The Pretty Birdies...

Was driving on the SLE and exiting into Thomson Road when there was this flock of mynahs on the road.

Most of them saw me coming and started flying off... but there was one. ONE! that didn't see me coming and only started to fly off at the last minute... then...

THUD!

Did I Ever Mention This To You?

I've been noticing a lot of pretty people lately...

AND I'M ENVIOUS!

sheesh. just came back from a jog with Mom. She's super energetic! and diabetic too! no wonder she was nominated for the Johnson & Johnson Award thing. haha... I was so shagged out and she was like still doing her yoga-ic poses at the park...

My knees are really grinding...

Anyway, I'm FAT! I admit it! My chin's getting double! Must be all the mooncakes. =D

I really can't help it!

What's the use when you've got a cute face with a bad body... (sorry, but i sound damn egotistical... but people have really commented that about me... erm... the cute face part, not the bad body, that I added myself... hee...)

I need the three letters.

G-Y-M

Anyway, I'm gonna put up the photos for the glasshouse outing, the D&D and more photos lah. just wait and see. haha...

And yes. The formatting thingy in compose mode is working on the comp at work! hehe... that's why you see colours in my previous post...

HELP!

I don't know how to post multiple photos using bloggerbot/hello/ WHATEVER! i need help please!!!

New Links Up!

Finally got things up and running again! Got links from everyone else's blog. =P

Gotta renovate more!

Time to spruce up my blog! =)

Regaining my normalcy...

yay! finally got some things back. especially the song! hehe... here's the new song, If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yea
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define whats within and i've been
There before but that life s a bore
So full of the superficial

And some people want it all
But i don t want none of it at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i ain't got you yea

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And thats the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
No one to share
No one who truely cares for me

And some people want it all
But i dont want none of it at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i ain't got you you you

And some people want it all
But i dont want none of it at all
If it ain't you baby
If i ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If i aint got you yea

If i aint got you wit me baby oh ooh said
nothin in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If i ain't got you wit me baby

ARGH! FREAK OUT!

Damn blogger screwed up my HTML! I'm left to use this template thingy. sigh. but at least it looks ok. but all my links, tagboards, enetation, music, polls, icqlinks, slideshows, descriptions, javascript etc. are gone! *screams in horror*

Grr... *growls*

i need to reformat the whole damn thing again... SHIT! *cringes*

Help! I need help with blogger bot...

wee!!!

office duty on the day when we're having D&D is the best thing man! haha...

I wanna complain a little about having to leave at 4pm but being the optimistic me, why should I? When my office duty can definitively end at a much earlier time than usual?! cool rite?

haha... anyway, will take a cab home so doesn't make much of a difference... hehe... gonna dress up and prepare like mad! =P

Soppy Love Songs

ahh... got a new song on the blog... changed it in 2 weeks! haha... got kinda sick of Angel playing all the time... so here's the new song. Guilty by Blue.

[VS 1 - (DUNCAN)]

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[VS2 - (SIMON)]

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - [LEE])
I never wanted to live a lie

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[BRIDGE - (ANTONY)]

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

[CHORUS - (LEE)]

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - [ALL]
Then I'm guilty

[OUTRO]
What am I supposed to do [Duncan]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
All I wanna do is speak my mind [All]
Gulity [Lee]
Then I'm guilty [Lee]
I'm prepared to testify [Duncan]
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside [Lee]
If loving you with all my hearts a crime [All]
I'm Guilty [Duncan]

MY SIMS ARE WOOHOO-ING THEMSELVES SILLY! =P

Finally had a heart to heart talk with Justin on Friday. Felt like ages when we last talked so seriously. It was damn sweet of him to be paying his handphone bills just to be an agony aunt. haha... Justin: THANK YOU!

And he was like on medical cover at the back of a rover while he was talking to me... so his handphone kinda picked up all the environmental sounds like marching, shouting...

Tell me where on Earth can I find someone so accepting like Justin? Sheesh... I'm started to sound like he's my boyfriend! =P Nah... But then again, i really poured out everything... so my entries don't really seem like parables to him anymore... haha...

And yah... been communicating with another friend of mine. Gonna meet up and talk too... All I can say is, I'm quite captivated. Totally enthralled... haha...

Saturday was outings galore day! Went out with the ever so jovial and crazy BREADTALK gang! Bourney, Skeetozoid and Clairebert, YOU PEOPLE ROCK MY WORLD! haha... sang karaoke like nobody's business and really brought the KTV lounge down! we were singing all these boy band songs and doing all the silly actions... Clairebert even got the neutron dance and we ended up trying to remember the steps of the VJC mass dance (imagine... dancing in the KTV room!)stopped short of playing La Bamba though.
Clairebert, you are indeed deCLAIREd INSANE! =P

Evening was dinner at glasshouse fish and co. with the guys from office. Was pretty crazy too with all the photo taking. Celebrated weilun and bonn's "birthdays". We wanted to sabo them for the Fish and Co. show... but sadly, I found out they no longer do it. DAMMIT! I was made to peck this drunk girl last year during my birthday. ST HOLS GANG! argh...

Sunday was IPPT/RT cover at Bedok. as usual, the complaints of cramps and exhaustion abound. Finished pretty early before 12noon. Best part? The off-in-lieu! =) Thank God for no major casualties! Hallelujah!

In between all these activities, I've been busy playing THE SIMS 2!!! haha... it's really very fun! i'm actually on my 2nd family, a gay couple. they woohoo like nobody's business! it's totally crazy... there's even public WOOHOO! and the fact is that people actually cheer them on when they woohoo in the changing room of the fashion boutique! sheesh.

My first family had a death cos one of the guys didn't get enough sleep so the energy level was like almost zilch. So in the end, when I got him to go get a bath, he drowned in the bath tub! (i think, cos i didn't actually see him die, just heard mourning and crying. Also saw grim reaper! eekz...) Absolutely crazy!

I'm an addict man. Seriously!

hmm...

was talking to Dad in the jacuzzi about the prospect of me owning my own car. (Why jacuzzi? well, everyone's relaxed so we could talk about anything under the sun.)

Then i managed to get this out of my mouth... "Well, I did manage to help you save $40,000."

And Thank GOD! the response was ok. phew...

And well, he told me to get some job and see how... cos his main concern was not of the savings but how to service the loan...

so right now... i gotta start saving!!! haha... no more outings!!! nah... just joking...

anyway, i've signed up with Cristofori Music School to be a piano teacher but it's without obligations lah...

hehe... Ka-Ching!

YAY!

THE SIMS 2 IS RELEASED!!! I'm gonna get it! The price is like $54.90... but i think i'll play it like mad! I'm so gonna betray gunbound... hahahahahahaha

Career Choices!

Ok... as you can see at the bottom left of my blog, there's a new poll up on what job i should do.

DON'T VOTE YET! sheesh... i can see you inching to click the submit button already...

You've gotta make an informed choice yah?

So here goes:

1)Classical Pop Artiste
If you've gone for the piano concerts I've performed in, you'd know how well Keong and I click when we're on two pianos. And it's even better when we combine it with the techno background. And yes! There's a niche for classical pop with 2 pianos. There's a one piano version in maksim but still, I think logistically speaking, 2 piano works are really hard to realise. But we managed to do so! Keong and I have already produced 2 completed 2 piano techno works (Andromeda and Operation:Glanzende), another 2 on the way (1 which is tentatively named "Electricity" and the other is The Lost Empire) A solo work is also done, called "Capricious". And another work we're trying to produce would be based on Bach's Badinerie (supposed to be some flute concerto...)

2)Singer
After Singapore Idol watching... I WANT TO BE A SINGER! but my voice has a limited range... I've realised people appreciate my voice when i sing in church... and I do have a thing for harmony. And all the times singing during my medic course (I knew I loved you before i met you... i think i dreamed you into life...) in VS (with justin) and VJ (with Shuli... a whole new world....), i think i'm suited and confident for this job cos i don't really get too nervous singing in front of a crowd...

3)Model
Two words: Easy Money. But i need to work on my complexion and bod! the definition is coming but keeps going once i don't gym in a while... And modelling is not the catwalk type... i mean the poster model type.

4)Teacher
I'm signed to a bond... but after that... who noes? should i even continue? it's stable and pragmatic. and i do like biology.

5)Life Science Researcher
I dunno lah... related to my Uni degree (which i have not gotten yet)? And pragmatic too... but i'm not sure if i wanna be cooped up in a lab all day...

Currently registering for the free poll to be put on my blog... need help with career choices... more details in a few minutes...

UPDATES GALORE!!!

Yay! I managed to find a sound bite for the blog...

And i realised i can't add colours to my words at my workplace comp... this sux...

Never mind! Here comes the lyrics of the new song!!!

It's the corrs' new single, Angel.

"Angel"

She lived like she knew nothing lasts
Didn't care to look like anyone else
And she was beautiful, so beautiful
I still hear her laugh like she's here

Shower it down on all the young
It isn't so wrong to have such fun

Forever angel
I hope they love yo like we do
Forever angel
I'll be proud to be like you
Be like you
(I'll be proud to be like you)

Does the sun shine up at you when you are looking down?
Do you get along with the others around?

It's got to be better than before
You don't need to worry now you're gone

Forever angel
I hope they love yo like we do
Forever angel
I'll be proud to be like you
Be like you
Just like you

And when i go to sleep at night
I'll thank you for each blessed thing surrounding me
For every fall I'll ever break
Each moment`s breath I wanna taste
Confidence and conscience
Decadent extravagance
Never ending providence
For loving when I had the chance

Forever angel
I hope they love yo like we do
Forever angel
I'll be proud to be like you
Forever angel
I'll be proud to be like you
Forever angel
I'll be proud to be like you

Colours!!!

Finally the colours work! haha... I couldn't do this at work though... hehe... =)

and yah... here are a BARRAGE OF PHOTOS !

all proudly taken by me using my Motorola MPx200!!! =P



ok... here's the 4 of us (from my office) looking extremely goofy after (or was it before?) the LIFE programme at Labrador park!



After that... some nice breakfast at Mac's... Weilun seems to enjoy his Big Mac ALOT!!! =P



Outing with the breadtalk gang and celebrating lyn's b'day and keong's VERY BELATED birthday... haha... we were all role playing... here's claire acting like a bimbo and lynette as a market auntie.



*pukez*
I was doing "Sex Bomb" and twirling my fingers with the clucking action... ALL IN THE JAPANESE RESTAURANT IN PARAGON! the horror...



Claire's the Ah Lian and Keong's the boyfriend...
She just slapped the table (fortunately, not Keong... haha)
"Why you so liddat one?!"



Army Open House Roadshow! I think Shaun and Hong Zhuang look particularly GOOFY! haha... but we had good fun... and a day off... hehe...



Zach says this picture looks like something taken out of the SgBoy website... go find out for yourself what SgBoy is about... =P
Oh well... I just wanted take a different photo... hehe... this was at Bonn's place. Very nice location for a photo shoot i must say... these are just some of the many i took with Zach. haha.



Zach's idea, my finger on the shutter (or the "capture" button of my handphone") haha...
It's a beautiful picture! (Zach, not you please... =P)




I took one for Zach too with the same idea... but i chose to put mine cos his picture looked kinda obscene... ask me directly if you wanna know why...

There you go! My first photo journal! Let's have many more to come!!!

I recently read someone's blog. The link I got off "some" website.

His predicament is so much like mine... sigh.

sheesh... went swimming today... damn tired...

then went to eat at the usual hangout with san yee and parents... do full i look PREGNANT! haha...

Oh my...

My eyes are really roving around...

saw a gorgeous person today... *salivates*

Hmm... to answer to Chris' comments on my earlier blog post...

Well, when i say soulmate, i don't mean a hot chick/babe/"whatever deragatory term we give to pretty ladies".

I mean I need somebody whom I can talk to heart to heart. ie my "zi1 ji3" or rather, a confidante.

I do have a best friend and good friends... but even so, they don't really know my inner storm... it's just like not knowing my core.

What I do reveal are things at the crust and mantle (a little geography here...although I was never a good geography student... =P )

What I really need is someone experiencing the same things that I'm experiencing... Hot Chick/Babe? I don't really think they'll fit my description.

Sigh.

(Justin, if you're reading this... please don't feel offended yah? Just some very deep secrets I harbour which I can't possibly reveal to even my best friend.)

(BreadTalk gang, are you guys shocked?)
I do agree looks are important... but that's not the main issue... I need a soul mate.

Random Ramblings

Been feeling really out of sorts lately... I feel so conflicted within myself. I mean, it's like my thoughts and my supposed morals just do not seem to fit into the big jigsaw picture...

Been also wanting to look for a soulmate... cos seriously, no one, i repeat, NO ONE, knows the things I'm going through right now... (well, except for God, and I know this doesn't really please him to know that I'm conflicted...)

I'm hanging on to my faith, and He does give me the strength... but still, I feel like I've dropped back to square one with my desire for worldly things and all... My preferences just do not seem to go with what I've learnt throughout my whole Christian life.

Maybe I've changed through the years. I used to be so fired up with my faith. Or maybe it all started when my hidden character began to manifest itself suddenly when that incident happened back in Sec 1. Don't get me wrong... this is nothing sexual. So don't sue anyone. I'm still a VIRGIN! (sheesh... what were you thinking?!)

I'm just so... in need of answers. I'm beginning to start accepting this strange identity of mine. But I don't appreciate the duality of my life/thoughts/morals/ideals.

I don't wish to accept it. But still... I feel like I need the support of people who think like me. Again, I say, I need a soulmate. Someone I can spend time with and talk to. But then again, would people get the wrong idea?

The world is so cruel but I hang on to my faith. Father, Son and Holy Ghost, Empower me.

In this current state of psychological and moral confusion, I really do hope I make the right choices.

Even while I prepared for bible study, i just felt so... unworthy and uninspired. Certain things that I do leave me feeling so morally muddy.

I know many who would read this entry on my blog would be really shocked to know the storm behind my smile.

Even my expressions and the way I carry myself are beginning to give away my current psychological storm. People are beginning to judge me. I know I really shouldn't bother cos only God can judge. But still, what people say matters. And it can really cut deep.

What worries me is: What if what people say about me is indeed true?

The weight on my shoulders is enormous. I would disappoint many if word goes out. I feel so hapless, yet in control. Mixed feelings are flooding me.

Should I accept myself as I am and disappoint many with my attitude or should I simply just push this aside as if nothing has happened?

It's really surprising how I can still manage to praise God amid all this. Thank you Lord.

The duality of my nature is really disturbing me.

Christian brothers and sisters, please pray for me.

Non-christian brothers and sisters, please uphold me.

(Please don't fear, I'm not committing suicide or doing anything silly. I'm just fighting a war within myself.)