Friday, August 24, 2012
|Procrastination|
Somehow I have slowed down.
I haven't been doing things that I am supposed to do.
I have papers piling up on my desk, either waiting to be filed or read.
Some aren't even printed yet.
I've been wanting to do many things, yet haven't got down to doing it.
Even by ranting here, I am just procrastinating in a seemingly busy way.
Passivity is not to be tolerated, but I can't seem to break through it.
Sluggishness is what I feel almost every day.
Ahh. With that, I shall go do my tutorial and maybe post on the forum.
Hopefully the gloom that looms over me will go away soon.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
|Nostalgia. Or not?|
Went back to NUS yesterday. Suddenly I felt a surge of nostalgia, but as I thought about how soon school's gonna start again, the feeling was instantly replaced by boredom.
Purpose was to deliver 30 cups of koi that my junior asked me to help to buy. At the same time, I got to meet her OG. My juniors. This year the guys are the same age as me. I feel old. I'm a year 3.
I saw many people by coincidence today.
Sean, Wei Liang, and Randall. I don't usually mention names, but it's perhaps for my own future reference, in case I turn senile. And someone else whom I felt good ignoring. I can say it's on purpose. And I don't feel mean for doing that this time round. Cos it's already a fact that we're no longer friends.
Talked to them for awhile. The convo started with
"Why are you here?" Felt good to see them. Cos I hvnt seen them in a while. Will see them again very soon anyway.
I suppose that someone whom I ignored couldn't stand it that I'm stealing away his friends. So he made them leave with him. I found out that Brandon is also in school. I went to talk to the year 2s and helped out a bit as I waited for Melissa. While I was busy doing the things, Gabriel came by.
I had a shocked look and said
"Why are you here?". He happened to be on summer break, and so is back in sg, and happened to wanna come down to see rag and his other friends. Another coincidence. Talked for awhile, spray painted the twine with his help.
Melissa is still not here.Continued to wait. Met Lin Li's friend. Kinda made friends with her.
Melissa finally came. Met many juniors, including new juniors. I felt like a weird senior who had nothing better to do, going alone back to school to see FOW. Brandon said that he'd come over soon. Talked to my official junior and other juniors while I waited. Got free food from FOW cos they had leftovers. Stayed awhile to talk to Brandon and also watch their LT games.
My primary school friends started to tag me in our age-old class photo. People started to catch up and add each other on fb. This person even talked to me in private although I can't rmb if I knew him last time. Some mentioned that they wanna meet up, I kinda hope that they won't really get down to it. Cos I dont really wanna go for it. Primary school memories are definitely not nostalgic.
