Saturday, September 29, 2012
|My Elective|
Found part of a story inside my notes. decided to search for it.
Here's the
story
I wonder what the lecturer was trying to say. What relation does it have with Stars?
It was kinda inspirational though.
To be able to trust.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
|Priorities|
Argh, why am I blogging here when I'm supposed to study?
Cos I'm vexed. I CANT DECIDE ON A CAKE.
I HATE CAKES. not just dislike.
Why were cakes created in the first place. Why do people have cakes on their birthdays. I'm just a useless Libra who can't decide. Who doesn't seem to be pleased with anything. Who is a great irritant.
I sometimes feel that I am not doing what I want, saying what I want to say. I tend to say the opposite nowadays. For example, I'd choose to say that I'm okay but actually i'm not. And that makes me even more miserable.
Recently I've been feeling short bursts of angina. I wonder if it's psychological. Then the sensation spreads to my abdomen. Still towards the left side. I'm wondering if it's my mental state manifesting itself in a physical manner, or there is sth really physically wrong with me.
Either way, this page is getting darker.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
|Poisoning thoughts|
I should stop letting bad thoughts infiltrate my mind as I think about things. They poison me, in a chronic way.
Subtlety goes a long way, and I've chosen to try it. But somehow a lot of acting has to be involved. And I don't like it. I can't take it, yet I'm not willing to show it.
You know sometimes when u're actually not tt happy but yet u have to pretend tt you are? Cos life still goes on and nobody truly cares, not even those who claim they do. Not like I'm exempted from it, though I believe tt I actually tried.
Erratic behavior is the outcome, neurosis or even psychosis. Nevertheless, blogging virtually helps me to live in reality. Or perhaps I've alr lost contact with the real world and is just getting self absorbed. This is worrying.
Friday, September 21, 2012
|Sometimes|
It's been a while.
Just slacking off a bit here before I go off for Lab later. Don't really have anything to say, but since I don't have anything to do right now, might as well.
Recess week is next week and there's tons and tons to study. And yet the motivation is lacking as usual.
Might even have to head back to school one of the days just to collect some assignment. Ahhh. Waste time and effort.
Perhaps I must be in a perpetually stressed mode to motivate me and to prevent me from going out too frequently.
Oh well. Till next time!
