Betty + Jenny + Jolly.

My 2 kakakss came over to my place after school.kecoh sak korang!Darn DVD couldn't play Hindustan. And we couldn't find Kal Ho Na Ho. Tsk. Ended up with hourssss infron of the webcam.If only i had the 2 consents of postin up the videos. Muka satu-satu priceless! hahahaha
Oh, we took pictures too. Should be up Jenny's facebook. After all that, we makan.then watched Wujud wit my whole family. Then its HOME. Eh gerek ah korang.

Oh, my UniSIM brochures are laying infront of me. I almost forgot i ordered them. Maybe i shall go through them before bed. So exciting. I'm pretty anxious to leave school.Forget about poly life. I've met some deserving friends. I've had a handful of fun time there (mainly fyp). Other than that, *shrug*


I'm killing ever single god-damn-sickening-evil temptation to have spoon(ssss) of my Ben&Jerry Strawberry Cheesecake icecream. Eating it would be sooooo disappointing la. All the hard-sweaty effort of exercising with Kakak Jenny will go out of the drain.Eh, i can do the clap push-up seh!


You know, like 1/2 the time i have silly monologue with myself on the way to school or on the way home, it's about how i wish i can change myself. And by changes i mean, physical changes. thinner body.sharper nose.better complexion.smaller feet size.Nothing that involves the inside.
I guess life would be better if i get at least one flaw off my body. But on the other hand, i would love to have a talent.sing?dance? What about just being a better person?


I've suddenly grow this interest in Self-help books. I bought AN INSPIRATIONAL GUIDE BOOK TO AN EMOTIONAL EATER. something like that la the title. Am i an emotional eater? i dont makan when im sad lagi ade la.ok, though i occassionally believes that icecream soothes heart break. like now! haha i want my b&j!!anyway.. If you happen to see a self-help book on EMOTIONAL SHOPPER, tell me. I need it.big time.


what should i do now?
-upload my supersisters pics
or
-go get lost in reading
or
- makan icecream (cheebs. suuuper tempting!)

all this paranoia and worrying is killing me.
i need faizal to stay with me throughout.
even until its over can? hahahah
miss him.=/

Trip to airport with my supersisters were aawwwsssooommeee! I swear. We had Popeye. I was just having a fat day la.tsk. We walked around, took pictures after pictures.Laughed till we cried.We must do this often. Pictures frm Kakak Jenny's camera are already up in her facebook. Well,Kakak Jolly Bun is just pure lazy to upload ok =)

Alhamdulillah, kenduri yesterday went on smoothly. Except for when Mama-Ku black-out.

The parents and I went over to Expo. I wanted to go see the Crocs sale while Mama-Ku wanted the MPH sale. hell was the Crocs sale good la! sooo good till theres a freaking looooong q. all the way till the next hall! waa irritating. we couldnt be bothered. Ended up picking out what, 6 books from MPH! hahaha. crazzy!
Went on to cwp.in search for my bday gift. but everything seems over budget. nevermind, i'll move on to the next thing on the list.

I think i have to go have another round of showering in awhile.
Kenduri is starting a little after 4pm.
So far my pudding suji looks good.

Friendster is being a totaly pain.in.the.pantat.
Can't log in since yesterday laa.
Now how am i suppose to knw who's stalking me.
tskk.

Brother-Ku wil be leaving for work shortly.
And i hope the close relatives are coming over soon.

My knee is still giving me pain.
I dnt knw why! ergh!!

oh, which reminds me,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIK NANA!

i shall go remove my orange nail polish.
but nicee =/

hope to see you =)

I had great company today too.

Today was pure awsome-ness!

alhamdulillah, Didi Aisyah was alot better that i imagined. Insyallah she will be discharged soon.

Got a call earlier, a cousin met an accident. Will be paying her a visit over at CGH in a while.
And i asked myself, why one after another. zal and now my cousin. I hate bikes,can!

I just finished a bowl of Koko Crunch. And no, i'm not like Barak who eats cereal while watching Sandar Dewy or whatever her name is. hehee! Suppose to meet up with Alip and Barak, but tsk! Barak ah, no money dont wanna go out.b-o-r-i-n-g! Next week ah, i dont care!

I slept at around 320am last night. Gina called then Mizah called. So we conferenced.talk talk laugh laugh. and "kite adalah adik-beradik jonas!" as usual, Gina must be Nick, me Joe and Mizah,the ugly one ah, Kevin. Then Mizah had to letak cause her batt is dying. mcm takde charger lorr.It's me and Gina. singing and laughing and talking about sec sch life. aaaahhh, i just love sec sch soo much. we had a bomb! all those of you,who are rushing to get out of sch, BODOH! ok maybe cause we really live our sec sch life to the max ah.

I'm free on weekdays.date me.
saturday kenduri.
sunday short trip to melaka.

If i continue to keep optimistic, i can do it.
enjoy life. enjoy singlehood. enjoy myself.

i want MacBook can? So that i can camwhore at photobooth. Take silly pictures and laugh. OhMy, such great fun and laugh we had yesterday with Idah's MacBook.Ward75Rm25 tu dah macam kita punya! If we had the whole gang (chickadees) there,full force, for sure we will kena halau!hahaha. eh you all laugh at me or with me ah? nevermind nevermind, i'll just think i'm funny as a person.



I met up with my Faizal Hubby Prince (he calles himself that since he cals me Princess) before school.Paid my bill and bought my doublecheeseburger.aaahh finally! hahah. we've been meaning to meet up but time time time! speak of the devil, my Prince just text. hahaha. He should really work less. And my girls were saying that what if i really end up marrying him? =/ entah. cannot be for real la.hahah.though our mums would be Wee~ but..hahahahah. we'll be kid-less! hahhahhaha

I need to fill my time. I don't have much friends to go out with, so half the time i just slump in my room with a book in hand. And lately,i've been rather chatty,hyper. All smiles. heh.

I wanna do this.i'll be pretty happy if i can..
-sunset. or picnic. or just plain sitting by the beach.
-Marina Barrage!!
-SG Flyers (ok,Prince say wanna bring me for my b'lated bday celebration. lets see how true eh)
-Botanical Gardens.

I want to date in style ah. Not like go town,makan,movie like that. go somewhere.relaxing,calm.simple things makes me happy.any takers? heh!

Insyallah,Tuhan akan kurniakan ketabahan keatas diriku.

just move on in life. the more you think about us, the more difficult it will be...

i'll promise to move on.
i'll take you like a wrong note.
i'll take you like a mistake.
i'll take you like a person i shouldn't have met.
i'll take you like an asshole.
i'll take you like a spoiler.
i'll take you like a man of all lies.
i'll take you for granted.


in your next relationship, tell me who is ruining who.
wait, i think i already know.
if an ego like yours, even the sky is not high enough.
thanks for the love and all. pretence or real.

Dina, if youre de-loving then i guess i'm no different. I'm force out of love.
We can pull this through babe. we can!

i love you so much it hurts me soo fucking bad ok.
oh wait, you dont bother about me already.
if only you can read my livejournal.
if only i can post up those pictures and ask u if it mean anything to you.

I just needed this update.

My walk-home today was fairly interesting. I dont know, but it sure got me thanking my life and got me thinking.

I got out of the train, steps before i reached the escalator. There i saw,on the floor laying, an unopen-unused whisper pad. I saw, i smiled and call Nad.hahahaha. i Didn't pick it up. Who knows, someone might really be in it of a pad.hahah

I had some extra cash, it was soo early to be home (5pm) so i went to the bazaar. I walked around twice. Bought 2 ayam perciks and putu piring. People started to fill up the area around me. Walking.Buying.Seeing. I saw a couple of kids. And from the bazaar till i got home, they made me thought about my life. I dont know if i'm getting older or the kids are just...hmm..ergh? I'm a young adult now (despite the continuous saying frm my parents that i'm only 12.) and i'm about to step into the work force (that is if NIE reject me laa). I'm thankful for the way i've been brought up. Now, i appreciate all the NOs my parents said to me. Thankful that Mama-Ku only allowed make-up to be worn at the age of 16 and it started light and on Prom Night. Thankful that i learn the value of money the hard way.Thankful that i had curfew. Thankful for so many things. I know, there was a point where i wanted everything i wanted but hell after the years, i'm thankful for what i've went through. And i'm gonna bring my kids up, the way Mama & Papa-Ku brought me up. The hard-sturn-soft only at times way. Alhamdullilah, 19 yrs of my life have been sederhana and sempurna.

So anyway, let's move on to something else eh. hahaha
I wanna thank the creator of Baju Butterfly. yes! It's D most comfortable piece of clothing.ever.Especially now that i'm experiencing my lazy days. So i wore my hot pink baju butterfly,sat infront of the tv,cross-legged,enjoying my ayam percik and putu piring. waaaaa. sedap Bedah!

Time check : 12.26pm.
Mood : i seriously cannot be bothered by anything right now.

Firstly, thank to my babe Ciins for making me waiting 1hr last evening. For tricking me into her company business plan. For the soo cute bday card (by rascal flat seh!). For having a nice enough bf (khai) to send me home. aaahhh, thats my babe! pandai dia nak cool me down. heh!

I think im starting to get hungry.Rushed to school from my dental appt (nuh).No time for even a sip of water. So now, i'm the girl with the lime green braces. *smiles*

Nunuu should so buck up on her projects. Everything is lagging behind. 2 presentation next week. comm skills and mfgss. I just dont feel like doing anything. Just make me happy. Make me smile and laugh. I wanna do only that. It's tiring to be swallowing all the sorrow,misery and pain alone. tsk.

Dear back and left knee, please stop aching. I really need to start running again. My bday week is over. I need to run off the cheesecake,the irish lamb stew,the chocolatebanana cake,the family feast. alaa, i just need to get back to running. Feels weird not running and sweating.. oh oh i love running. cause after running, me and my running buddies (whoever they are) will sit and gossip/bitch/rant about life. gerek kan! hehehe

On a brighter note. ..*ahem*...I'm going for Anuar Zain Concert tmr night :))
yes, i'll be marrying him. stop asking me already.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.

The bestest favour is for you to go tell The Ex about this post.really,

The Ex, i know how you avoid your deepest temptation to read my blog. You wanna know about the latest going in my life, but you just won't read my blog. Reason said was because you don't want to stumble upon an emo(tional) entry.Like this.Such post can really change what we have now. And i know,im risking the love (pretence or sincere) from you.

The Ex, for the countless number of time i'm repeating myself, you're leaving me hanging. My intention for that measly letter was a clean break-up.Yes,you pick to not get back to me.And by giving me that answer, i expected you to stop showing me your affection. Even the slightest. In simple words, i expected you to stop wanting to smell me, to stop hugging me, to stop kissing me, to stop making me happy. I don't know if you notice this, but each meet up, i hold my horses. I refrain myself from holding you. But it's you who pull me. And i think you should know by now that i get all smitten and soft with you touch.A stroke and i go weak.

The Ex, as much as i appreciate you do all those things for me on my birthday, i wished you didn't. Making me very happy = giving me high hopes. Cause no friends will go to that extend. You even treated me like your very own girl last sunday. I tried brainwashing my mind, constantly reminding myself that all those happy things you did for me was because you know i wanted to spend my 19th with you and you're just fulfilling it. It's tiring you know.Having to doubt/hide what i really feel.

The Ex, you want me to show you my care and concern. But you bluntly said you're in a way not willing to do it to me. I'm silly to be saying this but, i don't mind. Cause caring for you and seeing you happy makes my life alot better and meaningful. I have no darn idea why my feelings for you is still as strong as ever. No, infact i feel for you more now. I yearn for your love. I know i'm waiting in vain...

The Ex, I think i've poured my heart/emotions out to you so much now. I bet you already know how much i feel for you. But you pick not to be with me. Behave the way you should. If not, change what you want.

fazlan or mohan or whoever is contacting The Ex (Faizal), let him know this piece of my mind. Thanks.

I haven't stop wondering why people would tell lies and be such a bitch.
I haven't stop questioning why SHE wanted to see mygorgeous crumble.
I haven't stop asking myself if i've been a good friend to mygorgeous.
mygorgeous, don't be taken by the words you hear. If you cry,if you confront,if you behave all different it means you're showing defeat. I will stand by you no matter what. For mygorgeous will always be mygorgeous and always in my heart.hugg.

Nad was being such a friend!
I saw the back of CS guy and i got all excited.My heart missed 7 beats. hahahahahahaha
Nad was soo refraining myself frm being seen like an idiot! hahaha
because of this la nad i love u so much! :)
lets hope thur or fri i see him again ok...

I honestly think something is wrong with my back. The left side just hurt soo bad. Could be because i only carry my bag on that side.

I need to start runnin.ok, provided my back n left knee stop giving problem. Oh, running buddy (mzh) cepat balik from your kl trip boleh tak!!

eh, i miss haiqal. when is he coming back from taiwan! =/