Danushness.

Today rocked.Below are the reasons why.

1.Mom,dad and I went out to town.We haven't done that in years.See,dad and i aren't really
on speaking terms eversince my pmr results.

2.Gwen called me.Asked me to help with her moving.

3.I met the best guy in the world la.Andrew!!Hehe..he rocks big big time.Hehe.


Well,anyway,Helped at gwen's place.Deng la.DOn't want to complain but I think I spoilt my right hand even more.I can't seem to even do simple jobs with it.
I got my second going away present.It was from michelle.YEAH...BOTH MY GOING AWAY PRESENTS CAME FROM ASSUNTARIANS!....Yeah...Sister Enda instilled some good values in them.=)

Had dinner with gwen's family and friends.

Chun la.I ate vegetables again.Haha..I ate more veges than meat today.=)
I met some really "special" people.heheh.=) nice people la..

Also today I was told off for using my mobile phone for random photo shots.

hehe..deng la..My bad...I am going to quit random photography.Haihs...My hobby.

well I reached home around 10 p.m.

now transfering things to my comp from my mobile phone and vice versa.

I am going to miss all of them.Alot.

Usia Dewasa mengajar erti cinta kepada aku

Everything is happening too fast.

Esther's gone,Ziling isn't here..Same as boon.

She doesn't seem to care anymore.Note I said seem.It means I am assuming.

SCREW yellowcard.Support the Local Music Scene.

ATAS NAMA CINTA-FLOP POPPY

Haha.I was expecting a poem last night.Crap la.It didn't come.Waited in vain.

By the way,I slept at 5:08 a.m.

Atas name cinta,Terlahir aku,Melihat Dunia.
Demi jiwa,Ruang Batinku,Kau adalah,Pendamping Jiwaku.

I see something theological in that song.

We don't talk like we used to.After the outing,things just changed.
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Kerina made it clear to al-mu that I am not wanted around.

*Kerina is al-mu's girlfriend.

Crap man.I seriously can't get along with girls.

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Nirvana played a few CHRISTIAN songs.So people,please don't judge them.I mean if you consider other bands christian bands because they play christian songs.Then,I guess Nirvana qualifies as a christian band.

By the way..I made this enquiry into them because Gwen told me her interpretation of one of their songs.
Anyway,Judgement is solely personal.So I guess I have no right to judge or agree to judgement.

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By the way,

Al-mu and Sidek and Joanna Choo(Fatty Jo)..
want to tell you people that she doesn't call me or sms me anymore.
It's saddening la.

*Excerpt of someone else's blog.(Gwen's)*

lovesounds fragile to me yet warm
sometimes i'm afraid of it
to love is to give ones heart to another
if your heart have been ripped before there will
always be a memory left behind
same here ,i hear ppl say tht u shouldn't put
all ur eggs into one basket
partially sometimes i wish i could hold on to tht
i tried caring for someone with a mighty effort
giving this person gifts and phone calls and
taking the extra mile to meet one another
i aspired for something in return probably a phone call or a
note show tht person is returnin my effort
but nophone calls were rare
aspiration to make the effort to meet me was not in existance
oh tears did strem down my eyes
but wht could be done,i would scream at times at the top of my lungs
but this wish could never be fulfilled
even writing this makes me feel empty
a sigh is all i could release,could i say tht best friends
are just rare to find or a close pal
yes i would say,when u find tht person u just click
like tht'if tht person is not the one
no matter wht things wouldn't work out especially if tht
person do not know how far u are going to expand tht friendship
its a wreakand tht person doesn't budge to make it happen
but through this experience i realise tht loving a person
takes the heart out of tht person

yeah,this exactly how I feel.I guess it sucks la.
I am not goign to update till i don't know when.I guess until things are settled
between that person and I.

I need to sleep. I don't want to wait for a stupid poem which isn't going to come anyway..
I guess waiting for it would be like Dumbledore said:"Being optimistic to the point of stupidity"
nice words of an old man.

Lovely LAdy Lumps...

Heheh...these picture are of

Dayana's LOVELY LADY LUMPS!


I HATE THE BLACK EYED PEAS....HIP HOP SUCKS..

TAIPING...

Haihs...

The dreaded hour draws closer.
I have to face it and learn to be content ..that's what she told me..
Last night It hit me.It hit me real hard.I'll not get to see the whole of esther's family for a very very long time.I've already begun to miss them.

Last night She called me and asked me to sleep.Hehe.She even read me a poem.Hehe.I slept by 1:38 a.m. ! New record.She rocks.( I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ESTHER,ESTHER IS IN TAIPING;I HATE TAIPING.)

I need to see prussy before I leave.Need for him to tell me something.

I've been listening to super sad songs.

1.Right here waiting by Richard Marx
2.Jet Plane by John Denver
3.I was only joking by Rod Stewart.
4.Tears in Heaven By Eric Clapton.
5.City of Blinding Lights by U2

They rock.

I cannot tell her.
I've no balls...


ESTHER!! IF YOU ARE READING THIS AR? JUS TO LET YOU KNOW....I MISS ELYSSE!!!!!!


p.s.:Esther better take care of my self proclaimed darling(elyse)...when ic ome back..i take elysse around everywhere..sayang her...=)...why did you people all have to go to taiping...



Melancholic....

this life is more than ordinary so please go write your message on the pavement

I went to HELP UC today..Attended their cf. I think the speaker was a certain Dr.Goh.He was superb la...but I was too tired...haha..Met loads of new people...Jeremy...hahah..super cute la he...

I spent first two hours after noon with esther..haha..today is the last day I get to see her before I leave.

After that,Tse Kai and I went to Mega Mall...hahah..One Hour of pool and mc donalds was chun and a little bit of Roald (Ronald Ram) Dahl in MPH.During tea,he said that he could count the number of things I LIKED with his fingers.

1.Chicken Breast.
2.Milo
3.Chinese Tea
4.Spunky
5.Mid Valley Mega Mall
6.School

Haha...He is psychic la...Well I guess there really is only a few things in this world which I like huh?

Haha..I will miss esther by the cartloads...Little Elysse looked so pretty today...I will miss that little girl a whole load as well...Haihs.

I give love a bad name.

I leave in one week.Get It? One crazy week.

I have so much to say,so much to do yet I have so little time.

I couldn't even speak to her properly on the phone a while ago.Deng.

Shen told me something.She said I am unforgetable.She said I've left a legacy.I am extremely depressed.I really don't know what to do.Eleven months has passed so fast.Yet the clowns make fun of me.They don't know how hard it is to leave.I mean,It's good thing that I've been delaying.But the always made fun of me.Supid.It hurts to see your friends laughing at you when the reason you are doing something is them.

No matter how fun or joyful this posting looks,I am really really depressed.


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From the Earth to the Grave.

I have to go on with life.

No matter who or what I leave behind.

Good memories I cherish and Bad ones I keep.


I am going to take some time out for myself.Spend some time alone.
I am also going to channel my melancholy to God.He'll know how to solve it.Duh...He is God.
I will spend more time with my family than friends.
I will tell her how things are going.

I WILL take my testimonials from school.

I guess I'll try my best to spend more time with her as well.
Definitely most of my time will be used for taking my self out of the picture of my Malaysian life.

Australia is something I have to look forward to.I have a bigger chance at serving the Lord in better ways.


I was telling Doulos about my worship sessions with shen via the phone.


Someone made my day by stating something which i thought nobody ever noticed.Someone cared for me before I was born again.It's nice to know that.

Thanks Mate.

All I taste is your sweetness.

I've been contemplating on things.I guess I really have to go this time.

There is absolutely no way i can blow any amount of water and delay my departure.

I hate australia.I hate everything Aussie.Screw the "knnbccb" out of Australia.


I was talking to tse kai.Deng la. He says it's my fault.Screw my fault la.I miss her company.I miss it alot la
and i find it so hard to face the fact that i will be leaving in nine days.the fact that I will no tbe able to see
her again.Well, at least for a year.

Seriously Shen,I think you know who I am talking about.


I technically taught Shen how to tie a saree a few hours ago.

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When I become a daddy,I cannot say that I don't want to eat vegetables because I don't like them.
I guess I am going to start eating vegetables.

=)

Mother could not believe it when I told her this.

She knows something has happened.She want to know what happened.


* I recieved my FIRST goign away present.It came from JOANNE CHAN of ASSUNTA via poslaju.

A T-SHIRT!

< " " >


I need some really deep sleep.

There is a luncheon at school tomorrow.I don't know if I can face the people there.

I am listening to the most beautiful guitar solo in the world.It is played in "name" by the Goo Goo Dolls.


It is too peaceful and soothing.


Somebody love me.

Hupernikao

Hello.

It's me.Being my usual self.

which is usually

1.Morbid
2.Hungry
3.Fat.Yes,Fat.
4.Melancholic.


I am in front of the computer blogging.By the way last night i was chatting with a few of my old friends.They were surprised to know that I have renounced the old ways.Hacking and Spoofing.Haha.I miss those days.I remember boon kwang and kwan shian.One of the first few victims of my friends and I.

Old habits die hard.There is a song to that saying.It's sung by Sir Mick Jagger of The Rolling Stones.
Indeed they do.I love eating bread with butter and sugar.I've been eating it that way since I can ever remember.

Someone said that there are flowery words on my blog.Haha...She was wrong I guess.
flowery words would most probably sound like:

1.Hibiscus
2.Orchids
3.Jasmine


Haha.that is extremely lame.
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I was read jiameei's blog.Goodness,so many new words la.All of them obscene.Haha.Yet they sound so pleasant.It's hard for me to determine if she is racist or not.

One word la.

Giler-LAH!

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I learnt a new hebrew word.

Hupernikao.

It means to be more than a conquerer.


=)

Nice la.

The best of you.

New look.

That's all.

Period.

My foot la.

Lol. I love the "lah" in us malaysians.

Hehe.I am so going to miss the people I love here.Prusoth hasn't got a job yet.That means I am leaving before he gets a job.Haha!!

I win!

I am emo. Haha. Something i heard from someone.

It's almost impossible to find someone whom you can "click" with.
I beg to differ on that.It's you who decides whether you can click with that person.

I haven't transfered my photographs from my phone to my p.c.
Great photo in it.Haha...some just blew my hats off while i laugh....

By the way...somethign extremely remarkable happened.


Scene: Tepanyakki Restaurant Times Square.

Time : 3:15 p.m.

Event : I ate almost all the vegetables which were served with my dish of chicken and rice.

Comments : Wow! Mom would cry blood if she saw me eating all that vegetables.


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We can all sleep sound tonight.I am not crazy or anything.I love the transformers.My friend who
will not earn big bucks in the future is going to borrow RM 3800 from me and buy me that
Optimus Prime. Wah! Chun la! I love her.


I in return will buy her a set of FEATHER Green and Blue earings .


SePahnKee =) Spunky and Funky.

I learnt a new word.Saw it on Jiaamei's blog.

It is ********************** .Very Obscene.

Nites. I am bored.
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This is an edit.

I cannot sleep.

Somebody help me.

Someone told me that i should not phone someone on a daily basis.I will lose the enthusiasm.Haha.
She wants to be a teacher.An english and bible knowledge teacher.Wow.I admire the simplicity of her ambitions.But I guess it seems simple only to me.Yet,it is as important to her as my destiny is to me.

Destiny.....

That is one subject about me that i have been contemplating on for the past few months.
I really didn't know what to do with myself at first but the Lord has been revealing things to me.So,yes.I am taking His word for everything la.I bet things are going to turn out real fine.

Psalms 91 again. It rocks. The Best of the Pslams!

This is Little Elysse.She's grown so much now.I will miss her dearly.She has got to be the best darlign anyoen can ever have in the world.

my first malay post.

Sering kali ku merasakan segala yang dilakukan oleh aku tidak mampu
untuk memuaskan kehendak diriku yang sebenarnya.

Kadang kala aku memikirkan nasib ku..Sama ada mungkin ia berbeza jika perbuatan aku di masa lampau dapat dielakkan.Tetapi tidak!Aku tidak sanggup mengubah walau satu pun perbuatan aku.Aku bangga dengan kedudukan aku sekarang.

Aku bangga.

The Vicar of Nibbleswicke.

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight.


stupid verse..

Today i went out to times square with spunky.Was superb la...especially the Roald Dahl part of today's outing.

I took loads of pictures.The best one was a picture of C.S. Lewis.

Hahahaha.

Face it Head on.

Is someone getting the best of you.


Well,they were but as of today, no more.

I choose to give my all to Myself. =)


I don't have to love people and to be loved by people as well..

but that verse...about one laying down his life for a friend and that there is no greater love than that....

deng...


I am free and alone ..all for the takign by myself.

I am happy the way I am.

=)

Ratup.

As possible as it seems,
Life can never be learnt,
Energy can never be wasted,
Nor can love be written.

It's like a yacht,trying it's best to stop,
when the winds are at full speed.
Like a mule trying to outrun a mare.
Like children keeping quiet.

Why try to fathom and learn?
I'd rather live and fulfill.
Why is it that fat is ugly,
and thin is beautiful.

Living is only a waste of death I guess,
or maybe death is just a waste of life.
I'll never know,
For living is just the beginning of LIFE.

Ong Kong Kong.

been thinking more than i usually do.


what does it mean to be a christian?

I don't know la...but i think it is living by the word of God. I guess if one lives a life which is approved by the Bible, that makes him a christian..
But contradictively,Sining is allowed.Only because we are human and we are the born with sin.
haihs...don't know la... but i will try my best...I want to be honest. Until last week,I hadn't talk to God for weeks.i hadn't erad my Bible for weeks as well...I felt so hypocritical....and yeah...i felt i didn't deserve the love of God...but unlike pastor micheal spencer ,I had people to guide me. Shen and evelyn's godsister. =) haha...thanks people..for actually bringing the word of God to me..For showing me His love through your life. =)

For assuring me that God does not ever leave us,It's just us humans who leave God thinking we're better off on ourselves.

I remember reading a verse that goes something like

"When God is with us,Who else can be against us?"


May the love of God find you people..

I've been recollecting the memories i have of Mr.Alex Ong's preaching...It scares me to think that he said the world will end in the year 2008...i mean considerign all the calamities taking place now..

gwen not funny..as in gwen stefani...stupid afiq and his bozoness

wooooo...today was chun...I am sick...

Note...i am statign i am sick only to prove that God will make me healthy again =)

heheheh..yesterday cun la....got hold of a virago 250 cc...then rode to gwenhouse to deliver some things to her.

Gwen: wow!!..that is chun man..
Me: i know...wahah
Gwen: I cant belive you actualy came..
Me:...wahahh..


ahahahah..we had nasi kandar at pelita in bangsar..(The Band)was cun..
then we drove home..
Today was really boring.... I learnt this.. Worship isn't only about
feeling..It's about commitment to God..Just because you don't feel His presence..
doesn't mean you don't have to worship....or that He isn't with you..

Tomorrow either goign times square or midvalley...gilernesity la... If go times square chun la...

can go to the xl and the other ty shop there...i want to oogle at the OPTIMUS PRIME!!!!!.....TRANSFORMERS!! ROBOTS IN DISGUISE!!!




gilernesity....wahhahahaahah

i've been mms-ing liek crazy this past few days...tak pernah send mms before these few days..wahahahwhaha


i need sleep...and yesterday was the first time i slept before two o clock in months la...!!!!!..giler..i suddenly like sleeping la..


yapsterr rocks..wahhah

Gwenesity

Michelle's Fork. =) I am sure mom is proud that her fork is published on the internet....




Michelle enjoying her maggi goreng which tasted horrible...I tasted it too...ahahah...We were mamak-ing at her house..ahhahaha =)



Michelle trying deperately to look for a way out..It was three minutes past her curfew...one hour and three minutes past mine...hahaha



She finally gets out...haihs...too late...so i stayed at al-mu's place....ahhahahahaha...=)...

was cun la...

Vision One Million. GRAB YOUR SEAT!!!

Planet Shakers...I was supposed to go on thursday..but i was reluctant..and mom did not allow me too..Michelle didn't go either.So we went yesterday on friday..I still did not want to go...but michelle was afan..and she was disappointed on thursday night...sO i decided to go...ahahha

She drove me there...we almost Got hit by an uncle in this iswara...hehe..We survived it..cos like DUH right...God is not goign to let two people on their way to worship Him die in a road accident..

I met loads of people..People from all over the world came together for one reason...

Worship LAH!

I met the s.b.u. gang,rahcel of assunta,daniel yapster,amy(eunice's and lester's friend) and agung with his permaisuri. =)

It was wonderful,And the woship was awesome la.


Hunger lah.. HUNGER LA MATE.=)


hehe =)...I heard that sermon before la..i think at the night of fire thing...
hehehe.

the drummer was cun la..he face like real syoking menoking when he drums....Like he is playing for someone cool...Duh right?..he is playing fo rosm eone cool..coolest of the cool people... Jesus Christ...hehehe

Michelle and i sat on the floor in front.=)...the whole time...and we hung aroudn outside for half an hour because she wanted to buy a t-shirt...heheh...she forgot to buy one for evelyn..heheehe =)

had funs la..I bet when i go to heaven..The fun there will be loads more...

Michelle can drive la..Wahahhahahahahhahahaha...much better than me...

Her brother looks so innocent la..should enrol hm in the innocent club...heheheh

..signing off la...need to go to toilet...=)

byes ...

oh yeah..

Next time...whatever it is..I'll give my precious.=)

My mind..

Your Brain Usage Profile:
Auditory : 46%
Visual : 53%
Left : 66%
Right : 33%
danush, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.

Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.

Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.

Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.

You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."

With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.

Amenesity...

wah..it's ten past three in the morning...i finished talking with gwen(michelle) a few minutes ago...

we shared so much..and realised that the reason we can communicate is because of our similiarities in character.....=) we had a reall really long chat....hahaha..i told her about apryl...WAHAHAHAHAAH....she knows apryl...

We prayed for each other's needs before we ended...hahahaha..she the cuteness la...



Quiet time rocks la...hehehehehe....


I just wanted to blog this one word actually..



JESUS ..... One Drop is all it took...

He DIED for you...why not LIVE for Him.........



A few people have made me so so proud in the past few days...It's about time i make people proud as well..peay ..thanks...=)

Tired and torn in the inside as well as the outside.

screw all the ffk-ers....


i realised something yesterday...

tse kai told me peay wanted to ffk me..if esther was not coming...theni told him biasala....

and i realised...only three people hang out with me because of me....
the rest of them only hang out because of the people around me...dengness....they amke stupid conditions like *i'll come if he or she comes*

kestupiditynesity la........I hate that... really really hate it...penegasan on the HATE...

by the way...that three people are al-mu,tsick and ben...love them for that la...


say you,say me...nice song...except for the bridge...i think it is stupid..

i think everything is stupid...


ishh...feel damn like one kind la....dengnesity la...


screw everything...really feel like...RAGE......!!!...taking over......NOOO...

nothign la..it's just a battle inside me to let my rage out..


guess what??


I did let it out....My hand hurts...(kept punching the computer monitor..)



screw it...I feel damn one kind la....


haha...all my diwali money..spent on things i am not using...food for people..petrol money for people..fireworks for people...and that stupid fireflies trip...I am not even going...babi ness la...
I freaking hate life la..I freaking hate it....a whole damn lot....


I wan to sleeeeep....sleep for so long that i forget everything about life....
wake up like a newborn....then it will be good...I will know what to do...=)

Dr.Phil

....for you i'll bleed myself dry...superb verse la..chris martin is nice la.


by the way....to Gorri,Prussy and Chin Heng...this is concerning the discussion of the six walls...

of those people all ,i'd say esther and suan lin. =)...yeah fellas..they outshine the erst of the names la... get what i mean...if you don't don't worry...this saturday we will have this six wall discussion again...

..diwali was great man..I invited peopel for the open house mom was having..cun la...
I didn't celebrate though.(I have my reasons)

i am currently multitasking eating my dinner with one hand while i type with another....

hungry la..

i am losing weight like nobody's business....

Jumpa suan,lupa makan....hahahah