i am very H A P P Y today.
hehes.
simply because its shopping day today!
I got tix to travel back home!
and I...
haha! secret****
it's just weird larhs. =p
anyway, i am going back home tomorrow.
i will revise.
so don't worry.
i really will revise.
i love my books so much that i am going to bring them all back with me. =D
got to say very very big thanks to Ling Hui..
my dear Mad and Heup and ** yeahs many many more..
these four names are the only name that pops out now. =p
thus their name appears here. =)
I don't know how many THANK YOUS i must say to thank the one above for letting me know u all. :)
days in Singapore without u people would be really un-bearable!
will i miss Singapore?
i definitely won't.
i will miss my friends though. :）
anyway!
Merry advances Christmas and Happy new year!!!
see you guys next year!
enjoy the hols! go party!!! =D
Sunday, December 9, 2007
bOO!
went for this NUS thgy.. organised by DonOUts...
its a charity event for the children.. so that they will have a different xmas this year.
hopefully they really will. :)
I went out with how many strangers yesterday? =p
the only person i know well is heup. NO one else.
yeaps. met cj, wt, xy too. sec school friends.
but haven been really in contact with them since sec school.
so things are rather weird.
but i can feel that they are still the same as before..
hmm if not almost the same.
its just that. i felt quite distant to them. :/
its understood bahs.
we haven meet for years. oh wells, glad that they are doing very fine. =)
then went for supper at newton.
with Heup's army friends and his pri school frens.
they are a bunch of rather nice people. and definitely CLEVER bunch of people.
have u ever sat with a bunch of people whom all on average for straight A's and B's for their a'levels?
i had! yesterday.
thanks for the company.
so i went for supper with 8 strangers and 1 fren.
haha! it's an achievement.
maybe i should try more of this next time.
haha! it's quite fun actually.
and! haha!
i must say this. thank you heup! =D
there are things which i heard yst, yet i pretend i din hear.
simply because i too think that it is nonsense. =p
and. haha! it's very true that it's no longer la ok.
lily do grow up and become wiser.
there is no point in lingering to the past when you know that there will be no outcome.
it's time to love myself more and fight for my own happiness. :)
went for this NUS thgy.. organised by DonOUts...
its a charity event for the children.. so that they will have a different xmas this year.
hopefully they really will. :)
I went out with how many strangers yesterday? =p
the only person i know well is heup. NO one else.
yeaps. met cj, wt, xy too. sec school friends.
but haven been really in contact with them since sec school.
so things are rather weird.
but i can feel that they are still the same as before..
hmm if not almost the same.
its just that. i felt quite distant to them. :/
its understood bahs.
we haven meet for years. oh wells, glad that they are doing very fine. =)
then went for supper at newton.
with Heup's army friends and his pri school frens.
they are a bunch of rather nice people. and definitely CLEVER bunch of people.
have u ever sat with a bunch of people whom all on average for straight A's and B's for their a'levels?
i had! yesterday.
thanks for the company.
so i went for supper with 8 strangers and 1 fren.
haha! it's an achievement.
maybe i should try more of this next time.
haha! it's quite fun actually.
and! haha!
i must say this. thank you heup! =D
there are things which i heard yst, yet i pretend i din hear.
simply because i too think that it is nonsense. =p
and. haha! it's very true that it's no longer la ok.
lily do grow up and become wiser.
there is no point in lingering to the past when you know that there will be no outcome.
it's time to love myself more and fight for my own happiness. :)
Thursday, December 6, 2007
so fast.
its december.
its the last month of the year ald.
which is really fasttt.. =X
i realise i'm leading a very unhealthy life here. =X
no i am not on diet.
i am just lazy okies.
my laziness.. can help me save money and let me go on diet.
which is not bad. =D
but unhealthy la.
that is why i must go back home to earn all my healthiness back. =D
so me confirmed.
next Tuesday am flying back home. =D
i want to travel to a place where it is snowing.
really snowing.
when will it be?
its december.
its the last month of the year ald.
which is really fasttt.. =X
i realise i'm leading a very unhealthy life here. =X
no i am not on diet.
i am just lazy okies.
my laziness.. can help me save money and let me go on diet.
which is not bad. =D
but unhealthy la.
that is why i must go back home to earn all my healthiness back. =D
so me confirmed.
next Tuesday am flying back home. =D
i want to travel to a place where it is snowing.
really snowing.
when will it be?
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
earn big bucks.
all that is in my mind now is..
how to earn big bucks..
to satisfy my needs and wants and make everyone around me happy!
yay!
who says money isn't evrything?
i think money really is everything.
at least now.
maybe i will change my mind later on. =p
i need to receive some love.
hais.
my another dear girl, just met with some super suay thingy yst.
she is such a nice girl.
don't understand why the stupid guy wants to get another girl to satisfy his stupid pleasure.
why cant he be good to my dear girl.
stupid u!
grrrrrr!!! idiot!
it hurts to hear her cry while talking.
and i don;t know what to say.
what should i say?
just forget about the stupid bastart?? he is not worth your tears?
easy to say arh... hard to carry out...
hopefully she will get better soon.
time do heal.
army guys.. hmm...
there is this trend that they will go chiong when they book out in d weekends.
is it true?
whatever you guys do, please think about your girlfriends out there who have been waiting for u to book out during the weekends.
how can you say what, girls.. pretty or ugly are all the same in - - -
Gosh! what did you guys take us girls as??
hmph!
all that is in my mind now is..
how to earn big bucks..
to satisfy my needs and wants and make everyone around me happy!
yay!
who says money isn't evrything?
i think money really is everything.
at least now.
maybe i will change my mind later on. =p
i need to receive some love.
hais.
my another dear girl, just met with some super suay thingy yst.
she is such a nice girl.
don't understand why the stupid guy wants to get another girl to satisfy his stupid pleasure.
why cant he be good to my dear girl.
stupid u!
grrrrrr!!! idiot!
it hurts to hear her cry while talking.
and i don;t know what to say.
what should i say?
just forget about the stupid bastart?? he is not worth your tears?
easy to say arh... hard to carry out...
hopefully she will get better soon.
time do heal.
army guys.. hmm...
there is this trend that they will go chiong when they book out in d weekends.
is it true?
whatever you guys do, please think about your girlfriends out there who have been waiting for u to book out during the weekends.
how can you say what, girls.. pretty or ugly are all the same in - - -
Gosh! what did you guys take us girls as??
hmph!
Monday, December 3, 2007
I don't know why, but i hate. dislike. detest. ill mannered brats.
those people who are RUDE to their parents.
Taking their parents for granted.
really.
you think its a must for them to serve you?
you think its a must for them to please you?
you think its a must for them to provide for everything you wanted?
you think its a must for them to ask you if you want to have your diner now or later, a must for them to call you out for meals?
why can't you automatically get your ass off your room and move towards the dining table?
why can't you answer them politely when they asked you for questions?
shiet.
i tell you.
its NOT a must for them to do so.
appreciate their efforts when they do such things for you.
don't take them for granted.
you know who is the TWO people whom you should love the most?
ITS YOUR PARENTS!
not ur gf or bfs, wives or husbands.
I know i am not a perfect child for my parents.
I know i sometimes throw my tantrum. BUT i don't do this every single day.
It's VERY annoying to see people using THAT kind of tone to speak to their parents.
As if they owe them something and deserved such treatment.
Think about it!
who is the one who has been providing for your needs all these time?
most importantly.
WHO IS THE ONE WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU?
WHERE DID YOU COME FROM?
you din come out from a rock or rubbish bin or whatever.
be grateful to your parents.
ITS NOT EASY TO BRING UP A CHILD UP.
not that i have experienced it.
BUT at the age of 20, I've seen quite a lot. I've experienced quite a bit.
it's not easy.
you say working is hard? is tiring? you'd rather stay home waiting for your aged parents to go out to work and provide for you? think again!
then what about your parents who have been doing so for the past don't know how many years to bring you up?? The one who created them didn't give them billions of dollars to fund u. to bring you up. they din get their money from the santa or whatsoever. they worked for it!
think about it.
If you have called you parents busssstartttsss, beettcheesss.... or whatsoever names you gave them..
THINK again! are u right? are they wrong?
you wouldn't have anything without your parents!
Your parents are there for you to love.
they are to be loved and still to be loved.
.peace.
those people who are RUDE to their parents.
Taking their parents for granted.
really.
you think its a must for them to serve you?
you think its a must for them to please you?
you think its a must for them to provide for everything you wanted?
you think its a must for them to ask you if you want to have your diner now or later, a must for them to call you out for meals?
why can't you automatically get your ass off your room and move towards the dining table?
why can't you answer them politely when they asked you for questions?
shiet.
i tell you.
its NOT a must for them to do so.
appreciate their efforts when they do such things for you.
don't take them for granted.
you know who is the TWO people whom you should love the most?
ITS YOUR PARENTS!
not ur gf or bfs, wives or husbands.
I know i am not a perfect child for my parents.
I know i sometimes throw my tantrum. BUT i don't do this every single day.
It's VERY annoying to see people using THAT kind of tone to speak to their parents.
As if they owe them something and deserved such treatment.
Think about it!
who is the one who has been providing for your needs all these time?
most importantly.
WHO IS THE ONE WHO GAVE BIRTH TO YOU?
WHERE DID YOU COME FROM?
you din come out from a rock or rubbish bin or whatever.
be grateful to your parents.
ITS NOT EASY TO BRING UP A CHILD UP.
not that i have experienced it.
BUT at the age of 20, I've seen quite a lot. I've experienced quite a bit.
it's not easy.
you say working is hard? is tiring? you'd rather stay home waiting for your aged parents to go out to work and provide for you? think again!
then what about your parents who have been doing so for the past don't know how many years to bring you up?? The one who created them didn't give them billions of dollars to fund u. to bring you up. they din get their money from the santa or whatsoever. they worked for it!
think about it.
If you have called you parents busssstartttsss, beettcheesss.... or whatsoever names you gave them..
THINK again! are u right? are they wrong?
you wouldn't have anything without your parents!
Your parents are there for you to love.
they are to be loved and still to be loved.
.peace.
Saturday, December 1, 2007
there are many things in life which we really can't understand.
or rather it is better for us not to understand.
like at this point in time, and actually honestly, many a times i don't really care anymore.
i have decided to let go now.
let everything take its own path.
after all, what is the use of worrying so much.
when the other party don't even care.
i don;t understand why some people can be so fake.
whatever.
i am very gullible.
i admit this.
everyone who knows me knows about this.
despite being reminded time and again.
i just can't put a guard against people.
i believe there is no reason for them to betray me.
there i no reason for them to hurt me.
what is to their benefit anyway.
i choose my friends.
those friends i made with.
if i trust u fully i will tell you everything.
we will click when we first meet.
but if u decide on taking advantage of me.
then just take it that i am stupid.
my stupidity is to your advantage.
yeahs.
God Bless those people.
no no.. dun misunderstand me k?
i'm not sad. i am not emo-ing.
i'm just.
yeahs stating what i felt.
do i sound sad?
hmm..
not really. =p
i can't wait to go back home.
to leave this place which is full of fake-ness.
back at home i can be with my dearest family who wants everything best for me and they will not hurt me.
why can't people treat each other the right way?
or rather it is better for us not to understand.
like at this point in time, and actually honestly, many a times i don't really care anymore.
i have decided to let go now.
let everything take its own path.
after all, what is the use of worrying so much.
when the other party don't even care.
i don;t understand why some people can be so fake.
whatever.
i am very gullible.
i admit this.
everyone who knows me knows about this.
despite being reminded time and again.
i just can't put a guard against people.
i believe there is no reason for them to betray me.
there i no reason for them to hurt me.
what is to their benefit anyway.
i choose my friends.
those friends i made with.
if i trust u fully i will tell you everything.
we will click when we first meet.
but if u decide on taking advantage of me.
then just take it that i am stupid.
my stupidity is to your advantage.
yeahs.
God Bless those people.
no no.. dun misunderstand me k?
i'm not sad. i am not emo-ing.
i'm just.
yeahs stating what i felt.
do i sound sad?
hmm..
not really. =p
i can't wait to go back home.
to leave this place which is full of fake-ness.
back at home i can be with my dearest family who wants everything best for me and they will not hurt me.
why can't people treat each other the right way?
Friday, November 30, 2007
sad.
my baby mp3.. hais.. dying soon le..
my thousand over songs.. hundreds over pictures are all gone.. ;(
now.. only can listen to FM radio.. and yeah i am nice to my baby.. i only put in a few songs now.. with back ups in my lappy..
but those thousand over songs. hais. NO back up!!! =((((
nvms..
what's gone is gone..
if i send it to the doctor..
it'll cause a damage of $80-100 to my pocket.
so I'm not sending it to the hospital.
shall just yahs.. leave it..
Shall go get new phone. =p
went PS & Orchard with Mad girl yesterday! =) FUN FUN FUN!! her hair is so damn short!!! the style is like my hair style back 10 years ago... haha! I don't know if it suits her not. Madeleine is still Madeleine. so no matter what hairstyle she has, she is still my dear Mad! =) met the three sisters. If they walk out together, i think everyone will know that they are sisters. They look so alike! {duh! they are sisters}
haha! went shop shop. Caused $50 damage to my pocket. =p
still okay la hors! not very bad!
then! i was tempted to buy a mug for myself!
Mad said she can buy for me as advanced 21st bday gift. but i dun wan. =p
so many mickeys! love Mickey!
a few of them are so nice! so cute!
I can't decide on one.
so yahs.
never buy.
bumped into a few friends and a few teachers at PS and Orchard! haha! 1st time i bumped into so many!!
and i met someone. hmm.. someone. very familiar face. hmm. but i don't know who he is. I am not sure if i know him or not. BUT he looks very familiar. someone very close yet. it seems to me that we are strangers. yeaps.
Tml Show is going to have his concert here in Singapore!!! hais! can't go!! sad sad! Hopefully his concert will be a success !!! =) success! success! success!
my baby mp3.. hais.. dying soon le..
my thousand over songs.. hundreds over pictures are all gone.. ;(
now.. only can listen to FM radio.. and yeah i am nice to my baby.. i only put in a few songs now.. with back ups in my lappy..
but those thousand over songs. hais. NO back up!!! =((((
nvms..
what's gone is gone..
if i send it to the doctor..
it'll cause a damage of $80-100 to my pocket.
so I'm not sending it to the hospital.
shall just yahs.. leave it..
Shall go get new phone. =p
went PS & Orchard with Mad girl yesterday! =) FUN FUN FUN!! her hair is so damn short!!! the style is like my hair style back 10 years ago... haha! I don't know if it suits her not. Madeleine is still Madeleine. so no matter what hairstyle she has, she is still my dear Mad! =) met the three sisters. If they walk out together, i think everyone will know that they are sisters. They look so alike! {duh! they are sisters}
haha! went shop shop. Caused $50 damage to my pocket. =p
still okay la hors! not very bad!
then! i was tempted to buy a mug for myself!
Mad said she can buy for me as advanced 21st bday gift. but i dun wan. =p
so many mickeys! love Mickey!
a few of them are so nice! so cute!
I can't decide on one.
so yahs.
never buy.
bumped into a few friends and a few teachers at PS and Orchard! haha! 1st time i bumped into so many!!
and i met someone. hmm.. someone. very familiar face. hmm. but i don't know who he is. I am not sure if i know him or not. BUT he looks very familiar. someone very close yet. it seems to me that we are strangers. yeaps.
Tml Show is going to have his concert here in Singapore!!! hais! can't go!! sad sad! Hopefully his concert will be a success !!! =) success! success! success!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
everyone is in the holies mood.
i pity myself as well as those schooling now. =/
why cant we all have holies altogether?
like can i ask y SIM have such a weird timing for hollies.
i miss those days when i can go back home every June and Dec.
Now i have to pon school to go back in Dec. Just because.
I only have FOUR days of lesson in the last THREE WEEKS of December.
It's not my fault i pon school okies?
Is u all TEMPT me 1. =p
so u must forgive me.
Really not my fault.
Can't blame me.
lalala.
I did something wrong yesterday.
But please don't punish me.
I learnt (wait... is there such a word --- learnt???) my mistake already.
i really already do.
SO please. forgive me.
I can't wait to go back home.
Happy Hollies and Happy having examinations okies. =p
如果我做错了一件事我只希望得到你的原谅。
因为你比任何人都还要重要。
对不起。
i pity myself as well as those schooling now. =/
why cant we all have holies altogether?
like can i ask y SIM have such a weird timing for hollies.
i miss those days when i can go back home every June and Dec.
Now i have to pon school to go back in Dec. Just because.
I only have FOUR days of lesson in the last THREE WEEKS of December.
It's not my fault i pon school okies?
Is u all TEMPT me 1. =p
so u must forgive me.
Really not my fault.
Can't blame me.
lalala.
I did something wrong yesterday.
But please don't punish me.
I learnt (wait... is there such a word --- learnt???) my mistake already.
i really already do.
SO please. forgive me.
I can't wait to go back home.
Happy Hollies and Happy having examinations okies. =p
如果我做错了一件事我只希望得到你的原谅。
因为你比任何人都还要重要。
对不起。
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i still can let go.
sians.
life hasn't been good.
one of them come one after another.
i don't welcome them, yet they still insist on coming.
they come uninvited.
!
irritating.
trying to let go.
God Bless Me.
Or whoever you are who is in charge.
pLease let me off. just let me OFF okays?
Please.
I am begging.
P/S:
saturday girls outing, anywhere to recommend?
i dont know where to go. any suggestion will be fine.
any suggestion is really FINE.
i am suffering from brain damage. cant think of any place. so yah. please help.
真的很不开心
sians.
life hasn't been good.
one of them come one after another.
i don't welcome them, yet they still insist on coming.
they come uninvited.
!
irritating.
trying to let go.
God Bless Me.
Or whoever you are who is in charge.
pLease let me off. just let me OFF okays?
Please.
I am begging.
P/S:
saturday girls outing, anywhere to recommend?
i dont know where to go. any suggestion will be fine.
any suggestion is really FINE.
i am suffering from brain damage. cant think of any place. so yah. please help.
真的很不开心
Sunday, November 25, 2007
went to watch a movie for the very first time in the year. =p
Watched Enchanted with Heup.
Nice movie. Go and watch.
haha. it's very fairytale. =/
very funny and romantic. Go watch. =)
thanks for asking me go. LOL.
laughed thru the show.. =p
waiting for fairytale to happen. =p
waiting for my prince charming to appear. =)
can a storybook view of romance survive in the real world?
Watched Enchanted with Heup.
Nice movie. Go and watch.
haha. it's very fairytale. =/
very funny and romantic. Go watch. =)
thanks for asking me go. LOL.
laughed thru the show.. =p
waiting for fairytale to happen. =p
waiting for my prince charming to appear. =)
can a storybook view of romance survive in the real world?
Saturday, November 24, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! =)
i am turning 21 soon. and am. very scared.
cuz it will mean..
more responsibilities.
have to be more independent.
have to be more strong.
more decisive.
wiser.
many many more. blahs.
and. i have to start planning for my future too.
like. some business i should be in. investment opportunities.
bla bla bla.
Now that i think of it.
me and my 2 brothers have all agreed not to take over Daddy's business.
Hmm... then who is going to take over his business when he retire?
something for me to discuss with my parents in the next few years, hmm.. maybe in four years time, when i am holding a stable job and stable income. by then i would be able to provide for both my parents and yeahs, start the next half of my life living in this beautiful place. =p
hmm..
{wat is there to plan when you don't know what will happen tml? haha! emo-ing again!}
anyway. am quite stress. looking at the amount of work i have to complete.
i have to study. wish me luck.
i have started revision since 2-3 weeks ago.
I know la. very late. but then. better be late than never right? =p
but then. its weird. people whom i am staying with now. keep asking me, y am i always studying. day and night. everytime they see me i will be studying and yea. studying. lolx. but i don't feel so lehs... =p
I am envious of Shane.
Y?
because.
he get to go back home every single week. haha! because he stays in Johore. Tt's y. which i don't and pathetic me only get to go back twice a year and have to consider about this and that. =( and trip to and fro from sg to JB takes u only about 3 hours. and it costs u about S$7.00. So damn cheap right? I should have agreed to move to Malaysia many many years ago when Dad asked for opinion. blahs! anw, that Shane, he makes it seem as if, it is really that easy to move from one country to another. if it is that easy. i would have moved. =/ then i wouldn't miss home so so much. i won't have to think about air ticket fare and stuffs. the amount i paid for to go back home is like 32 times the amount Shane paid for to go home? -_-'' ok la. i am jealous. very. but i know jealous also no use. i am just complaining. =p
I am very glad to hear that business have been picking up. Hopefully, it will prosper. hehes. then Miss Tio won't have to work so hard. In the 1st place who says that working life is fun? It's not fun at all. I miss schooling days. I mean, education before university. who said that university is FUN? i don't feel so lehs!
I have an attitude problem. Serious one. =p
haha! I don't reply to people who msged me when i am busy with my work.
NO matter who you are. I just wont reply unless its a very urgent matter. =p
so yahs. am sorry HB. I was busy studying back few days ago when you msg-ed me. =p hopefully u r doing fine in NS. =)
But actualy this is not called AP right? cuz i want to concentrate on my work u seee! haha! =D
K lerh. I shall have my lunch and then S T U D Y. =)
i am turning 21 soon. and am. very scared.
cuz it will mean..
more responsibilities.
have to be more independent.
have to be more strong.
more decisive.
wiser.
many many more. blahs.
and. i have to start planning for my future too.
like. some business i should be in. investment opportunities.
bla bla bla.
Now that i think of it.
me and my 2 brothers have all agreed not to take over Daddy's business.
Hmm... then who is going to take over his business when he retire?
something for me to discuss with my parents in the next few years, hmm.. maybe in four years time, when i am holding a stable job and stable income. by then i would be able to provide for both my parents and yeahs, start the next half of my life living in this beautiful place. =p
hmm..
{wat is there to plan when you don't know what will happen tml? haha! emo-ing again!}
anyway. am quite stress. looking at the amount of work i have to complete.
i have to study. wish me luck.
i have started revision since 2-3 weeks ago.
I know la. very late. but then. better be late than never right? =p
but then. its weird. people whom i am staying with now. keep asking me, y am i always studying. day and night. everytime they see me i will be studying and yea. studying. lolx. but i don't feel so lehs... =p
I am envious of Shane.
Y?
because.
he get to go back home every single week. haha! because he stays in Johore. Tt's y. which i don't and pathetic me only get to go back twice a year and have to consider about this and that. =( and trip to and fro from sg to JB takes u only about 3 hours. and it costs u about S$7.00. So damn cheap right? I should have agreed to move to Malaysia many many years ago when Dad asked for opinion. blahs! anw, that Shane, he makes it seem as if, it is really that easy to move from one country to another. if it is that easy. i would have moved. =/ then i wouldn't miss home so so much. i won't have to think about air ticket fare and stuffs. the amount i paid for to go back home is like 32 times the amount Shane paid for to go home? -_-'' ok la. i am jealous. very. but i know jealous also no use. i am just complaining. =p
I am very glad to hear that business have been picking up. Hopefully, it will prosper. hehes. then Miss Tio won't have to work so hard. In the 1st place who says that working life is fun? It's not fun at all. I miss schooling days. I mean, education before university. who said that university is FUN? i don't feel so lehs!
I have an attitude problem. Serious one. =p
haha! I don't reply to people who msged me when i am busy with my work.
NO matter who you are. I just wont reply unless its a very urgent matter. =p
so yahs. am sorry HB. I was busy studying back few days ago when you msg-ed me. =p hopefully u r doing fine in NS. =)
But actualy this is not called AP right? cuz i want to concentrate on my work u seee! haha! =D
K lerh. I shall have my lunch and then S T U D Y. =)
Thursday, November 22, 2007
I want this phone.It's time for me to change to a new phone. and.
yahs. haha. get a new phone.
since my mp3 is dying soon.
hais. i shall consider getting myself this phoney. =D
or rather. anyone wants to consider buying this for me?
as my advanced bday pressie. x-mas pressie or whatever. hahas. I shall continue to dream.=p
i'm going back home in 2 weeks time.
yes exactly 2 weeks. I cant wait to go back! =D
Christmas is coming.
Now that i think about it.
For my 11 years in Singapore.
I have not spent a single x-mas here.
I can't wait to go back home. =D
VERY NICE SONG! =D He's 2nd after Edison. =p
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
My mp3 is sick. bus rides without listening to songs is soo boring.
hais. need bring it over to the doctor liaos.
i duno how much damage it is going to make to my wallet. hais.
Now it gives me better reason to buy a walkman phone. =p
i should count myself lucky huh???
i don't know.
i don't think i am lucky enough. haha.
the human in me isn't contented.
whatever. i will learn as the days goes by.
Please give me some time. =D
I think i am going to pon more days of school in December because.
YEAHS.
I miss home too too too much much much.
Miss home a lot larhs.
i miss Mommy's home cooked food.
I miss chatting with Mommy.
I miss Daddy's breakfast.
I miss riding on Daddy's motor cycle.
I miss my parents nagging.
I miss everything back HOME. blahs. yeahs.
I Miss all these small small things that is happening in almost every household every single day.
What is the point of studying so much actually?
when in the end
we will all die...????
what's the point?
In the first place, why are we here?
got to mug. mug. mug. hais. i know mock exam is like NEXT YEAR.
NEXT YEAR. but yeahs.
it's getting scarier as the days goes by.
I also duno if i can still continue next year.
do you believe in fate?
do you resign to fate?
do you?
I do.
hais. need bring it over to the doctor liaos.
i duno how much damage it is going to make to my wallet. hais.
Now it gives me better reason to buy a walkman phone. =p
i should count myself lucky huh???
i don't know.
i don't think i am lucky enough. haha.
the human in me isn't contented.
whatever. i will learn as the days goes by.
Please give me some time. =D
I think i am going to pon more days of school in December because.
YEAHS.
I miss home too too too much much much.
Miss home a lot larhs.
i miss Mommy's home cooked food.
I miss chatting with Mommy.
I miss Daddy's breakfast.
I miss riding on Daddy's motor cycle.
I miss my parents nagging.
I miss everything back HOME. blahs. yeahs.
I Miss all these small small things that is happening in almost every household every single day.
What is the point of studying so much actually?
when in the end
we will all die...????
what's the point?
In the first place, why are we here?
got to mug. mug. mug. hais. i know mock exam is like NEXT YEAR.
NEXT YEAR. but yeahs.
it's getting scarier as the days goes by.
I also duno if i can still continue next year.
do you believe in fate?
do you resign to fate?
do you?
I do.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Its weird, when i have no work.
I seemed so restless.
and even more tired than usual.
blahs! hais.
school is so sian.
The lecturer is so right!
"if you think that you are not benefiting from my lecture, you can leave the hall and not attend my lecture."
I so agree with him man!
i feel like walking out of the lecture when he said that. =p
Cuz the school lecture is really not benefiting me..
I'm like wasting my time every single day.
Cuz i have to come home and study on my own again.
going to school is soo boring.
Its such a waste of time.
It really is a waste a time.
when everything is not turning right.
maybe i should try to turn left.
*sighs*
I seemed so restless.
and even more tired than usual.
blahs! hais.
school is so sian.
The lecturer is so right!
"if you think that you are not benefiting from my lecture, you can leave the hall and not attend my lecture."
I so agree with him man!
i feel like walking out of the lecture when he said that. =p
Cuz the school lecture is really not benefiting me..
I'm like wasting my time every single day.
Cuz i have to come home and study on my own again.
going to school is soo boring.
Its such a waste of time.
It really is a waste a time.
when everything is not turning right.
maybe i should try to turn left.
*sighs*
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Went shop with cousin Lowie today.
Ha. fruitful. At least she got what she wants.
I guess last year, at this date, i was shopping with her for her bf stuffs also.
Hahas. 1 year passed just like that. So scary.
Eh no! last year at this time. Aren't I having my a's?
Hmm... duno la.. anw.. the time is passing by so fast, that it is getting so scary.
I miss home.
i haven been in very good mood recently.
I guess the recent happenings around me should be the reason why.
sians.
Bought a top for myself. It cost me $19..
Hmm.. not bad larhs.
went shop around at Guess just now.
I realised their wallets are CHEAP.
$60+++ only.. wanted to buy. BUT. i didn't.
shall save that for next mth. since this month, I'm buying birken.
shopping does help you forget all your troubles.
so nice. spend money. walk walk walk. see see look look.
How many days of school should i pon in Dec to go back to indo>???
I miss home so much.
I somehow wish that i don't have to come back here anymore.
Sians.
School again tml. *sighs*
but lucky me.
NO WORK FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS!
NICE!!!
Thanks all for the concern.
I'm almost fine.
Life still must go on.
Happy holis to all those having holis.
Happy examination to all those having their examination soon.
Just be happy bahs.
23 more days to home sweet home.
when did you left?
I have bits of memory of you now.
why didn't you clarify things with me before u left?
why did u leave me here to take care of the things you left me with.
I've had enough of waiting.
your 1 year had become many years.
things u left me with had become useless papers meant for the dustbin.
its all over.
Ha. fruitful. At least she got what she wants.
I guess last year, at this date, i was shopping with her for her bf stuffs also.
Hahas. 1 year passed just like that. So scary.
Eh no! last year at this time. Aren't I having my a's?
Hmm... duno la.. anw.. the time is passing by so fast, that it is getting so scary.
I miss home.
i haven been in very good mood recently.
I guess the recent happenings around me should be the reason why.
sians.
Bought a top for myself. It cost me $19..
Hmm.. not bad larhs.
went shop around at Guess just now.
I realised their wallets are CHEAP.
$60+++ only.. wanted to buy. BUT. i didn't.
shall save that for next mth. since this month, I'm buying birken.
shopping does help you forget all your troubles.
so nice. spend money. walk walk walk. see see look look.
How many days of school should i pon in Dec to go back to indo>???
I miss home so much.
I somehow wish that i don't have to come back here anymore.
Sians.
School again tml. *sighs*
but lucky me.
NO WORK FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS!
NICE!!!
Thanks all for the concern.
I'm almost fine.
Life still must go on.
Happy holis to all those having holis.
Happy examination to all those having their examination soon.
Just be happy bahs.
23 more days to home sweet home.
when did you left?
I have bits of memory of you now.
why didn't you clarify things with me before u left?
why did u leave me here to take care of the things you left me with.
I've had enough of waiting.
your 1 year had become many years.
things u left me with had become useless papers meant for the dustbin.
its all over.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Sent Akong off le.
I don't know where he is now.
when people pass away, there really is nothing left.
All that is left is his/her name, photos & memories of them
Nothing else.
5 days passes so fast.
today passes very fast too.
the rain came on and off.
how do the dead communicate with us?
everything that happened today seemed so weird, they don't make any sense to me.
It seemed like yesterday that i last saw him on his wheelchair.
He was using his wheelchair to walk around the house.
Now when i go back to that house. Nothing is left.
I can't see him in his room.
I can't find him anywhere.
we came into the world bringing nothing.
And we, left without anything too.
so..
what's the point?
I don't know where he is now.
when people pass away, there really is nothing left.
All that is left is his/her name, photos & memories of them
Nothing else.
5 days passes so fast.
today passes very fast too.
the rain came on and off.
how do the dead communicate with us?
everything that happened today seemed so weird, they don't make any sense to me.
It seemed like yesterday that i last saw him on his wheelchair.
He was using his wheelchair to walk around the house.
Now when i go back to that house. Nothing is left.
I can't see him in his room.
I can't find him anywhere.
we came into the world bringing nothing.
And we, left without anything too.
so..
what's the point?
It's his last day here.
It'll be his last night here.
It will be the last night that i am going to see him here at Blk 522.
It will be the last night that me and the rest can accompany him.
It will be the last.
I miss you Akong.
I guess i am not going to frequent that place anymore.
I don't want to get reminded.
I miss him a lot.
A lot.
Many a times i felt like crying.
But i know i can't cry.
I cannot cry.
Hopefully Akong spent these last few days here happily.
Akong 一路好走.
You are dearly missed by all of us.
我真的很想念他。 真的。
为什么要离开？
为什么我们见面了还要分开？
为什么我们要有这样的人生？
为什么？
It'll be his last night here.
It will be the last night that i am going to see him here at Blk 522.
It will be the last night that me and the rest can accompany him.
It will be the last.
I miss you Akong.
I guess i am not going to frequent that place anymore.
I don't want to get reminded.
I miss him a lot.
A lot.
Many a times i felt like crying.
But i know i can't cry.
I cannot cry.
Hopefully Akong spent these last few days here happily.
Akong 一路好走.
You are dearly missed by all of us.
我真的很想念他。 真的。
为什么要离开？
为什么我们见面了还要分开？
为什么我们要有这样的人生？
为什么？
Friday, November 16, 2007
Went over to Akong funeral today.
I am no longer that scared.
I talked a lot with my maid.
all the memories of him came all back to me.
I miss him.
He is that someone whom i have been calling Akong 4 more than 3 years.
I somehow treated him like my own Grandpa.
When my own Grandpa passed away, i was too young and too small to know anything.
Thank You Akong for everything.
Time spent with u was rather short. BUT everything will be in my memory.
When your own grandchildren couldn't really understand what u are trying to drive at, I know.
I know how u feel. I know your language.
Which is why when you have decided and ready to leave all of us.
You woke me up from my sleep. And yes i woke up. I can sense it.
I know you are better on the other side.
NO amount of tears can bring you back.
No amount of words can describe how we feel.
We miss you.
Akong 一路好走.
I am no longer that scared.
I talked a lot with my maid.
all the memories of him came all back to me.
I miss him.
He is that someone whom i have been calling Akong 4 more than 3 years.
I somehow treated him like my own Grandpa.
When my own Grandpa passed away, i was too young and too small to know anything.
Thank You Akong for everything.
Time spent with u was rather short. BUT everything will be in my memory.
When your own grandchildren couldn't really understand what u are trying to drive at, I know.
I know how u feel. I know your language.
Which is why when you have decided and ready to leave all of us.
You woke me up from my sleep. And yes i woke up. I can sense it.
I know you are better on the other side.
NO amount of tears can bring you back.
No amount of words can describe how we feel.
We miss you.
Akong 一路好走.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
I am fine already. Thank You very much Bash & Ling Hui. =)
Yesterday after i went to attend Akong funeral. somehow. i felt better.
no longer so down. cuz i know he left peacefully and he is in a better place now.
he is no longer suffering and that is what matters.
Death and rebirths are parts of life which we have no control over it.
no matter how we cry over the dead. they wun relive. what we can do for them is, praying for them, offer prayers. Hoping that they will be able to move on peacefully and easily on the other side.
Akong 一路好走。
Yesterday makes my very FIRST time to a funeral.
YES. my very FIRST time. and i went to atend it alone.
with no one with me.
which explains why i am so scared and i am even trembling when i was placing and lighting the joss-sticks. -_-''
which explains why i dared not look anywhere.
blahs. yeahs. my first time.
alone.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
let me update on what had happened during the weekend.
Sunday:
I went to do a part time job at Orchard.
I went to give out postcards. and guess how many times i repeated the question.
"HI! would you like to have some FREE postcards?" (with a smile)
and some SUPER POLITE people will look at u and just walk away. wth.
Its free la!! y dun wan take??? FREE lehsss... plus FREE postage some more. but then again... haha.. if i were them i also wun take. =p
so mostly, i gave them to Philippino maids.. =X
they are the only ones who are willing to take stacks and stacks of the postcards and some asking for more. Which is good. BUT then i was thinking.
What are they going to do with so many post cards???
Oh wells, hope they will put them into good use. =)
and i bumped into MR TEO...
YES. MR Jimmy Teo..
hahas! he approached me.
nice to meet him. =)
and i did many good deeds on sunday itself.
A tourist dropped a $50 note.
FIFTY DOLLARS lehss!!!!
omg... its more than what i earned in one whole day. :(
oh wells,
Honesty is the BEST policy.
so i walked over to tell him. =D
then JJ students were playing some game..
so one of them walked over to me asking me if she can give me a peck.
den i said.. hmm.. ok...
oh wells, luckily she din touch me at all la..
if not it wud have been soo weirdddd...
then me n dewi helped a stranger to buy PSP..
cuz limited to one per customer. she bought 2 le.. wnat to buy another 2..
so asked me n dewi to help..
hahahs...
so nice.
did so many good deeds. =D
happy on that very day. =)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i am off from all my tuition work already.
am now looking for part time jobs.
any lobang?? do msg me yeahs. I need more cash. cash cash cash.
i want work part time till ard december before i go back to indo. =D
Father and Son is a very nice TVB show.
Do go and watch it!!! =D
VERY NICE AND VERY MEANINGFUL!!!
Family love is what it is all about. =D
Yesterday after i went to attend Akong funeral. somehow. i felt better.
no longer so down. cuz i know he left peacefully and he is in a better place now.
he is no longer suffering and that is what matters.
Death and rebirths are parts of life which we have no control over it.
no matter how we cry over the dead. they wun relive. what we can do for them is, praying for them, offer prayers. Hoping that they will be able to move on peacefully and easily on the other side.
Akong 一路好走。
Yesterday makes my very FIRST time to a funeral.
YES. my very FIRST time. and i went to atend it alone.
with no one with me.
which explains why i am so scared and i am even trembling when i was placing and lighting the joss-sticks. -_-''
which explains why i dared not look anywhere.
blahs. yeahs. my first time.
alone.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
let me update on what had happened during the weekend.
Sunday:
I went to do a part time job at Orchard.
I went to give out postcards. and guess how many times i repeated the question.
"HI! would you like to have some FREE postcards?" (with a smile)
and some SUPER POLITE people will look at u and just walk away. wth.
Its free la!! y dun wan take??? FREE lehsss... plus FREE postage some more. but then again... haha.. if i were them i also wun take. =p
so mostly, i gave them to Philippino maids.. =X
they are the only ones who are willing to take stacks and stacks of the postcards and some asking for more. Which is good. BUT then i was thinking.
What are they going to do with so many post cards???
Oh wells, hope they will put them into good use. =)
and i bumped into MR TEO...
YES. MR Jimmy Teo..
hahas! he approached me.
nice to meet him. =)
and i did many good deeds on sunday itself.
A tourist dropped a $50 note.
FIFTY DOLLARS lehss!!!!
omg... its more than what i earned in one whole day. :(
oh wells,
Honesty is the BEST policy.
so i walked over to tell him. =D
then JJ students were playing some game..
so one of them walked over to me asking me if she can give me a peck.
den i said.. hmm.. ok...
oh wells, luckily she din touch me at all la..
if not it wud have been soo weirdddd...
then me n dewi helped a stranger to buy PSP..
cuz limited to one per customer. she bought 2 le.. wnat to buy another 2..
so asked me n dewi to help..
hahahs...
so nice.
did so many good deeds. =D
happy on that very day. =)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i am off from all my tuition work already.
am now looking for part time jobs.
any lobang?? do msg me yeahs. I need more cash. cash cash cash.
i want work part time till ard december before i go back to indo. =D
Father and Son is a very nice TVB show.
Do go and watch it!!! =D
VERY NICE AND VERY MEANINGFUL!!!
Family love is what it is all about. =D
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Akong passed away peacefully this morning. At the hospital bed.
I guess it's a relief for him.
I guess it's better for him.
Now i know how it feels.
Even though we are not directly related.
Even though, i am not your grand-daughter.
I yeahs. I don't know what to say.
The last time i met you was last Wednesday. You were lying on the hospital bed, helplessly.
The last time i talked to you was that time when i moved out from my previous place.
The last time i said
"Akong, i'm going out. Akong, eat. Akong, eat slowly. was almost 2 months ago."
When Akong passed away this morning. I was already awake. And somehow i know. i won't wake up as early as 730 if i have no morning class.
Yes, that was the time i woke up and the time he passed away.
Akong, 一路好走.
Hopefully his immediate family members would be able to handle this situation well.
Hopefully they won't feel too sad.
Hopefully, they will be able to take it.
I guess it's a relief for him.
I guess it's better for him.
Now i know how it feels.
Even though we are not directly related.
Even though, i am not your grand-daughter.
I yeahs. I don't know what to say.
The last time i met you was last Wednesday. You were lying on the hospital bed, helplessly.
The last time i talked to you was that time when i moved out from my previous place.
The last time i said
"Akong, i'm going out. Akong, eat. Akong, eat slowly. was almost 2 months ago."
When Akong passed away this morning. I was already awake. And somehow i know. i won't wake up as early as 730 if i have no morning class.
Yes, that was the time i woke up and the time he passed away.
Akong, 一路好走.
Hopefully his immediate family members would be able to handle this situation well.
Hopefully they won't feel too sad.
Hopefully, they will be able to take it.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
that makes my third time visit to the hospital.
I personally don't like going to the hospital.
The place gives me a very weird feeling.
Unless i really have to and need to go for the visit, i won't even go there.
I still remember when i was in Jakarta.
There is this night when i was very ill.
My parents drove me to the hospital.
The doctor said that i have to stay over the night at the hospital for further check up.
NO matter what they say, no matter how they persuade, i REFUSED to stay over.
I don't want to lie down on the hospital bed.
It makes me feel very helpless.
I am just scared of the place.
and to hear the doctor say.
"i'm sorry , he can't be cured. Please be prepared"
It's very cruel. very hurting.
that someone lying down on the bed helplessly,
is someone dear to us. and you told us to be prepared?
how on earth are we supposed to prepare ourselves?
Went to visit Akong yesterday.
I feel like crying when i see him lying down on the bed.
He is so weak and he needs the support of all the medical life support.
I really hope he will pull through.
He has very filial children, and when i see uncles and aunties (his children)
i don't know what i can do to help.
Their eyes were all teary and swollen.
There is nothing i can do.
I'd rather she weep and cry in front of me, than trying to make me laugh by cracking jokes.
and after she finished her conversation, again her face turned very solemn.
I really don't know what i can do to help.
I can only help them pray, hoping that Akong will pull through.
I know that in life, death in inevitable.
Plus he is already very old, some people will say that it is almost time for him.
I guess for children, their parents are never old in their eyes.
for us, we hope our parents would live forever, be by our side forever.
we would never welcome the time for us to say goodbye.
never.
again, life is really very fragile and very short.
Treasure whatever you have now.
i hate separations.
if we have to separate 1 day.
then why do we have to meet in the first place?
I'd rather we don't meet, then we wouldn't have to bear the pain when we have to part.
I love my family. I really do.
and i don't want anyone to take them away from me.
I personally don't like going to the hospital.
The place gives me a very weird feeling.
Unless i really have to and need to go for the visit, i won't even go there.
I still remember when i was in Jakarta.
There is this night when i was very ill.
My parents drove me to the hospital.
The doctor said that i have to stay over the night at the hospital for further check up.
NO matter what they say, no matter how they persuade, i REFUSED to stay over.
I don't want to lie down on the hospital bed.
It makes me feel very helpless.
I am just scared of the place.
and to hear the doctor say.
"i'm sorry , he can't be cured. Please be prepared"
It's very cruel. very hurting.
that someone lying down on the bed helplessly,
is someone dear to us. and you told us to be prepared?
how on earth are we supposed to prepare ourselves?
Went to visit Akong yesterday.
I feel like crying when i see him lying down on the bed.
He is so weak and he needs the support of all the medical life support.
I really hope he will pull through.
He has very filial children, and when i see uncles and aunties (his children)
i don't know what i can do to help.
Their eyes were all teary and swollen.
There is nothing i can do.
I'd rather she weep and cry in front of me, than trying to make me laugh by cracking jokes.
and after she finished her conversation, again her face turned very solemn.
I really don't know what i can do to help.
I can only help them pray, hoping that Akong will pull through.
I know that in life, death in inevitable.
Plus he is already very old, some people will say that it is almost time for him.
I guess for children, their parents are never old in their eyes.
for us, we hope our parents would live forever, be by our side forever.
we would never welcome the time for us to say goodbye.
never.
again, life is really very fragile and very short.
Treasure whatever you have now.
i hate separations.
if we have to separate 1 day.
then why do we have to meet in the first place?
I'd rather we don't meet, then we wouldn't have to bear the pain when we have to part.
I love my family. I really do.
and i don't want anyone to take them away from me.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
hahaha.. i am sooo happy.. =p
i don't know why, i just woke up and am smiling to myself.
it's nice waking up so late almost every single day. =p
but then. hahas. no discipline.
gota change this habit. =X
today's the 7th ald.
so fast. the time is passing by so so fast.
and i'm not spending very single day fruitfully.
everyday is just. school-work.. school-work...
but am taking a break from work very very soon. =p
kk gota go study Econs.. =((
i don't know why, i just woke up and am smiling to myself.
it's nice waking up so late almost every single day. =p
but then. hahas. no discipline.
gota change this habit. =X
today's the 7th ald.
so fast. the time is passing by so so fast.
and i'm not spending very single day fruitfully.
everyday is just. school-work.. school-work...
but am taking a break from work very very soon. =p
kk gota go study Econs.. =((
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
it turned out that badminton session was rather fine and fun. laughed a lot. run around a lot.
it reminds me of days at BBSS when i was in sec 1. lOl.
badminton training was horrible. the coach made us run rounds and rounds d hall.
he made us train like mad.
tts y i quit and joined another cca --- SJAB.
SJAB was no better too. =p
the training even worse.
we have officers whom i think don't treat us like humans.
I still rmb how our officer used to train us..
Everytime we trained for foot-drill training.
Sir will shout... "do you hate me?"
we must reply him back "YES SIR!"
and he will make us reply and reply and reply until he get the loudest reply.
i still remember during morning parade when we were asked to run to touch the gate.
i still remember the days when we have to do pumping.
i still remember the days when our senior made us do everything and they only command.
i still remember how they celebrated my birthday.
i still have the card they made saying..
"we know your parents aren't with you, but you have us"
so sweet ryt? =)
those days are really memorable la.
even though we had shitty training.
even though we had to bear all their nonsense.
however overall.
i din regret joining that cca. =)
lolx.. remember those days?
i miss those days. =)
i think tonight i will have a very good night sleep.
because i played badminton for about 2 hrs today. =)
i am tired.
but exercising is good for health. =)
it reminds me of days at BBSS when i was in sec 1. lOl.
badminton training was horrible. the coach made us run rounds and rounds d hall.
he made us train like mad.
tts y i quit and joined another cca --- SJAB.
SJAB was no better too. =p
the training even worse.
we have officers whom i think don't treat us like humans.
I still rmb how our officer used to train us..
Everytime we trained for foot-drill training.
Sir will shout... "do you hate me?"
we must reply him back "YES SIR!"
and he will make us reply and reply and reply until he get the loudest reply.
i still remember during morning parade when we were asked to run to touch the gate.
i still remember the days when we have to do pumping.
i still remember the days when our senior made us do everything and they only command.
i still remember how they celebrated my birthday.
i still have the card they made saying..
"we know your parents aren't with you, but you have us"
so sweet ryt? =)
those days are really memorable la.
even though we had shitty training.
even though we had to bear all their nonsense.
however overall.
i din regret joining that cca. =)
lolx.. remember those days?
i miss those days. =)
i think tonight i will have a very good night sleep.
because i played badminton for about 2 hrs today. =)
i am tired.
but exercising is good for health. =)
yst while talking to ling hui, she suddenly ask me whether i wana go to Jay's concert nots.
I must say that Jay is really popular for many reasons.
cuz his concert tickets are almost gone? yahs.
but anyways, i don't want to go to his concert la. Cuz i'd rather go to Show's concert. =p
but then again. haha. cannot go.
money is very hard to earn.
BUT i wana go lehs. imagine being able to see him face to face. OH MY GOD larhs.
sad to say i can't go unless someone is willing to sponsor me. =p
i need to use the money for better purpose, such as getting myself a new pair of birken's sandals.
HAHAHA.
yahs. so now you know where did i spent that dollars on. =x
which friend of yours will tell u in the face.
"don't call me!"
lolx. only me. to my friends. =p
i am not being a rudey little girl as what he used to say.
(.again memories.)
i just feel like telling that to u, u see. so haha. no offence intended.
ok so tata. i shall go off.
I must say that Jay is really popular for many reasons.
cuz his concert tickets are almost gone? yahs.
but anyways, i don't want to go to his concert la. Cuz i'd rather go to Show's concert. =p
but then again. haha. cannot go.
money is very hard to earn.
BUT i wana go lehs. imagine being able to see him face to face. OH MY GOD larhs.
sad to say i can't go unless someone is willing to sponsor me. =p
i need to use the money for better purpose, such as getting myself a new pair of birken's sandals.
HAHAHA.
yahs. so now you know where did i spent that dollars on. =x
which friend of yours will tell u in the face.
"don't call me!"
lolx. only me. to my friends. =p
i am not being a rudey little girl as what he used to say.
(.again memories.)
i just feel like telling that to u, u see. so haha. no offence intended.
ok so tata. i shall go off.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
finally done with POA assignment. =X
i took 2 weeks to finish it.
In between re-did everything more than 3 times.
It's not easy being an accountant.
and now i am only at the very basic.
I can't imagine being a real accountant in future.
wish me loads of luck. =)
went to finish up the assignment with Ling Hui early in the morning. =X
not really early la.
i am very sorry girl.
i will try my very best NOT to be late next time.
i am very wrong. sorry sorry. =X
matters of the heart are really troublesome.
some people really will choose friendship over a BGR r/ship.
there is almost no return once you become boyfriends and girlfriends.
once you break up, it's almost impossible to become friends again.
I don't know if i am able to do it.
Isn't it weird to behave like strangers once you break up with each other?
wouldn't it be nice if we can still be friends after the break up?
How to maintain the friendship after being honest about each others feelings?
whatever it is. all the best good luck. he is a very nice friend.
hopefully you guys will be able to maintain the beautiful friendship you guys shared. =)
there are many many reasons as to why i didn't want to face him and tell him.
i value our friendship. i want this friendship to last.
and not spoil it with some not-so-very-sure kind of feeling.
which is why. i don't want any of you to spill the beans.
i hope i can trust all of u. =)
cherish.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word
I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
OOoh, if you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this
[Chorus:]
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility
[Chorus]
No, no, no
I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)
Cause BABAYYYYY
[Chorus]
Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable
i took 2 weeks to finish it.
In between re-did everything more than 3 times.
It's not easy being an accountant.
and now i am only at the very basic.
I can't imagine being a real accountant in future.
wish me loads of luck. =)
went to finish up the assignment with Ling Hui early in the morning. =X
not really early la.
i am very sorry girl.
i will try my very best NOT to be late next time.
i am very wrong. sorry sorry. =X
matters of the heart are really troublesome.
some people really will choose friendship over a BGR r/ship.
there is almost no return once you become boyfriends and girlfriends.
once you break up, it's almost impossible to become friends again.
I don't know if i am able to do it.
Isn't it weird to behave like strangers once you break up with each other?
wouldn't it be nice if we can still be friends after the break up?
How to maintain the friendship after being honest about each others feelings?
whatever it is. all the best good luck. he is a very nice friend.
hopefully you guys will be able to maintain the beautiful friendship you guys shared. =)
there are many many reasons as to why i didn't want to face him and tell him.
i value our friendship. i want this friendship to last.
and not spoil it with some not-so-very-sure kind of feeling.
which is why. i don't want any of you to spill the beans.
i hope i can trust all of u. =)
cherish.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word
I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
OOoh, if you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this
[Chorus:]
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility
[Chorus]
No, no, no
I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)
Cause BABAYYYYY
[Chorus]
Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable
Saturday, November 3, 2007
oh no!
I'm turning 21 in 6 months time. =X
It's a special 21.
Hopefully it will really be special.
It's my 21! =)
I will make a wish every single day.
so that what i wished for will come true on that very day. =)
good nights everyone. =)
feeling so much better.
so much better.
thanks.
no one did anything.
i just felt better. =)
I'm turning 21 in 6 months time. =X
It's a special 21.
Hopefully it will really be special.
It's my 21! =)
I will make a wish every single day.
so that what i wished for will come true on that very day. =)
good nights everyone. =)
feeling so much better.
so much better.
thanks.
no one did anything.
i just felt better. =)
那是同情吗？
还是真的是关心， 就是单纯的希望他得到最好的。
得到快乐。
毕竟，有些发生在他身上的不幸都不是他想要的。
不是他能控制的。
不管怎样，我希望你快乐。
希望大家都快乐吧。
毕竟人生就是这么短，还是学该怎样，不要浪费时间在没有必要的事情上。
祝福你。
昨天的我， 迷迷糊糊的好像做了一场梦。
好甜蜜的梦。
现实生活中会有这样的事情发生在我身上吗?
好想念他。
好想念家。
表姐要上考场咯！
祝你好运！
加油！
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
共你相识三千天 我没名无姓
庆幸也与你逛过 那一段旅程
曾是日夜期待你 施舍一点同情
我对你是固执 做梦或太热情
在世上 是你始终不肯退后
遗忘我 感激你心意
但情人比知己分开更易
怕我爱上你坏了事
完了吧 如无意外
从今开始该好好恋爱
放下从前一段感情
才能追求将来
你就似没存在
完了吧 然而你不在
情况未象幻想般变改
告别从前总是不易
原来假如只得我在
我竟未能觅寻下一位挚爱
旧讯息应该删走 再没留凭证
我共你去到最远 也只是友情
如现实是场玩笑 一早清楚内情
过去是勇敢 或是未肯适应
是我笨 大概必须先经错误
才能会 分清我心意
共行成长 数不清的故事
我已爱上你坏了事（我爱你你扮作不知）
完了吧 如无意外（早该散开 纵有感慨）
从今开始该好好恋爱（为何我寂寞不来）
放下从前一段感情
才能追求将来
你就似没存在（当做我没存在）
完了吧 仍能撑起来（应该放开 没有感慨）
前进便让自尊心放开（期望你能寻觅爱）
告别从前总是不易
然而假如不止你在（只得我在）
你可愿仍逗留在这爱海（再不愿盲目留在这爱海）
我与你 大概始终不能相爱
可否不离开 讲出你的感慨
你用心恋爱（我用心恋爱）
下段道路定更精彩
完了吧 如无意外
曾失恋的都必须恋爱
悔恨从前隐瞒感情
常常猜疑将来
我就似没存在（你就似没存在）
完了吧 仍能撑起来
前进便让自尊心放开
告别从前总是不易
然而假如不止你在（然而假如只得我在）
你可愿留下来盼一位挚爱（会否愿留下来盼一位挚爱）
还是真的是关心， 就是单纯的希望他得到最好的。
得到快乐。
毕竟，有些发生在他身上的不幸都不是他想要的。
不是他能控制的。
不管怎样，我希望你快乐。
希望大家都快乐吧。
毕竟人生就是这么短，还是学该怎样，不要浪费时间在没有必要的事情上。
祝福你。
昨天的我， 迷迷糊糊的好像做了一场梦。
好甜蜜的梦。
现实生活中会有这样的事情发生在我身上吗?
好想念他。
好想念家。
表姐要上考场咯！
祝你好运！
加油！
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
共你相识三千天 我没名无姓
庆幸也与你逛过 那一段旅程
曾是日夜期待你 施舍一点同情
我对你是固执 做梦或太热情
在世上 是你始终不肯退后
遗忘我 感激你心意
但情人比知己分开更易
怕我爱上你坏了事
完了吧 如无意外
从今开始该好好恋爱
放下从前一段感情
才能追求将来
你就似没存在
完了吧 然而你不在
情况未象幻想般变改
告别从前总是不易
原来假如只得我在
我竟未能觅寻下一位挚爱
旧讯息应该删走 再没留凭证
我共你去到最远 也只是友情
如现实是场玩笑 一早清楚内情
过去是勇敢 或是未肯适应
是我笨 大概必须先经错误
才能会 分清我心意
共行成长 数不清的故事
我已爱上你坏了事（我爱你你扮作不知）
完了吧 如无意外（早该散开 纵有感慨）
从今开始该好好恋爱（为何我寂寞不来）
放下从前一段感情
才能追求将来
你就似没存在（当做我没存在）
完了吧 仍能撑起来（应该放开 没有感慨）
前进便让自尊心放开（期望你能寻觅爱）
告别从前总是不易
然而假如不止你在（只得我在）
你可愿仍逗留在这爱海（再不愿盲目留在这爱海）
我与你 大概始终不能相爱
可否不离开 讲出你的感慨
你用心恋爱（我用心恋爱）
下段道路定更精彩
完了吧 如无意外
曾失恋的都必须恋爱
悔恨从前隐瞒感情
常常猜疑将来
我就似没存在（你就似没存在）
完了吧 仍能撑起来
前进便让自尊心放开
告别从前总是不易
然而假如不止你在（然而假如只得我在）
你可愿留下来盼一位挚爱（会否愿留下来盼一位挚爱）
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Mad girl came to Bukit Panjang plaza today. =)
nice.
had dinner with her, laughed with her and crapped with her. thanks for coming over girl. =)
it's nice seeing you. =))
Cousin Lowie:
i am fine no worries. your cousin me, is just again up to her emo state. =X
i am fine overall. just tired. and stuffs. but will be fine.
and why are u reading my blog. hehes. you this siao girl should be studying! =p
jia you bahs! =)
there is a lot of difference when people study and when they don't study. =X
I haven't been talking much lately that i think i am weird.
i have been keeping to myself lately, so much that,
i am so lazy to talk or i just talk things that doesn't make sense.
Sometimes i don't understand people who have everything.
I sometimes think that, because, they already have everything,
they became a bit out of mind when people gain hold of a small small thing of theirs.
mind your language. you are hurting others when what you say is nonsense.
reflect on yourself please.
She says that i am bad, but it just shows how much i actually care.
If there is no one to love you.
You have to love yourself.
nice.
had dinner with her, laughed with her and crapped with her. thanks for coming over girl. =)
it's nice seeing you. =))
Cousin Lowie:
i am fine no worries. your cousin me, is just again up to her emo state. =X
i am fine overall. just tired. and stuffs. but will be fine.
and why are u reading my blog. hehes. you this siao girl should be studying! =p
jia you bahs! =)
there is a lot of difference when people study and when they don't study. =X
I haven't been talking much lately that i think i am weird.
i have been keeping to myself lately, so much that,
i am so lazy to talk or i just talk things that doesn't make sense.
Sometimes i don't understand people who have everything.
I sometimes think that, because, they already have everything,
they became a bit out of mind when people gain hold of a small small thing of theirs.
mind your language. you are hurting others when what you say is nonsense.
reflect on yourself please.
She says that i am bad, but it just shows how much i actually care.
If there is no one to love you.
You have to love yourself.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
i am jealous. i m not envious.
it's always like this.
our conversation always ends up with.
you must work hard.. this and that..
it's bad enough that i am not leading a life like the rest.
it's bad enough that i don't get to get what most of the 20 year old girls get.
it's bad enough that i have to tolerate all the shitty things.
It's bad enough that i have to work to feed myself.
what else?
why must i still listen to all these nonsense?
why aren't they doing their part?
sometimes i am really pissed.
i know that certain things cannot be undone.
i tell you.
i still haven come to terms with certain things.
i still can't let go.
i still don't understand why things would turn out this way.
i am always very jealous whenever they talk about it.
they have bla bla bla who works very hard.. this and that...
me? i don't know what to say.
i don't even know if bla bla bla is making the effort to make us happy or not.
i am pissed,
i know they love me and i sure do love them too.
but if they aren't making the effort? why should i?
why should i be leading a life that is actually equivalent to emptiness?
why should i?
i am only twenty years old.
i should be able to enjoy what the other youths are doing.
i should be.
i must be.
why am i not?
i am sad.
i am very sad.
i miss home.
i miss that kind of life.
i do.
it's always like this.
our conversation always ends up with.
you must work hard.. this and that..
it's bad enough that i am not leading a life like the rest.
it's bad enough that i don't get to get what most of the 20 year old girls get.
it's bad enough that i have to tolerate all the shitty things.
It's bad enough that i have to work to feed myself.
what else?
why must i still listen to all these nonsense?
why aren't they doing their part?
sometimes i am really pissed.
i know that certain things cannot be undone.
i tell you.
i still haven come to terms with certain things.
i still can't let go.
i still don't understand why things would turn out this way.
i am always very jealous whenever they talk about it.
they have bla bla bla who works very hard.. this and that...
me? i don't know what to say.
i don't even know if bla bla bla is making the effort to make us happy or not.
i am pissed,
i know they love me and i sure do love them too.
but if they aren't making the effort? why should i?
why should i be leading a life that is actually equivalent to emptiness?
why should i?
i am only twenty years old.
i should be able to enjoy what the other youths are doing.
i should be.
i must be.
why am i not?
i am sad.
i am very sad.
i miss home.
i miss that kind of life.
i do.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
1 year ago at around this date. this time, we were all mugging for A's.
This year this time, many of us are leading very different lifes. -changes-
anyways, many good lucks to all those taking A's. =)
all the best. jia you!
I think i am falling ill soon.
blahs.
I've been feeling very and super lethargic and all i want to do is lie down and sleep.
but then i still have so many undone work. =(
and my mind is filled with a lot of stuffs.
have been trying to call home.
but no one is picking up the phone.
sighs.
两年前的今天， 我们说的话我还记得。
你对我的诚实。
让我明白了一些事情。
我选择了相信你。
记得忘记
This year this time, many of us are leading very different lifes. -changes-
anyways, many good lucks to all those taking A's. =)
all the best. jia you!
I think i am falling ill soon.
blahs.
I've been feeling very and super lethargic and all i want to do is lie down and sleep.
but then i still have so many undone work. =(
and my mind is filled with a lot of stuffs.
have been trying to call home.
but no one is picking up the phone.
sighs.
两年前的今天， 我们说的话我还记得。
你对我的诚实。
让我明白了一些事情。
我选择了相信你。
记得忘记
Monday, October 29, 2007
Phew! i survived today.
I thought i would drop dead once i reach home.
but no!
i still have bits of energy left.
I started my 1st lesson at 8.30am and ended my day at 9.15pm.
almost 13 hours of non-stop working.
I mean it. Non-stop.
was schooling from 830 till 3.00pm with half an hr lunch time in between.
from 4.00 till 9.15 i was working.
and the above excludes traveling time.
so timing not stated are all my traveling time.
goodness.
i cant wait for 16 Nov to come faster.
cuz that will be the day when i will have my break
no work at all.
this also means no income. =(
anyways its good to take a break and catch up on my school work.
I need to catch up.
relationship problems are confusing.
hopefully her problems will be resolved soon.
all the best.
i can only give advice on what i think. or rather
we can only give our opinions.
the rest is up to you.
you are the one who is in the relationship. you should know very well the situation.
make the correct decision and don't regret okies? =)
It's scary that in some of my conversations with my girlfriends now, we are talking about marriage and not just being boyfriend and girlfriend.
is it a bit too early?
or are we on the right track?
Are we going to meet the right guy? Are we going to have a happy life in the future?
who has the answer?
Oh wells, I shall just leave it to whoever that someone is who is in control.
All along, i know i don't get to choose.
and many a times, i regretted what I did.
I regretted not carrying what i planned.
I regretted not following what my heart says.
regrets
when it's time to let go, just let it go.
for every single time we conversed,
i fell deeper.
I thought i would drop dead once i reach home.
but no!
i still have bits of energy left.
I started my 1st lesson at 8.30am and ended my day at 9.15pm.
almost 13 hours of non-stop working.
I mean it. Non-stop.
was schooling from 830 till 3.00pm with half an hr lunch time in between.
from 4.00 till 9.15 i was working.
and the above excludes traveling time.
so timing not stated are all my traveling time.
goodness.
i cant wait for 16 Nov to come faster.
cuz that will be the day when i will have my break
no work at all.
this also means no income. =(
anyways its good to take a break and catch up on my school work.
I need to catch up.
relationship problems are confusing.
hopefully her problems will be resolved soon.
all the best.
i can only give advice on what i think. or rather
we can only give our opinions.
the rest is up to you.
you are the one who is in the relationship. you should know very well the situation.
make the correct decision and don't regret okies? =)
It's scary that in some of my conversations with my girlfriends now, we are talking about marriage and not just being boyfriend and girlfriend.
is it a bit too early?
or are we on the right track?
Are we going to meet the right guy? Are we going to have a happy life in the future?
who has the answer?
Oh wells, I shall just leave it to whoever that someone is who is in control.
All along, i know i don't get to choose.
and many a times, i regretted what I did.
I regretted not carrying what i planned.
I regretted not following what my heart says.
regrets
when it's time to let go, just let it go.
for every single time we conversed,
i fell deeper.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
came back from celebrating Jor's birthday.
some people should really be very grateful.
they have people who celebrates their birthday for them.
I'm not jealous. I'm just envious. =)
Today's actually Windy's birthday.
I'm celebrating Jors birthday on Windy's birthday.
It's weird eh?
such cute little girls.
yet, they know nothing about what happened before.
it left a scar on another party.
left a deep scar on their so called "family".
Adults should really think twice before they do things.
what you guys did would left a great impact on the younger ones.
You know what. I know too much.
Sometimes i don't know if it's right.
Every time i meet them. Every time i see him. all those feelings just came all back to me.
all that they've told me just stays in me.
I think they owe them something.
yes. i really think so.
Life is really cruel.
This is how life goes.
Some people appears to be very happy in front of you.
Yet, you wouldn't know how they really feel inside.
Life is just so unfair.
Humans are selfish.
They want the best for themselves.
I am also one of them i guess.
Many people celebrated Halloweens today (Saturday).
and thanks ar. thanks for scaring me. you guys succeeded in scaring me on this very day.
Luckily i din cry or scream. -_-''
they look very real.
I know they are fake. They coloured their faces and their costumes are all made up.
BUT then, somehow, somewhere deep inside me. I just refused to believe that. I still got scared.
So when i saw them walking past i immediately hide behind heup and grabbed his shirt. Then those ppl. tap me on my back. -_-"
I know no one would believe me.
Cuz when even I don't believe myself, how can i convince others?
Impossible.
I guess i should just let time do all the talking.
Let time convince myself.
Let time convince them.
Let time convince us.
Smoking is bad for health k?
If you can quit then please quit since u haven got really addicted.
Alcohol is bad for health too.
Don't go crazy after drinking please.
lastly cheer up. =)
Girls protect yourself.
when i hear stories about this.
sometimes i don't know if it's the guy's fault or is it the girl's.
Cuz apparently it seems to me that the girl is a willing party and the guy benefits from it.
So is the girl a beetchh or the guy a bustard?
Please practice some self control.
I love my different bunch of friends. =)
I always love their companion. =)
Thank You. =)
Lets just stay in the line.
don't cross over. =)
do you know that actually i am very scared of not meeting target? =X
for the many times i said u vul i, i mean it.
some people should really be very grateful.
they have people who celebrates their birthday for them.
I'm not jealous. I'm just envious. =)
Today's actually Windy's birthday.
I'm celebrating Jors birthday on Windy's birthday.
It's weird eh?
such cute little girls.
yet, they know nothing about what happened before.
it left a scar on another party.
left a deep scar on their so called "family".
Adults should really think twice before they do things.
what you guys did would left a great impact on the younger ones.
You know what. I know too much.
Sometimes i don't know if it's right.
Every time i meet them. Every time i see him. all those feelings just came all back to me.
all that they've told me just stays in me.
I think they owe them something.
yes. i really think so.
Life is really cruel.
This is how life goes.
Some people appears to be very happy in front of you.
Yet, you wouldn't know how they really feel inside.
Life is just so unfair.
Humans are selfish.
They want the best for themselves.
I am also one of them i guess.
Many people celebrated Halloweens today (Saturday).
and thanks ar. thanks for scaring me. you guys succeeded in scaring me on this very day.
Luckily i din cry or scream. -_-''
they look very real.
I know they are fake. They coloured their faces and their costumes are all made up.
BUT then, somehow, somewhere deep inside me. I just refused to believe that. I still got scared.
So when i saw them walking past i immediately hide behind heup and grabbed his shirt. Then those ppl. tap me on my back. -_-"
I know no one would believe me.
Cuz when even I don't believe myself, how can i convince others?
Impossible.
I guess i should just let time do all the talking.
Let time convince myself.
Let time convince them.
Let time convince us.
Smoking is bad for health k?
If you can quit then please quit since u haven got really addicted.
Alcohol is bad for health too.
Don't go crazy after drinking please.
lastly cheer up. =)
Girls protect yourself.
when i hear stories about this.
sometimes i don't know if it's the guy's fault or is it the girl's.
Cuz apparently it seems to me that the girl is a willing party and the guy benefits from it.
So is the girl a beetchh or the guy a bustard?
Please practice some self control.
I love my different bunch of friends. =)
I always love their companion. =)
Thank You. =)
Lets just stay in the line.
don't cross over. =)
do you know that actually i am very scared of not meeting target? =X
for the many times i said u vul i, i mean it.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
u know the time is passing by so fast that i got very scared.
day after day weekends after weekends.
so scary.
as lh expected i really din go down to get the cap changed.
haha. i am lazy. =X
yesterday was the LAST class for MATHS-1, good bye to my boring and lame lecturer.
i shall say hello to another super boring lecturer. =(
from next week onwards.
there is only a day in which i am going to school in the morning.
for the rest of the week. i got to go in the late afternoon.
shucks.
dun like. some more. is THAT another boring lecturer. hais. =(((
ah wells, i shall just bear with it.
should now enjoy my weekend. =)
enjoy everything.
i will not be so rich from next month onwards.
as i am only working for only one single day in the center in a week.
plus school holis is coming. (those pri school holis)
NOT mine.
In fact i have no holidays. =((
hais. so less income. means no shopping spree. =(
it's weekend. enjoy yourself.
hehes.
be happy.
forensic heroes is a nice tvb show. =)
.bukan cinta biasa.
day after day weekends after weekends.
so scary.
as lh expected i really din go down to get the cap changed.
haha. i am lazy. =X
yesterday was the LAST class for MATHS-1, good bye to my boring and lame lecturer.
i shall say hello to another super boring lecturer. =(
from next week onwards.
there is only a day in which i am going to school in the morning.
for the rest of the week. i got to go in the late afternoon.
shucks.
dun like. some more. is THAT another boring lecturer. hais. =(((
ah wells, i shall just bear with it.
should now enjoy my weekend. =)
enjoy everything.
i will not be so rich from next month onwards.
as i am only working for only one single day in the center in a week.
plus school holis is coming. (those pri school holis)
NOT mine.
In fact i have no holidays. =((
hais. so less income. means no shopping spree. =(
it's weekend. enjoy yourself.
hehes.
be happy.
forensic heroes is a nice tvb show. =)
.bukan cinta biasa.
Friday, October 26, 2007
nice nice nice.
thanks ar mad!!!
thanks for the sweet little note. =)
Thank you! =D
i went shopping with mad girl as planned.
finally this time round we get to go as planned.
and no one backed out last minute because of whatever reason. =)
walk until i am so tired and had headache.
blahs. maybe i saw too many caps.
cannot decide which 1 to buy.
i like the "Stussy" 1 very much.
it's so simple and nice.
BUT if buy for a guy. Confirm within 1 day, it'll turn dirty.
and i don't like it when things i bought turned dirty.
hehes. so i changed my mind.
went another place to buy 1 for him.
anyway thank you girl for accompanying me.
and i so spent lots of money today. =X
nvms.
money can be earned 1. =X
just dun go over the limit can liaos. =)
the feeling is very different when you are spending your own money and not your parents. =)
i miss home.
i miss my friends too. =X
i am turning 21 soon.
hais. sadded. scared lehs.
some of my friends just turned 19 only. wth.
and i am turning 21 very very soon. =(
watever. tis is not impt.
(= .living happily is most important. =)
thanks ar mad!!!
thanks for the sweet little note. =)
Thank you! =D
i went shopping with mad girl as planned.
finally this time round we get to go as planned.
and no one backed out last minute because of whatever reason. =)
walk until i am so tired and had headache.
blahs. maybe i saw too many caps.
cannot decide which 1 to buy.
i like the "Stussy" 1 very much.
it's so simple and nice.
BUT if buy for a guy. Confirm within 1 day, it'll turn dirty.
and i don't like it when things i bought turned dirty.
hehes. so i changed my mind.
went another place to buy 1 for him.
anyway thank you girl for accompanying me.
and i so spent lots of money today. =X
nvms.
money can be earned 1. =X
just dun go over the limit can liaos. =)
the feeling is very different when you are spending your own money and not your parents. =)
i miss home.
i miss my friends too. =X
i am turning 21 soon.
hais. sadded. scared lehs.
some of my friends just turned 19 only. wth.
and i am turning 21 very very soon. =(
watever. tis is not impt.
(= .living happily is most important. =)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
yesterday, there is this fire accident somewhere near my block.
It's the usual route i took to the bus stop.
i smelt some burning smell when i was in d shower, but i convinced myself that there is no fire.
then when the smell got stronger.
So i went to check out what happened.
I got very scared. Mad & Bestie will know why.
I keep praying & praying, hoping that the fire will be put out soon.
I guess Singapore and Indonesia is really different.
within minutes the fire was out.
Thank you to all the fire fighters.
Anyway, i heard 2 cars got into fire.
Don't ask me why, it puzzled me too.
Like how come the cars can get into fire.
I made a new friend yesterday in Econs too. =D
Another Indonesian friend. She is VERY clever.
I am so going to go back.
very soon. =D
how many more days? =D
Am going shopping today!
with my dear crazy girl =D.
see you see you soon! =D
不开心也要活，开心也要活。
我选择了开心的生活。
不论你有多不开心， 把它忘了吧。
学着开心的笑。 开心的生活。 =)
It's the usual route i took to the bus stop.
i smelt some burning smell when i was in d shower, but i convinced myself that there is no fire.
then when the smell got stronger.
So i went to check out what happened.
I got very scared. Mad & Bestie will know why.
I keep praying & praying, hoping that the fire will be put out soon.
I guess Singapore and Indonesia is really different.
within minutes the fire was out.
Thank you to all the fire fighters.
Anyway, i heard 2 cars got into fire.
Don't ask me why, it puzzled me too.
Like how come the cars can get into fire.
I made a new friend yesterday in Econs too. =D
Another Indonesian friend. She is VERY clever.
I am so going to go back.
very soon. =D
how many more days? =D
Am going shopping today!
with my dear crazy girl =D.
see you see you soon! =D
不开心也要活，开心也要活。
我选择了开心的生活。
不论你有多不开心， 把它忘了吧。
学着开心的笑。 开心的生活。 =)
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
i went accompany cousin to embassy today ( tuesday ).
applying for visa is very troublesome.
well at least for Indonesian.
they need this and that.
i think after the whole process, if i were them, i wont feel like gg anymore. =x
anw, after embassy went to botanic garden walk walk.
my 2nd time there. hmm. nothing much lehs.
those that got things de. must pay money.
and i pro. i wore cousin's high heels.
so i was like walking up and down slope on heels. li hai bahs~ =p
she la. duno wear high heels 4 wat. den complain pain. hahas.
actually all also bcuz of embassy.
anw,
so being her lovely, sweet and caring cousin, i offered to change with her. =)
cousins should love each other you see.
botanic garden looks the same to me in its every part.
i dont know how ppl there managed to find their way around.
and how do they actually survive looking at the plants whole day long. =x
haha. they shud have perfect eye sight. cuz they always see green things mahs... =p
anw, din get to go get his prezzie today. another day den i go get it.
since he say no rush, prezzie can wait. lolx.
poor cousin is down with flu.
poor her. hehes.
take care girl! get well soon!
.love is cinta.
applying for visa is very troublesome.
well at least for Indonesian.
they need this and that.
i think after the whole process, if i were them, i wont feel like gg anymore. =x
anw, after embassy went to botanic garden walk walk.
my 2nd time there. hmm. nothing much lehs.
those that got things de. must pay money.
and i pro. i wore cousin's high heels.
so i was like walking up and down slope on heels. li hai bahs~ =p
she la. duno wear high heels 4 wat. den complain pain. hahas.
actually all also bcuz of embassy.
anw,
so being her lovely, sweet and caring cousin, i offered to change with her. =)
cousins should love each other you see.
botanic garden looks the same to me in its every part.
i dont know how ppl there managed to find their way around.
and how do they actually survive looking at the plants whole day long. =x
haha. they shud have perfect eye sight. cuz they always see green things mahs... =p
anw, din get to go get his prezzie today. another day den i go get it.
since he say no rush, prezzie can wait. lolx.
poor cousin is down with flu.
poor her. hehes.
take care girl! get well soon!
.love is cinta.
Monday, October 22, 2007
stupid stupid rain.
made me lose sth i like so much.
hais.
hmm. i duno if i shud go back indo in december.
i also don't know if i should go nots.
sians.
talked a lot with lh today.
matters of the heart are so troublesome.
so complicated.
dun feel like getting involved.
is tt called being a real sticker or just being lovey dovey?
i found new way of revising for lectures.
hahas.
i tried recording the lesson today. =)
not bad. its very clear. just that. a bit soft. =p
and you better take care.
i don't want to look down the next time i see u.
hahas. i prefer looking up. =p
take cares! =)
made me lose sth i like so much.
hais.
hmm. i duno if i shud go back indo in december.
i also don't know if i should go nots.
sians.
talked a lot with lh today.
matters of the heart are so troublesome.
so complicated.
dun feel like getting involved.
is tt called being a real sticker or just being lovey dovey?
i found new way of revising for lectures.
hahas.
i tried recording the lesson today. =)
not bad. its very clear. just that. a bit soft. =p
and you better take care.
i don't want to look down the next time i see u.
hahas. i prefer looking up. =p
take cares! =)
surprisingly. i miss those secondary school days at BbSS
and i miss St John training.
and i miss the school camps.
the competitions.
the changing of classes.
the bus rides.
the post exams activities.
the running around the school.
yes i miss almost everything.
time to sleep.
tata. have a nice week ahead people.
and i miss St John training.
and i miss the school camps.
the competitions.
the changing of classes.
the bus rides.
the post exams activities.
the running around the school.
yes i miss almost everything.
time to sleep.
tata. have a nice week ahead people.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
hehes. i love my blogskin now. lolx. no longer black.
i guess i need to take a break from my dark world. =p
I love my current font.
if u realise, my msn font is also this 1. =p
so nice.
and my whole lappy is using this font too.
hahas.
i am currently so so in love with mickey mouse.
not that i don;t like them last time.
i love them since i was a small girl girl.
just that. haha.
now. currently i'm so in love with their stuffs.
look look! this is soo nice. this is how one of the room in my house will look like in future.
maybe i'll place evrything in pink instead of blue. =p blue is also nice actually. see how. =)
look look! it look so delicious right?? =p
so cute so nice!
i love my mickey mouse! =D
i guess i need to take a break from my dark world. =p
I love my current font.
if u realise, my msn font is also this 1. =p
so nice.
and my whole lappy is using this font too.
hahas.
i am currently so so in love with mickey mouse.
not that i don;t like them last time.
i love them since i was a small girl girl.
just that. haha.
now. currently i'm so in love with their stuffs.
look look! this is soo nice. this is how one of the room in my house will look like in future.
maybe i'll place evrything in pink instead of blue. =p blue is also nice actually. see how. =)
look look! it look so delicious right?? =p
so cute so nice!
i love my mickey mouse! =D
[On the Outside]
Name: Lily
Birth Date: 03 May 1987
Current Status: Single
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Brown-ish black
Righty or Lefty: Righty
[On the Inside]
Your Heritage: Chinese
Your Fear: being alone & darkness
Your Weakness: Too gullible
Your Perfect Pizza: Cheesy pizza
[Yesterday, Today , Tomorrow]
Your First Thought This Morning: I need to do laundry
Your Last Thought Before Bedtime: Got to study tml
Your Most Missed Memories: Family gatherings
[Your Pick]
Pepsi or Coke: None
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Smoke: NEVER
Curse: Can't remember
Take showers: Twice a day
Have a crush: Not currently
Think you are in love: Not now
Go to school: yeps
Want to get married: yesh
Believe in yourself: Sometimes
Think you are a health freak: Nopes
[In the Past Month]
Drank alcohol: nopes
Gone to the mall: yeaps
Been on stage: hmm... think so.
Eaten sushi: Of course
Dyed your hair: NO
[Have You Ever...]
Played a stripping game: NO
Changed who you were to fit in: No
[Age]
You are hoping to be married at the age of: 25
[In a Girl/Guy]
Best Eye Color: Suitable
Best Hair Color: Hmm.. anythg as long as its not too over..
Short Hair or Long Hair: short / not too long
[What Were You Doing]
1 Min Ago: Typing
1 Hour Ago: reading accounting notes
4.5 Hours Ago: doing laundry
1 Month Ago: Studying
1 Year Ago: Studying
[Finish the Sentence]
I Love: nice stuffs, i am a girl of perfection
I Feel: STRESSED
I Hate: "tik-kos"
I Hide: when I'm crying
I Need: My family
[Tag five people]
1,2,3,4,5 : anyone who wants to de-stress. =p
1,2,3,4,5 : anyone who wants to de-stress. =p