yay yay yay... =) nice nice... haha... 1 more hr.. will be leaving to airport... =))) nice nice... hehes... good good... ( dont sae i bad k?? muz share my happiness with u all mahs... =) )


thanks thanks my dear bestie... despite ur super "tiredness", u still wana send me off... thanks thanks... i was telling Ade yst tt i miss talking to bestie... hais hais... rmb how we used to talk about almost everythg under the sun... hehes... d next time we got tgt again.. mayb we can do that once again.. miss you girl!!!! =)

i've been enjoying talking to Ade & Mad abt everythg too... thanks girlsss... thanks for spending time with me during my last few days in singapore... =))) really enjoyed talking to u all... oh my... days in Jakarta will be without alll of u... when i am bored i can no longer pick up d phone n just dial all ur numbers... hais hais... nvm.. i shall use emails... sms'es... msn??? haha... see how...

this time i go back.. i have a very weird feeling... somehow.. i feel that i'm not coming back anymore when i am QUITE.... pretty quite sure that i am coming back... it all depends on the results bahs... we shall see how next yr...

take care peeps... hehe... i've to get ready... =)))))

bubuaiz... =)

YAY!!! i activated my roaming le... so those peeps who wants to msg me... keep in contact with me can still msg me to my singapore number k??? will be very happy to reciv ur msgs... since i wont be blogging and going online that often.. hee... it'll be a good n super nice way of keeping in contact with me... so ya... will wait for all ur msges... =)


take care peeps...!!!


oh ya... Seven_Ones.. hee.. im so sorry about my super untidy handwriting in those little cards tt u guys will reciv tml... i stayed up to write them... haha... so was half awake while writing.. thus the untidiness.. haha.. nvm la k?? n i experiment the little "gift" le... it's very nice... hope u guys will love it too... =)

tink this will be my last entry made in singapore... hahah.... cuz... like no time le.. die.. i haven even do the stuff im supposed to give out to u all... im like rushing a project... hais... but... nvms... it's worth it... =)

nice nice...!!! tml gg back liaos... haha... but... i will miss my super nice and loving frens... all the friends i crap with... those i hang out with.. those i din get to see even before i go back.. ha... poor time management... sorry arh... =p

BIG BIG thanks to my PIG GIRL... she knows why.. hee.... i will do sth for u in return.. u noe why... u noe my character... haha... i will diligently go shopping in Indonesia and find suitable things for u... =)
thanks thanks to Zk & Ade too, for the many outings and the care and concerns u guys have showered on me.. =)


i bought stuffs for d class... haha.... it appears childish... BUT... hope u all will like... haha... i bought the same thing for my niece n nephew... LOLs... haha... but u all also still kids wat... they sae those 18 and below are all still kids ryt??? =p Must finish the stuffs i give u all k??? even if its NOT nice... also must finish!!! hahah!!! =)


Thanks to the SEVEN_ONES!!!! my lovely classmates!!!! enjoy the prom k?!?!?! must enjoy... den go party after that.. those who din go for prom can join them after that... =)
will miss all of u...


the times we spent at chalet...
crapping thru the night with Bash and mad...
shouting out to ask someone to shut up.. lOL...=X
how i keep arguing with ppl like ks, zul, idh, jj, gerald...
how i learn to bbq food with mel, shawn & ttc...
how we served the food to Mr Teo & Mr Sim...
how 2t, mirna & me heated up the smelly bee hoon...
how saun & gerald taught me, mir, zah & bash how to play mahjong...
how we enjoy the jacuzzi at the pool & the guard was asking abt the cotton cotton thg...
how mad, bash, 2t, mir, mel, ying & me take photos...
how we tried to shout out to the blue sea...
how mirna & me walked out at night and just talk about anythg...
how we played the polar bear & hunter game...
how we played heart attack & donkey... =)
how i accompanied mad to the next chalet n help took photos with our neighbour...
how ttc piggy back zah... =b
how i played scissors paper stone with mad, bash & gerald... n splash each other...
how we played number games with the class... n i din kana splash at all... =b
how we played captain's ball with the class & how saun got injured....
and... more more more...


our sentosa outings...
how we are always late for outings by hours... =p
how mad and bash made it to sentosa (finally) in d morning...=)
how the guys tanned themselves up...
how the class played with the NTU guys... =DDDD
how touty and i took photos at the bungy jumpy thgy...
how i fell down at the bungy thgy when 2t jumped... =p
how mad & i walked by the sea side crapping talking... =)
how mad tanned herself up.. =p
how calvin & his "gay" fren spent their time...
how we played our freesbie & Jason keep showing off his skills...
how i fell down and kana abused while playing dog and bone game...
how we scream, shout, laugh while playing all the games...
how much fun we had while playing captain's ball almost as a class...
how i came back from sentosa with cuts and bruises... (will rmb it until they disappear all together k??)
how i knocked myself onto the information counter at vivo and earned myself a big bruise...
how all of us walked rounds and rounds at vivo just to find LJS...
how we had dinner tgt...
how i helped them took photos... =p
and more & more...


buying the gal's stuffs for prom...
how we walked from bugis to orchard... n ended up buying almost the same type of dress... =p
how i look so nice with the dress and jeans... haha!!! =D
how we ate at ramen and ying2 complaining abt the super spicy food... =)
how we took neoprints and covered d whole pic with decorations... =p


shoPpIng with mad & ying...
how they made me go over to orchard and make me go back to Bukit Batok when i stayed at orchard for less than half an hour...
how we walked finding the bus stop to bukit batok and ended up walking back to take mrt...
how we ended up at ade hse and mir & merv calling me askin me to go orchard again... which i din go... & i am so sorry abt it... =p
how d thunder made my drink spill on ade's house floor... =p
how ade cooked maggie for me to eat... =)
how we chatted at ade's hse... =)


shopping with mad & ade...
how i acc mad for her job interview...
how i got to noe that mad is scared of those stuffs... =)
how i got to noe how childish her frens are... =p
how i keep rejecting her gift from those machines... =D
how she ask me to eat my burger using the proper way...
how we keep complaining of being cold...
how we shop for the gifts and not buying any until i went to buy with ade...
how i played with the stranger little girl while mad was busy decorating her phone...
how we walked rounds and rounds acround vivo before gg to orchard...
more & more... =)


Kbox with ying, mel & mad...
how we always sing very random songs...
how we sang hokkien songs and ended up laughing at ourselves...
how we sang very very "Shout-able" songs...
how we got cheated again and again at different branches...
how i love to eat the prawn crackers at kbox...=D


many many more unforgettable memories... hari raya outings and other other outings... u guys noe me... im too busy and lazy to type all down... haha... just let them remain in our memories ok???

even though we din get to go to escape... haha... but still hope u guyss will go after prom or sth k??? dun just keep working and working... =) mayb next yr when i come back we can go escape with the class.. and go sentosa once again before most of the guys enter their beloved army and turn botak...... =p


hahahs... i seriously hope mirna, 2t and me will be back in singapore next yr.. so we can have 71 outings every year.... =)


thanks thanks to the many many friends i have... close and not close... known and unknown who have expressed their concern, stood by me... giving me encouragements and stuffs when i am in the dumps... thanks for the friendship!!!


kkx... this is a bit too earli.. but i might not be blogging here anymore... anw... to those who sent me off at the airport on the coming 3rd Dec 2006... thanks lots!!! hope u guys like the little gift from me... =)


enjoy prom..
enjoy the outings...
enjoy working!!!
my stay here wont be so happy.. fun... "bearable"... without every single one of u...
love u all!!! =)

tata!!! take care!!! =)

evryone is finding a job... oh my... i must get a job too.... i hope someone will hire me k??? let me have sth to do.. i dun wana slack and rot at home... when i started work.. after d 1st day... i shall share about how it feels... lOL.. i duno how it feels to work la... hehe... hope can have some nice nice experience...

i hope my whole body will stop aching... =X
i hope all d bruises will disappear asap... its ugly la k?!?!
i hope all d scratches will disappear too... so i will not appear as an abused little girl... =p
hehe... off to LILY's land now... if not later cant wake up... =p

thanks thanks thanks to all the 71 peeps who came to sentOsa yeaterDAy okie??? Thanks!!! it's been super FUN!!! hehes... i brought so much presents home... oh my... But nvm.. it's memorable.. thanks thanks for letting me have so much fun before i go back ok?? outing with u guys never fail to be CRAZY!!! =)

the dog and bone game... really siao la... i lose out soo soo much... stupid KS!!!! haha... actualli oso not reali his fault.. lol... =X

captain's ball... is always fun!!!! but the guys... please la... nx time play.. put on ur shirt ok??? PLEASE... hahaha... cuz.. d sweats n stuffs... eeeee.... but hahha... nvm la... it's bound to happen in a game... im used to it.. =)

&... stop laughing at everything i do la... so BAD!!!!! especially that ying ying.... hmph!!! im nice... so nvm.. hope u guys have had lotsa fun k??? =)

tireeddd.... another sleepless night... if onli im in d chalet.. den can laugh.. talk... play with bash & mad... how i miss those days..=X

its so quiet outside.. every1 is asleep... i see a very bright star... =) it's a pity that there is only one... =X

yarhs... i uploaded those pics... some of the pics that captures those beautifulll moments... =)

i shall go try to sleep... =)
later shall go shop shop...

i hope Ade will not be stressed out. Jia You k girl... evrythg will end soon too.. =) She is really 1 superwoman.. Oh wells... Jia You!! i hope i can be of some help.. but.. haiz.. i noe nothing about her projects..... =X

i shall now blog abt d past few days & post photos which i coup from bash.. =X

..::20-11-2006---1st day of chalet::..
As usual, as i stays near Gerald, i'll be the 1 who accompanies him 2 get the stuffs. And as usual he will always be late!!! We went shopping like aunties at Sheng Shiong near Tekka Centre (1st time i ever heard of this place..=X) we were shopping for the cheapest, yet best stuffs we could get... Sounds so much like aunties bargaining for food. =X so many bottles of drinks... so many packets and cans of food... luckily our helpful classmates are willing to come over to carry the stuffs... if not... haha.. taxi driver uncle are going to earn quite a sum from us.. =X from little india to aloha loyang... hmm...

tis is our BEAUTIFUL chalet... =) nice from d outside nia... =p *no offence*

tis is wat's inside... =)

Mr Teo & Mr Sim came 4 d 1st night... haiyas... they din bring their kids along!!! so sad.. i was hoping their sons will come... but.. anyways.... hope they had fun playing mahjong.. and i hope they enjoyed d food... =) Thank yOu for cOming!!! =D

We sort of didnt sleep 4 the first night... staying up till ard 4 or 5 plus to play games... until we got really tired and dispersed into our roOms.. oh wells.. i din really sleep 4 d 1st night... well yeah.. not enough space... so i went to find bash & mad... and we were doing stupid stuffs in d room... HAHA!!! i was playing with Bash camera... & zOoming into pictures... playing guessing game.. haha... asking whose eyes is that.. whose mouth is that... haha!!! i still remember how i hard i laughed at 1 pic that bash took with her Malay friends on d last day of school.. =X WAHAHA!!! i was laughing so hard that the whole bed was shaking.. muahaha!! it's just funny la ok... dun blame me... =X

I learnt how to BBQ foOd On d 1st day!!! muahaha!! i noe hOw to bbq foOd now... (tis is an achievement ok???) =)

tis is how i tried to slp... but not successful...=b *LMAO*

..::21-11-2006---2nd day of chalet::..

Things din go as smoothly as d 1st day... every1 is engrossed in doing their own stuffs... playing mahjong... PS2 & stuffs... it took us some time b4 every1 is willing to get their butt off the chairs and play d watermelon & water game... HAHA!! i love the water game... so exciting... It's nice getting urself wet!!! jacuzzi is nice too!!! the captain's ball... (is that be our last captain's ball game as a class???) =(

As i've said things din go smoothly this day... there were communication breakdown... some people no longer talk to each other.. showing each other faces... luckily they din get into any fight.. so i guess things were still quite alright.. =)

we had our own "clique" game on d 2nd night.. hee.. kinda fun.. but my head was super dizzy as we drank.. not every1.. only some of d naughty gals... so i played 1 round onli.. hee... d alcohol content very very very small nia... beliv it or not.. that was my 1st attempt drinking... =b feeling was... kinda OK.. & yea... i slept from 0330 onwards... i succeeded ok... with the nice melodious background music produced by human... =X

wat i learnt: sleep way before that human sleep to avoid experiencing a sleepness night.. =p

..::22-11-2006---last day of chalet::..

we packed up & waited 4 d man to come check the place.. seriously & honestly speaking.. his attitude SUCKS.. he just cant wait for us to leave d place.. dun like him!!!

anw after that... most of the guys went to eat at pasir ris food court, some of us went to eat fish & co at dhobby ghaut... Oh my!!! finally we had proper food and drink... the food was superb... super delicious!!! yummy yummy!!!

and then... its.... home SOUR home... =X

I miss the time we spent together.. during the chalet.. outings.. school.. pe lessons.. & everything.. S71 peeps have made my days in Innova worthwhile.. YOU guys are the ones who made my days in Innova... i'll be missing u all!! oh my!! it's really fast!!! please remember our date 10 years later ok??? must come must come... =D & also our sentosa outing... MUST come also..

next week will be filled with outing with the class... (dress shopping... foodies... sentosa... vivocity..) & my other darlings..(foOdies & chattieS) =)

& of course next week will be my last week here... i'll make my last week memorable.. =)

..::24-11-2006---last min outing with dear Ade::..

hee... im so glad she called me.. we went bugis & vivo.. to shop.. we finished walking the whole place in a few hrs.. 5hrs?? haha.. we are pro.. talked a lot.. ate nice food... hee!! thanks 4 d treat girl.. she tricked me tho.. bluff me... anyways.. still thank you!!! thanks 4 introducing me to nice nice foods... =) when u come to Jakarta will treat u nice nice food too.. i'll make sure i make u fat fat... =D i still owe her & zk sth... haha... i din 4get.. i just duno wat to get.. =X

..::25-11-2006::..

Min went Tasmania... hope she'll enjoy herself... & hOpe i'll see her before i fly back HOME...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GObM02S_d-k


---shOw---

--i m|sS thEm--

i miss S71!!!
i miss laughing thrOugh d Night!!!
oH gOsh!!!
I miSs the cOmpanY!!!


i'll blog about Chalet when i feel like it k?
hee... right now.. im just reali missing those days!!!
i super duper love S71!!! it's d onli class that seems like a class... =D


i stilll rmb i haven meet up with lotsa friends...
bestie, ade, zk, yik ping, elson++, e1 gals, e3 gals...
oh my!!!
n im left with duno how many days... and i've reserved most of the days for my beloved S71.. =X
i'll make sure at least i meet the 1st 5 people above b4 i fly back home k???


I miss d cOmpanY & i'm sO gOing 2 miSs all Of u... =D


Let's JusT fOrgivE & fOrget oK???
dun pUt it in Ur hEArt, iT's Over liaos...
just rmb d sweet n happy times we have... & 4get the unhappy 1s... =D

it's been almost 2 days since i finished my last paper.
the feeling is super great.
the feeling of not having to study.
not having to touch those dumb books.
i dont even know why am i studying all that for.
i am never going to take anything related to physics. so why am i studying for it?!?!
honestly, i used to love studying.
That was when i am in Indonesia. I know what i am studying and yea. Studying can really be fun.
but studying over here is not fun at all, because everyone is studying only for the sake of getting A's. Over here. everyone is talking about how many A's each should have and must have. This really makes me sick. makes me feel so stressed. crap. But oh well. I hope it will just come to an end.
I hope i can study something that i love, something i take an interest in in Uni. I hope i will get into a Uni. Here... anywhere... =D

The past few days after exam had been really FUN!
The feeling is super great. REALLY! I love the fun.
I finally get to explore Vivocity. How it looks like and stuffs. but seriously, it's kind of disappointing larhs. =X The place is large, beautifully designed, nice. largest shopping centre in Singapore ryt? is it? but i'd rather go Marina Square or Orchard. seriously. =X
Overall.. still oK.. =D since i went there after my last paper. haha. so yea. the feeling is kinda great.
[ Wana thank Mad & Mel for accompanying me to get my air tix back to HOME. Thanks girls. ]


Yesterday --- Thursday -- went for Hari Raya outing.
.FUN. MEMORABLE. CRAZY.
we went to 5 houses yst. Izwan's, BAshirah's, Hafiz's, Zul's & Zaheerah's.
Super fun k?!?! except for that CAT!!! *SCARY* (im sorry but, that catty is really scary.)
we meet up at 1030 and separated at around 2230 too!!! LOL.
yst. more than 12 hours outside.
next year we go Hari Raya outing again ok? =D


HAHA.
when i got back home. everyone is asleep. SUPER GOOD. NO noise pollution.
i'm going to stay out for the next two weeks too. stay as far away from here as possible. i really wana go shopping. but the stuffs here are super EX!!!! nvm.. i shall go shopping in Jakarta since i'll be using Mama's $$ instead of my own. =X HAHA! =D


today. i shall go out too. haha. most probably. haha! I'm physically tired. BUT i really wana enjoy the last 2 weeks here with my beloved friends. I wont get to see them for the next few months. i'll be absent for most of the outings. still i hope they will have as many outings as possible k?


05S71 is a class that i will NEVER forget for i've made many great girlfriends & boyfriends here. Really. Thank You so much for the memories. Let's continue to collect as many memories as possible as the years come by k? Remember our date 10 years later. =b


Ade: i'll soon go over to stay k? After u hand in ur project. Which is next next week. That week that i fly back. i no nid stay for Xmas la.. too long le. hee... now also got xmas tress le... we can go take photos also... =D
Bash & Izwan: I want the pics pics... =D


i want buy a digi cam. BUT Mama dun allow. =(

hee.
i had a very NICE BEAUTIFUL dream yst.
LOL.
*happy* never had a dream like this b4.
was so happy that the moment i woke up, i penned it down in my diary. =)


yay! 4 more days! 1 more subject. 3 more papers to take. =D


i'm still thinking if i shud stay here for Xmas. =X
cuz it's been sth i feel like doing since long2 time ago.
but then. there's nth i can do here.
duno la.
mayb i'll just get out of here as planned. =D


Ade. dun scold me. i 4got that actuali my ticket back is on the 25th not 26th. =X
but then. after a's i'll call to chaneg the date la. =X mayb might extend my stay here too.
duno la. see how.


i miss talking to Bestie so much.
i duno wat i'll chat with her abt.
im so looking fwd to 24th nov.


back to boOks.
.P H Y S I C S.


1 more thg: can i have SpeShow album?!?!?! It's Show's NEW album!!!

maths turned out to be quite OK.
hope can at least get a B.
i hope those TOP sch students dont do that well.
so they wont pull up the grades & make it even harder for me to achieve an A.
i noe it's bad to think tis way.
BUT hey. spare a thought for the others. for people like me. =D



anw.
I am Happy! i Called my MOMMY todae. Love u mom!
i really miss home.
BUT... in ard 3 WEEKS time.. i'll be gone... =D


Poor him. HA! i pity u la k. BUT sometimes certain thgs. hmm. dont think too much is the best. dun get jealous unnecessarily. I totally understand how u feel. =) *cheer up* =D


3 more days of exam. in ard 1 week everythg will end! just mug mug mug k??!?!?
JIA YOU LILY!


i was thinking just now... Is it possible for the 4E3 ppl to gather again... =D
another outing? which i, cfm, chop, plus guarantee!! will go this time round???
*Ade is so gg to scold me*


i hope i wont fall sick! oh man! i cant afford to fall sick..!!! =(
Flu... Shoo shOo shOo...

Buat Aku Tersenyum
by Sheila On 7


Datanglah sayang dan biarkan ku berbaring
Di pelukanmu walaupun tuk sejenak
Usaplah dahiku dan kan kukatakan semua


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar


Rasakan resahku dan buat aku tersenyum
Dengan canda tawamu walaupun tuk sekejap
Karna hanya engkaulah yang sanggup meredakan aku


Karna engkaulah satu-satunya untukku
Dan pastikan kita selalu bersama
Karna dirimulah yang sanggup mengerti aku
Dalam susah ataupun senang


Dapatkah engkau s'lalu menjagaku
Dan mampukah engkau mempertahankanku


Bila kulelah tetaplah disini
Jangan tinggalkan aku sendiri
Bila kumarah biarkanku bersandar
Jangan kau pergi untuk menghindar

cannot cannot i cant take it anymore.
this really shucks.


i wish i can just get a ticket n leave here tml.


crap crap crap.


a level is crap.
exam is crap.
everythg that bothers me is crap.


thanks 4 d wishes ppl.
thanks.


=( =( =(

02112006 ---->>> GP
It marks d start of the 2006 GCE A'level Examinations. :D
Phy paper 3 <---- 15112006
It marks the END of my GCE A'vl Examination. =DDDDD


I am NOT that scared anymore.
CALMED myself down yesterday.
I'll just do it and MOVE ON.


I wana really thank that girl who talked to me yesterday over the phone.
LOL.
It's been days since i laughed and talked to anyone THAT much.
Thank You.


yay! Jia You LILY!!! =D

memorising is still not my cup of tea.


im tired of memorising.


yay! A'lvl starts in ONE day time.


GREAT! =D

大部分的事情并不像表面看起来那么单纯，
而人活着， 也不一定总是能够自由自在地选择自己喜爱的。。。


我就是哪个为别人而活着的人， 真的很辛苦。
我已经有好几次想就这样离开。



.SUPER SUPER DUPER WORRIED.



Ade: hey girl! hope u doing fine yea. read ur blog. duno if u r okay not. from wat i c is, u r not fine. pls take care of urself yea? will get back 2u asap! hang on there! u can do it.

i just emailed my 2 brothers some important stuffs. important for my future. for theirs and our family's too! If it can work, gosh! I duno what will become of me in future!!! =D


left hw many days now? i am still super stress. super worried. i duno if i could do it. but! heck! im gona do it n i have to do it.


i dreamt abt doing GP paper yst. from d dream. from my expression, i can sense the "what the hell does the examinor wants from us?" gosh! i dun wan this dream to come true. some ppl say if u share ur dream with ppl den it will never come true. n since i've shared it. i think it will never come true. =D


what will my future be like? i hate guessing. the feeling is getting stronger as d days passes by. i am more and more certain that im going to go back.


.super worried abt this stupid exam.

lol. i cant beliv it. to keep herself up-to-date with d world n surrounding news. Miss Lily has been surfing channelnewsasia, bbc, zaobao... for a few months now. =p


Im so glad zaobao changed their page layout. so much clearer. so much easier to read. or is it bcuz i use firefox?


ha! watever. chinese wordings still dont seem to interest me. prefer english still. for my future. bleh! i shud just bear with it. 1 more week. =D


make the imposibble - possible! =D
nothing is imposibble anw...!! =D

Went to have lunch at PIZZA HUT todae. I realised its cheaper to have lunch there than having it at swens. So there were me, bash, mad mel & saun. Had some fun talking, crapping n stuffs. The next time we meet up will be on the day when we take our FIRST a'level paper. 3 weeks will soon pass & it'll be over & i'll move on.


It's really FAST. 2 years have passed. I'm going to miss some of them so much. Most of those from S71. The best gift God gave me in Innova is letting me made friends with such wonderful poeple. =)


These few days Mama & Papa have been sms-ing me. Thank You Mom & Dad! I'll be fine. No worries. I can take care of myself. I love YOU!


I went to temple to pray today.
I hope everything will move on smoothly.


1 mth later where will i be?!?!? *happy* =D

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri! Mohon Maaf Lahir & Batin.
To all my Muslim mates!!! =)
enjoy d day k?!?!?!


I wana eat!!! Lontong!!! Rendang!!! Sambel Kentang!!! & many many more!!! argh! cant wait to get back to Indo!!! nvm.. few more weeks...


9 more days to A'lvl. 1 week +++ . like what i've said. im excited-worried. argh! i hate this feeling. Mama tell me to do my best. Pahit sekarang Manis di belakang. yep yep.
sebenernya gue rada happy. soalnya, bokap bilang sekarang keadaan, udah membaik. semoga kita bisa balik kaya dulu lagi. gue seneng. at least gue ga perlu stress ttg uang lagi.
tapi sekarang yang paling gua butuhin adalah, konsentrasi belajar. beneran memerlukan ini. Tuhan tolong bantuin aku yah. Aku minta maaf atas semua dosa dosa ku. tolong berikan aku petunjuk untuk menjalankan hidup ini.


seriously what i need now is. good health-enuf sleep-concentration.
Then on the day, walk into d exam hall, sit for it and at the end of the whole thing, smile and say "it is over, move on." =)


oh ya! i made myself a promise a few days ago. This time round when i go back HOME. I promise not to irritate my parents. Not to throw tantrum. NOt to make them angry. NOt to be a wilful girl. I WILL try my very best to be NICE. =) Sometimes when i think abt it, i am not that very goody goody girl at all. I still make my parents angry, cuz i just cant get used to my parents asking me this n that. asking me abt every nitty gritty detail. cuz i dun stay at home most of the time and no one cares where i go when i am in singapore. so when i go back n papa, mama, started asking this n that. i kind of get irritated. Oh well, this time round, i will be good try to understand myself and the situation i am in. =) i shall grow up.

Putting my studies aside, i went to meet up with my relatives just now.


Oh my, i realised i've got so many relatives. So many cousins. I went to meet some of my relatives who came from Indonesia. And i just reached home. *tired* but, i am happy. Even though i am not very close to my cousins (those from dad's side), but i still love their company. We seldom meet, cuz they stay in Medan with my Grandma, while me n my family stays in Jakarta with most of Mom's family. So i wasnt very close to those cousins of mine from dad's side. I cried when i left them just now. It's like very sad, my cousin said, "the next time i see u will be d time when i come to Singapore again." Then my aunt, holds me and asks me to take care, do my best in my studies. It's really sad. Then my 7th uncle, he is d super quiet type, seldom interact with people and i was the one who started conversing with him just now!!! Somehow, even though i don't see them frequently, i feel that i am very close to dad's brothers and sisters, i don't know why, mayb it's because i rmb they used to dote on me when i was still a small girl girl. carrying me around and play with me. =) not that they no longer dote on me now, it's just that the way they show their love towards me is different. ah! i love them to bits! =D


Anyway, while we were chatting just now, my cousin showed me her brother's picture, then i told her, ''if i were to bump into him one day, i don't think we even know that we are cousins." Lols. We seldom meet each other and even if we meet up, we arent very close to each other cause we seldom talk, this is why i treasure everyone of my family a lot, treasure the time i spend with them. They are all so envious of me, cuz i get to study here. Fact is, i hate being here. =X


Anyway, they are leaving for Hong Kong den to China tomorrow. Hope they will have loads of fun! i will miss them! and..suddenly i find myself getting older. My cousin is getting married next week. So sad! i cant attend her wedding!!! *sobs* next week, on her wedding, everyone from my BIG family will be there!!!! I missed out so much! Next yr and the year after next, my another 2 cousin getting married too! Whoa! one by one getting married!!! Soon, it'll be my turn.. HAHA!! =D


kk... enough of happiness. I should get back to serious business. I am still very very happy! I hope they will enjoy themselves tomorrow. Have fun shopping! while i have fun mugging! =)
Love YOU!!! :D


Good Night! I can't wait to party! =D


-Excited yet worried-

I can no longer stand all this. As much as i really wanted to assure them that i will do my best and as much as i want to assure myself that i can do it. I just can't seem to convince myself, so how could i convince them? I've been thinking a lot. I don't know why, I don't want all this to happen either. I was hoping everything could go on as smoothly as planned. I no longer tell people about it. Because i think it was useless, i can only pour out everything, at the same time wasting their time. I don't wana waste their time. And that is most important reason. What i get in the end is still the same sentences, the same words. Maybe some people can find comfort in all those, but i cant. It's not good for me to keep things to myself, i know. Especially at this time when i am supposed to devote 100% of my time to revision and preparing myself for next few weeks. I really want to concentrate, but time and again. People been whispering to my ears about all these. Everything keep ringing in my ear. I cant stand it. I am scared, worried, frustrated, depressed, stressed, i am not ok.


Tuhan, aku udah pasrah akan semua ini. Aku mau berdiri tegar menghadapi semuanya. Aku mau dan aku mohon agar Tuhan akan memberi aku kekuatan untuk menyelesaikan ini. Aku tau setiap apa pun yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya, aku tau. Tapi aku beneran takut bakal mengecewain orang tua aku. Kalo misalnya gagal, aku beneran ga tau mau gimana. Tuhan tolong beri aku petunjuk.

i read some magazine just now.. and.. yup... there are certain stuffs written there that i strongly believe!!!... =)
shall share...


"i've always liked the hard way, because you learn so much more from it even if you don't succeed."


"life is always peaks and valleys, there's gona be good times and bad times and when all the other things are there, the biggest thing for me is having someone that makes you laugh and that you have a friendship and a TRUSTwith."


"when you are younger, you have priorities in a different place, but as you get older, i think that friendship becomes most important to you."

Ade: girl!!! i m so sorry! my msn gt problem... not tt i dun wana reply.. i wanted 2 reply.. but somehow all my replies are unsent... sorry girl! anw, i hope u r doing fine! dont worry abt me k? i am very fine... will be fine... =) i'll go find u as soon as my last paper ends... okok??? n please take care of urself n drink lots lots of water k??? & for goodnesss sake... PLEASE EAT!!!


Elson: im sorry too! yst... u talked 2 me.. BUT i also cant seem to reply u... MY MSN gt BIG problem!!! hais... anw, i read ur blog!! Hope u r doing fine!!! u dun have to go NS tt arli 1 la... will go find u after a's okok??!?! meet up!!! hee!


anw...
it's EDISON's birthday tml!!!!
--07102006--
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDC!!!!
=DDDD

d haze is really bad!!!
even at night i can still "see" d haze... tis is BAD!!!
shyt la!!!
cant d government do sth about it???


headache-breathing problems!!!!


i shall sleep~~~~~~
4 d 1st time in so many weeks... i am sleeping at 1030!!!

i din go sch todae...
i stayed at home to study instead... woke up at... 8++ oh my! so when my frens are having lessons in school.. im studying at home tooo... haha! a fruitful morning... i finished phy of fluids...=DDDD haha! so nice! better understanding... finished 1 chpt of maths... den went on to do Gp AQ... haha... den i went to slp for 1/2 hr.. LOLS... &&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;&&&
minz called me after lunch! we talked a while! nice chat... =D
thanks girl! stardie hard tgt k!!! yay! =D


the above is so called the "idle-chatter & self-indulgence" haha!


i increased d font size... cuz i dun wana hurt ppl's eye... haha! better eyesight 4 me too...
yay! im happy...
i shall stop creating trouble out of nowhere... lols...


maddie: thanks 4 willing to listen to me yst! u r right! i am thinking too much.. therefore.. i took out d previous entry...=X


Now, for some "intelligent discussion"...
my homeland... d ppl... erms... i reali hate to say this larhs.. but they really have got nth better to do... like there is NOT enough air pollution... (forests fire) now.. they still wana create more problems by rioting and increase air pollution by burning vehicles... as if the air in Indonesia is not polluted enough!!! TOOOPIIIIDDDD!!! if u dun wan d car!!! y not give it to me??? so dumb! bleaghs...
d HAZE IS BAD!!!! im having difficulty breathing!!!!


oh ya!! HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!
i miss carrying my rabbit lantern.. u noe those type that have lights and music??? haha... i threw it away a few yrs back.. i carried it in my pri sch days...=X
& tonight my niece n nephew r gg to carry their sailormoon n power ranger lantern n have fun at chinese garden... yea.. i think they are gg there... =p


hee! i just ate a very very nice delicious durian mooncake... everything is durian.. its real durian.. i think its d type tt mel told me abt... oh my.. i miss eating real durians!!! =D


-run-sprint-jump-fly-chiong-pia-rolls-

my 140 corrections for definitions of my dear physics are half done... i counted 160 this afternoon... but when i started writing.. it's actually onli 140... cuz in d afternoon i even counted d 1s i defined correctly...
they ask me no nid write so much since NO ONE would be "clever" enough to really write out so much.... 140 corrections is 1000+++ words larhs..


BUT! hey! d reason behind im doing this is becuz... i wana punish myself for not studying enuf... who ask me to slacken and din memorise them well... i have to admit that im not good at memorising things... i can NEVER memorise exact word for word... However i wont let this be an excuse for my failing today's remedial test... still.. i'll try very very hard to force formulaes, definitions, chinese poems and those memorising stuffs into my brain... yep!


i will make sure i MEMORISE the next time round so i wont hav 2 do corrections again... =D like Bash.. get full marks... =D yay! i CAN do it!!!


hmm... i think d CCA thgy is kinda ridiculous... =X... why are we writing our own testimonials?? its like we are self praising... & i just dun feel good abt it... because i am NEVER good at describing myself... still since it's some kinda assignment for us... whether or not i like it.. i have to do it... =C


look at the time now.. its 0124... sians... another sleepless nite... =X will try to sleep tho...


btw!!! MAD!!!! i cant enter ur blog larhs... duno change for wat... hmph!


===STRESS GIVES US THE POWER TO EXCEL===

i'm down with so so many remedials...
maths... physics... chinese... GP.... muahaha....
GOSH! they are already saying that i am a bit crazy now... so what will happen to me after A's?? LOL... HECK... the STRESS is doing this to me... but who asks me not to do consistent revision???


TODAY... HAHA!!! i suddenly have the confidence to do well in A's... haha!!! yay!!! hope i'll have even more confidence in myself... Mirna told me tt this is d 1st MAIN quality tt i must have.. believe that i can do well n work for it.. and i'll definitely do well... thank you ah mir!!! luph euu!!!


just now i see ppl motor-cycle racing... *very noisy* somewhere near my hse... then it reminded me of the days in Indonesia, d day b4 Ramadhan, when all the Muslims... most of them... will rent those big big truck and one followed by another creating the Ramadhan atmosphere around d streets... its called Malam Takdiran... yea i think so... heehee... quite scary la... cuz you wont know when they will get nasty and they will just come down d truck in big groups and create trouble... hmm... *scary* den during New Years' eve... d streets will also FOREVER be crowded... n there will huge traffic jam in the city... BUT i will still pester my parents to drive me over... and we'll get stuck in the jam for a few hours... *haha* i just wana have the FEEL.. & i wana watch d fireworks!!! =D it is definitely better than staying at home ryt?!!! =X but of course it's not EVERYTIME that i will have my way... n i am so going to learn driving n get my own car asap... even tho it gets kind of scary -->> d streets filled with so many Indonesians (u noe wat im referring 2)...
i still love d environment there... =D cuz its not as stressful as it is here... of course many ppl will say that it's not safe there... riots... blablabla... so many large scale natural disaster... i wont know when the next 1 will hit Jakarta and KAAABOOM!!! what will happen??? i duno... haha... im not gg 2 worry abt tt.. *waste of brain cell*


y spend ur life worrying??? just accept thgs as it comes my way.. this is what i learnt throughout my 10 years of being independent... alone in this foreign land.. lalala~~ now that i think back.. i think im pro... tt small toot toot girl... gg everywhere on her own since 9 yrs old... and most of the time when i encountered any problems... i'll be my own counsellor... LOLX!!! how... GREAT!!!


anw, Zhong Kai!!! ur ex classmate happen 2b my classmate's fren! haha! i went home with her todae... lol... home as in until LRT station..=X din talk much to her.. cuz she's sooo super quiet... not really la... counting that she was d 1 hu started talking when we left the mrt... (im shy mahs...)
when we were on d mrt... i was asking wat course she take... den she said.. bio-med... den i ask her, u noe zk??? den she said.. szk??? then i said, yea!
haha! Singapore is really small... =X
but even tho it's small... the ppl i always wana see and talk with... never appear in front of me... *sadded*
hope ade girl is doing well well too... *hee*


d song in my blog.. is..."My Heart by Acha & Irwansyah" they are one of the lead actor & actress in d indonesian movie "HEART" that shud still be showing in Singapore cinemas... heehee... go catch it when u r free!!! (if it's still available) =D & im so sorry 4 putting up an Indo song... it's 1 of my fav... n it's gg 2 remain here for quite some time... =D just enjoy it k? i'm an Indonesian mahs... =D


haha! okie lerhs.. enuf of resting and night dreaming... i SHALL now continue with studying... =D phy of fluids... here i come... =D

i sort of got reprimanded by someone todae...
made me reflect...
i wasnt doing enuf..
no one is to be blamed except 4 myself...


took a 1.5 hr nap todae.. cuz my head was super pain and the things i see are all so blur...
i duno y.. mayb its the after-effect of my lack of sleep...
n so i think tonite.. i wont be able to sleep again..
darn!


i will survive thru this.. 35 more days nia...
im not hopeless...
it's a matter of whether i wana do it or not...
so i shall just do it...


--success is afterall 99% perspiration & 1% inspiration--
--a wish will always be a wish if no action is taken--

Mickey & Minnie in my rOom...!!! =D * CUTES*


CHILDREN SERIOUSLY at work at the museum... =D

tt 1st KBOX outing with E3s..=D

KBOX marina sq.. d room with d pool table!!!

KBOX marina sq after prelim 1 with Ade & Zk... we got d very very BIG room!!!

S71... NOt WHole class Tho... haha... we NEVER had FULL attendance... =X

LILY is going back 2 MUG now!!!!

bad bad day!!

i actually went to the museum todae...
their customer service is HORRIBLE can!!!!
oh man... shant talk abt it...
i see the trend.. when it comes to tourist.. they are all smiles... when it comes to students... they just give u shyt... lalala~~ i dun care... its not my country anw...


hmm...
anw... d trip to museum...
was...
quite fine...
walked a lot...
laughed a lot todae too...


ALL d results 4 prelim 2 are OUT...
which explains my super down mood yst... *expected*
i am ONLY satisfied with my CHINESE marks... HAHA!!! i onli studied 4 1 day.. & i get such nice result...
yet! CERTAIN subjects... no matter how many months i've been mugging 4 it.. i just wont be able to get them right!!! i just cant pass them... argh!!! wth... *hopeless*


oh wells... i dun care!!!
im gg to work hard 4 da last lap...
VERY VERY LAST LAP...
i wont give up!!!!!


thank you ying2 4 sharing d studying methods... & 4 sending me d checklist!!!
thank u my dear frens: bash, mad, mel, jj, cant rmb hu else lerhs... 4 d encouragements...
thank u to mr sim too... 4 d small gift & all da encouragements!!!

this cannot be happening.
this really sucks.
i really need a proper sleeping cycle.
i am sleeping later n later each day.
before prelims, it was 1am...
in d midst of prelims, it was 1++...
after prelims, it was 3...
now... even at 4am... i am still wide awake...
argh!
and its not tt when i slept THAT late i wake up in mid afternoon or wat..
i wake up as earli as 8 or 9 in d morning...
hais...
please please pretty pretty please...
let me fall asleep earlier...
i've tried several ways and means to help myself...
reading book...
drank milk...
making myself very very tired by occupying myself with thgs...
still.... I CANT SLEEP!!!
& i am d type if i dun get enuf slp...
i wont b able to concentrate on ANYTHG...


i tot of sth i could do to help myself and my family during this long hols...
I hope it wud work out somehow...
yea!
&... this remaining 40 days to a'lvl..
i hope no one wud disturb me... whether living or non living...
i hope they wont distub me n let me do my revision at ease...
i onli need encouragements, not distractions, not procrastinations...
i hope d living n non living will try to understand...
i hope d 1 inside me will be determined to give its best shot this time round...
this is very impt to me...


i'll just hold on to hopes.....


God bless...


to all my Muslim friends: Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa! =)


everythg is just not gg my way...
i hope i will be strong enuf to face this shyt...


Y does it seem to me that i am one dumb stressed out girl???

hmm... i came across an email abt personality test sth lidat...
its quite true...
but then im not d kind who will email ppl...
so... hmm mayb u guys will come across it some time later... =)


this morning is DEFINITELY NOT a good day to start my day with...
i woke up at 8+++ & sth happened... i seriously feel like killing myself then... cuz the pain is reali unbearable... *some of u might noe wat am i talking abt* it's reali hard being girls!!!
wat more women...


but still i dun wana waste d day awy... mad ask me to go out n feel d sun instead of staying at home... so i went out to the bank... n went to buy chocs 4 myself!!! NICE!!! Kinder Bueno is NICE!!! Cadburry milk chocolate is nice too!!! Jelly is NICE NICE too!!!! oh my!!! im sure gg 2 grow fat....


& tml.. im gg to the gym... =D it'll be d 1st time in soo sooo many weeks that im gg to exercise... =X i think since PE lessons ended... =X


so now everyone been saying that we should get back to the momentum of studying... yea! quite true... i totallly agree.... but agreeing is oone thg and doing it is another... im sorry... just let me anjoy d last 2 days alrite.... i wish my parents were here... so they wud just sit by me n make sure i dun slack ard...
even Mr Chu said tt we shud onli have 2 days off... (according to wat the econs ppl sae)


sians... so 40 more days to a'lvl... and we are gg 2 b freed in ard 60 days later!!! VERY fast 1...
imagine tt tm its still 100 over days to a's now its onli 40 more days... i just wana get it over and done with... den i am reali FREE.... from next monday onwards... will be another round of studying every single day... i shall think of sth that will reali make me study... not procrastinate...


bestie!!! omg... i think mr postman ate our letters awy... sadded... hais!!! i still hope it will get to my house somehow... ='(


there's sth gd tt i found out recently... haha... i can live without my phone... =D cuz... its like... i dun go n check it.... i'll onli check if anyone finds me when i feel like doing so.... =D


YAY! im gg 2 go back soon! 2 more mths +++!!!! yay!!! =D

i hope d REAL EXAMS will be reali over.


dis skin kinda weird. too simple.
but i dun feel lyk doin anythg 2 it.
.original.


todae din go out.
yst? *sian* .shant talk abt it.


shall wait 4 zk 2 come back.
den me, ade & him go out! =D


i looking fwd 2 go msia with ade!!! =D


.bored.


btw, i love my blog song!!!! i can listen 2 it 4 duno how many times in a day!!! =D


.shall get some more life.


& happy 18th bdae ying ying!!

Hari ini gue hampir ketabrak mobil lagi.. soalnya tadi pass crooss d road.. gue ga liat ada mobil kagak.. untung ga ditabrak.. mungkin kalo di tabrak ada baiknya juga... BT!!!!!!!!!! Hari ini ulangan gue ga bisa lage.. gue sedih amet!!! Padahal gue dah belajar mateng mateng.. padahal gue masih ada ngehope kalo gue ulg masih bisa bikin.. padahal gue hope kalo gue bisa dapet at least a pass.. Anjrit! Sedih banget!!! Sekarang tt small small tenny wenny hope juga dah ilang.. kali ini ada 2 "F" lagi di result slip gue.. pengen mati dhe gue! GUE udah belajar! Sumpah! Gue dah belajar! Ah udah dhe.. jadi males kadang gue mikir2 bikin gue sendiri sedih aja!!!


Mungkin emank belajar itu ga help at all.. Anjrit!!! Gue akan rajin belajar banget! Harus RAJIN untuk ulg yg besar yg akan dtg itu.. HARUS!!! Soal yang lain.. Gue dah nga sanggup ngadepin lagi.. semoga tmn tmn gue akan bisa understand akan ada pergantian dari diri gue.. gue beneran sedih banget.. pasrah!


gue ga pangen putus asa tapi... hais... nga tau lah... sedih!!! tapi udah ga ada lagi air mata yg bisa gue tangisin... gue udah janji ama diri gue sendiri kalo gue ga boleh nangis... ga boleh...


.everythg just dosent seem to be going my way.

what i've been wanting 2 do is 2 sleep b4 12am yst...
BUT it didnt work out... i slept at 1+++ instead...
This morning i woke up earli... =X
y?!?!?
because i woke up to check d maths formulae i used during exam yst...
& it turned out.. i used so many wrong formulaes...
d worst thg is i mixed up tt 2 formulaes...
if onli i used d correct formula.. i could easily secure that 10 over marks.. BUT nOW...
so GONE.... REALLY GONE.... *sobs*


tym 2 study 4 chinese n physics....
haiZ...

i am happy!!!
i Hope thgs will remain this way...
i hope every1 ard me.. n me... and every1... will continue to be happy!!! =D


Love my Bestie min lotsa!!! =D


haha... sleep... todae.. will b d 1st day i sleep b4 12... since... last week?? =X


S L E E P....
B E D...
here i come!


life's unpredictable... treasure everythg.. live each day to the fullest... just do anythg u want!!!!!
be happy! =D

FINALLY... finally FRIDAY liaos.... =D
so NICE...
2 more pp to go... =)


&... PRELIM papers are really HARD... sians...
i'll be glad if i can get a somewhere near passing mark for maths... it's soo HARD larhs!!!!
yst chinese pp.... same!!! VERY hard... sians...


hmm... wat's with my eyes??? =(
sadded larhs...
haha... nvms.. i still love my eyes loads...
so different ppl have different opinions abt me... =)
it's okays... =D


i woke up at 4am todae sias.... i should not have bothered 2 wake up tt earli if i noe the pp will be this hard... =( toots.... n its soooo not me to wake up earli to study okokokokok!!!! =(


sian sian...


Ramadhan coming soon... d Malays hav 2 start fasting... hmm... so fast 1 year liaos... =X
Lulu Tobing is getting married too.. this saturday.. to i think 1 of Suharto someone... mayb son... i duno hu... nt sure... =X
den 1 elephant in Korea can talk!!!! wahs!!!! He can make simple conversations... really very simple 1... i duno if its KOrea not... haha.. i duno which country le.. i think is KOrea... =X


headache... =(... i shall go sleep... =(

=)
2nd day le...
im so looking forward to next WEDS!!! LOLX!!! it's d starting of my 5 day LONG weekend... yea!!! =D
ok... so studying all this while is worth it.. i shall sleep my hols away!!! =D i need sleep ok...=X
GREAT GREAT!!! YAY!! days w/o sch is soo NICE!!!!! =D


i shant avoid it n just voice out my feelings 4 the 2 pp i've taken.. =X
MATHS --- mayb gone le... it needs thinking... & i guess i wasnt thinking enough... i din try hard 2 think... =X *sobs*
PHYSICS --- i think quite alrite... even tho i leave so many qns blank... NO time to think harder la... BUT i'm proud of myself 4 d e-field qns... LOLS... Im so so happy ok!!! cuz i wanted to give tt qns up when i did it halfway... BUT when i go back 2 finish tt qns.. i realise i know 75% of the answer... =) im glad i re-viewed Phy of fluids yst too... im hoping for onli a pass in this paper...=X a pass is good enuf... cuz i've NEVER pass phy this JC la... hee...
okok... jia you lerhs!!! =D


BUT... A'lvl.. i WILL do GREAT for all d subj!!! =D


i hope my HARD work pays off... at least allow me to pass every subj can??? haiz... i just wana see some improvement... =)


To that girl who msged me this morning: i'm so so sorry!!!! really sorry.. shud have read ur msg this morning... blame my laziness... =X hais... i hope u ok le hors... hope u feeling better le... then i also wana apologise for like... my... erm.. weird mood this morning la... i aslo duno y... just dun feel like talking... then my replies 2 everythg u sae is just... "hmm... yarh!... orh!" sorry k... u rest well.. n dun stress out!!! =)


Oh ya... thank u to the 3 non teaching staff in sch... who ends my day in sch... HAPPY! yeap thx...( i've said b4 ryt.. every simple thg u do to another person can have a positive or negative impact on that person... ) and so yea... a mere few words from them... ends my day well.. thx for d encouragement n d wishes.. thank you!!!! =)

i cant sleep!! help!!! i need some sleeping pills... anyway... GOOD news... haha! i've finished revising n practising the pure maths topics...=p
BIG thanks to my dearest Maths teachers for making us revise b4hand...
it helps my revision a lot easier... cuz i forget abt onli so little thgs... =p and i've clarified my doubts with my beloved revision booklets...


i hope i wont get nervous later...
i hope i can handle the qns later...


Thank u to my dearest mama 4 giving me d reassurance yst... tho its just a simple sms... but it's enuf... i hope i wont disappoint her... =)


That maddie... argh! y off her phone? i cant reach her... den i have to take so much time to clarify my stupid doubts...=X bleaghs... hope she's fine anw...
Thank u to my dearest Ade for keeping me in her prayers... i'll try not to stress out girl!!!
( i think i shud go to the temple to pray soon too... its been LONG since i go to the temple...=X )
ok... todae will be having the first paper of the many papers that i have to take... i HOPE... i wont stress out... =)
i hope evryone is doing fine...


im too tired to take care of other thgs... some ppl get offended bcuz of my very "cold" sms replies... =X paiseh larhs... im stressed!! =X
my room... all the books, notes, stationaries are lying all over the place... =X


ok i shall take a fast glance at my notes... i hope i will sleep by 0100... ='(
1 more thg... have i ever mentioned that i dont like competition??? whether or not u do well, doesnt concern me and vice versa... hmm... i guess humans are selfish beings... sometimes... the thgs u do really hurts ppl ard u... y cant we have a win-win solution??? y must u try so hard to be the best and hurt so many others in d process??? is life really about caring only for oneself???


bla bla bla...
notes here i come... =X


Semoga semoga... aku bisa dapet nilai yg bagus dhe!!! please please... udah belajar negh... kalo dapet jelek lagi... haiz... bakal sedih amet!!!! aku ga mau nangis lagi... a ku mau bahagia... dapetin nilai yg bagus dan senyum!!!!!!!

i din get enuf sleep everyday!!!!!
slept at 3 everyday la... =( *sadded*
i dreamt that i was in sch doing the papers yst.... =(
even in my dreams!!! will u just let me off???


anyways...
tml is MATHS paper! HURRAY!!! i LOVE maths more more than PHYSICS ok?? at least i noe what i am doing.. BUT phy?? wat the heck am i studying for?? when even though i've read it for duno how many times.. i just cant get the stuffs right... like... 5 years down d road... will ur boss ask u.. wat are the laws of induction??? "state the 3 Newton Laws & i will hire u..."
wahsss!!! IF that's d CASE... i WILL MEMORISE & confirm! chop plus gurantee! that i do well tis prelim larhs... =X *bleaghs* i will do well for a'lvl tho...=p
i hope this time round the maths pp wont be that hard anymore!!!! =X Please let me pass ok??? =p


anw... i got tired of doing maths all morning... n now.. im here to destress... ifound some *lame* jokes from my niece and nephew's cupboard... =p

Son: I'm just too tired to study tonight.
Dad: Hard work never killed anyone.
Son: So why should i run the risk of being the first?
*LOLS*

hee... i read quite a lot... But i am lazy to type them down.. =p at least d 1 i type is some sort relevant to what im doin now... =X

i think im reali 1 stupid girl...
who will always worry even though i keep telling ppl ard me that i dont.. *shucks*
y is it when the days draws near... i just get more n more nervous, more and more worried?!?!?!?
when i have already told my frens that i have given up 4 this prelim?????
*will you please answer my qns??*
i am so dumb~~~


i gave my mom 3 missed calls yst night... and another 3 tonight.... which is onli a while ago...
im not used to her not comforting me... not giving me assurances b4 every paper... =(
i think she called me this afternoon at 3++ but i was asleep... couldnt hear it... ='(
i realli miss her... Please call me tml k???
*y cant i be d 1 to call her???* (tis is how weird i am)

...

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i've given up...
don't give me that look when i flunk all my papers again...
don't look down on me...
*given up*

a little more study...
a little more practise...
haha...
im enjoying it... CUZ it's so much like a routine every single day...
i guess i wont have this happening to me again nx yr??? =p
after a'lvl is done.. everythg is more unpredictable... i duno what is coming d next day.. i duno what am i gg 2 do the next day... =D
so i shall enjoy this routine now... (even tho it gets really boring!!!)...
i realise im no longer sulking when im holding on to a book...=p
haha... i guess when you really let it go... just let it be... your heart feels much more lighter & u no longer feel the pressure... den u can really ocncentrate... =)
my heart feels so much so much lighter now... =) hehes...
lalala~~~
kk... back to studying!!!! =) =) =)


If anythg bad has happened & u feel down, remember 1 thg...
"At least U survived..." =)

Crazy - Simple Plan


Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look,
I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong
I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III
No one cares,
no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong
Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?
Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong
Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong..

OkoK... study study study...
Ks, i din 4get abt what my bro says...
As promised i wont go online.. as in i wont enter msn.. until prelim's OVER...
yea yea!!! cuz i dun wana get distracted and ended up staying dere to chat for a few hrs...=X
and so i'll make full use of the remaining time and mug all da way!!!
this time round even if i really do badly for prelim...
im not gg to cry, not gg 2 feel anythg... watever the outcome... i will just look forward to a's and prepare well 4 it...
yeap...!!!


can anyone tell me when is d last day tt we have to go sch??? tt means d last day for this term for JC2s... cuz i've got sth to plan... definitely not outing la... just some personal stuffs!!! thanks!!! =)


i'm missing my close frens so so much...
i miss talking to bestie!!!
(bestie, we shall jia you & study tgt k??!?!? it's coming & its ending soon!!!)
i miss talking to ade too!!!
( ah girl, i dropped a msg 4u on ur blog!!! get well soon!!!)

*no feeling* *numbness*

lols.. i guess... i din get enuf sleep... =X 7 i woke up so so many times yst... n i duno y... just woke up in d middle of the night... wake up.. walk walk ard my room.. look at the time... on d fan.. den drop on my bed n sleep again... =X


yst came online at midnight(todae).. den suddenly... so many ppl come talk to me... lols..
normally when i come at the NORMAL hours... my com just go reali quiet... den i just browse through sites, blog, friendster, read my dearies blog, greet my dearest brother at msn... den... just leave d com on... listen to music... so.. ppl rarely talk to me.. n i dun approach them... =X *so dao* =p
yst... weird case... i came online at 0012++++ haha.. den so many ppl talk to me... weirdos!!! =X haha! NICE chats... appreciate... =p talk till 0230+++ i cant tahan anymore.. so just lie down on bed and sleep.. cuz by tt tm.. everythg i say doesnt make sense... n i dun understand wat the other party is talking abt.. so i'd rather just slp... lols.. i need my beautty sleep... =p


what makes me happy is...
the catching up time with my ex room mates ---- Dewi & Windy...
nice room mates... tho when we stayed tgt.. we almost always quarrell everyweek.. haha... BUT at the end of d day... dey know me well n i know them well... hehe... ok la... i miss them... but i prefer having the whole room to myself tho... but still... i dun mind sharing... =p but i miss having NICE room mates.. [lols... just give up on me... a while say wan a while say dun wan... i nv know what i reali want... lalala..] the feeling of.. u noe.. when its lights off time... u just lie down on bed... simply chat abt little thgs... den sing song tgt... den greet each other gd nights... den earli morning wake each other up.. pat pat on each others leg... den queue for the pathetic toilet.. den have breakfast & off to sch tgt... den come home... have lunches tgt... watch tv tgt.. study tgt... n haha.. it goes on and on... really memories la.... =) miss u girls!!!!!!!!


& so... another dearie of mine... Miss Fong... haha... she reminded me d other day.. NOT to study till so late.. n take care of my health... and... i am supposed 2 meet her after both prelims and a'lvl b4 i go back... =p ... yst when i came online at 0012hrs... she din even bother to say hi and just straight awy ask me... ''WHAT ARE U DOING HERE...ARENT U SUPPOSED 2B SLEEPING???'' lols... my another ''caretaker''... d fact is.. i came to destress... =p she's a nice girl... =) my sec 3 &4 class mate...=D


i've gt so many dear dear le... haha.. thanks girls... and some guys... lols...=)
but still those d r DEAREST 2 my heart... u noe hu u r la... haha.. actuali all also dears to me...
not tt close... quite close... close... very close.... ALL also shower me with so much love... of course onli some are ppl whom i pour my troubles to la... THANK YOU 4 willing to open ur ears n listen... =p


yst... was 1 of my fren's bdae... hmm... in a class there is always a grp or rather someone who is not popular among d people in class... so yst was his bdae... i rmb... n i msged him at 2359hrs!!!! purposely 1 ok... haha... n so i msged him 2 wish him a Happy bdae! *(like duh!)*... den he repplied... he said ''Haha! Thanks! i will always rmb tt u r d onli 1 in d class who remembered my bdae...'' ok... d main point im trying to say here is not abt how nice am i to rmb ppl's bdae... what i want to say is... every small little thg u do for others can really make a difference la... every small kind gestures can actually make ppl happy... make ppl realise that they are actually remembered & not forgotten... (mayb i've given a very weird example...) but reali la... be nice 2 every1... n be careful of what u say ok...=)


yay! yay! yay!!! A's coming!!!!!! lolx!!!!! will get outa this hell soon.... HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! 15TH NOV IS NEARING!!!!!!!!!! =D


^-..LOVE IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT..-^

ok la... every single second is passing by.. i am a lot more seconds nearing to my papa & mama side...=p


back 2 my dates......=(
..........................lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala............................

evryday is so boring..
nth to do except.. studying..
sians!!!!!!!!
wat a life....

can anyone make me understand physics??
can anyone tell me how to do well in physics??? (Mr Quek!!! help me!!!!)
can anyone make me do more maths?!?!?! force me pls!!!!
can anyone make me read my chinese notes?!?!?
will u please let me have 30 hrs in a day instead of 24 hrs???? =X

stressed!!!!!!!!!!

*sians*
life really sucks sometimes!!!
when i off my phone... IMPORTANT people call & msg me...
when i on my phone... those irritating ppl asking stupid qns msged & called me...
& so yst night till todae.. i off my phone... n soo... just a while ago... dad called my house... asking where am i?? what happen? y din on my phone...?? cuz he cant reach me... tot sth happen to me... so sorry dad! i didnt mean to off my phone n make u worry! hais.......
ok... so the reason behind i off my phone is to get awy from LAME msges & "nth-better-to-do" ppl msging me... i just wana concentrate on revision ok?? please leave me alone.....!!!!! bleaghs....
& if u have IMPORTANT stuffs to tell me... leave a msg.. i will get back 2 u asap... i will only reply important ones when i on my phone... not those bo liao asking stupid qns derhs!!!!!!


like asking if we have this chpt extra notes or not , asking where have i studied until... asking if i have studied todae.. study how much liao... & if i replied i studied, u will reply saying wat... wah! u study so much liao.. trying to do well rite.. trying to do better than me ryt... ... hey! r u dumb or wht... cant u find ur file... cant u just mind ur own business... instead of giving me encouragemnet to study more.. u tell me to study less so i will be in the same pace as u r... so tt i will not do well while u still get great results... arent u selfish.. shyt! im super stressed... i have to account to my parents... unlike u... dumb ass!!!!! i have other better thgs to do than replying ur dumb msges..... so please stop bugging me! i'd rather have my phone quiet this whole week...


ppl if i dun rply ur msg.. i hope u get the hint... its either im busy or i just dun feel like replying!!!!!!!!! or... there is nth to reply...... sorry 4 tht......


*STRESSED*

TODAY's TEACHERS DAY celebration is GREAT!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!! SO TOUCHING!!!!!!
LAST TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION IN INNOVA...
LAST ACES DAY WORKOUT IN SCHOOL...
LAST PERFORMANCE in innova THAT WE WILL GET TO SEE...??? [mayb]
DEDICATED PERFORMANCE BY THE TEACHERS...
Thank You Teachers!!! =)
*touched*


& 1 more thing... TAURUS IS GREAT!!!! SO ZAI! SO STEADY! LOLS!!! 2nd time CHAMPION LE WOR!!!! =D


after that... was kinda sad... partly because of d performances n stuffs...
den... on d way home... i was thinking... then i feel quite bad... i think i should apologise for the nasty thgs i said abt him... hais!!! after all.. i'm left with onli a few more lessons with him and a few more days in sch onli... after that will reali be gone for good... the next tym we meet with them will be like next yr?? so i shall be nice.. forgive and forget bahs.. i should try to accept thgs that come my way... hmm... yeaps... shall treasure the tym spend in sch now... =X d next tym i see the teachers again will be the tym when we will be sitting for prelims... den after that.. sch as per normal.. den off we go to do last revision for a's... den go sch to sit for our A's... den will onli be seeing a FEW teachers.. den... when 15th of November comes.. it will be CELEBRATION day... class chalet... den meet up with pri, sec & Jc frens... den 7th of November... Off i go to Indonesia... ALL PLANNED... including my revision timetable for A's... lalala... shooould i be HAPPY??? everything is coming to an end lerhs... as much as i hate and regretted coming to this sch, i realli cant bear to leave... all the fond memories we shared as a class... will NEVER be forgotten... never k... and all the sweet thgs my dearies did for me... THANKS loads...
ok... i shall continue with this again.. after a's... shall stop thinking abt it..
if not mad.... again... sorry girl!!! =X


anw.. had my 8th Kbox outing of the yr todae... =( waste $$$ again...=X BUT it was realli FUN!!! hahas!!! had lots of laughs!!! hehe... i got quite crazy... =X we sang..Hokkien, Chinese, english and cantonese songs!!!! wahahas!!! *claps* next tym add 1 more language.. Indo songs... =p
den i let ying & mel listen 2 my daddy's voice... haha! i mean i recorded it when dad was singing the other tym i went back... he was KARAOKE-ing... haha! they say... dad's voice like d original singer.. sth lidat... haha! so proud of my daddy!!!! den while letting them listen... DAD actually messaged me!!!! lols... so 巧! 我们心有灵西一点通！haha!! i duno wat "xi" word it is.. lols.. think typo le... =X but haha! double happiness... todae!!! HAPPY la... NOT sad... just touched!!!! yeaps.... ok so... left with onli 7 days to finish up my revision... n 3 days... for consultation.... hmm... HOPE i can finish n do well yea... hais... if do badly again.. i HAVE nth to sae le... at least i tried... =(
but still....... looking on d BRIGHT side of life... i noe i can do it!!! JIA YOU BAHS!!!
[mama always tell me no need scared!!! just relax & walk into d exam hall.. n do the paper... give it my best shot... she beliv her daughter can do it...]
i hope i dont disappoint her... =)
Love u dad & mom!!


TO ALL my friends... taking prelims & a's... hehe! jia you bahs!!!! we can do it!!!!! i can do it too... i will believe in myself more k mir!!!


lastly....


WISHING ALL THE TEACHERS A VERY VERY VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU FOR THE SINCERE CARE & CONCERN U'VE GIVEN ME!!!! THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!
ENJOY!!! IT'S YOUR DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

TODAY.... BOTH HAPPY & SAD.. God's TOO fair... how i wish i can be happy every single day...


let's talk about the unhappy event first... *sobs* i'm so going to fail my GP... bleaghs... sadded... cant finish both papers... i duno y the compre paper seems so LONG... like got so many extra qns... bleaghs!!! =( as a result, AQ din finish.. i din manage to write down any impt thgs.. so GP is GONE... =(
*he* talked to me today.. asking about when am i gg to meet him to clarify my doubts... he said he's been waiting for me to ask... the fact is... i went to ask him several times onli to be rejected saying that he got to teach OTHERS... no time... and it's like... i told him b4hand tt im meeting him... wth... & it's BASIC courtesy to face the person whom u are talking to & give them a reply ok?? didn't ur teachers teach u??? freak!!! now it seems that im d 1 in d wrong n he is right!!! hate him hate him!!! bleaghs... 4get abt him now...


lets talk abt some happy stuffs!!! hehes!!! i finally get to meet Adriano... my fellow Indonesian mate... =p din get to talk to him la... he so shy.. den i also dun dare talk.. so haha... *regrets*... not that i like him or admire him last time... haha! mayb i got interested in them onli todae.. =p haha! so i stayed back in sch to watch their performance... =p he... haha.. nvm larhs... guess he is TOO nervous.. he did well tho... & i got to take pic with him!!!! *HAPPY* LOLS... n i just found out that he is onli younger than me by 1 yr... haha! but still younger than me... den i took photos with yuyang n kim too... yuyang is good looking.. yeaps he is! =) yay!!! happy happy!!! tahnk you Gerald!!! =D


i shall forget abt GP & tt person 4ever... shall concentrate on A's instead!!! =)


i think im very very bad.. haha!!! i just refused to sign that BIG card we r giving 2 ***... n in d end.. B*** hv 2 help me sign & added some words... which is sooo NOT true... haha... if he can sense d sarcasm den good larhs.. if cannot... i also don't care!!! haha!! anw.. im not the 1 who put those words in... =X lols... =)

it's funny when i see couples quarrel over a trivial matter. ( be it married, engaged or onli attached as bf, gf...) The fact is, didnt they go through a lot of turbulences before they got together? y even bother to make thgs difficult for each other? aren't they supposed to shower each other with more love when they are together?? and treasure the time spent with each other??? *weird* no wonder the divorce rates are increasing.. teenagers are changing partners as and when they like it.... cuz there is no mutual understanding between couples and they tend to take thgs for granted... wells, i guess most humans DO take thgs for granted... only when they lose it, then they start crying n thinking abt y didnt they treasure them.. blablabla... so must treasure every single person ard u ok??? u duno what will happen the next second... *treasure*
[ y am i talking abt this in d 1st place?? lols... anyhow, what i want to say is... treasure everythg u have... be blessed, be contented... =) mayb i should learn to love the people i hate too...=X ]


there's sth weird i found out today too... haha... y is it that when dad & mom quarrell, daughters always follow mom n sons always follow dad??? y is it that when we tap on ppl (when we want to call someone beside us) we always tap them 3 times??? haha... qns to ponder... =p


TO that gal gal who msged me todae & also my other great frens...: hee... i was kinda touched when u msged me to tell me tt la... haha! but then this happens to every1 of my frens... pri sch.. sec sch.. now jc... there will always be a time when i reali have to go... =) duno when will tt day be... duno when i will have to leave for good also... BUT.. our friendship still exists even when i leave sg ok?? hee... so no worries... n.. if i have to leave for good.. there are so many friends so many great frens i have here whom i have to leave behind n onli keep in my heart la... so yep! just treasure the times now... S71 and the extended families of S71s (our neighbouring schmates) has definitely given me great fond & memorable memories... realli... those whom i never expect to stand by me, actuali showed me that no matter what happens they are always here for me.. im touched! so yea... no more crying ok?? i will tell myself this also... crying is no good... hope.. no more tears will be shed... =p


okok.. time to resume with my reading... tml GP prelim... LOLS.. jia you!!! =p haha... =)


oh yea.. im so sorry if my behaviour today towards TT PERSON actuali offended some of u.. but haha! pardon me la... cant be helped... i just hate him so much can... =X
anw, me n melissa sure did so well in the voting.. HAHA!! funny larhs!!! =p


p/s: hope zk had an enjoyable trip back to his hometown.. haha!!! & ade.... hope she will enjoy working... =))) while me... i enjoy studying so so much...... too much in fact... =p