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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Kesha - the Harold song 10:06 PM





[Verse One]
I Miss Your Soft Lips,
I Miss Your White Sheets.
I Miss The Scratch Of Your Shaved Face On My Cheek.
And this is so hard,
Cause I didn't see,
That you were the love of my life and it kills me.
I see your face in, strangers on the street.
I still say your name when I'm talking in sleep.
And in the long light, I play it all fine.
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.

But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.

[Chorus]
They say that true love hurts,
Well this could almost kill me. Young love murder,
That is what this must be.
I would give it all,
To not be sleeping alone.
The life is fading from me,
While you watch my heart bleed. Young love murder, that is what this this must be.
And I would give is all,
To not be sleeping alone.

[Verse Two]
Remember the time we, jumped the fence when the Stones were playing, and we were to broke to get in.
You held my hand and they made me crawl.

I swear to God that it was the best night of my life.
Or when you took me, across the world,
We promised this would last forever but now I see.
It was my past life.
A beautiful time.
Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sunlight. Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sunlight.

[Chorus]
They say that true love hurts,
Well this could almost kill me. Young love murder,
That is what this must be.
And I would give it all,
To not be sleeping alone.
The life is fading from me,
While you watch my heart bleed. Young love murder,
That is what this this must be.
And I would give is all,
To not be sleeping alone.

[Bridge]
It was the past life.
A beautiful time.
Drunk off of nothing but each other till the sunlight.

[Chorus]
They say that true love hurts,
Well this could almost kill me. Young love murder, that is what this must be.
And I would give it all, to not be sleeping alone. The life is fading from me, while you watch my heart bleed.
Young love murder, that is what this this must be. And I would give is all, to not be sleeping alone.



Sunday, March 13, 2011
spoilt 6:41 PM

colleague asked me hw m I gonna go hm fr iluma lats n suddenly I
realised it's been smtime since I hv to go hm by mysef aft movie, etc.

even if e frn m out w dun drive, most of my 'old' frns stay near me,
so if we'r out til late, we stil can cab hm tgt.

bt nw, every1 stay all ovr sg.

siann. guess if we miss last train/bus, m cabbin hm alone tonite.

haha.

whn colleague asked me to join dem to shop n go fo movie, I took out
my hp. only to realise I cnt txt him.

damn.



Saturday, March 12, 2011
a date 3:52 PM




yst, we were walkin bk to e car.
whn he suddenly strt smilin.
whn I ask him y he said I'l tink he's mad.
he told me tt if one day, whn we r out n we saw cor w another guy, he wil smile/laugh.

said if she does tt, den we'r even le

I told him I dun gt y he married her
if he can laugh n nt gt jealous if he sees her w another guy

sigh

bt mayb it's coz he doesn't tink tt she'l Eva do tt, thus he can say all these.

I had an awesome time yst.
maybe he read my mind.
mayb he jus wanted to b norm too.

for e 1st time, der was no mad rush to mk luv.
only cuddles n hand holdings n swt nths.

i made lunch n he insisted was 爱心 lunch n proceeded to display a heart shape out of his drumsticks.

a romantic movie which broke my heart a lil as we wun hv a happy endin.

dinner n a stroll on e beach.

met frns and laughed til der's stiches in my sides.

gdbye hugs n kisses to last us thru e wkends.

it felt like a norm couple's date.
it was perfect.




tho he was standin at attn e whole time.
<3


Friday, March 11, 2011
1:10 AM

I Noe u meant well.
n tt u tink it's wrong.
bt e thot of leavin
felt like my heart was brkin.

m tired.
mayb i'v walked too far fr e rite path.
idk hw to go back anymore.
I tink it's my karma.
maybe whn ( whn. nt if. coz m nt dumb enuf to tink it'l last. bt at e
same time, I dread e day it ends)
maybe whn he leaves n brk my heart, we'l b even.

I stil rem whn I broke his heart
stil rem his pleas
stil rem hw he begged me nt to leave
stil rem hw hard I was

stil rem whn we tried to leave
whn we thot it was e end
rem e tears
rem e pain

idk if I can live thru another 1.

I functioned. bt my heart was gone.
I survived. bt surviving was nt enuf.
I cried til e tears ran dry.

no, I dun tink I can live thru another 1.

can u gif him up? even tho ur nt on e same path anymor?



Wednesday, March 09, 2011
1st day at wrk 12:17 AM

well, I survived.
lost count of hw many heads I washed. did 2 trtmnts.
hope I dun screw up.


I must stop missin him so much.
my life revolves ard him alr.
alwz counting dwn e days,
e hrs,
e mins,
e secs,
till I see him agn.
what is it about him tt mks him so unforgettable?
how can he just go on w life
whn m nt ard
while I just survived
whn he's nt here?


happiness tinged w sorrow
as
pain rides on joy's tmr


I <3 u
tho I wished tt I hate u
at least hate is sth tt does nt tk hold of my heart



Monday, March 07, 2011
11:27 PM

i hate to say tis.
bt m becoming a mushy airhead. zzz.
arggggh. snap outta it gal.


m awfully, painfully in luv w him.
thks ar, karma.
how to leave whn m so happy?
I read our past msges n smile like an idiot.
8 mths of honeymoon.
<3 swts.



Friday, March 04, 2011
e trip 8:04 PM

it was fun. coz of him.
m missin e tgtness alr.
wat if I nv wna leave?
I miss e coffee he made in e morn.
miss e way he smell
miss e fact he sprayed cologne on his sleeves coz I lik to turn n lean
my face against his arms n plant a kiss der.
miss his body heat whn we slp
miss e hugs n kisses
miss e fact we can hold hands n b ourselves
miss his light snore
jus miss him.


I heart u.
thks fo everythg.
I nv knew I can enjoy being tken care of til I met u.