was already very irritated yst and wasnt in the best of mood for a few days. now that i am feeling better. there has got to be something that needs to stir up unhappiness in the house.
give me a break, please?

i really hate it when things go this way. I really hate it. I hate it a lot.
i seriously feel like just telling them.
just sign the freaking paper and get out of each others life.
do whatever each of you wants
there is no point in staying together, if all you do do is quarrel and quarrel and quarrel.
seriously what the hell.

i know the kids are all big enough but hello?!
children are always children. they want to stay in a family that has LOVE.
not in a family that only has fire ALL DAY LONG, every single day.

i am already very worried about this and that. now THIS?!
thanks.
nobody wants to give in.
nobody wants to compromise.
what kind of family is this.
what kind?
you tell me.

whats the point of looking good on the outside, but on the inside it is rotten?!

WHAT THE HELL, SERIOUSLY?!?!??!

that feeling sucks

so the bomb dropped on me AGAIN yesterday.
so whatever is predicted MIGHT-MOST PROBABLY-REALLY WILL COME TRUE if i continue with this relationship.

AND

I DONT WANT THAT KIND OF ENDING.

I dont want to get married and then ends it broken. NO. I DON'T WANT THAT!
SO TELL ME. what am i supposed to do. WRONG. rather tell me how i should get through it. HOW am i going to cope with it..? will i do just fine? just like old times?

and results gona be released on 23rd August. wish me luck. i need loads of that. I will it will put a real good full stop on it and everything just ends perfectly. so i can move on.

I need to move on.
I am freaking 24 years old. going to be 25th soon!
no more time to waste =(

Wish me luck. Pray for me.

rambles.... ramblings... bla bla bla...

I still want to be an SQ/CP cc! still badly want to be.
Good pay & I get paid to travel  -->> this is the best of all!!!
BUT! i am already 24 going on 25th! damn. thats an age too old to be one. =(
of course, loads of pros and cons.
the worst thing that could happen to me is when i have my period and i am having a hell of a day and i still have to fly and have long flights! of course, MC is still an option! =)
but whatever it is. I guess i have to chuck that dream aside for.... everrrrr :(((((
i have been telling mom almost every other day that "I STILL WANT TO BE A CC" =(
AND BEST OF ALL.
I DREAMT THAT I WENT FOR THE INTERVIEW AND I PASSED AND I STARTED TRAINING!!!!!!

what's that.... A.... sign that i can be a CC???????

sometimes, i really wonder what dreams r for.. the dreams that we made at night when we sleep. is it a kind of communication from God with us? no one can really tell me anything about it. I guess only God can..

OH wells. i guess, i have to slowly.. chuck the dream to be a CC a.. w.. a.. y.. =(

results coming out pretty soon..... VERY soon... 10-15 days or so... I am nervoussssss!  =(
Hopefully everything ends well. IT needs to end well! no other options! MUST END WELL! =)

and whats with the recent popular name with JAYDEN~~~~~~~

a lot of people are naming their new baby boys.. JAYDENNNNN...

i see them ALOT in birthday cakes! and friend's baby boy namesss!

tts all.. JUST.. rambles... n thoughts! needs to sleep now... rather.. naps... =)