved marry somebody else,and died watching her do that...
pity him la....he died when he was twenty seven years old...
goodness...i thought i was alone....
I am going to make chairil anwar the name of my bands first album..
I've got a few songs worth recording la..I need you guys to write as well...
Mr.Anwar will be our hero...
It seems that his greatest poem was named AKU...it means ME in malay and indonesian..
Today there was problems in latha ma's household...and I was the reason..I feel like a blood traitor...and you guys know what?
She made this statement when she was talking to me..
"I've got three children,Nikita,Vasanth and Danush"
those words pierced my heart..and it still hurts..
I cannot afford to be a problem to their lives.
She realy loves me.She also called me during lunch to check if i was alright,
those boys were making fun and she made a statement that she was my mother..
Danush=Blood Traitor
chairil anwar....poet extrodinaire..
serious..indonesian guy..
kak yung said that he was a poet who lived to watch the girl he loved marry somebody else,and died watching her do that...
pity him la....he died when he was twenty seven years old...
goodness...i thought i was alone....
I am going to make chairil anwar the name of my bands first album..
I've got a few songs worth recording la..I need you guys to write as well...
Mr.Anwar will be our hero...
It seems that his greatest poem was named AKU...it means ME in malay and indonesian..
Today there was problems in latha ma's household...and I was the reason..I feel like a blood traitor...and you guys know what?
She made this statement when she was talking to me..
"I've got three children,Nikita,Vasanth and Danush"
those words pierced my heart..and it still hurts..
I cannot afford to be a problem to their lives.
She realy loves me.She also called me during lunch to check if i was alright,
those boys were making fun and she made a statement that she was my mother..
Danush=Blood Traitor
GOD HAS COME BACK
GOD is back...Serious...all of you people out there.. GOD is back...
i am not lying..He is back..
LIVERPOOL..the number 11 jersey...hahah...It belongs to GOD...
OUR scouser..
OUR Robbie..
OUR spice boy
OUR Fowler
OUR GOD
HAHAHAH..i really cannot belive it la..He really is back with us..a dream coem true...Just can't wait for owen to return to us..and when he does..imagine Stevo macca coming home..and King Kenny..and...enough..i'm exagerating...haihs...I wish crazy horse(emlyn hughes) was alive....
Imagine if Shanks was alive..goodness...All of them would be so proud...
I am doing a research on an indonesian poet..His name was Chairil Anwar..
i am not lying..He is back..
LIVERPOOL..the number 11 jersey...hahah...It belongs to GOD...
OUR scouser..
OUR Robbie..
OUR spice boy
OUR Fowler
OUR GOD
HAHAHAH..i really cannot belive it la..He really is back with us..a dream coem true...Just can't wait for owen to return to us..and when he does..imagine Stevo macca coming home..and King Kenny..and...enough..i'm exagerating...haihs...I wish crazy horse(emlyn hughes) was alive....
Imagine if Shanks was alive..goodness...All of them would be so proud...
I am doing a research on an indonesian poet..His name was Chairil Anwar..
konek ted to your postings la sid..
sidek..=) cake...i will survive..
oie sidek..get my blog adress from almu..the secret one..ahahah...by blogging this,it's existense is not a secret anymore..
but yeah..check it out la..
i connect with your latest post..
one day...they'll come running back to us la man..
oie sidek..get my blog adress from almu..the secret one..ahahah...by blogging this,it's existense is not a secret anymore..
but yeah..check it out la..
i connect with your latest post..
one day...they'll come running back to us la man..
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
yellow pages..
somebody recommended profesional help to me...
haihs..i've come to that point...stupid la...
there's this song which was playing today...i connected to it like nobody's business...
I got emo like shit..from today onwards,I won't tell anyone if i emo..
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my kneesFind a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of meInside me
Yeah, inside meInside of me
I’m only a manIn a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream
I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy,
hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...
Its not easy to be me
babi la...
i feel like a yellow pages book..(come and use me when you need something done)
FUCK all you yellow pages users out there..
see...i used the word FUCK..i don't care who i disappoint by using that..
my first step to freeing myself from the yellow pages syndrome..
FUCK all of you..
TRIPOD....
tse kai..thanks man..prussy..thanks for the recipe..
haihs..i've come to that point...stupid la...
there's this song which was playing today...i connected to it like nobody's business...
I got emo like shit..from today onwards,I won't tell anyone if i emo..
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my kneesFind a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of meInside me
Yeah, inside meInside of me
I’m only a manIn a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream
I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy,
hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...
Its not easy to be me
babi la...
i feel like a yellow pages book..(come and use me when you need something done)
FUCK all you yellow pages users out there..
see...i used the word FUCK..i don't care who i disappoint by using that..
my first step to freeing myself from the yellow pages syndrome..
FUCK all of you..
TRIPOD....
tse kai..thanks man..prussy..thanks for the recipe..
knnbccb,mch,tnmccb
oie almu..relax man....indeed it would have been so different...
i want to go back to school la..I've never felt more secure anywhere else...nobody would hurt me there..well..almost nobody but for the pricipal's cane...hahahahahahah
I miss all those classes with Pn. Laila and Pn,Ruwaidah..ahahah and ah lian as well..but i miss ramani and mrs.Yap the most la...
well...ramani warned me of this a long long time ago la..that people in the outside world will never treat me the same way as people in school do....but wrong la..there's oen person ...latha ma...serious wei..she's got yi hei like you people la..
babi la..people make me feel unneeded and unwanted la..it's like no matter what i say or do for them,it's never enough...they either want more from me...or they look to someone else to give them better...
and i get jealous and depressed over this...babi la..I am too possesive over my friends...
almu and sid...when we get another guitarist for the band,we'll be a Fucking quadripod!!!
Hahaahha ..i love that movie la..
almu...i honestly,really hate this place la...i really really wish i was home...
things will be so fine there..aku rindukan hidup aku...hidup aku yang bukan emo..
i want to go driving in the satria gti(pam) and the beetle(sheila) again..
screw myself for bloody coming here la..should have just gone to freaking india or done that shit s.a.t.s and go u.s. la...
knnbccb,mch,tnmccb..wtf,omg,bbq,sms,jpj,lol,tnm,hkl,hkc,....
i want to go back to school la..I've never felt more secure anywhere else...nobody would hurt me there..well..almost nobody but for the pricipal's cane...hahahahahahah
I miss all those classes with Pn. Laila and Pn,Ruwaidah..ahahah and ah lian as well..but i miss ramani and mrs.Yap the most la...
well...ramani warned me of this a long long time ago la..that people in the outside world will never treat me the same way as people in school do....but wrong la..there's oen person ...latha ma...serious wei..she's got yi hei like you people la..
babi la..people make me feel unneeded and unwanted la..it's like no matter what i say or do for them,it's never enough...they either want more from me...or they look to someone else to give them better...
and i get jealous and depressed over this...babi la..I am too possesive over my friends...
almu and sid...when we get another guitarist for the band,we'll be a Fucking quadripod!!!
Hahaahha ..i love that movie la..
almu...i honestly,really hate this place la...i really really wish i was home...
things will be so fine there..aku rindukan hidup aku...hidup aku yang bukan emo..
i want to go driving in the satria gti(pam) and the beetle(sheila) again..
screw myself for bloody coming here la..should have just gone to freaking india or done that shit s.a.t.s and go u.s. la...
knnbccb,mch,tnmccb..wtf,omg,bbq,sms,jpj,lol,tnm,hkl,hkc,....
sum ting wong...
last night i slept at 11...i woke up at 3 o clock in the morning...i don't know why...but the moment i woke up,something was telling me that things were going to be so wrong...i don't know...something in me tells me that aku akan dihampakan way beyond what i've ever experienced before...stupid la...I hate this la...i don't know how much i can take...haihs....
sidek posted something about why people aren't grateful for what comes to them but tend to take all those things for granted and go on to look for better things..haihs..
My chest hurts la...the air here is dead thin..I've taken more ventolin shots from my inhaler than i ever did in malaysia..
there's once bila aku dihampakan,i don't know what happened la..I just stood up speechless..and loads of memories and hopes about the future went flashing through my mind...that was the one time when you guys wouldn't have believed it was me...stupid la...i was dead quiet...and i had this horrible feeling in me..i felt that i was useless...and i kept on being quiet for the next few hours...ahaha..i really felt useless and unneeded..felt like i was "a peice of paper which had been written on and crumpled and thrown away by a security guard after using it to wipe his ass"....quoted from almu....but yeah..i was killing myself with that silence...or more like that silence was kiling me..don't know la..but yeah...that's the worst so far..
but like i said the F=ma tells me that it will be even more horrid soon..
but that doesn't matter...because the FUcking Tripod will still stand.=))))))
i love you guys la...almu,things would be so different if we didn't meet on the first day of school...hahahah..by the way almu..call my mom before oyu ship those things...she's got somethign to give to you..thanks man..
Screw Posers....emo for life la huh sid?
THE FUCKING TRIPOD STANDS!
=/ will i be able to take it...? i mean the tripod might be bent and bent..and still stand...but will i be able to take the bends?...i doubt myself...
p.s.: ahhaha..that day latha ma mouth fed me..rice with puli inji..NYAHAHAHAHAHAH...prussy..=)
sidek posted something about why people aren't grateful for what comes to them but tend to take all those things for granted and go on to look for better things..haihs..
My chest hurts la...the air here is dead thin..I've taken more ventolin shots from my inhaler than i ever did in malaysia..
there's once bila aku dihampakan,i don't know what happened la..I just stood up speechless..and loads of memories and hopes about the future went flashing through my mind...that was the one time when you guys wouldn't have believed it was me...stupid la...i was dead quiet...and i had this horrible feeling in me..i felt that i was useless...and i kept on being quiet for the next few hours...ahaha..i really felt useless and unneeded..felt like i was "a peice of paper which had been written on and crumpled and thrown away by a security guard after using it to wipe his ass"....quoted from almu....but yeah..i was killing myself with that silence...or more like that silence was kiling me..don't know la..but yeah...that's the worst so far..
but like i said the F=ma tells me that it will be even more horrid soon..
but that doesn't matter...because the FUcking Tripod will still stand.=))))))
i love you guys la...almu,things would be so different if we didn't meet on the first day of school...hahahah..by the way almu..call my mom before oyu ship those things...she's got somethign to give to you..thanks man..
Screw Posers....emo for life la huh sid?
THE FUCKING TRIPOD STANDS!
=/ will i be able to take it...? i mean the tripod might be bent and bent..and still stand...but will i be able to take the bends?...i doubt myself...
p.s.: ahhaha..that day latha ma mouth fed me..rice with puli inji..NYAHAHAHAHAHAH...prussy..=)
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)