Hoppe is my maiden name. (Pronounced Hoppa.) I tell you that because I just got married one year ago and I'm still trying on my new name (Hunter) and figuring out just who that is.
The truth is I still hesitate sometimes when people ask me my name. It's almost as if I draw a blank too, it's not just that my old name comes to mind. I find that curious.
I mean, I know it's just a name, but I've changed too. It' still me, but there's newness to things. Questions, uncertainty. Things yet to be discovered.
So, what I'm saying is that I'm on a journey of discovery. But, also of creation. I don't want to just watch my self unfold. I want to expand and unfurl in certain directions - on purpose. I want to make myself all the things I yearn to be.
This week, I realized I don't generally believe in myself. But, a loving Heavenly Father reminded me that He created me. And there is a lot more to me than I can yet see. I am capable of beautiful things. So, be believing!
The whole point is, I'm going to write it all out as I'm experiencing it. The questions I'm pondering, the doubts and fears, the successes and joys. This will be me in real life - on stage.