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it's a small world
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Here I rant about my uninteresting life. Wonder why you're here.
Hello.
Here I rant about my uninteresting life. Wonder why you're here.
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011 @ 8:10 PM
Moved. Back
Monday, February 7, 2011 @ 12:20 AM
Well, back in mah hometown I was planning to blog once I get back. But I didn't think it would be an emotional one. I thought it'd be one on how wonderful it was to be back, how my brother and I spent quite a fraction of our angpao money on drum mania and arcade, how I probably gained 3kg during the short trip. Oh well then again I didn't know the trip would end on such a sour, sour note. It all began from a rather small issue (in my opinion). Few days back, Daniel asked me if I wanted to play timpani for the upcoming YO concert. Of course, I was so damn happy because playing timpani in an orchestra has been like, the ultimate dream for me. Something that kept me going, that motivated me to play better and practice harder. But i know that it'd be difficult to get permission from te folks. So I talked to them a few days back, and they said no with a little bit of telling off. So I let it rest for a while. So today on the plane, I was listening to Mahler 1 and realised how much I truly love playing in an orchestra. So I turned to my mum and asked her again. Very nicely, I must say. Then that's when she erupted. I guess I asked at the wrong time and the wrong place. She must have been stressed by her work and endless meetings she's been having these two days. I guess her annoyance at me just built up and I gave her a reason to scold me. So basically now I'm feeling like shit. It's really hard sometimes, because it was really never my intention to hurt or be disrespectful towards my parents. Like, why would I deliberately annoy them anyway? It just doesn't make sense. I've been trying hard to be better. To do their wishes. I guess better isn't good enough for them. Im at loss as to what to do now. I'm probably gonna get grounded from now on. No dinners, no study dates with friends. Most of all: No YO. I know I always complain about it but truth is I love it so much. I guess I just have to find a way. Why is being peaceful so hard? Why must people argue? It really hurts sometimes, especially if it's with people you love. Wah, nearly daily posts?
Monday, January 31, 2011 @ 10:17 PM
Daily, in fact. Actually there's nothing to talk about LOL. Kthxbai.
Tumblr?
Sunday, January 30, 2011 @ 10:36 PM
To move or not to move. Well, Tumblr is appealing due to aesthetics reasons. I've tried Tumblr but it's a little weird to use at first.. Hmmh. Well I don't think I'm moving to River Valley.. Hopefully ><><> Today was a weird day. I realise I've been in a swing-y mood this entire weekend. Feels cranky. Didn't even talk to Ayla as much during tuition today. I was thinking.. What happens if I just ragequit now? Like idk, finish up A levels I suppose, but not caring about the outcome? What if I don't want to go to uni? Maybe I can go to like, a conservatory (hopefully?). Or take some arts management course at NAFA. Or something like that. It'd be quite awesome, actually. I'm pretty sure I'd enjoy it more than any desk jobs. God, I hate desk jobs. Well I suppose it's cool having your own office and stuff, and get to fire people (meh). But it's just so dreary and boring... Everything in this life is a paper chase and money chase. It's kinda ridiculous... But then I can't say much since I love munneh. Can't live without them, can't live with them. It's really difficult, cuz on one hand I'd love to pursue something that I'm actually passionate about but on the other hand, things I enjoy do not give much in return -.- So it all boils down to money money and money. Another thing: superstitions. Frankly, I do not really believe in superstitions. Like the whole '4' thing etc etc. Well I do observe the table manners and stuff (like not pointing chopsticks to people) cause it's kinda rude to do so anyway. But I don't know. Like fengshui-wise. Maybe I'm just cynical. I believe incidents happen more cause of fate, rather than how things in your house are arranged or your house's location. More of like, God's will, y'know, rather than some uh... Superstitions. Well but just like any other modern Chinese, better be safe than sorry, right?
Dog days are over
Saturday, January 29, 2011 @ 11:40 PM
I was just thinking today. It's kind of funny how I outgrow so many things (not only clothes heh). There are many things that I've outgrown... Like the idea of staying home on a Saturday night. I used to love this idea. I mean I've always liked going out, but I used to be the stay-at-home kind of person. But recently, I simply loathe staying at home (apart from the fact that I can actually sleep at home). I don't really know why, I think it's just that it feels restricted. And cramped. But that's probably due to my small sized bedroom. Speaking of which, I'm gonna move house. Which is sad and tragic, really. I love my current condo. It's nice, well-designed and home-y. It's the only place that makes me feel safe and snug and homely and comfy and stuff. Never mind that my room is only a third of a normal-sized HC classroom, I love this place. I love the inefficient security guards, the clean swimming pool, the bare function room, the sometimes-malfunctioning gym and the annoying slope I have to walk up everyday after a long day of school... It's again one of those things you always complain about, but actually it means a lot to you. Like school. I always complain about school, but truth be told I love it. Just like how I love my house :( Some more they just finished building Nex, an awesome mall with literally EVERYTHING there. For goodness' sake, I haven't even tried the LAN centre. The Popular there is huge. It has a bloody stickers section. And there's a cinema, though not Cathay or GV, it's got $6 movie tickets on weekdays. There are like, both Food Republic and Food Junction at the same time. And Cold Storage and Fair Price Xtra all in one mall. And I'm gonna move far far away from here, to a place near Great World City, a mall that I absolutely loathe except for the fact that it has Kuishin-bo. I don't want to move. :( Unless it's near Bukit Timah... God who the hell stays at River Valley anyway? Only Indonesians, who do not know that awesome places like Potong Pasir exists. And plus, the condo is old. And it's not like it's any bigger than the current one. I really don't like the idea of moving there. It's just absurd and ridiculous. But I guess I'd have to. They already sold the house. So I'd have to pack everything again soon... Just like how I've packed 3 times since Sec 1. Gosh why do we have to move around so much? I love this place. I never thought I'd leave it anytime soon.. But it's gonna come even sooner than SYF. This sucks like shit. :( I'm freaking trypophobic.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 @ 9:01 PM
Ok I don't know if it's like an actual phobia or something, but I'm 80% sure I have it. It's a freaking irrational fear of clusters of holes. Like that on lotus flowers. Oh Good Lord, thinking of them makes me have goosebumps all over again >< It's damn freaky shit shit shit I'm like shivering now just cause I stupidly googled lotus flowers (to remind myself how much I'm terrified/scared/plain disgusted by them). They. Are. Just. Disgusting. ARGH. -dies- On another note.. Hmm, I think people should know when to give up, shouldn't they? Like me :D Smart people like me know when to back off and like, chill. So that's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna take full control of my life. I'm not gonna let anyone or anything interfere with this crucial academic year (sighs, sorry, victim of meritocracy). So yeah. :( Goodbye, fun! Goodbye, entertainment! Nice knowing you guys.
What makes you so special?
Tuesday, January 25, 2011 @ 8:43 PM
Fall Out Boy is an awesome band. Let's all have one minute of silence to remember their time as a good 'emo' band. Then again, how would you define if something sounds 'emo'? Have you heard what 'emo' sounds like? There are so many unanswered questions in our lives. But hey, that's what makes life so fun and unpredictable, right?
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