there's more to me than you'll ever know

the guitar is my outlet of sorrow la....i's like everytime i feel sad..i pick her up..(my guitar)
and i just play riffs...spontaneously...and everythign is let out....my tears just fall down on her and she absorbs every single sad thought out of me...i guess if she was broken in two ,you'd see every sad thing i have ever experienced come out of her...like Pandora's Box or something like that..


Emerson isn't the only one going through dad problems la...i've been dealing with it for a long long time la..

So amny people are leaving the world la..and so many of them do not know the Lord yet..haihs..
Just for one day i wish i could disappear la....and just hide from all this stupid things la..

I currently am losing weight la..need to get my body fit in time for world cup next year..No point watching it without a fit body...hehe...nice lerr?..people getting fit to play in the world cup...i am getting fit to watch it...hehe..

i love the twins la...wei-i and wei-li...this whole sentence is in tribute to the both of you..

*TRIBUTE*

hehe...


doulos asked me to blog something...

hahahah.about myself...me going through some infatuation crisis la...but no..i don't feel depressed or anyhtig lie emerson thought....Liek shaun told me....we people are enjoying our single life..and every once in a while...infatuation comes along...it is normal right ..i mean to liek someone....but you get branded desperate for it..my foot la...honestly..until today..i've only told one person about how i felt about her....taht means one out of four.....hehehe..
real mendengkan la...hehe...

but no la..nothign..i am fine...unlike emerson..i repeat EMERSON...i am not a SUCCUMBER to relationships...wahahah...note..i said Emerson...heheh...bro call me la one of these days...that day i walked to giftshoppe jaya to look for you....then you left for home early la..haihs...=(...i miss you la bro...really love you loads man...tell me anything you need to tell okay?



well...i nak get b ack to chatting la..so that's all la..

If he's christian i will la danush....

God Rocks la..what else....


I was talking to shen...then i was telling about the things i owe people...two guitars..a b.m.w. car...a t610 handphone...and a few hotwheels cars...
then shen told me i owe people many thigns...she said that i can owe her somethign too...i asked her what that was..and she said his name........


hahahaha...


before i hung up right....she told me *danush,since you are restraining for talking about her..I guess i will restraing from talking about him also*.....cun la she..

relationships...everyone seems to be succumbing to them...well not everyone la...peay pei told me something about yanjie today...I was kind of surprised la..Gwen told me something about relationships too..super proud of her la..



The King will be coming real soon la...I really hope He does...So much will be done by Him la...dengness la now..it's liek everyone is doing things according to their suka suki....succumbing to a concept of societic intergration and domination call culture....bodoh betul la..

but...loads of people are changing for the better too...i've seen so many things this past one week...people whom i've never known to stand up for themselves are even stading up against the opressions of others...it brings joy to know that there are such people la..

I am trying my best to write my best music yet....haihs...deng la...i've got no motivation...no inspiration...I find it really hard la...adui...

won't anybody stand out and give me soem inspiration or motivatin to ask for the least....






by the way...i'd rather he love God than he be christian..
just look at apryl la...

Hor Peay Ram,Mar Yaep Roh..... *insert gigling by chin heng*

hehe....semangated la....

sum 41 is so influencial..unfortunately....they suck at being original...most of their lyrics are somehow strongly influenced by old songs...

I haven't had my milo yet.... what a waste...I am considering takng sarsi instead of milo tonight....

I haven't been speaking to anybody on the phone lately...deng la...why is it nobody's calls or sms' me ar....babi betul la....


some say we are b etter off without knowing what life is all about...

think you before you make up your mind,you don't seem to realise...I could do this on my own...

but...if i fall....will you be there for me?...cos i don't plan on catching myself after i fall la...

A few hours ago...I was at this mackers store...and the window was foggy..and erm....i spontaneously wrote a name on the window...but..stupid la...I just watched it fade away..If only things were easy as that....

you know what people...SCREW IT la....screw what you ask?
Dunno la...just like saying that word....influenced by peay pei...stupid c3p0...


I AM THE GREATEST FOOTBALL ANNOUNCER IN MBS...hahahahaha....

school is going to close...I am so going to miss the place la..all the people ....all the spots in it..



hahaha...I'd make a good delivery boy for school text books...especially accounts and mathematics books...

I am really sleepy la...
gooDnight people...



PEAY LEI <------tsick said this is peay pei's sister's name...Wahahaha...i wanted to tell him pei lei..but i misspelt it...so tertulis peay lei...Wahahahha

TAK NAK!!

hey there people....haven't updated in a while...i think it is largely due to the fact that too many people are born in october....deng la..I am broke the most in october...

we(the family),have been going on a wholeload of family outings lately..we're haing a great time la..even the gombak people are following the family...DUH...they are in the family after all...

our family pets have been around us alot too..

1.C3PO(peay pei whom also is my confidential daughter)
2.R2D2(galvin)
3.Chewbacca(Serene)

hehehe...those mentioned above are the pets of the family..serene is the wookie pet...galvin is the startship repair droid animal and peay pei is daddy's pet....hehehhehe...=) a nice way of putting it right peay pei?


boon and ziling are fine i guess....rosie is waiting for the new year to start so that she can fall in love with some other guy...
peay pei can't wait to show of her power as a prefect....

ei peay..dun worry la.. God la...you're workign for him...not any convention comitee..or all that crap things...


I've been melancholic for the past few weeks..i've been wanting things and all...but by the time i actually obtain what i want..i realise i can live without those things...and i choose not to make use of those things....

My phone rocks la....so does my new football boots...yeay...thanks to my mom and dad la..they rock too...God rocks teh most always...

and screw all those people who have a prejudice against worldly music....screw kau you man...who are you to judge what is worldly music..SCREW KAU YOU AGAIN....


I expect those people whom are born to christians to be an example to the new believers....but crap la...It's disappointing at times la...
take shen for example la...she puts more than half my christians born friends to shame la....

SHEN...thanks wei *beaming*

this weekend shen and the family will be goign out...heheheh...=))


we rock la..


we will set an example...

we will live and afterlive as well =)
we're believers...



stir it up in our hearts Lord...hehe..He rocks la..

peay pei and i have been friends since we were kids...ahahah..we use to play marbles together remember? heheheh...=)

boring la...

I want to have some milo...

and yeah...

I am proud of something i did.. ) I honored God.

Katakan TAK NAK to a Non christian...(as a companion to life that is..)

hehehe...God is proud too i guess..

DATE YOU!!

...today sucked la.. i woke up to go to soem stupid birthday lunch...had high bloody hopes...babi la..

then i reached there and yea...not one clown said goodday or hi...that's fine la...this one person never said anything to me until she wanted to borrow my phone...ishhh... really disappointing la...


hahaha...bodoh me..ranting and raving over things i cannot control.. well...a great big FUCK YOU to the thing i cannot control......i've been using that word too many times in my blog entries la..

I just formated my memory card...transfering a whole load of PORN into it...hahaha...joking la..it's totally empty...

I had lunch at 5 o clock today...I didn't have dinner last night because mom didn't cook...I was expecting dad to buy some food back but no...nooo...he had to come home at four in the morning...screw kau that la....


I was freakign hungry today...

Another great big FUCK YOU to everything that spoilt my lunch today......


well...happy FUCK YOU day to all of you....

post blog script: Fuck means to date...yes...to date..as in one boy and one girl going out together...yea.. that date.... Mrs' Ramani taught me that....

in the twist of seperation,you excel at being free..

It's a quarter past fiv in the morning...still haven't slept...haihs...i think i will call jolly in a few minutes...it's been ages since i've comunicated with her ...babi la... =)

forget alli'vesaid before la...because now somewhere in a corner of my mind,I am sure that i am celebrating glory...=)

sing me somethign soft,sad and delicate,loud and out key...sing me anything..

......Just finished talking with ziling...Wahahahaha....I somehow think her mother can't accept me due to the fact that I am Indian..wahahha...Man..I am being damn racist la..ahahah...wei ziling nothing wan..jangan terasa okay...ahahah.... Quote*You are becoming all I have sworn to fight* (star wars..Kenobi said that to anakin)

Ziling's daddy(ME) got raped...not literally by her FSTB(future suppose to be) Step mom...hahahhaha =))

zilign told me a story of her cousin...Her aunt gave birth when her cousin was fourteen years years old..and her cousin would share her mother's breast...Literally wei...the baby one side,the cousin one side....ahahahah...it seems the milk has no taste...It's just some sort of liquid which is in the perfect temperature...ahahah..( and I thought I was childish....)

geng or not?


this Sunday we have a surprise for rosie...her birthday...the whole gang has a surprise...hahahha...it's a very pinkish affair....all thanks to chai hsia....hahahahahahha


imagine this...A Toyota corolla hatchback,with a mitsubishi gsr turbo engine and a 55hp shot of nos... cun or not? can take on a skyline and wr-x la....wahhahaha....and that is only 55hp nos...imagine 110hp nos...giler la...emerson..it's okay if you don't understand this terms...

hey brother emerson...=) be cool..nothing can harm you physically or mentally if you choose for it to harm you...to trucks with expectation... I am glad as long as you live happily ,even if it means living for yourself. =) and if being my brother by birth is ever a burden to you.. just tell me.. we can be friends insted..=)

I am damned sticky la.. NOO...it's nt what you think la ziling...ishhh..horny betul la you...

Bapak Borek,Anak Rintih...ahahahhaah....Sweat la....Berpeluh...need a bath...haihs..

I want to suck breast milk also...Devan, or Jenhan...can ar?....well..i'll accept your breasts too meng kheng...but only when desperation knocks on my door...hahhahahah




ok la..want to shave,bathe and then pretend to sleep...hahahah=))

ZILING...if you comment...don't comment anonymously..tulis nama la


nights...

Jesus loves all the children in the world,,white ,black ,yellow, red or green....hahahha=))



she use to make me feel like i was someone...why is it i feel diferent now?

is it because of me?

Then i guess..I wasn't worthy of her

I realised that i really don't want God...but i cannot help it...i NEED Him...

Eloi.

here is go,so dishonestly leave a note,for you my only one.....babi wei...yes..that stupdi bangang,bahlul,bodoh,bohyan,babi,bingung song is still stuck in my head....it's been glued to my sub concious mind for the past few months la...as much as i love that song,I really hate it...haihs..



I just cleaned my room...wow...it looks good clean la..
well,yesterday i realised that i only have three weeks left in malaysia..but like i said,I am not ready to go...i have so much unfinished business...haihs...so much to tell people,so much to do,so many relationships to mend..I am trying my best to do them in this three weeks...

Hey Joanne,if you are reading this...I want you to know that i couldn't sms you because i had no credit...i left the shop by the time you replied...my parents stayed back..so cannot use my daddy's phone...

I need a haircut badly,I can almost feel the weight of my hair on my head...should i cut it or leave it to achieve my dream of the beatles hairstyle ar?....peay pei is planning a trip for the prefectorial board to pangkor island...hahaha...good luck peay pei...
By the way...wahahha..i am going to marry peay pei because her NS friend is pretty....goodness....does that even make any sense ar?...haihs....=S Peay pei likes HORNY bananas....ahahhahahah...


My band should be recordign our album in this three weeks..a whoelload of music writtign and composing has been going on this past few weeks....and it's about time we come up with some productivity la....



right now,i need some sleep...haihs...

hehehe..today i went to gym before dinner...mak oi...sakit la my chest..damn sakit...haihs...what to do...mei gwen said she will only call me "boobs" if i go to the gym....hahahahhaha...



Bubbling and Boobs Aeronauticals...Nice eh lee ven? hahahahahaha


TOYOTA SPRINTER TRUENO AE86!!!

sucks la....Satria gti better than it la....I might be buying a satria gti in aussie instead...cos the satrias there use the mitsubishi turbo gsr engines la...real geng la....=)))


Goodnight..esther...not everyone behaves the same way as everyone else on public transport...

Post blog Script..:Esther...my grandfather is 73 years old...and guess what....he is not and exhibitionist and he is Filthy rich wei....WAhahah..interested.??.....currently he is in hospital...due to lung failure..he was admitted again last week...so he fulfils your criterias...


Rich!! Old!! Dying!! ......If anyhtign happens to him...i will be real sad la..he is the bestest best grandpa in the whole wide world la..


goodnight...=)

by the way...alvin..I dont care...wahahahaha


danush: *Screams Blasphemy* *screams and rips open chest clothing**spits on alvin's face**slaps alvin*


ahhaha..that's a somethign like the scene from passion of the Christ...hahhaha

wahahahha...

Migration Epitaphs

They say music can alter moods...

hahha..quite true i think...check out church la..music..,and how melancholic we can get when we listen to that one song that pierces through us....


crap la...having trouble plannign my farewell party,everyone going places...need to choose one nice date la..


ROsie,will be leavign for china,Tsick for penang....haihs...your cousin no other time to get married ar?

Anyway... I'll be leaving in exactly three weeks la..cannot bull my parents anymore la..
But,I am not ready la...just not ready at all..haihs...

I will be takign my cards,My guitar picks,my phone,my clothes,my self and my dreams with me..

My heart will be left behind...I'd rather stay with The Family la..


and i won't be able to see rosie before i leave..nor will i get to see james..haihs...
Curse China...


scars are souveniours we never lose,both physical and mental ones..

will things be the same when i come back..all my relationships...will i be able to mend my relationships before i leave as well?

esther,alvin,jian fai,amelia...haihs...

I don't know why people find it so hard to forgive and forget...

Will I ever have breakfast on a saturday morning again?

I'll never see my guitar for a long long time la..=)


I miss school so much also,all the great times..all the great people.
haihs...how i wish i was still in lower secondary...

I miss everything,I'll miss YPF...most of the YPfers too...(Auntie Mei Ling included)

hahahha...she is the best lady i know la... Auntie Mei Ling..I got osme new thinsg on my phone..elysse videos...programmes..

i need some rest now...I want to make music...=))

and as we worship,build your throne

.....it feels so good to be able to go online again..I so hate tmnet..haihs..

today pastor..or rather servant jonathan talked about having strong foundations in Christ...

it's really important la...so many bad things are happening...So many earthquakes..floods..famines..haihs...Aunty Mei Ling told me that the world is drawing to and end...aaron said teh same thing too....and only the righteous people will be saved..Aaron told me about sodom and gomorrah..less than ten righteous people could be found in those two cities...haihs..Auntie Mei Ling said that the best thing to do is to hold on close to the Lord...haihs...


...if the world really ends like it says in the bible..IF i am saved...what about my friends...I don't want to lose them..I fear for them..I care for them too..really don't know what else to do other than pray...I hope anyone who reads this prays for teh aslvation of the world too..


Happy Birthday to Peay Pei...many more returns of this day too you..(provided the world doesn't end that is..)...man i am so saddistic la..


I am sick la.that day play football in the rain...ever since then had influenza edi...babi la...


Peay Pei's piglet's name is babi....


I can type anymore la...really painful la my hands..


Emerson,I've got a question for you la..



Do you belive in love after love after love after love?


(insert deep woman's voice)

hahahahahahaha



take care la..

joy to the world...


I learnt a new word..


Un-sangka-rable...


hahha....


Syoking Menoking Sendiring.=))


good morning ...mmm...

Serene and Bubbling said i lost alot of weight...


Ziling is on a diet ..
WAHAHahah..so thin edi wanna diet ar? (she is trying to be underweight like boon)

hahahha

I need rest la..

Goodbye.


Pray..

Everyone should build a house on a rock..Good foundations....=))

When the storm comes..the house will still stand compared to the one which was built on sand..

Boys,you just beat the greatest team in europe.

hehe..today was real syoking menoking...WAhahahah..woke up at ten...dominic messaged me to come get my guitar at a quarter to eleven..so i went...he turned up at quarter past eleven...

then went to klcc...was meeting joanne..hahaha..las tminute planning....actually no planning also..go there only plan what to do...KLCC sucks BIG time..I hate that place la..even the cinema popcorn sucks la..

anyway..had fun la.didn't know we actually make real good friends la..ahah..should have tried being friends a long long time ago la...was seriously fun la...i think iw oudl have died if she didn't come..died of boredome...stupid place..


I raed a book on coaching foobtball...learnt a lot of things la...and went through a whole load of liverpool history..chelsea sucks big time la..Liverpool for Life...


this friday going to midvalley..man..i will kiss the midvalley walls la..i love it so much...stupid klcc..babi..

i am now the player manager or revolution calcio fc...a private football club which is currently on a ten year sponsorship deal with admiral...hehehe..cun la...


ok la..want to sleep la now...

will edit this post later...

hehehe





joanne's earrings...ahahhahaha...purple and black..Dorai.=) Dorai for life..but shorter life than liverpool's!

This is Anfield.

...today..alot of things went well today...I woke up at 12:30...rode my bike to cheras with ben...came home at four...so cun la..visited tse kai and ziling and all...


been talking to rosie alot lately..hahaha..nice la...she's in a bit of trouble at home..apa la..But don't worry la rosie..You still have The Family ...(rosie has been the youngest for eighteen years,Jien her nephew was born last year..and she has been suffering from l.o.a.s. since then.)


L.O.A. syndrome is lack of attention syndrome...hehehe


My grandfather ....tata is what i call him...fell sick today..His lungs gave way...aiyoh...so cham la..we went back to hometown to visit him in the night...hahah..he was fine...good la...someone like him cannot die until I get a child la...My child would be priviliged to meet him...My tata real cun la..He was a fighter jet pilot during the world war...I would be lying if i said he worked for germany..heheh..the nazis never liked blacks..He worked for the empire!!!...fuiyoo..sounds like star wars...hehe..He worked for the British empire la..=)) He retired after the war and joined the civil service..
Love Him...


Emerson...bros no matter what...I love you man..=))

i am sick la...tomorrow going out with joanne...(chan) ....yj's ex...hahahha...emerson always said he doesn't think she's pretty..heheheh.....

I like this song by Eminem,i think it's the only song worth listening to by him..Sing for the moment...Look past all the foul language and you'll find real meaning....


by the way peay pei...scroll down to see what i have to say






I LIKE THE WAY YOU MOOOOVE!!!!



..hehehe...

stupid song....nice music..terrible lyrics..



My daddy was driving like mad today la....
scarry..


I lost myself for the past few days or rather the past week...trying to find things which were never there...hanging on to moments which were just moments which pass away without leaving any trace of it ever being there physically..Trying to find something in me which i know i never had..trying to rely on relationships which never existed...deng la...


I Hate gramme souness...He is a kopite la..How could he do that to us la..He stole my micheal owen la...or rather..becky's micheal..

I want to marry a pianist who supports liverpool and loves drinking milo and eating spicy food while ranting at refrees who seem biased everytime liverpool plays....I will go for my honeymoon in Merseyside la...=)



This is anfield....the heart of every kopite!

call on you?

..today was driving around kuala lumpur with al-mu,sid,ben and carina....hahahaha

we had so much fun la.=) We went jamming..ahahaha..I tried a type of music i never played before..almu played a bass solo...then ben joined him in together with sid...ben played some chords la...the after they got settled..I joined in with some distorted guitar solos which were highly influenced by the blues...it sounded really really good la...=)

then on the way home...almu turned the music off..the he said lets talk..i asked about what?
Then he jokingly said SEX!!

The conversation that took place:

Ben:I like to be on top.
Almu:I like BEING on top..
Sid:I am GAY.I don't do on top,I do behind.
Danush:hehe.I'd like to have beautiful silent sex.

everyone keeps quiet..


Sid:WEI,,stop scarring me wei..why so silent wei...I don't liek silent sex...


...deng la...ahahah



I went to wei-i and wei-li's school for cf today..haihs...so cun la they...=))

Cf rocked la...=))

I miss beatrice though..haven't seen her in so so so long...

Jasmine had a good time indulging in my lameness...and wei-li...revealed her true self..the wei-li which is below funny.



I feel one kind la....like some sort of cheap prosti-dude la..


emerson still hasn't replied to my mail...


esther wasn't at home when i called on her.


Almu rocks la..thanks man..for the driving around...=)



this is a lousy blog post..but i thought almu deserved the credit...


btw..peay and ziling broke their promise...


disappointers..