Sayu ku rasa bila terdengar takbir berkumandang di radio selepas azan mahgrib. Aku tersedak menahan tangisan ku. Aku teringat kepada Didi. Aku rindu kakak-ku. Cukup rindu.Terasa lagi bila tiba Syawal. AKu memohon ampun dah maaf wahai Kakak-ku. Agar kesalahan ku diampun. Semoga sihat selalu disana.Nun jauh di mata, tetap dekat dihati. Insyallah, kite akan berjumpa tahun hadapan. Peluk cium dari baby sisiter-mu =)

I just ended cutting and frying a whole load of tempeh and tahu. I lost count on the number of times i poor hand got in contact with the hot wok. No worries, still jambu..

Insyallah, tomorrow we will welcome Syawal. Indeed Ramadhan flew past fast. Could it be because i'm working/teaching. And like slightly more than half of the day was spent doing something outside the house.

I still can't get over my timetable.really!
mon- 8-6
tues - 3-6
wed- 11-3
thurs- 1-6
fri-8-5
It's NOT ok people! NOT!! i rather start early and end early.

Masyallah! why did i get so angry about it! astraghfirullah. For i believe, there's a reason for everything that happens. Ok now, Nurul Fateen Keisha, you must stay focus on your last semester, have no distractions and be independent for once. Insyallah, i can make it through these few months. amin.

I shall go get busy now. Didi, i miss you so much! remember how every single year, petang raya you would clean the house and get very angry and irritated if you see any of us not doing anything! haha. What about the both of us singing every raya song that we know during malam raya. Oh shit, i feel like crying. Hope you have a lovely Raya over at Sydney for you will always be with us. in our hearts and minds. Miss you

I think its my last day at WGS.sigh.My heart really really felt heavy. No more morning wink from Mrs Heikal. No more greetings from Mdm Normi, Mr Junus.hmm... I'm gonna miss my students soo soooo much. Every single god-damn silly pain in the fantat make my darah up student! I really really had an awfully nice/great/splendid time being a RT in WGS. Looking forward to many more memories there. Not forgetting my BFG moments. hahaha.

Had a rush to Geylang with the ex. Bought for Papa-Ku baju kurung for $20! thanks eh Wan! syg kau! ahahah Then bought my corset. Looked around for lampu lap-lip, but didnt buy any. It was raining like cats and dogs and cows and sheeps.whatever la. Buka-ed at Banquet. ahhh, 8 more days till the ex enlist.

Ok! Finally got my timetable! im suuuuper PISSED! I'M IN DIFFERENT CLASS AS NAD AND AIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes, im that pissed! lonely lonely looonely last sem! nvm nvm. independent! mcm faham!

Had i darn quick spin ard JB this morning alongside Mama-Ku & Papa-Ku. Left at about 8am and were home by 10.30! power~
Many things are still pretty undone. Im excited about Raya but at the same time i'm not. Maybe when the day is nearer i will be a wee bit more hype about it. What am i saying! Raya is just 3 days away! which means 2 more fasting days and woowee~ Kita raih kemenangan!

Got to know that Nenek-Ku will be back on Friday (5/10). There goes my plan for the up-coming new school semester. Gotto put my redecorating days at hold. Gotto push my beds apart again. manyak leceh ohh!

I haven't been thinking lately. I mean, brain-depth, emotion-depth. I'm currently in a bo-chap state. Whatever comes my way then come la. Not willing to go the extra mile. Not wanting to stand up. Not intending to make any first move. Why not you pamper me instead. Why not you love me instead. Why not!
(No referal to anyone)

Kata mulut ku benci. Kata hati ku keliru.

Wow. My Saturday had been nice so far!

1. Managed to persuade Mama-Ku to get me the Black Kain Songket nye Baju Kurung :D
2. I've realised i lost another 1.5kg. awesome!~ but still people are saying im tembam! or that i've put on weight. disheartening indeed.
3. Had my last round of facial before raya. I'm soo gonna look hawt! heh! and even had Aunty-Ku to massage my uppper body!
4. Didi called! sooo nice to hear from her! Miss her like loads loads!
5. oh, Sherry finally uploaded the pictures from NPS Iftar!! I was like glee-ing la!

Tell me how can i not be happy on this saturday! though there's nothing on tv and no one is texting me! hahaha

For all those KPO-chees who wanna take a look at the iftar pictures. its (here).

Following are 5 out of 77!

Today is NOT my last day! Still gotto come on Monday. waaa, i feel so in-demand! hahaha!
Finally me and the two SP kids spoke. Endika and hmm..who? hee!

Met up with the ex to go to Expo Robinson sale. Initial purpose was for him to get his garments. maklumla, nak masuk NS. hahaha. I ended up buying things too! Bought myself a pair of shoes (heels) for $10 and Puma Jacket for $39.90. Such a bargain right!! hahahaha. oh oh my jacket got hoodie! and its in cyan/turqoise.

The ex just informed me that this year's Big Walk will be on 2nd Nov. eh i dont mind seh. Auspicious day what :D

I kept avoiding Mr BFG. Don't know la. Like cannot bring myself to see him and smile seh! hahaha! ok ok i'll try to do something on Monday. What about leaving a note : 9654699 CALL ME! fateen
NO! im NOT hard-up la! hahahahahaha!

Khad is loveee!

I was feeling melayu since my last entry. (which was just like an hour ago?)
Looking up for local malay songs in youtube. teringat pula this song.
Didi Cazli - Dambaan. I used to play this song like repeatedly. After sahur, and before i went to bed last Ramadhan. And it's also the period of time that i tengah gilakan the ex. Now, the songs brings more meaning. I dont know eh. Not hoping. Just saying...

Ungkapan kata selindung hasrat nan di hati
Andainya ditafsir terserlah makna yang tersembunyi
Renungan mata bukan pandangan biasa
Bertahun andai terjalin hingga waktu ini
Gurauan mesra menghiasi masa kita bersama
Semakin berputik perasaan ini

Kini baru ku sedari
Selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya
Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa
Mungkin tiada ku fahami
Tidak dapat ku nafikan lagi
Beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta
Mungkinkah dibiar terdampar Kasih tak kesampaian
Naluri bisik bukannya dambaan cinta

Kini baru ku sedari Selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa
Mungkin tiada ku fahami Tidak dapat ku
nafikan lagi beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Ikhlas ku nyatakanKau yang ku
sayangiKau yang ku cintai Walau tak mampu ku miliki
Ingin ku luahkan
Mungkin satu hari Kan terbuka pintu hati Dapat juga kau terima
Diriku akhirnya
Ikhlas ku nyatakan Kau yang ku sayangi
Kau yang ku cintaiWalau tak mampu ku miliki
Ingin ku luahkan Mungkin satu hariKan terbuka pintu hati
Dapat juga kau terimaDiriku akhirnya

my left shoulder is killing me like BIG time. It's hurting again. and soon there will be blue-black. alamak! so irritating.

Stayed back after school to teach my Norm Tech students science. And i'll be meeting them on Monday for Math. though tomorrow is already my last day. See, im such a dedicating teacher :D
And girls, kalau you all reading this, please stop match-making me and Mr Isham. No, i dont like tall, balding man. thanks. (: though on Khad's small 'demand' , i'll make extra effort to smile extra widely and sweetly to him tomorrow since dah last day! hahahaha

So it's gonna invigilating tomorrow. B-O-R-I-N-G! invigilating makes nunuu sleepy. invigilating makes nunuu bored. ah, on a brighter note, i'll be taking 3N1. alamak! beside Mr Isham >.<
ok, i should really stop about him before i start sending out the wrong idea. I hope tomorrow i don't have to wait till 1pm to go home. cause papers end at 11+am.

Ok, i just heard, " by 2015, teachers will need to have a degree........." mampos! ok takpe, before that insyallah i'll already be a teacher. Prolly Pri Sch, but i want WGS! plss!

The Ex ajak go Expo;Robinson Sale tmr. I've been iiitchiiing to SHOP! Don't know what to buy but i just want to get something new. Shall visit LaSenza soon. Or maybe go splurge on something realllly expensive then regret. hahah!

Up to date, i've been to Geylang 4 times. And i kept thinking about that Black Kain Songket baju kurung i saw. Sooooo geram-ing! I also wanna go get my hands inai-ed. tsk. Papa-ku dont let. I know, i get a lil gross when the colour is fading off and leaves patched on my hand or when only half of my nails are orange. hahaha. But at least it looks nice after the first wash.

yay! lagi 5 days nak raya! i'm a 12 yr old stuck in a 19 yr old.

stop hoping. cause hope brings you nowhere.
NOWHERE!
but can i just have a teeny-weeny hope.
for my babyface!heh!

yok buat kueh (:

I bought Mummy a Braun Buffel wallet.
It's the prettiest! duh! obviously! my money what!
it just burnt a hole in my pocket. my pay is only gettin in tmr!

Can i ask for a VW for my bday?
what about a dslr camera?
oh oh a hot chinese bf who rides a scrambler!
(:

Now, fairy, grant my wishes and make me live happily ever after (:

Iftar with my NYP SEG A&R

There was didie,nurul,azila,mas,dinie,faizal,yat & ayyub.
It felt nice to have a round of gathering though there were few missing ones.
We buka-ed with just water while waiting for seats at Mad Jacks Selegie Rd.
We got in pretty late. ard 9pm. We ate, we laughed, we catch up with time.
Then it home. oh well, parents fetched me! i'm not a small kid laaa.

anyway, pictures are in didie's cam. (:

Iftar with my NPS Lovelies :)

there was dina nadh suzy fateen sherry khai nizar danial hadi.
Buka-ed puasa at Al-Baik Mariam. haha. darn stuffy!
2 big Murtabak. Mutton & Chicken. so, 1 person 2 slices. hahahaha
Me being me, ordered 2 set of drinks. Wasn't the only one ok!

Walked to HajiLane for sheesha. and for a b'day surprise for Suzy!
My babe was totally caught off guard.She was shaking, nak nangis kan! haha
alamak.saw my 5N students -_-
A whole load of laughing and picture taking.
I told Nizar i wanted a *sherry's camera* for my bday. Since he's the only one earning big bucks out of SCDF. I want eh!!

Anyhoo, i bet all of you have heard/read about the murder case in Yishun.yes?
Nizar (SCDF Fire fighter) was on duty that night and had to attend to that case. So he told us his first-hand experience and it was ugh! I'll prolly faint or puke or quit or......eeee.

I got home reeeeeal close to midnight.

PICTURES

Sherry!! i want the pictures from your camera!!!

-insert a WHOLE LOT of vulgar here-
i just checked my mail again. the Topman/Topshop opening's TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm pissed. stupidity! kill me.really.

Ok, i'm having tuition. I'll just let Izzy do her work first. It's sooo warm today. bleargh!
hahah! ok. i just turned and saw Izzy's cramp face,looking at the dictionary! hahahaha!
I dont know what's for buka, but i can't wait. Mama, i lapar haus!!

Alamak! Izzy just asked : Di, what is ayat passive and ayat aktif?
Don't tell me even during tuition i need to go through malay!! My M.T is horrible. ok maybe just karat la. with my "r" espcially. hahaha. nvm nvm. Saya harus sabar dan tabah menghadapi segala cabaran. cheyy!

So, the ex wants to go for the Topshop/Topman opening. Didn't expect him to tell me that he wanted to go. But nvm, friends mah. Nothing more. Nothing less.

Thursday & Friday. 2 more days of being a Malay teacher. My only motivation is : relax. u'll get to see mamat handsome #1 & #2 in school. Relax. Think about the money. Relax. You love teaching remember?
ok thats like a never ending list of motivations. but ah, i just can't tahan the early morning ah. Eh how you students do it ah? since its the fasting month, i'll have to get up at 5am. which means i need to be in bed by 10pm latest. issshhhh!

I met Dinie yesternight.We had fun.I did. Did you dinie? hahaha. I was high till i can't go to bed! I read my Baby Blues comic.Text-ed the ex.Tossed and turn in bed. Finally, i forced myself to sleep. And mind you, counting sheeps WONT get you to sleep! Well, school makes me wanna sleep. I kept yawning the whole time in school today.

I need water!

ok ok, shall go be a good tuition teacher now (:

I'm a happy goober! You're a happy goober! We're a happy goober!

Gotten my FYP results. (iap results are rather silly.) I woke up at 5am (sahur) to a few sms-es. Informing me that results are already out. I wasn't quite bothered by it ah honestly. Thinking " eh nvm la. just wait for the sms. " but i got anxious.curious. I made Daddy send me to work, so i had ample time to go online. I checked my results. I'm shocked.no. EVERYBODY's shocked! Have they seen the amount of work i did!! i don't deserve such grading!! I'm utterly speechless.

eee.u effing mat-rep!

friends over ex? or ex or friends?

I just got back from meeting Faizal (ex). Short trip to the library. And much talking.
I'm proud of myself. In many different ways. Can hardly believe that i've actually moved. Not that our 8 months means nothing. But, I need to step out of my old zone. Though there were times i badly wanna go like :
" Bieeeee..." or
" Baby i miss you! " or
" Syg...."
But i've got no one to say all those. To say it will so much love.no more you.
Nevermind.

Eh, i've moved on! have you?

You know, after like much pondering, Miss/Cikgu Keisha is sooooooo NOT my thang! Effing weird can. to be introducing myself to fellow teachers as Keisha. I'll just stick to Nurul. Miss/Cikgu Nurul. Worst come to the worst, Miss/Cikgu Fateen lor. hahaha. Lets keep Keisha for special people. Like how Haiqal will intro me to his friends " This is Keisha.." because he knows, i looove that name. haha! now! this is what you call bff. BFF yang jarang jumpe. BFF yang tak pernah ade pictures together. hahahahahahha.gerek.

**NOTICE(S)**

1) LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WHO SHOPS AT TOPMAN/TOPSHOP AND HAS EXTRA CASH TO SPEND THIS WEEK. CLOSE DOOR INVITATION @ ISETAN ORCHARD. 19-08-08,12NN-6PM. I CAN ONLY BRING ONE PERSON ALONG.

2) A FRIEND IS SELLING AN AUTHENTIC FIRSTHAND LEOWE WALLET AT $400.

3) A FRIEND IS SELLING A VEST (BLACK-GREYISH) AT $20.

4) DIOR LIPGLOSS GOING AT $86 (u.p $106)

It's 2.42pm. and i wanna go back to bed! but i just woke up (11.30am).

I'm gonna be broke by raya la! i bought like a whole lot of M.A.C make-ups.
MAC Fafi compact
MAC LipGloss
MAC Mascara
MAC LipStick (for the mother)
MAC Eyeliner
MAC Maniature brushes

I'm starting my old addiction again. My addiction to LIPGLOSS. In 1 month i've bought 2 new ones. Revlon & M.A.C. And i'm still aiming for my Bourjois orang lipgloss even after close to 2 years!

how come now then i notice you! after like a gazillion times you've been to my place!omg!
eyecandy! wee~

A sudden pang of hunger just hit me! No, i did wake up for sahur. BUT, i ate like a tiny-weeny portion and went straight back to bed. Didn't even sempat to do my subuh la.
Went to bed at around 10.20 yesternight. I was THAT shagged out ok. Somehow or another Fasting + Teaching + Late Night sungguh dont go well together.

Was up only at 11.10 this morning. I totally ignored Mother's plea to follow her to the market. jahat kan!

I'm going for facial in awhile. but all i wanna do now is...........
SLEEP TILL IT'S BUKA TIME! so i dont have to deal with this hunger.

Feel like going to Geylan again. I don't know for what but i want! hahaha

I slept like past midnight the night before and was up at 6! I was obviously reluctant to get out of bed.I was just so tired.Still not use to the early mornings! School was ok today. Rather short day. but i had to leave late to clock in 5.5 hours. I had to invigilate the Sec4 for the Prelims. It was just a mere 30 mins of invigilating and i swear i HATE it. So quiet. So Boring. I kept walking and walking. If i stop for too long. i'll start yawning like nobody's business! hahahaha.

Went over to Regina's place. i miss her! just chilling,updating,laughing. doing what we used to. oh! Ryan is suuuper cute!

I brought my camera to school today. which resulted in like 60+ pictures. in class. am i even allowed to take pictures in class? hahaha. whatever la.





I should really go sleep.

I feel soo floaty! i feel so light-hearted! i feel so happy!
and i ain't got a reason why!
Well, you dont need a reason to be happy do you!
(:

Vanity Affair Part 2! hahahahahaha! nak mampos. i was bored. I'm really getting the hang of teaching. or at least 'relief teaching'. it's shiok! my students are awesome!

I had tuition after school/work. was waiting for dad to fetch that i saw this bike at the carpark. i was imagining myself getting on it. With a hot rider as my bf. omg! I WANT!


Tomorrow im gonna meet part of my fyp gillek!!
Tomorrow im gonna meet kak hidayah! cause i bought a top from her!
TMR IS GONNA BE GREAT!! (:

I'm like uber sleepy right now. I was just laying down on my bed,reading and muching on some choco biscuit. I wanted to just push everything to the other side, off the lights and SLEEP!

School was ok la. except that i felt extra thirsty and my lips were really chapped.My right eye was hurting for god-knows why so i ended up wearing my specky to school.sungguh tak hot.I finally had some free period so i ended up cam-whoring in the class.Wanted to sleep, but hey! cam-whoring lagi best! so yes, thats 9 of me. out of? many. Hope NONE of my students stumble upon my blog and find these pictures! haha

Aku la budak yang ter-terpanggil happy hari ini! :D

Steady! no Monday blues/purple/pink/black/red/gold etc.
School was awesome minus the few tired moments. Cause i kept laughing in each class. Oh Oh, get to see my 2 mamat handsome! happy or what! and i should really brush up on my Malay. Quite malu to use the Kamus in class. haaaaaaaaaaa.

Fuuulermak! my salary has officially masuk. :D
tak la kaya sangat. kaya sikit je. So to all those yang muka-tembok and want me to belanje, boleh! BOLEH BELAH! hahaha. insyallah kalau ade rezeki kakak belanje k (:

my mind and my heart have been rather empty lately. I've stop feeling. I've stop thinking. Please tell me its a good sign. A sign that i'm moving on wisely.

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL WORK WORK cum SCHOOL. tsk. no more sleeping in till the afternoon. Why did i even do that for the whole of this week?bodoh!

Went to Geylang yesternight. tak puas! got myself a tube/halter top. it's tight at the chest. oh well, what to do, lady with assets! hahahahaha!

Woke up suuper early today, 9am! Went to JB with parents,aunt & cousin. My babaydoll top didn't turn out nice.pfft.Lets just see if i'll ever wear it/know how to wear it well. Did groceries at Giant. alamak! gerek or what. they were playing lagu raya throughout la! tak macam singapore! i was like singing and gelek-ing to the songs.hehee. but right, everytime go Giant, i sure sleepy.yawn like there's no tomorrow.Maybe the sight of neverending food stop the oxygen supply to my brain. hahaha!

ala, besok jadi Cikgu Keisha.
eh! Besok jad KAYA! kayakayakaya!

The tak-seberape pictures of my & cousin + aunt.

Going to bed being the angry-iest,grumpy-iest,sad-dest,upset-test girl is sooooo not cool.really.
im serious.cause the whole new morning following will be just as shit. so much for "sleep the anger/sadness away". penipu.pfft!

Now i just wish the next half of the day would be ok.

alamak! apesal eh. lapar seehhhh!

This week has been awesome.cause i get to catch up with my sleeping time.waking up between noon-1pm every weekday. alamak.shiiiook! and next week is off to work after sahur. let's think about the mamat handsome and the kachiiiing rolling in. not forgetting, the iftar with my fyp gillek! aaahhh! first gaji masuk on monday....dpt tgk mamat handsome...buka with fyp.so much to look forward to this coming week!!

Exactly one month till my final semester in school starts. I MISS NADIRA BTE MAZELAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know she miss me more more more! (:

eh,anyone want to be my bf-fffffff tak? alaa, mcm paris & nicole/britney. i let you be the hotter one la. though me and paris share the same shoe size =/ nak?

@#$%^&*(**&^
I LOST MY LA SENZA CARD AND DISCOUNT BOOKLET!!!!!!!!!
@#$%^&*()_

Oh wee?

Cikgu Faridah just texted me! i'm gonna be covering for Cikgu Noraini next week. eh next week je pe?! alamak! macam mane nak kaya seh gini! tsk. ish i still remember back in sec sch, i dont favour Cikgu Noraini LANGSUNG! haha and now, ha-ha! kene relief dia! HAHA! tapi on a brighter note, i can see my 2 mamat handsome! gerek! hahahahaha

Finally, something nice to my hears and something to look forwards too! :D
Say hello to Cikgu Keisha (:

i wanna smell you too,bushuk!

Assalamu'laikum (:

I cooked today. Nasi Lemak + Sambal Ikan Bilis. hahaha. i've been salivating since just now la! the aroma is filling my house! can't wait to buka puasa..grr!

Alamak! its raining!

And so i've been told, at a certain point of time in a relationship, one will not feel the way he/she did back then. But it's a matter of overcoming that obstacle. Maybe my love wasn't great enough for him to see. And it's just such pity that we didn't managed to talk things out.sigh.

I'll smile and tell the whole world i'm fine =)

It's been raining since just now and it just wouldn't stop.

He broke my heart;And now it's raining just to rub it in. -alicia keys

I don't know what's worst, not having my love reciprocated or missing him so badly and have no ways of letting him know. shrug. I realised that i've been in a state of denial. I might be ok, might not be crying but inside, i'm still torn into pieces. so shattered i can hardly keep my mind off it.sigh. i miss him badly.badly badly badly. I don't know what to do. Cause texting him seems so painful. And not texting him is equally as painful. I need his hug him right now.

i miss you oh-so dearly :(

We can now put our Nsync-Gone song to good/proper use.

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is pbutting so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
We are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're

Assalamu'alaikum/Hello to all =)

Ok, so it's a lymph node as pointed by Didi. hahaha. I don't know if it's getting better or not. Cause currently, i can only sleep straight or to my right. If it turn to my left,it hurts a hell lot! especially when the thing is between my jaw and neck but the pain -_-! all around my right side! I hope the painkillers are working silently.

A concern friend called me up last night. Thanks Hans (: It made me miss all those late night calls. Just talking,smiling and laughing. jeez. i didn't get much of those even when i was in a relationship. But no worries la. As for now, MSN/SMS are very much fine. But hey, calls are welcome too (:

i feel like eating chocolate! or maybe apple strudel. nak! no, i just want anything sweet. really. Soon my bulan-puasa-cravings will start. hahahaha.

Yesternight, Sherry was lelong-ing her hunky-licious single friends off to me and Nadh. hahaha Sherry, ive made my pick kan! ahahah. suuuper good catch la! grr!

ANYONE KNOWS WHERE I CAN DOWNLOAD SONGS? OR EXTRACT THE SONG FROM YOUTUBE? everything i download are stupid cause after a few days it won't work.

Alhamdulillah. Dah 2 hari berpuasa. Insyallah, dapat ku mencukupi 28 hari lagi (:

I managed to go to the polyclinic with Cins. Thanks babe =)
Doctor said it's just a _________ knot. i dont know how to spell. lymph?limp? aah! that pronounciation la! haha. Was given nothing but pain killers. Hope it will go away in 5 days. or else...... a list of tests to be done. pray for me people!

Oh,Mummy asked in a rather puzzled tone on why my hair is getting thinner. Indeed it was. Ever since the break-up, my hair fall has out numbered my fingers!honest! My hair is no longer as thick as before.And i think, wearing the tudung has done something to it.It seems very different now. nvm la. as long i dont go bald can alrdy (:

I'm chatting with Nadh & Sherry now. aaaahhh. My NPS Lovelies are great. I love you to bits ok!! hehe.

di setiap doa, aku berminta supaya kau di jaga and kau di jauhi dari segala bencana. Berdoa agar keluargamu sentiasa di awasi oleh Allah S.W.T

I feel horrible. yes i really do! the pain is getting worst! swollen neck/jaw.tsk! Gonna have to pay a visit to the doctor tomorrow. Lets just hope tonight there wont be any shitass pain i cant handle.pfft.

I'm gonna take this break-up as a blessing. Cause HE answered my prayers. No, not that i prayed for a break-up.But at every lowest point i had in this relationship, i asked HIM for a favour. I asked HIM if i was meant to be with Faizal. If i wasn't, i seek HIS guidance and to let me know. And i see this break-up as HIS guidance/answer. Alhamdullilah. Cause i know, HE won't put me in any situation too hard for me to handle. And it's through this that i've became stronger and closer to HIM.syukran.

Faizal, you're still in my every prayer. Seeking nothing but the best for you, for your family. Insyallah, all my doa for you dapat dijawab.

I need a guy. for me to rant. for me to mengadu when i'm in pain. for me to text. being single has a funny feeling. Maybe i'm just too used having a guy for me. =/

The right side of my face is just painful. My cheek is swollen. My eye hurts when i blinked. My head feels like its being knocked against the wall. I have an ulcer. sigh. I slept right through 1pm. Feel better than yesterday. To make up the lack of sleep from the break-up.

You know, i'm still in a little confusion. I don't know how i should see this split up. As a blessing or as a curse? A blessing for making me realise i'm much stronger that i thought i am. A curse for not being able to continue my love for him.

I can do it. He is worthless. I still love him, but i deserve better.