for the special you..

Wait For You -Elliot Yamin

an update like any other

not really...

there is just this awkward moment when you wanted to type a blog post but u halt yourself because most of the things you really wanted to say is not suitable to be of general knowledge. this is why i haven't been typing a lot of posts lately like i used to do. and since i cant really just block off everyone i don't want to inform off, i chose not to post it. for it was partially another's secret too.

lately... been busy. gone for trips with friends, went back to jshs(only to get some really good laughs and frustrations), gone for work for hao tien at SCM, karaoke, LAN parties, BBQ, chrismas countdown with old friends at autocity, mom's stuff and more... the one thing i am reluctant to acknowledge is that we sent off Rong at the airport... it would be better if she stayed with us but everybody's got their own directions to head to. holiday's coming to an end anyway and everyone's gearing up for school.. well, not everyone, screw u yinjou LOL!

but in between those merry events, something happened.. exactly what i cannot say... remember what i said bout things I really wanted to say but not suitable to be of general knowledge? maybe i should just end this post now... but never mind, i'll see how..

YOU, yes you, and not YOU... argh.. nothing... nvm, ending the post...

5 O'clock T-Pain ft. Wiz Khalifa, Lily Allen

dont worry... it will all be alright.. i love you

it all comes to an end

everything does. holidays, fun, companionship, time and the happiest one, homework. well, it's just how things are. so i usually dont think too much bout it. those 3 days 2 night course in KL taught me one thing. in the end, only the experience matters. dont ask me bout the course, actually, ask me face to face. its something that typing doesnt do justice to.

here we are. the end of holidays. to most of u, its the end of a roughly 2 months holiday. to me, its bout... 4 months? well... i spent the most of the 4 months bedridden anyway. not good experience, not good. but when i finally could get off bed and porridge, that's where life started. went for trips that are unparalleled and unequaled with any other i've been. met ppl back in KL and learnt alot of stuff along the way too. sry, cant seem to summarize my whole no-school period. nah.... all u need to know is that i've had a great time. yearning to get back to school, yearning to get back to the rhythm of school life that i've been accustomed to since.... 4 yrs old?

nvm, its just something i would like to share. thanks to everyone who made this year such a great year. oh wait, this line should be saved for Dec 31st lol....

its been a long time since i last posted a song... here you go, enjoy

what's supposed to be a trip to INTI and SKMM

turned out to be the next chaper of last saturday's trip. rong said she wanted to visit Straights Quay last time, well now u have it.. happy now? lol.. the original plan is to bring lenny to visit INTI, and i'll pass up the deferment form so that i dont get my butt whooped. then rong tags along, junlin jio me go reprint our AA(Apparatus Assignment, or our radio license) then go benggali buy heatshrink + eat the thing we didnt get to eat on our last visit there.

things went as planned at the first destination, INTI. then junlin wanted to go collect money from a girl at school. so we've decided to go visit his school too, but junlin needs to top up on his calories first lol.. at junlin's school, we fkin waited from 12 to 1.30. girls, you NEED to heed the time. anyway.. after that, i dont know why, we went to Straights Quay. srsly, i DONT KNOW WHY. but im glad we did. visited the place, bought some books. YES!! we now have complete collection of the Inheritance Cycle. lenny got Eragon and Eldest, i got Brisingr and Inheritance. then we went outside for the view. it would be perfect if we're there in the twilight..

then, we head for SKMM.  after FRUSTRATINGLY long wait at post office and SKMM, we've got what we came for. time to head for FOOD!!! its already 5 at the time and none of us had lunch. so breakfast + lunch = Brunch, wats lunch + dinner? i'll tell you what, HUNGER!!!

i have to say, i am glad i went the wrong way and ended up in Raja Uda. if not we will never had such a great meal together. it was heartening to sit down and enjoy a harmonious(and desperate) meal with people you trust and cheerish.

after that, lenny's house. then after that pasar malam. btw, i still feel bad about YOU asking your mom to home like that. it just aint right.

well... that's bout it. this is probably the year end holiday of my life...

u never feel the sore in u legs when u walk

well, u do when u chill down and relax. yesterday almost walked the whole penang island with rong and lenny. it was fun, and my leg doesnt feel like breaking off. maybe it was because with good company all bad goes away? interesting thing to think about. so anyway, went backpacking(rong isnt carrying a backpack...) with rong and lenny to penang island. i never drove to any places in penang except the usual school and general hospital... so walking suits me. better than driving actually. did i ever mentioned that i dont like driving? i'd prefer something simple like cycling or walking over driving if i can help it. prefer swimming too if the distance isnt that far or risk being swept away by ocean currents.

the trip is fun. food, places and people all in one package. i'd reckon that penang is nothing without its food. everything else is for the indoor nerds who cry pain after walking a city block(probably less). but overall, its the company of rong and lenny that makes it all complete. here we have lenny take charge as tour guide who springs into action once we hammer out where we want to go. honestly, we never planned where to go, everything was instantaneous, which makes this trip heck alot cooler. rong who would play with just bout anyting, including the water fountain in front of times square -_-"... yea, she's abit of a combination of hyperactive and crazy lol.. and me? well, cant think of anything yet so lets leave it there haha..

pictures are on fb.. lazy re-upload bsc it took me abit more than an hour for the upload to complete. and those were selected among the tons of pictures rong and lenny took.. they took... wait lemme check... a total of 329 pictures on a single day. some of them deleted bsc of various reasons.

conclusion, trip is awesome, food is great, companions are priceless. also, the laksa is fantastic! lol... hope there is another of these trips someday.. oh wait, yinjou wants one too!

sigh...

back from PBIM duty as HAM radio operator. the preparation and stuff is hectic and fun, but the actual duty itself is more than disappointing, its madness. all the last minute changes, the stupidly stingy organizers, the resources left unused... all those that makes the runners rant and complain to no ends. i didnt even want to report the complains back to base bsc there are alot of fellow HAMs already doing that n i figured i dont need to report another angry mob of runners complaining about the lack of drinking water and medical supplies. it was chaotic in a less obvious way. totally unobservable by the runners... only by the ones having to try to relay infos.

it was fun being a part of HAM social circle. met new ppl, old and young. met all kinds of ppl, from weird to wise. the kinda things that just rejuvenates your spirit to look forward towards what's in store for you at the next moment. and i seriously learned alot from this experience... think i would go again next year haha...

another thing would be things happening in my house... well, mostly mom. and i didnt wanna complain much about family troubles here bsc there seems to be too much of them floating around the cyberspace right now... its like its family bitching seasons now...

watever... duty's over, had fun, overwhelmingly tired bsc i woke up at 9am, went to meet up with junlin at 12pm, set up with Hao Tien for the whole afternoon, meet up with 9W2DCY(Daniel, really nice guy), went for dinner, shower at yifeng's house then left for St John's HQ at 10, abit of briefing, then off to our stations at 12am, signal check and mount up, 2am full runners start, then runners from all categories starts running, received alot of complains, bla bla bla, round up stragglers from 8.30 onwards, request station shutdown at 9.08am.

nvm, will go again next year...

"This is Nine-Whiskey-Two-November-Foxtrot-Sierra reporting QRT at 2139 hours. 88 and 73 over.."

havent been here for a long time

yea.. its been a long time. busy with everything mom throws at me. busy with rank rush in AVA SEA. busy formatting my pc bsc my bro screwed it up. busy organizing the penang bridge marathon duty stuff. busy teaching my sis add maths and other subjects. busy busy busy... well, im not actually tat busy if u're really wondering. its just that i do have alot of things to do which doesnt allow me the pleasure of sitting here typing a blog post. i was on fb more frequent that here bsc its faster to just post something out on fb. but nevertheless, i like this place better.

nothing much to post. all the recent updates are posted back in fb. the main stuff is change of pc casing which i've posted pictures to fb. not feeling like reposting stuff. since there aint much ppl reading this other than myself. another major change is the Android port for my Omnia 2 has been updated. my phone is now running Froyo BETA 3. alot smoother and responsive, thanks to more RAM allocated for graphics. fyi, my phone only has 150mb of ram. to compensate or the less rams for system operations, linux swap has been created. 512mb of them.

hmm... oh yea, going for marathon duty briefing on thursday. me, junlin n toobert is going for duty for the marathon this weekend. time to put our radio licenses to good use.

other than that, welcome back lenny xD. im pretty sure u're already back in penang soil when u read this

well, tats bout it, have a nice day

back to INTI

for a while.

and i found out that most of my classmates are frantically trying to get their projects done. its a relatively simple project actually. they were given the title and everything 3 months ago, back when i was still in the hospital. heck, hung phung even called me up the instant he got the title for the project but everyone else just plain slacking thinking there's 3 more months. now, the deadline's next week and most of them had started to assemble it on breadboards trying to make a prototype. they havent figured out the bug, havent planned out the layout on the vero-board, didnt fully tested out, didnt even write the report for the thing. well, their designs are the same bsc they copied each other anyway. there are no difference at all from each other. 7805 as regulator, ne55 as oscilator and a double phase buck-boost converter. exactly the same.

today i was supposed to just go school, do the paperworks then go home for lunch. instead, i stayed back helping them. thinking back, i have no idea y i did it. couldnt it be better off if i just go home and leave them to rot and burn? that ought to teach them a lesson on last minute plagiarism + not utilizing ANYTHING they've learned in class. heck, they dont even look like DEEI students. more like high school kids doing their KH projects.

watever, gonna have to go back tmr and finish what i've started. thats all for today.

note: to all drivers, please get a good windshield rain repel. its hard to see the road without it when malaysia's raining like hell.

i little food for thought

i realized that i only work as hard as i can when there is something that i need but i cant get it. over the years, i became interested in electronics not because i am interested in electronics. its because there are alot of things that i cant do without things that are DIY-ed and you couldnt exactly buy those kinda stuff anywhere. even if its there, those things always include alot of nonsense features which makes them very expensive(i was very poor back then). so i picked up electronics and learned how these little components work together and make something i needed(or wanted) with what i've learned. 学艺自用.

i remembered there was once when i needed a torchlight which is brighter than those expensive but barely usable crap sold in pasar malam. so what i did was i found a white LED, and i was overjoyed at the time bsc it was the first time i ever found one. i got it from a toy which you get from those 50 cents capsule thing. the toy was out of battery of course, and i couldnt afford batteries for it. those lithium batteries cost bout rm7 at the time. i've got alot of old batteries collected over time but it wouldnt work(those were old batteries). so i figured tat it needs more power. and where do you get more power? it was almost an eureka moment when i thought tat the power from the mains socket never runs out and could power the television in my house and the television was so bright!!! laugh if u want... i sometimes too laugh at myself for what i did back then. i remember pulling the power cord from the kettle(or was it the rice cooker?) and bsc the contacts of those power cords were inside 3 holes(ground, live and neutral), i only need to stick a wire into them to access it. n stupidly, tats what i did. i hook up the LED to the power cord and i turned on the power. it was a standard sized LED, the kind you would find at KH lab, so i needs minimum of 1.5V or a MAXIMUM of 5v(cheap ones blow at a mere 3v). also it is worthy to be noted that the mains put out 240v of power. well, at that time i didnt know anything bout ohm's law, volts or AC/DC. i just know that that thing needs power and power is what im giving it. what happened? it blew up. yes, the LED blew up. and i was living in chai leng park at the time and the TNB is quite crappy at the time(it still is, ask yifeng) so the power was shorted and caused the whole lorong to be out of power(i knew that later). the LED blew up in my face bsc i was so near to it. immediately i was frightened, afraid that my mom or dad would come in and saw what i did so i threw everything away. i was so scared that i couldnt sit right and actually pee in my own pants. when my parents did came back, they immediately knew something was wrong because the whole house smelled of smoke and there was a patch of black soot on the floor of the living room. i got scolded of course.

there was alot of such cases over the years of my life. but i remember this one best bsc i was SO freaking stupid LOL. it was a good try for the extent of my knowledge back then. i used to work on making a torchlight everyday after school and the usual homework. i experimented with all sorts of stuff, even with batteries made of lemon. of course, i was stupid and i used plastic pieces from toys instead of metal haha... but for all the stupidity, i worked hard. harder than i did with my academics all bsc i needed a torchlight!

then there comes UPSR. truth to be told. i was a bad kid back then. not in bully or stealing kind of bad kid, i am just not tat interested in study. i was back in standard one but my first primary school killed my passion for study. SRJK(C) Chung Hwa 3 in Inderawasih, Prai. that school killed my passion for study. then i switched school at the end of standard 2 but my interest never came back. i was the typical lazy boy who doesnt like to do homework, doesnt pay attention in class, that sort of things. i read books though, mostly english story books i borrowed from libraries. but i dotn like homeworks and i seldom do them. its not like i dont finish them, i dont even do them. and in primary school you get strokes of cane if you dont do homework or get bad results in exams but i didnt cared. it hurts alright, but i didnt cared much. LOL, even with this attitude, i am still in the first class!! so im a lazy dont care bout study student, but i still got 7As in UPSR. what happened? now, you might say that UPSR is ridiculously easy n all.. but in my primary school, only 21 of us got 7A. so to us back then, it was kinda hard. actually, i was that kinda student until June of standard 6. well, i fell in love. my first love actually. she wasnt the very smart type and i honestly forgot why i loved her so dont bother asking. she was just the average girl which we shared the same class for 2 years and she lived opposite of my house back then. back then i was stupid and i wanted to impress her and win her over bsc gossips had it that she was in love with another guy. now, aint rich, i aint handsome for obvious enough reasons and i am kinda shy back then. so i needed a way to get her attention and mom happened to tell me one day that if you're good in your studies, girls would be all over you. and i suckered believed it. it wasnt until June that i decided to give it a try. i was studying HARD. it was like i became a study machine and all my academics went skyrocket. my math teacher had a very bad image of me bsc i particularly flunked math and was worst in class. she was shocked bsc i went from fail to 98(yes, i remembered that mark very well) in 2 months. and i did all the homework there ever is. incredibly, all my results went up. i even got 1st place in malay and english essay writing. i still have the certificate lol... and yes, i've got her attention. one day she came over my place and asked me why i changed so much. and that was it! she wasnt very good at academics too so i helped her and secretly made my move haha... i still remember that before the first paper of UPSR, she held my hand and wished me luck. well, it made me feel like i could fly... we still maintained contact and we go cycling around the taman in the holidays before high school. we both got into jit sin fortunately. on january next year, we became a couple.

and this is how i became less of a lazy student. not bsc i've had it in me but bsc of a girl. if i've never met her, i think i wouldnt b in jit sin, and my life would be totally different. maybe i would be in one of those school nearby where gangster and motorcycle racing is at large. and turned out to be a typical "pai kia". i would certainly say that my life is better because of her.

actually, i wrote all these bsc internet is down. stupid screamyx. and i haven been scrambling my mind trying to figure out a way to get online. found how to hijack the ipad's underused data plan and suddenly thought about all these. lesson? things would work out if you really wish it would. set a goal to motivate yourself and anything could be accomplished! yes, even picking up girls LOL... so to all the people out there, dont ever give up.

goodnight everyone...

nothing much lately

been listening to songs... since im already outdated in terms of songs by 1 month...

updates since a while ago..

truth to be told, i hate being at home with nothing to do. too free, too much time wasted doing things that has no positive impact to my future. what i should be doing at this kind of time is studying. homeworks(they are called assignments nowadays), projects, preparations, casual revisions and so on.. instead, im home. leeching off resources at home without doing anything that is worth those resources.

yes, i would very much like to go back to school. meet those familiar faces, driving to school early in the morning and hope i dont get caught up in the traffic congestion, ignoring that slow as hell elevator and take the stairs instead at school, sitting at that corner in the canteen which i have done since the beginning of sem 1(yes, that part was quite hot, but i prefer the fan instead of air-con. so please bugger off asking.), the rm2.50 hotdog bun which tasted great at the beginning and is starting to deteriorate... etc. there are just so many minute fun things at that place that makes my life normal.

too bad exam's next week. i've missed one month worth of study and if i've gone back to school last week, i doubt i can catch up. the electronics part, sure. i've learnt most of it before, but that's just one of the 4 subjects. the others(very complicated technical drawing, maths and C++), is just giving me a headache. i've tried going through them the day after i got back. they're just too much. they are things that needed proper tutoring. electronics i can blaze through, but not C++, not drawing, and certainly not maths. i suck at maths. i can do maths, but the results wont be pretty. i wont fail at least, but it wont be pretty. to get my heads just above the water is not something i have in mind, bsc the marks we get in the exam this time is counted into the marks for this semester through some i-dont-care-how calculations. if i get bad results this time, it'll screw up my final pretty good. and i dont want to end up having to retake sem 2 next time. there are a few of them who had to retake sem 1 already. i dont want to do so, plainly bsc its a waste of time and money(retake meant pay for sem 2 again. not a very pleasant thing to have since im not the one earning the money for this. also, PTPTN would be stopped.). so i've decided that as much as i hated it, i have to take my sem 2 next year. but rest assured, i'll still read through the notes(special thanks to hung phung) while im at home. guess i now know how u felt a few months back lenny. it sucks alright.

so what lately? became a software tester lol.. thanks to VirtualBox, i can test any software in an isolated virtual machine. which means i can install anything i like and it wont affect the host machine. currently, am testing TrustPort antivirus. the test in the VB went well, so i am replacing BitDefender with it. BitDef has gotten very annoying for the past few months anyway. and TrustPort has emerged to be better than BitDef in terms of detection rate(which is all that matters for an antivirus products). sure, BitDef's got a better looking GUI, but its glitchy. i hate it when bdagent.exe went rogue after i exit AVA and i have to re-login to get it fixed. i just installed TrustPort, so... i'll giv it a few days and see what happens.

also, the development team at MoDaCo has released the BETA 2 for the Android Froyo for Samsung Omnia 2. it worked great. its even faster, less bugs, GPS gets a lock on even faster than it did on Windows Mobile. there are still some minor issues nevertheless, its a beta release wad... got it ported to my phone and i am happy that i've gotten it done without any problems. head over to the website and u'll find hilarious amounts of ppl either acting smart or just being plain stupid and screwed up their phone, crying for help while the developers are frustrated at them for well.... being an idiot LOL...

these are just the stuff that occupied my time while im at home. and i realized this morning that i've been linux-ing(android is based on linux too) for a week straight. tat meant i didnt played AVA or any casual games for almost a week already. result? i got kicked outta my clan for being inactive lol.. i got kicked once, this was the 2nd time. they're some pretty serious bunch of ppl, if you cant play, they dont want you.

and YOU, get well soon. hate to know someone i know is sick and i cant do a darn thing bout it...

cya

p.s. go watch Johny English Reborn, its F-ing hilarious lol

posting from Huntsman-PC

Huntsman-PC is the name of my desktop at home. i can prove it to you but this isnt anything important enough to prove. trigo identities are... lol back to spm adi in english, it means i am posting this while lounging on my familiar plastic chair in the room opposite to my real room. i am home.

actually, i am home on tuesday but i've been busy. spent the rest of tuesday sleeping haha... wednesday i got very fed up that my bro didnt take good enough care of my desktop. so i had to do a whole day of maintainence to get it back to top shape. hey, its alot of work u know? then today is spent playing AVA. i suck. after almost 3 weeks of not touching a mouse, everything feels strange n alien. even the way the cursor moves in response to my hand surprise me somehow. oh, the new GUI of blogger is nice. very bandwidth efficient i would say. loads faster, looks cleaner... u guys should try it out.

 the whole hospitalization is hell, nightmare. if you ask me, i wouldnt recommend anyone to go through this unless they're mentally well prepared. the physical part is not much a problem bsc there's doctors n nurses n all that to take care of you while you're in there. but srsly, dont do this unless you really want it badly. i didnt, i just didnt want 17 years of work go down the drain. anyone out there with the same birth defect as me, THINK before you say yes, cause its gonna hurt, alot. n boy am i glad to b out of that place. k, this is my daily routine in there. 6am, wake up, shower, "breakfast"(i can do it later if i want, but being on liquid diet, i seldom postpone it). then i hv to replace 8 little rubber bands in my mouth which is a frustrating pain in the ass bsc those rubber bands rarely co-operates. bout 8 till 9 am, doctors come for their routine check on patients. usually, they'll bring a whole kampung of ppl(i counted 16) to this not very big room n examine the patients like they're an alien bug speciment. after they left, im free to do watever i want. which is nothing much since it consisted of sleep, drink n read. then its till bout 11pm at night and i sleep. its a really boring life there. sure, i would wander around sometimes(i mean when the nurses r not watching, bsc im NOT allowed to be out of that room unless i hv to pee), but i cant go far. n i dont hv to go blabbing about all the procedures n tubes thing. covered those in previous post. in short, its hell. watever, im out now. but i still hv to deal with those annoying rubber bands every morning. they're so small n they hv to fit in my mouth on those hooks mounted on my braces.. its an hour at least to replace them all. n tats after some serious punching and kicking the walls n doors in frustration. and still, liquid diet. which meant im hungry most of the time. also bsc of my diet, i found myself physically weak. i cant lift stuff i can easily pick them up a few months ago, i lost my stamina(i am panting hard after going up 3 floors) and i am sleepy most of the time. this is very bad.

 one thing i am proud of is that during the last day of my stay, i am able to vent my frustration and anger towards the government(with help from lenny too. thanks lenny!) to successfully implement Android into my pity Samsung Omnia 2. this phone is 3 years old(take or give a few months), boots Windows Mobile 6.5 Professional and lags as hell. seriously, every actions needs bout 3 to 6 seconds to get a reaction. i use my phone mostly to text, but the VERY slow reaction of the phone meant you get this:

 *phone rings*

 -picks up phone and hit the message icon-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *list message from everyone*

 -press the new message to open it up so i can read it-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *the new message is displayed*

 -reads the message, then press the typing space below to reply-

 *waits 3 secs(this part is the fastest)*

 *on-screen keyboard pops up*

 -starts typing reply message-

 i dont know bout you guys, but this is frustratingly slow. n this is the best case scenario. in the worst case scenario which i hv encountered while im at school is this

*phone rings*

 -picks up phone and hit the message icon-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *not done yet*

 -chat with friends for a few minute-

 *not done yet*

 -frustrated, close it then reopens-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *not done yet*

 "wtf is wrong with this phone!?"

 *list message from everyone*

 -press the new message to open it up so i can read it-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *not done yet*

 -frustrated, close it then reopens-

 *waits 3-6 secs*

 *the new message is displayed*

 -reads the message, then press the typing space below to reply-

 *waits 3 secs*

 *on-screen keyboard pops up*

 -starts typing reply message-

 its ridiculous if i hv to live with something like that. also, the functionalities of windows mobile(lets b geeks n call it winmo from now on) is poor. cant install/play Angry Birds(lol..), slow wifi, lousy GPS support(i mean GPS not even working), hv to install 3rd party(paid) software to use most of the features. n more which i am lazy to type out. so, enter the new life for this Korean made smartphone. Android. to be precise, Android 2.2, codenamed "Froyo". it is everything that winmo cant do. fast response(as in instataneous), working GPS, loads of free software in Android Market(you can get paid ones as well, but who wants them when there's freebies?), you can get software on the spot(as in no need to go through a computer to get stuff installed), blazingly fast connection speed, AND, i can play Angry Birds!!! RIO!!! dont believe me?

 lol.. angry birds it is... so in general, its given my phone a new life. mom was planning on getting a iphone for me back when i was so darn pissed by this phone. now, im loving it bsc its a smartphone again instead of dumb-and-lazy phone. also, i didnt completely replaced the old OS incase the new one failed as the Android is actually a beta distro(short form for distribution), Almar(a developer) and his team is currently working on an official release or maybe the latest distro(2.3 Gingerbread). another reason i didnt completely replace is i dont dare to. to completely replace winmo, i'll hv to wipe out winmo from my phone and carefully replace it with Android. one wrong move and the phone is bricked(a technical term for screwed). a bricked phone will resemble a very expensive brick bsc the phone will no longer function, at all.

k, i'll let the pictures do the talking.

old OS, Windows Mobile 6.5 Professional bootscreen
this the home page. everytime i want to read a new sms, i press on the yellow envelope icon. the home page has got 3 pages which can be customized.
this is the Start page. this appears when u press the Start button on top left. it lists the applications or "apps" installed, along with the phone's features. even this page loads after 3 seconds... which is a headache
this is the Android 2.2 Froyo. i think all versions of Android have this bootscreen. 
this is what happens before the bootscreen. line of commands like this will  flow on screen like  hacking process in movies lol..


android's home page. the 4 icons at the bottom is original, i put in the rest....

this is the so called "Start" page, but in Android, its called "App" page. every app is listed here. haha, installed Angry Birds Rio and fruit Ninja... its free wad..
this is to prove that im actually running Android 2.2 Froyo on my Samsung Omnia 2 i8000 8GB
k, tats bout it... till next time! oh, i've finished downloading Need For Speed Hot Pursuit(the 2010 version), anyone interested just give me a call or watever ways to notify me.  cheerio!

out tomorrow

yep. dr came in today. did the usual checks, renewed the bandages on my hip, then said:"i think you can be discharged tmr.....". well, she did say alot of obvious and unimportant things after that sentence but i was already too happy to care bot what she said. main point, IM COMING HOME!! mom brought back alot of stuff. HER stuff to be exact. i dont hv much, just a backpack of toiletries and clothes. n tmr she wouuld hv to bring a luggage bag to bring back the rest of her stuff. srsly, i dont understand y women hv SO muhc to bring? ok maybe not all females, n im saying this so that i wont get sued by some female right NGO LOL.. finallly got the internet sharing thing on ipad done. now i can online using my phone or netbook. i prefer netbook haha, but its fun to watch youtube videos on phone... actually, been at this since friday. but i only got it to work this afternoon... too bad im leaving tmr. oh, i screwed up the ipad one time n had to call junlin to search for a solution for me since the ipad is the only way i online. the ipad have no hard reset button(the little hole where u poke something to reset it). it cant be disassembled, so you cant reset it by pulling out the battery. the only way is to press all da buttons simultaneously, hold n choke it till it dies. lol REALLY!!! press n hold(choke) the home button and the button on top(watever the name was) till it dies and u boot it up. tats hard reset, ipad style. think its da same for the iphone. n the action looks almost exactly like choking, which im loving it haha... came to hate apple products lately.. k, nothing much. cant wait to get back to my normal routines of llife. most of you guys r back to school by now i think. well, good luck then! im out

Changes

Some changes. Well, they're nothing except if u're a tech geek like me. Otherwise, i doubt this will interest you. First of all. Made changes to GRUB of my netbook. Grub is used to multiboot OSes in my netbook. I hv windows 7 n multiple kernel version in my netbook, along with memtest which i hv currently set to run in my netbook to spot for memory errors... There used to b a long long list of boot options during startup. Now, there's only four. Namely linux kernel 2.6.32-33, linux kernel 2.6.32-32, memtest86 and windows 7 ultimate. Which is alot less messy. N i didnt rely on yifeng to do these!!! Yipee! The second one is a change which i hv prepared for, but not done yet. I am currently using Samsung Omnia 2 i8000 8GB as a replacement for my ols asus phone. It is quite okay. Runs on Windows Mobile 6.5. It serves me quite well, except for the annoying lagging and slow response. N i've always hv a liking towards linux based OSes... Which in smartphone's term, meant Android. Yes, imma change my phone OS to android. Impossible? Well, possible with a few tweaks. Its still experimental, but i rather Android than WinMo(partially bsc i could play angry bird on Android haha). I could put Ubuntu into my phone but the idea of having to use a stylus is not as appealing. So, i've sourced out most of the stuff i need(most, since i online using ipad which sucks), the others i need to get back to my rig back at home. Yea, my rig can literally do everything. K, back to non techie stuff. Everyone's going back to school. Except me of course. N i heard DJPeace(nanfeng) is coming back next week for his sem break. Dunno. Heard it from junlin. N theres not much change here in the hospital. Still me n tat indian guy. Stupid doctor went to KL n tat leaves us to just sit here n wait.... Stupid inefficient use of time. Im getting bored to hell ever here.... Cant youtube in here.. Bsc of this stupid ipad... Only if i can online with my phone, then i can tether my phone to my netbook n it'll b perfect. Well, not as perfect as my rig back home but it beats ipad anytime... Well, texted rong.. 20cents per sms.. N she gets 30 sms free per 5 sms she makes.. Makes me wanna choke maxis hotlink lol... K, till then, cya guys

Bored to ends of intravenous tubes...

Really. Its been nearly two weeks since i came in to this physical and mental prison. Since then, the only feeling i have felt is wither extreme pain or numbness. Well, there are no extreme numbness as numbness is.. Well, numb.

It all started with five tubes, then down to four(not a very pleasant eperience getting there), then down to one. Currently, there are no tubes, unless you count the "head"(or watever it was called... Butterfly needle i think it was called) stuck in my left hand. It took those pea brains seven tries to get a friggin needle in my veins. Stupid houseman. A more senior doctor came in scowling n had it done with one try. Wait, he wasnt even trying, he just put it in n shrugged off.

The first few days are the worst and one of the best. Bsc the anaestetic was still in effect so u wont feel much. After the second day, all hell breaks lose. U regain some sense only to have them choke with pain. Every organ which have pain receptors on it is hysterical with pain. Tats the best description i can provide. I can only sleep in the afternoon and evening bsc the noise around drowns out some of the pain. At night, i feel very tired and my eye lids are as heavy as lead but i cant shun the pain away. To make things worse, those bitch of a nurses slept on duty so i cant gt help as i cant speak.

The firstweek is hell. Usually, the pain die down abit through the night, only to have them renewed in the morning as they started pulling out tubes almost every morning. Pulling the tubes out really hurt. The first tube hurt the most bsc of the location. The second and third bsc it was inside my gums when it was removed. The rest is less painful. Maybe its bsc i hv lost my sense of pain by then that pain doesnt register anymore.

The subsequent days are more peaceful since there are no more tubes to pull n no more wires to tighten. I fill my days by reading. A LOT of reading. Newspapers, books, magazine you name it. Even advertisements and fire extinguisher instructions lol.. Yes, i was that bored. Armed with nothing but a cellphone, i hv sucessfuly bugged a few person in my phonebook out of boredom. HAHAHAHAHAH... And i only get to online when mom came over with her ipad or iphone which i take full use of the dataplan. But the online world seemed to b less interesting since then.. Think its bsc im not at my own pc where i am more familliar with microsoft or linux based OSes.. Oh btw, i HATE iOS... I just hate them for being so... Annoying. I am NOT going to buy any of apple's product in the near or far future.

To be honest, i missed the outside world. I missed... People, person. i missed the food, i missed the feel of good company, i missed cycling around the taman with my sis or just the tickle fight... Bah, i just want to get out. I want to get out, to own those petty noobs in ava. I wanna go experiment with linux as i have previously devoted my late nights doing. I want to studyalong with my frens back at inti. I want to video call the person i could not let go of. There is just SO much things i wanted to do back in the outside world. I want to drive, i want to go meet people i hv not met for months, i want to go to bed bsc i am physically tired instead of bsc its late, i want.... To just get out of here.

Tmr would mark the end of the second week i am caged in ts place. I hv been following rules and directions by the letter for hope of faster recovery. I avoided things that i could do but the doctor didnt recommend. Mom didnt agree to this as she kept wanting to do MORE and challenge the doctor's recommendation. Always with all her suppliments and fancy stuff. She would hv brought a juice maker here if i didnt stop her. Today she bought some i dont know wat the heck supplements and orders me to take them. Says will heal better la, no worries la, surely no problems with doctors la(she did NOT consulted ANY doctor) and all her stupid excuse. I object, she gets mad. She just doesnt or incapable of understanding that if any of those clashed with current medication or what what, I AM SCREWED!!! And the last thing i want is to get hospitalized a second longer or bed ridden or worse, DEAD. Always with extra stuff to make others life worse. And im not the only one who knew this, dad was furious on multiple occasions bsc of mom likes to hiao.

I dont know what to think. Its just, i really really really wanna get outta here. To those who are willing to spend the time, money and effort to visit, i am very grateful to yall. U guys make my stay just that much better.

Haiz.. I am grumbling and ranting. Well, life is never fair, why try eh? No worries, i'll do fine. Off to read Brisingr, my all time favorite.. Cheerio!

Surgery over

N it fkin damm hurts. I've gt tubes all over. Looking like some un-awaken dracula monster right nw.

Wel, nothing much to report. Just stuck here for minimum three months...

Hopevu guys r doing better

Hospital

Well, nothing much. This would probably b da last time i wil b online for a long long time. Surgery begins tmr bout 8am. Will go in at 7. After that its bout 6 to 7 hours of surgery n then... Well, nothing much.

So, see ya

Angkor Wat trip review 2

off to the main event, Angkor Wat itself. hired a tour guide to take us through the place n explain all the history. he's a very nice guy. knows english, french and german... not bad eh? told us all about the temples and the history of it... the function of everything inside the temple, who lived there, why was it made and the taboo inside the temple. also, i would let the pictures do the talking

the entrance to the Angkor Wat's outer "gate". the water surrounding it is for defence like those dungeons n castles in fairytales lol... used to hv crocodiles n pirahnas inside them. too bad its only 5 feet deep...
after the main "gate" there's a long long long way till the 2nd gate... the 2 buildings on the side of the roads used to be the library

the walls has the story Ramayana carved on it...

the 2nd gate
to the left

and to the right

one of the entrance to the actual temple. its closed bsc its VERY steep and too many ppl hv injured themselves climbing it.. so there's a wooden one on the other side

the main tower of Angkor Wat
"hmm... AH HA!!! i've found it!!!!"

me planking the almost a thousand years old sacred shrine of the Khmer LOL

there was a civil war in Cambodia where Bhuddist are slaughtered... all the heads of bhuddist statues are chopped off and sold to the black market... this head is actually made of cement bsc of the restoration.. the body which is original is made of sandstone

unrestored ones would look like these... there's also alot of bullet holes in the temple itself
the wooden stairs replacing the original ones...


it does look like corns... lol
 the rest of the day is boring... so is day 3. did nothing but shopping... we watched a cultural show though.. nothing too interesting. its about the traditional wedding ceremony. bored actually
the "funny man"
 k.. that's bout it... the trip was fun, but i would prefer to go there with people i know and care. not some bunch of strangers and definitely not with my mom.. zzZ.... perhaps when the restoration is done, we all go together??




Def Tech sound Shen and Micro
Round singing on and on and on
With your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds, keep going, going, going
If we hold hands, there's nothing to be scared of
You're not that weak
But I won't always be by your side, so
Believe my way my way my way

"Believe it my way" are some words to live by
No matter how you feelin' even if you wanna cry
You gotsta do what you do, stayin' true to your crew
Givin' it soul on the role but always keepin' it new
With your own style, own existence, own reality
Bring complexity and love with creativity
Days are something special be your own vessel
Just take what's inside and give it a wrestle
Bring it to the light of day, take flight
Inject your own music to make up your own hype
It don't matter what you say, gotsta do it my way
Don't display dismay, stand up straight and portray
What you are inside, so you know who you are
Livin' it up, with no doubt ready for any scar
So that's it go make a hit, go out, benefit
From the words that we spit and never, never, ever quit

Def Tech sound Shen and Micro
Round singing on and on and on
With your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds, keep going, going, going
If we hold hands, there's nothing to be scared of
You're not that weak
But I won't always be by your side, so
Believe my way my way my way

When you say, I've already gone this far
It doesn't matter anymore
There's nothing I can do
And you give up and grieve and sigh in sorrow
When you're consoling and pitying yourself
There's someone who needs us - where are they?
By searching, you'll change, and finally start to pretend to understand
The exchange of words from the gut
Your influence will be unbelievably huge
So meetings and affection from mouth to ear
This limited endless world
To your earth, check your head, now above the image
Ya my way give it away give it away now
Don't give up, don't make me laugh, don't try and comfort me
Just be by my side and encourage me, ah

Def Tech sound Shen and Micro
Round singing on and on and on
With your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds, keep going, going, going
If we hold hands, there's nothing to be scared of
You're not that weak
But I won't always be by your side, so
Believe my way my way my way

Just do it "my way" take all these words to heart
Cuz it's the part to jump your life ahead to a new start
The way it should go down from beneath your feet to crown
Take the first step, J-U-M-P out the ground
Seven, six, five, four free up your mind
D-E-F Tech commin' at ya with the rhymes
We just doin' how we doin', livin' our way too true
Bein' us as we livin' in this Tokyo Zoo
Reach out, extend your hand, you'll find somethin' to grab
Someone to help you, no doubt, when times make you sad
But just remember after the storm, there will be calm
Just how the dust be settling like in Afghan when we bomb
Lift yourself up, take heed, lift up yourself, indeed
Doin' "my way" you gonna find you got all that you need
Life is too short, don't regret or look back to forget
That you were true to "my way" stay real, it's a bet

Def Tech sound Shen and Micro
Round singing on and on and on
With your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds, keep going, going, going
If we hold hands, there's nothing to be scared of
You're not that weak
But I won't always be by your side, so
Believe my way my way my way

In the cracks between dreams and reality, in between passion and logic
There are limits, one time
When you decide you want to be
The sort of person who can make it through
Days of being unfulfilled, you're tight
Fight high and right proud
Though you have that, you're still trembling today
No matter how old you get
Don't ever forget this
First you've got to let go of
The "shame" and "inferiority"
And "hatred" and start talking
Start crying and then
Today you'll celebrate
But tomorrow a new day will begin

i like this song...

Angkor Wat trip review 1

finally got time to sit down and type a full blog post. just came back from GH for autologous(donate blood for self use during surgery). tomorrow CT scan.


k, back to the trip. first of all, i dont know exacly where and when we're going until the very LAST minute. before 4th of august, all i know is 
1. going for a trip which includes Angkor Wat
2. going on the 4th of august
3. its a morning flight(which is WRONG)


only after i got on to mom's friend's car tat i know
1. we're going with a bunch of frends(mom's, and i dont even know how many of them)
2. its a NIGHT flight(11pm to be exact)


and i still dont know where we're heading and what's da schedule. so im pretty much preparing for every possible thing. its like a rabbit hiding inside their holes waiting to see what happens next. and this is NOT cool.. when i finished packing the other day, i used a small backpack to pack all my stuff since i dont really bring much to trips. mom barged in last minute(as in only 15 minutes left till friend comes) and saw my bag. she went out and brought in a freakin large luggage bag and told me to use that. i told her i dont hv much and that bag is ridiculously big. she told(correction, ORDERED, COMMANDED, INSISTED) me to use that bag and said "this one we hand carry". WTF!? what's wrong with a SUITABLE bag and wth's with bringing a HUMONGOUS bag and HAND CARRYing it!? i wanted to ask but she just glared at me and turned and left. great... nice start for a trip that she described as "the last trip u'll be going on for a long time bsc of ur operation... i planned this trip so that you can relax(more on that later, everything is intertwined)" 


big bag? fine.... 


after we got onto her friend's car, we left for.... not the airport. another friend's house at penang. the guy's got a black ferrari parked on the porch which he rarely drives. we went to eat at teluk bayan. i ate nothing. having ate half an hour before and was pissed off by mom. 


finally we got to the airport. THEN i know
1. the flight's at 11pm
2. we're going with 6 other ppl(3 couples)
3. we fly from penang to KLIA, then transit to Siem Riep(in Cambodia)
4. the transit flight is at 6am
5. we're b spending 4 hours at KLIA
6. one of the wives looks and acts like a whore(seriously)
7. the men are all HEAVY smokers and drinkers(which i would suffer later on)


there was a delay at penang airport but nothing major. when we reached KLIA, we ate and supposedly rest at McD(sry lenny, other places are full). we ate. and i went to buy sweets and magazine(which proved to be useful). and start wasting time. later on we switched and slept at a restaurant at the left of the main entrance... the name is asian something de.. everything was fine until the japanese(i think.. either japanese or korean) couple who was sleeping at the next seat did something very interesting. the wife was sleeping soundly but the husband woke up. he wanted to ask her something and called her but she didn't wake up. i was the only one who witnessed this bsc i was the only one around that isnt sleeping, was online-ing with my netbook. he tapped his wife at where i dunno... but the wife went totally hysterical LOL... screamed for a few seconds... EVERYONE woke up and looked at them haha.. 


at 6am, we're supposed to board the plane to cambodia.... now the interesting stuff comes. we bought 1 ticket to cambodia, we boarded 3 planes LOL.. when we got into the waiting area 15 minutes early, they announced that the flight is delayed by half an hour. shrugged it off bsc its normal since we're flying air asia... we boarded the plane. the plane taxi to the runway. in the mid of it, before we reached the runway, the plane stopped and just stopped there, halfway till the runway lol... then came all sorts of mechanical buzzing n whining sounds. 15 minutes later, the door opened and the crew comes up n down. half an hour later, they announce that there's a problem with the brakes and hv to change plane... 


its another half hour wait till we boarded the next plane. felt lucky i bought 3 magazines haha.. the 2nd plane was prettier bsc it was white with grey artistic writings all over it. boarded the plane... then the plane taxied to the runway. this time we're actually ON the runway. then, the plane's engine powered up for takeoff. BRRRRRRRrrrrrrr.........brm.. engine stopped. i was laughing to myself... the sound was so odd.. crew come on n down... then after 15 minutes ON the runway, they announce the right engine was faulty and would taxi back to the terminal and another plane would b on the left side of out plane. LOL!!!


k, so we taxi back to the terminal.. the passengers are already grumbling and impatient bsc most of them have waited through the night at the airport to catch this flight. another half an hour later... a red n white air asia plane taxi to our left. after some fuzz, we boarded it. it went through the routine checks and left for the runway. before we got into the runway, the plane stopped, AGAIN... and then again with all those mechanical sounds... it was another half an hour before the plane started moving again. during take off, the plane was moving slower... as when the plane takes off, you're usually pressed into the seat due to g-force and newton's law. at that particular take off... none of that happened.. but luckily, we took off.... everyone CLAPPED LOL..


at Siem Riep Airport.. it was HOT. it was hotter than malaysia. hired a driver to drive us around. the best thing is that it only cost 30 bucks!! ok, its in USD, but convert it and its only RM90 for the WHOLE DAY. it doesnt matter if we woke him up at 3 in the morning or ask him to drive us everywhere, its a fixed price, 30 bucks!! and he even bought mineral water(which is in a very big demand since its hot) for FREE!! he was a nice guy who could speak english and french haha.. 


we went to visit the famous Tonle Sap and Mekong river. yes, they're both in the form 1 history text books. it was fun... we're on boats and they took us along the river and into the big lake. we passed by a residential area.. they live on the water by building houses on top of the river.
the group of ppl.. the whore is next to me
on the boat..
oops...
stupid smokers...
the "residential" area... on the river..
poor pigs being kept under the house.. a few inches from the river below....
took a sampan like boat to the more secluded parts of the river...
everyone was happy eh? look at the next picture please...
slept...
slept...
i don know how they can get bored of this... mass sleeping already during the trip back...

k.. after that, went to the hotel to check in. the hotel's name is Angkor Miracle, 5 star.. yet it cost RM190 per night, but everything was nice, except for the breakfast. the lousiest buffet breakfast i've seen in all the hotels i've been to.
hotel front door... n tats our van on the right...
this is NOT very appropriate for a decoration on top of the bed...
at night.. we ate buffet at a show. they serve korean, japanese, vietnamese and cambodian food. it was totally awesome.. ate till bloated. then we watched the show about the Angkor Wat. it was... tedious... even with all the modern inserts like laser and sound effects and stuff, it was downright boring...

after the show... the females went to shop and leaving the guys to go to pubs... there, the guys started to order beer cause beer there is cheap, 1usd per bottle. when they asked me to hv some, i said no and they're obviously pissed. didnt care, no is no.

after that, back to the hotel. nothing interesting.. though the jazz bar is only open till 11.30pm... wat the hell...

next day. breakfast at hotel.. worst i've ever had. not much selection, those there are not as tasty as others i've been to. pissed at mom for forcing me to eat some weird noodle soup. was eating pasta and mom asked me to taste that vietnamese noodle soup. i said no, politely. i wasnt even finished and was still eating, she just grabbed my plate and gave it to the waiter who took it away. then she put the bowl of noodles infront of me, took away the fork from my HAND and gave me a chopstick and that look which is saying "eat this and im not asking, im ORDERING". didnt care, i stood up and left.

later in the afternoon, went for the main reason we're here. Angkor Wat. there's 4 minor temples before we go for the main one.  i've had fun exploring.. the others.... not so much, they're always hurrying and rushing... impatient and not appreciating the amount of work being done to build something this beautiful. they only want to cam whore and hiao... nvm, let the pictures do the talking...


being the cameraman is fun...

at least i know how to have fun xD

the wall with stories of the attack during the reign of the Khmer Empire

fun....

and i ran into a tree... literally

me planking lol...

WEEE.... 


i played too much Assassin's Creed... lol... maybe its the Bleeding Effect from being too long in the Animus haha..
planking the entrance to one of the temples lol

those old nutters didnt climb this temple... but I did!!!



wth's the tree doing sticking out from an old building?

Ooh.. that's why...


 had lunch at a restaurant. local food here is funny but very tasty. fried morning glory anyone? lol.. and beaten eggs fried with fish... funny stuff. after that, back out to the temples. having done 3 temples before lunch, we went to the 4th temple. which isnt much bsc its under restoration. 

too long... continue on next post...