Well 2009 ended badly

hey guys

sooo my last post i thought my band had slipped....within a month id become extremly ill and ended up yes, it had slipped, or prolapsed....emergency surgery completed exactly a year to date after my first surgery....weight loss at the year mark was 79kg....i was 87.5kg on the day of my surgery! crazy ay....from 166.6 to thAT!!!!!

ANyway, surgeon farked up and cut tissues blood supply...causing me to after surgery become very very sick as it rotted in my system, poisening me...so yeh ended up with a second surgery, lots of drugs, and very very critcal condition...

soooo i had booked holidays overseas for new year- bang- cancelled
sooo i had an awesome xmas break organised-totally ruined...

so yeh my great end of year shot away fast...

but...on a positive, ive recovered really well, back to work monday, and am ready to rock it!

iv put on a couple of kg's, but at least im hydrated &healthy again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hopeno one else EVER suffers like me!!!!

so had a fair few guys on the scene lol an yehhh lovvving the attention from everyone lol ill try put new pics up so u can all seethe diff now! its fun as!!!!

thanks for readin x

slip

hey guys

im meant to be a happy camper and loving life as things couldnt be more perfect...except...

my health has gone to shit....im scared that my band has slipped, i woke up this morning and where my band is, well its soooo sore, like to touch and everything....its just a constant pain, fluids are being a night mare and its just making me feel nauseus....i hate it!!! im having an ultrasound tomorrow for a hernia also....

but on a happy note, i have finished uni, official graduation is march 2010... i finished my WHSO course, i just got back from a fkn hectic messy fun week in melbourne, i got on tv hahaha drunk bitch!

how is everyone tho!? can someone give me advice about my biatch of a band! :(

Put on a happy face.....

Hey All,

Well its been forever since i have been on here, wow!!! Sorry ive been so slack!

Updates
- I have 4 weeks left at uni, and im done, sitting on Distinctions, so couldnt be happier!
- Had a pay rise so really happy with that
- Heading to the melbourne cup- in a strapless dress
- Oh did i mention im 105kg now!? yahooo nearlly double digits!
- The boy is amazing <3

Ok so i have been doing so well with the band etc, i really dont let it control me as others tend to and i find it works, i excercise heaps, and love it, eat well (mostly) haha my weakness is still milkshakes...mmmmm but look if you cant let yourself slip like that a few times, then REALLY your not in control....i dont care if i dont lose a kg a week, or a month, to be honest, im happier, fitter, and healthier than i think i have EVER been in my life.

I have an amazing support group, i must admit only 2 of them have the band, but htey are the most sensible amazing girls! Love u 2 (u know who u are)

I will try and get a new pic to upload, coz you wouldnt believe the changes

TOTALLY LOVING LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bragging Rights

Ok, i need to blog this, im too excited

So im gunna brag, i apologise, i know how annoying it is! haha

First----- im down 45kg now, loving it, am size 18/20 and nearlly under 120kg! woo

Second-----i kinda started a business doing photography and omg the response is AMAZING i have so much work lined up its AWESOME, and im self taught! so yeah im pumped to say the least!

Third----I just got all my uni results back and i passed them all! YEOOOO which means i have one semester, one very hard slogging semester left and ill be fully qualified HR practicioner! yesssssss

Fourth-----a guy that has been around for a while and i are totally together, so so happy, and having a blast, we go out and get drunk with both our mates, my cirlce of friends has doubled....

Fifth-----my mum is FINALLY excited that she is getting the band in 2 weeks!!!!

So overall life is AWESOME!! couldnt be happier..........................spesh shout out to Chels and Maddie..................love u 2 girls!!!! xxxxxxxxx

Slight Relapse

Hi
Having a thoughtful day so thought id blog it
Update- ive lost 40.3kg at last tally, im now 126.00kg...compared to my 166 in December, im stoked....6 months and 40kg gone! yeeoo

Thoughts for the day.....

dont let the band run ur life....life is out there...fkn enjoy it!!!!

We got the band coz we were morbidly obsese....so celebrate life, not the band!

Im writing this as my mum is about to get the band and ive tried to offer her some words of wisdom.....and the above is what i gave her!!!

I havent changed my life for the band, im still partying, celebrating and living my life, but just gaining bits of confidence back as i do so!

Im eating very little still, but its great, just need to get some more iron, but ive sorted that now!
Anyway, got so many little trips planned, and maybe a big move soon, so hopin it all pulls off

anyway- thats my little relapse to blogging, ill kick myself for it next week! lol

Thanks for listening to my rant!

OVER IT

Hey

Im kinda over everything today, more so this blog and everything surrounding it

I dont feel inspired- which sounds AWFUL coz u are all doing well, but i dont feel inspired to write.....i dont feel that im achieving enuf....i know i know ive done well but i dunno just stuck in a bit of a rut at the moment between the old weight and where i wanna be i guess??????

Its def a whole change of mindset and that but yeh

i think coz im so tired today as well!!

sorry just had to get that out

thanks

A

CLICK!

Well...

this is going to sound pretty shitty to some but i this is the moment i needed in myself

ok i was reading a blog today...........and realised this person is only 10kg lighter than me, but i find her stunning, and "skinny" such a WEIRD moment

so i realised, 10kg is nothing to me at the moment, its falling off like stars outta the sky...

sorry i just had to share that.........................

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

xo