I used to think people should never change themselves for anyone. That they are who they are no matter what another person thinks and shouldn't compromise themselves. I still do think that.

I've found a way out.

:)

What I love right now is all the hope people have for 2012.
That things get better after it gets so bad.
Happy New Year :)

Does anyone else realise how facebook absolutely burns time? It's like this furnace burning time away into nothingness. No productivity no nothing comes out of it. So I've deactivated for a while (and not unfriended everyone). haha.

It scares me how I've become so sad and constantly despondent. I'm bordering on depression I know but I've just not fulfilled what the psyc diagnostic manual says - that I have to be unable to function normally on a daily basis. (I was already like that during that period after graduation) but I won't let that happen. No.

The mind is a powerful thing.

I need to change my outlook. I need to be that person I used to be. I need to be less dependent on the wrong people. I need to be all that I'm not right now.

It's shocking that one person can change your life so much. And it's weird how you allow yourself to be altered so easily. Either I'm weak like some would say-others say I'm just allowing it to happen. Others tire and abandon me.

I don't know what to do with myself right now. I'm so lost.

"You see, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from soaring too close to the Sun. And the realists, well, without the dreamers, they might not ever get off the ground” —Cam (Modern Family S03E09)

I'm grateful.

But I keep wishing for the wrong thing.