Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Parting the Clouds

Rainy Days and Mondays




Blue Eyes Cryin in the Rain




A Little Fall of Rain




(Checkerboard Mesa after a storm)




We are slowly drying out here after an August and September filled with what seemed to be daily deluges. Because there always seems to be plenty of rain, I never feel guilty about wishing/singing, "Rain, rain, go-away"! It is easy to take rain for granted when you routinely receive over 40-inches of rain a year, putting us on a par with Portland and Seattle.




(Not the view from the cabin - Grand Canyon North Rim)




Rain at the cabin is an entirely different story. There is always a sense of excitement that accompanies the possibility of rain. We watch, we wait and we wonder. Perhaps this has something to do with the fact that the yearly rainfall at the cabin is less than 6-inches. Sometimes the clouds gather and darken, but nothing else happens. However, sometimes the rain does come - usually in the form of a brief, blustery, downpour. We sit out on the covered deck and watch the lightening and listen to the thunder. The storm blows in, the temperature drops, the wind whips the rain onto the deck and before we get too settled into our watching, the storm has passed.








(Actual view from the deck)




I learned something about clouds and storms while visiting 2nd Mesa on the Hopi Reservation in Arizona. Craig and I were there to meet with a phenomenal artist and craftsman, Weaver Selina and his wife Alberta, an award-winning coil basket maker and artist in her own right. We were there to commission custom silver overlay wedding bands - to replace my wedding ring after the central diamond and its setting broke off and were lost. (The diamond and setting were actually found a year later.... long story.) We worked with the Selina's to choose traditional Hopi symbols, and then spent the afternoon designing bands that we hoped would symbolize our marriage and our future.








Craig wanted to include the symbols for clouds, rain and lightening on his band. He has always been a storm watcher and we joked with the Selina's that our marriage has weathered a few storms through the years. All joking aside, I questioned why Craig would want to permanently display those symbols on a wedding band.




(After storm view and sunset from the deck)




Craig understood the symbolism better than I did and Weaver kindly taught me that while the symbols represent what they are (clouds, rain and lightening), because every drop of rain is precious and life-sustaining, they also symbolize




change




renewal




and




fertility.








As I experience clouds and rain, and intense thunderstorms in my life, I find myself hoping that the storms will end, the clouds will part, and the sun will return. However, I am also learning that as important as it is to watch for, focus on and savor the moments when the clouds part, it is also valuable to remember that storms bring about opportunities to experience change and renewal and *fertility.








And every drop can become precious and life-sustaining.








*Full disclosure, at this point in my life my only interest in the fertility aspect of the symbols is purely with regard to intangible concepts and ideas!

Sunday, October 02, 2011

It's A Process, Right?

(Etsy)



I'm not a real believer in coincidences. When I sense coincidences occuring in my life, I tend to look around a little to see if perhaps something more profound is at work than mere happenstance. So, when three different people, in three different settings, with whom I have three very different relationships all suggested the same thing within a week, I took note.




Have you thought about forgiving?




I will be honest - in all three situations I allowed myself to disengage from the conversation (while still nodding politely and saying all of the right things) and I imagined a place where:




People don't say hurtful things.


People don't do cruel things.


People don't blatantly seek to do harm.


People are mindful of others.


People are held accountable for their actions.


People apologize.



Then I asked all three of them, "How about a little less focus on me forgiving, and a little more focus on the people who have done the things that need to be forgiven!" Then I thought of a few other things that I really wanted to say - a few things, that probably put me in the category of needing to ask their forgiveness.




I now find myself...




Contemplating CS Lewis "On Forgiveness".


Thinking about 1 Nephi 7:21 (emphasis on frankly).


Considering making space in my life for this possibility.


It's a process right?!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Today is Craig's Birthday



It is a big one.



I won't divulge the actual number,



although you are free to guess.



While you are guessing I will



share with you 50



things about the man I love!












Craig is...



thoughtful



kind



the world's best gift-giver



smart



a romantic






(the young man I dated and fell in love with)




Some Craig-isms we enjoy



If we don't get on that plane we aren't going.



That is one ugly cow.



How about some get smart radio? (NPR)



I hear and obey...



Where is the last place you remember having it?



You can't save me money by spending my money!



I go to work everyday - you go to school - doing well in school is your job!



How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!






(the man I married)


Craig is a great father




The girls love...




his nicknames




his made-up songs




dancing hands




letting them "shift" in the Tracer




going shopping with him




(where he buys things I NEVER buy them




candy, magazines, extra make-up, etc)




his jig-of-joy








Things he has taught:




the value of hard work




try to do one thing more




don't shoot the volunteers




help where you are able




have integrity




be responsible












He loves:




history




geography




the Civil War




fantasy/science fiction




the National Geographic




Christmas music




Faure




Saint-Saens




Boston




Alison Kraus




organ music




USU




handwoven rugs




old maps




travel




very nice hotels




very good food




Zion National Park








Because of Craig, we love:




Christmas




Disneyland and Disney World




Puzzles




Nutella




Pistachios




Cadbury Eggs




Ritter Sport




Saturday Doughnuts




(fondly referred to as Craig Doughnuts by family/friends)




Farmer's Markets








Craig always:




**spoiler alert**




fills the Christmas stockings and Easter baskets




does the weekly grocery shopping (long story - ask if you want details)




cooks Sunday dinner - except for his 5-yr hiatus while in the bishopric




stays up until everyone is home








That ended up being a few more than 50 - how do you confine yourself to 50 things when someone is a great father, a wonderful husband and truly your best friend?!




Happy Birthday!




Tuesday, August 09, 2011

Angel's Landing

Someone asked for pictures -- so here they are!

This is where it all begins...


Walter's Wiggles - a clever name for a set of switchbacks that could possibly make you cry! We made amazing time on the switchbacks - only stopping once - and only long enough for Alicia to catch up! The switchbacks are long, steep and seem to never end. They are about 1.5 miles long and really are brutal. The end of the hike is intense - but the switchbacks are where you better be prepared to prove yourself!


A view of the Wiggles from above.

In answer to my question of, "Is that where we are headed?"
The answer was, "Yes, Mom - the top of that - that is where we are going."
The next obvious question was.... HOW?!

Well - little steps cut into the rock - kind of...


Yes... that is the path...

and up cracks and crevices in the rock if you want to do it the hard way or you can use the chains and steps (to the left) apparently designed for people who are significantly taller than me.



It helps if you are hiking with a sweet daughter and an

entertaining and encouraging son-in-law...



What the @#$# - we're going up there?!

Yes, we are and remember - what goes up must come down...


I apologize to my mom in advance if she is looking at these photos as she isn't a fan of heights or her loved ones climbing them. When we were climbing the Leaning Tower of Pisa she sat in The Cathedral of our Lady of the Assumption next door and prayed for us. Similar family lore exists for The Eiffel Tower, The Grand Canyon, etc. (I think you get the gist - she doesn't like heights).


I hope it helps her to know that we held on really, really tight!


Some rather scary places were actually chainless -part of the overall
Republican cut-backs I think... oh, but I digress...



At the top where we fought off hordes of chipmunks who apparently had not been notified that they should be afraid of people. FYI - PEOPLE PLEASE STOP FEEDING THE CHIPMUNKS!

(That means you, Tyler)


The View





If we look more tired at the beginning of the hike it is because I only took pictures on the way down - the pictures are in order from beginning to end - but were taken in reverse order -- if that makes sense.

The hike was in a word... AMAZING.

It was physical, it was spiritual and it was emotional.

Thanks again to Tyler and Alicia - for going with me.

Thanks to Katie - for getting me ready.

...and special thanks to someone for keeping me grounded.


It was indeed a Celebration of Life.

Friday, August 05, 2011

Eleven Percent





(Cabin Sweet Cabin)





I am not a very regular blogger - and being away from my normal(?) routine(?) makes me even less so. There are a few things I want to remember though about this summer. Hopefully I will fill in with more details... but if not at least I will have the basics....


Me Time

Walks, Workouts and Yoga

4th of July Weekend with Alicia and Tyler

Canyon Overlook, Bryce, North Rim

Aunt Ruth's B'Day Celebration

Emily and Craig's Arrival

Time with Mom & Dad

(My dreams of being an only child were finally realized!)

Early-Morning Valley Views

Lunch with a friend!

EFY/Cousins/Sister Breakfast

Janes Reunion

Lagoon


Killpacks

Tuacahn - The Little Mermaid

Darin, Elisa, Miriam, Bub and Soren

Cascade Falls

Kent, Julie, Ricki and Kade

Brad's Food Hut - yes you read that correctly

Shauna and James

Cable Mountain, North Rim

Harry Potter 7 Part 2

Cara

Rewind Diner, Jacob Lake

Alicia and Tyler

Canyon Overlook, Gunsmoke, Petroglyphs, Kanab's Movie Set Museum

Lunt's

Petroglyphs and the Tea Party (with Z - not the crazies)

More Kristee time

Angel's Landing Hike

Sad Good-Byes... or rather See-You-Soons...

Summer Lessons Learned


Now all that is left is cleaning, laundry and closing things up.




I have always told people that the cabin is my sanctuary and my refuge -

it has been that especially this year -

...perhaps more than ever.




Again and again this summer I have been reminded of the importance of truly recognizing and experiencing the joys, blessings, positives and beauties of both this place and this time.

I did - in ways that have changed me forever.


I did the math and realized that I will have spent 11% of the year here - here's to hoping I can remember everything I have learned here the remaining 89% of the year...




Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Grand Canyon - North Rim


I might be a little biased (having worked nearby for two summers) but I think that the views of the Grand Canyon from the North Rim are superior to anything you can see from the South Rim. Regardless of where you line up on that argument - the Grand Canyon is spectacular.

Point Royale is a must do and we did!

As Craig would say (and has on many occasions)...


That is one magnificent hole in the ground!



Monday, July 04, 2011

Summertime and the Livin' is Easy...


So looking forward to some time away...

Hoping to

relax
hike
sleep
knit
visit
read
laugh
enjoy
and
renew.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I Should Write a Book



Some day I am going to write a book about the gym. Lots to see and overhear there - usually falling into the categories of:


craaazy

that's interesting(?)

funny - haha

and

did I really just see/hear that?!


For example:

Let me know if you want the details

on an underground botox party

coming to a 2-story colonial near you.



Sometimes I learn something at the gym that has interesting implications for the non-gym part of my life.


Sticking Points


During some strength training exercises I have been confronted with the concept of a sticking point - the place in the lift where it is the hardest or where you tend to fail -even though you actually have the strength to complete the lift. Sometimes I need just the slightest help to get through the sticking point. Sometimes even just knowing that assistance is available is all I need to push through the sticking point and complete the lift.


Sometimes in life we experience sticking points - it is not that we don't have the strength to get through whatever lies ahead, we do, but we just need some slight assistance to make it through the sticking point. The assistance we need comes in a variety of different ways - sometimes when we least expect it and sometimes when we aren't even aware that we are stuck.


... and you thought it was all about the sweating :)

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

June 8, 1983







The Numbers Game






3 lovely daughters



1 great son-in-law



4 states



1 blind date



7 residences



4 universities



4 degrees



9 cars









28 Years Together



1 Wonderful Life

Monday, April 11, 2011

YARN-YARN-YARN

(photo by Alicia)

Completely enjoyed going on the Metro Yarn Crawl with friends over the weekend. Could there be anything better than food, friends, fun and fiber?! Hoping to get to a couple more shops on the crawl this week and next weekend.

I have also started my countdown to the Maryland Sheep and Wool Festival! I have only missed the MDS&W once in the past 10 years -- yes, I am a good mom and chose to attend Alicia's SUU graduation in lieu of buying yarn, and it was totally worth it!

This is one of my favorite pictures from a summer trip in 2007 to Scandinavia and Russia. Alicia took this picture and I absolutely love it. I hear Finland calling :)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Let's Call It: Last Wedding Post, Part II


I know I said Last Wedding Post but there is a little more! The back-story follows and includes a little walk down memory lane. Actually a long walk because that lane is almost 28-years old!

My wedding dress (circa 1983) has happily resided in a never-used closet, in a rarely-used bedroom, in the little-used basement of my in-laws. For some unexplained reason this past summer, I was strongly encouraged (told) to retake posesssion of my dress (immediately) - which I did with a confused smile and the intention of storing it at the cabin (really, who knows when you might be at the cabin and think, I could really use a wedding dress)!

When Alicia got engaged and decided that she wanted to have Melissa Blackburn design/make her dress I got the crazy idea that maybe part of the "old", as in "Something old, something new..." could be a little piece of my dress. I was thinking that it could be used as part of the lining or perhaps to make a little pocket. Not sure why I was stuck on the idea of a little pocket - strangely I still find myself asking whether traditional wedding dresses ever came with little pockets.


(Side Note: Thank you to the kind soul who suggested that perhaps the lace from my dress could be considered "something borrowed" as you were the only one to not immediately assume "something old". Unfortunately I'm not exactly sure who said it - I think it was either Rhett or Darin - someone let me know for sure - as of now you are both my favorites!)

Without regard to the pocket or pocket-less status of wedding dresses, I mentioned the idea to Alicia and we took my dress to her first consultation with Melissa, wedding dress maker extraordinaire. The results are shown above - I love it - and somewhere in the process I fell in love with my wedding dress all over again.


Yes, that is me - and yes that is a dried-flower wreath veil - so very,very me :)

When Alicia showed how the dress maker had incorporated some of the lace from my dress into the underskirt for her dress to Cara and Emily, they both asked whether there was any of my dress left for them. I assured them that there was plenty of dress left... and it's at the cabin whenever they want it!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Last Wedding Post


Final Wedding Post
As the mother-of-the-bride I entertained many questions about my role in the planning and queries regarding the difficulty of living 2,062 miles from where everything was taking place. I think the picture above tells it all.

It was EASY!

We always knew exactly

"Where I Should Be"
and
"What Do I Wear"

Alicia is a planner by nature, well-organized and --- well, amazing!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Dizzy

Dictionary.com explains it all:

dizzy: (diz-ee)
adjective
1. having a sensation of whirling and a tendancy to fall; giddy; vertiginous.
2. bewildered; confused.
3. causing giddiness or confusion: a dizzying height.
4. heedless; thoughtless.
5. Informal. foolish; silly.

See also, vertigo, nausea and vomiting...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Just Married

I absolutely loved the vinyl lettering that Heather
surprised us with for the newlyweds car.
It was perfect!


Align Center The father-of-the-bride - doesn't he look happy!
I particularly like the bride's maid's bouquet :)
Very happy grandfather-of-the-bride as well!


A little blurry - but one of the few pictures I actually took that day.
They make a beautiful couple - most importantly they are
so good to and for each other!

The temple sealer reminded them (and all of us) that love is a choice.
What a powerful reminder regarding all of our relationships!

Friday, January 21, 2011

Something Blue - The Shawl Story


Photos by Camilla Binks - amazing!
Dress by Melissa Blackburn (and Alicia) also amazing!


Anticipating a cold January wedding, Alicia asked if I would make her a lacy shawl that she could wear. She chose ice-blue as the color and I started looking at yarns and patterns. I was excited that she asked - we have joked about knitting or weaving a wedding dress for years. I finally settled on a beautiful lace pattern - just what I love to knit. I had finished about 5 inches when I had the stroke - although physically I recovered quickly I was left unable to concentrate on anything for very long (reading, knitting, everyday normal stuff). When I was able to force myself to knit, I repeatedly made mistakes and I found myself starting over again and again.

About the point where I was ready to give up - I found a simple stitch pattern - the same 3 stitches over and over and over again. I was disappointed that it wouldn't be what I had originally planned - but accepted that at least it was something I could finish and I started over for the last time.

Two things ended up happening. First, about half-way through knitting the shawl - towards the end of December, I realized that the simple 3-stitch pattern was too easy and was becoming boring. I realized that my ability to concentrate was increasing. I have never been so happy to be so bored! Second, as soon as I saw the shawl with the dress I realized that the more complicated pattern I had hoped to knit would have clashed with the lace of the dress - the simple pattern I ended up choosing seemed perfect.


True to form I was binding off and steam pressing the shawl in the hotel the night before the wedding. Some things never change!

Details

These Button Boutonnieres were perhaps one of my favorite details from the wedding. Alicia saw them highlighted in a Wedding Magazine - and knew that she "had to have them"! An etsy crafter in Baltimore took her colors and made it happen. I loved that they were easy to put on because they have badge-pins on the back (I'm horrible at pinning on boutonnieres and corsages). I also loved that they are a great take-home remembrance of the day.

Photo Booth vs Candy BuffetCheck Spelling

I'm not sure which one would have won if guests were allowed to vote - needless to say, both were very popular. So many people helped with the Candy Buffet - Heather McD designed and made the vinyl lettering with her amazing vinyl cutting machine. Tam designed and printed the insert cards that went into the little bags. Cristin lent some of her apothecary jars. Shauna manned the buffet ALL NIGHT :) filling and refilling the jars and chasing down run-away sixlets. Definitely a group effort - oh and my dad graciously offered to taste test all of the candy for quality before the reception started!


Thursday, January 20, 2011

Sweet Sixteen


She's an amazing young woman, with a beautiful smile, an engaging personality,
smart and talented, sensitive and kind
and now sixteen!
(Happy Birthday!)

What does the W stand for?

Lots of W's in my mind during the last few days!
Wonderful
Week
Wishes
Whirlwind

...and in the all-knowing words of my young niece trying to explain
the embroidered W on a set of pretty hand towels...
"Duh, it is for Wedding!
(Also Williams!)

Alicia's ability to plan, organize and dream all came
together in a beautiful way.

My Weekend Highlights:


Dinner for Family and Friends
Salt Lake Temple
Amazing Wedding Dress
(hidden sentimental touch)
Darling Button Boutonnieres - very Alicia
The Point
Candy Buffet
Suprise Mini-Cooper Groom's Cake
Photo Booth
Family and Friends


We left the photography to the professionals - but I will try to post a few!

Monday, January 03, 2011

Just Put One Foot In Front of the Other (Frosty T. Snowman)




You don't get very far - distance-wise - when you take steps on an elliptical trainer. However I traveled quite a ways today.

It was my first foray into the gym since having a stroke there in November. I had to sit in my car to gather my courage for a couple of minutes before going in... I think my heart rate was up before I even got started :)

Great welcome from my personal trainer when I walked in the door - she squealed in surprise and ran to give me a hug. I had just finished working out with her when the stroke began. Possibly scared her as much as it scared me. It felt much better feeling walking out to my car when I was finished - as opposed to being wheeled out to a waiting ambulance on a gurney.

Still feel so fortunate and so blessed.

Glad to be back working out - I've actually missed it

Glad to be conquering my fear of returning

and

Glad to be moving forward

(not literally of course -

what with the elliptical trainer

being stationary and all)!


Added Later: Love that if you look really closely you can still see a smidgen of red dust from our summer hikes in Zion's!

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Beginnings


Isn't it interesting how endings are always followed by beginnings?

It has been quite a year

- on so many fronts -

personally

as a family

(nationally and internationally as well)

As 2010 ends and 2011 begins, I feel so blessed and am grateful to be looking forward. I know that it will not be challenge free -- but along with the challenges there will also be joy and opportunities for growth.

And so it begins...