What did I do to deserve this?

If it's not one thing, then it's another! Read the previous post to find out the most recent drama in my life... until tonight. Kyle came home from playing volleyball tonight and I was laying in bed crying because I miss Dayzee so much. She was such a comfort to me while Kyle was gone. She was really good company. So he came home and asked me what was wrong and I told him "I miss her so much today" and he had a really horrible look on his face, I KNEW something was wrong! Something had to be wrong. He looked right in my eyes and said "I didn't want to tell you tonight but someone stole Dayzee from Kurt's house" and I lost it. I was bawling. So now, not only will I not have her until we move out of the shit hole we live in now, I will never have her again. Kurt was afraid to tell me because he knows I love her so much and I would probably lose it, and I needed Kyle there to hold me and to let me cry, so he let Kyle tell me. Kurt was driving around looking for her and he put up signs. Apparently, some of the kids in his neighborhood saw the other kids hop the fence and take her, but they didn't know who the kids were. I am pretty sure we will never see her again. If you are dishonest enough to take a dog like that, you are not honest enough to give her back. I have no idea if she is ok... if she is scared (which I imagine she is). We don't even know where those kids took her, or if they left her on the streets somewhere. She might not have food there and she definitely does not have her toys. It breaks my heart. Kyle thinks we might still get her back, but I seriously doubt it. I don't want to get another dog now... even when we move back. I can't handle this. It is too upsetting to me. I just have to pretend that Dayzee never was because I can't handle anything else. Kurt sent me this picture yesterday, he had gotten her a new toy to play with. So good bye Dayzee mae... you will always be in my heart and I hope wherever you are, you are safe and happy. You will surely be missed by your mom and dad. We love you. It was a fun year! You kept me comforted when I was alone and you made me happier by just having your fun personality around. Be good and I love you!

Dayzee Mae

This past weekend was so hard on me! I was in class on Thursday and Kyle sent me a text and told me to call him when I got out. I figured he was just planning on making lunch and wanted to know what I wanted to it could be partially ready when I got home. So I called him and he broke the news to me. See, we're not supposed to have pets at our apartment, and we knew that, but Kyle works a lot of graves and is not home a lot so we decided we would just keep Dayzee and hope for the best. She is such a friendly dog. She hardly ever barks (and will stop immediately if you tell her to) and she is extremely friendly. Everyone loves her! Well the landlord called him and told him that we needed to get rid of her immediately or pay $50 a DAY to keep her. Needless to say, we do not have that much money and we had no other option. I was going to spend the day in the library working on homework, but ran home so we could discuss our options and figure out what we were going to do. The only option we had was to get rid of her. We couldn't hide her anymore (and I know which one of our hillbilly trashy neighbors told on us, and that war has yet to begin!!) So we packed up all of her things, in case the landlords decided to stop by) and we took her to a friend's shed. We didn't know what else to do, but we had to get her out of the apartment immediately if we didn't want to be charged. I put her bed in the shed and took over an extra blanket and made it so she could curl up in the blanket if she got cold. I kissed her good bye and Kyle took me back to the school. Luckily, Kyle's manager is way chill and in some of my classes and told me to have Kyle take Dayzee up to his work where she could stay the rest of the day. I spent the whole day crying because Kyle and I both knew we had no other option than to get rid of her. Kyle's brother had sent me a text the day before and told me that he was looking for a dog so I should keep my eyes open for a good one. And Kurt loves Dayzee, so Kyle and I discussed our options and I would much rather have family take her because I know she would be treated well and I know we could one day have her back. So we called Kurt and he said he would take her until May when we move and find a place that we can keep her. So Friday morning, we packed up our stuff and drove her down to Las Vegas. Luckily, Kirt was out of town that day so I got to spend one more night with her (she likes to sleep on the bed, in the covers... it is so cute). We dropped her off at Kurt's house on Saturday and I got to tell her goodbye. I explained to her where she was going and why and that it wasn't permanent. We gave Kurt her bunny, her tennis ball and her bone... along with her bed and her favorite food. Kurt had to hold on to her pretty tight when we walked out the door, she was struggling to come with us. He said she sat and stared at the door for an hour, waiting for Kyle to come back. I cried the whole way back to Cedar. It was hard leaving my little girl. I know Kurt will take good care of her, but either way it was still hard. It was hard coming home from work yesterday and not having her greet me at the door and it was hard taking a nap and knowing she wouldn't be waking me up in the middle because she wants up on the bed. It is an adjustment period for me and I do not like it. So here are some pictures of my little girl. I sure do miss her!!!!

Dayzee and her bunny
Our little family
Her first time playing in the snow
Dayzee and her dad... she loved Kyle so much, it made me jealous sometimes, but it was the sweetest relationship
I love this little girl
Who wouldn't love that face???


So for now, it is "see you later Dayzee Mae"... we love you! Have fun with Uncle Kurt and we will be back for you soon!

Resolutions

I am really not into making New Year's Resolutions but this year, I kinda talked Kyle into doing it. Let's see how long we can actually keep these! We each made 2...

Shannon:
#1 - Be nicer. I'm not a super nice person, and quite frankly, I have no desire to be, people hurt my feelings all the time and I get over it, but this year I want to work on being nicer overall and watching what I say and who I say it to. Just because other people are jerks and self-centered arrogant assholes, doesn't mean I have to be.
#2 - Lose all the baby weight. This shouldn't be too hard since I haven't gained too much, but it is extremely important to me! I miss being skinny and am willing to work hard to get there again, and hey, maybe I could lose a few extra pounds as well ;)

Kyle
#1 - Lose weight. Kyle put on a few pounds since the wedding, which is common and not unnatural, but if I'm going to be dieting and working out, Kyle promised he will do it to. We are still pretty much newlyweds and need to be looking hot, just because we will have a baby is no excuse to be sloppy.
#2 - Get us out of Cedar City - I finish school in May and I am done with this place. No more Cedar City for me. Kyle has lived in Utah for about 6 months longer than I have and we are both sick of this place. It may be nice to visit, but I DO NOT want to live here, well at least not here in Cedar City. I need a Target, and a Jack in the Box (totally goes against the whole diet thing, but come on... moderation!)

So there we have it. Let's see if we can make 2010 great. So many things to look forward to!