forgot to add one more point to my previous topic.

"i can request for you to be posted out to some stay in unit..." yada yada yada... wow!!! *glares widely* somebody's got lotsa power!!! I'm really SCARED!!! quick, everyone!!! run!!!

-_-

as if i needed your "help" if i wanted to be posted out, did i ever mention i got into this place by choice, only that i wasn't posted to prev med as predicted? hmm... i'm still waiting for the day she does something so terribly wrong, somebody behind's gotta step into the picture.

when that day actually comes, it'll be due judgement. I can rant, but i'll leave the ultimate judgement to God.

Amen.

hmm... i really feel much better ranting it out and after talking to my mom on the phone. 3 minutes? to hell with the rule. esp when peepee's not around...

oh well... *yawn* waiting for Dad...

Patty and her pertinent problems

What's wrong with you?! *slaps myself on the head*

argh.

oh well, a little inside story into my life... peepee found out i left at 12.30pm instead of 1pm on saturday and i recorded it as 1pm anyway... and she's making a big fuss...

right, take out the interview book and start... well, "interviewing" me. or rather, i think it was more like roaring at me.

excuse me, didn't you notice i come to work at 7am sharp each day and go back sometimes much much later than the rest of the motley crew? oh, i'm sorry, you're not my boss... haha. *smirks*

"You've not been performing in this office, and i'm telling you this now!" oh please, don't give me that crap nonsense. obviously you do not know how hard i work cos you're always disappearing for your little tea breaks and your offs and leaves. and then, YOU'RE NOT MY BOSS. and you're obviously death. oops, sorry, deaf, when dr vince praises me and you never hear anything. haven't been performing?

POOH.

To think you don't even know how to use the interview booklet, signing off without even putting in your name. right, like it would have an impact on my future.

oh well, 1st issue, didn't perform office duty properly. like anyone's going to bother about a little computer and printer not being switched off?! and you wrote the bloody date wrongly! it never happened this month. it was last month. so much for wanting to make it seem like september was my hell month. (it's october tomorrow)

issue 2, not turning off so(h/c)'s computer after use. right. my "fault". Ten was on duty that day and you didn't even take away his off.

issue 3, leaving early without permission. yes, i was wrong, i admit it!!! *waves hands* but of course, you don't know what time i come to work. wad time do you come to work everyday excuse me? 8.30? 9? 10???

issue 4, logging in wrongly in the time book. okay, my fault. like anybody in the right state of mind's going to bother.

oh, and my peace offering, a hershey's nugget together with an apology note, she rejected it. "don't try to bribe me..." I CAN't HELP IT IF YOU'RE SO SKEPTICAL!!! irritating old woman. People try to make peace and appease you but can't so? izzit my fault?! please! you're the one with the moronic ideas.

and yes, you said to forward any suggestions to you. I was only following the proper channel of command. not like some people *stares* who goes to mr cmc and starts whining like a very "young" girl "sir sir!!! the mocc people don't want to listen to me!!!"

The importance of PRAYER

Yest, doc J explained the importance of prayer in our lives during our bible study... and I made a goal for myself this week, to pray both in the good and the bad times.

Well, I experienced a really bad morning with scoldings from peepee and A... but after a moment of prayer, I realised the ways I could apologise... which i did...

I don't know why but i left a little note and a piece of hershey's nugget on peepee's table to apologise... i hope it worked... she just left... *ponders and prays*

as for A, i emailed her an apology since she was so busy...

oh well, lesson learnt. And PRAYER is IMPORTANT!!!

hmm... i've been posting passages of rants... sigh. but i seriously feel much better by getting it all out in words and on this blog. ha... it's also a way to prepare for the thesi (is that the plural of "thesis"?) that i would have to write in the uni...

carthasis carthasis carthasis...

oh well... advanced theory went pretty okay i guess... the only questionable question i had was answered correctly... but i'm worried of being too confident like the last time. GOD!!! please don't let me fail... *prays*

what's done is done and can't be undone... i'll have to wait for 2 weeks for my results... argh.

Peepee's gonna be here today... but A is not around... haha... so i'll slip away early today... and hope that patty doesn't find out... BOn is on duty so i needn't worry... hehe...

hmmm... haven't posted yesterday. this is meant to be yesterday's post...

Grudges

Ever wondered how some people seem to dislike you for no particular reason? (or for some reason that doesn't seem obvious enough...)

well... i guess that's what's happening in my office with a certain person acting seemingly hostile towards me. or maybe i'm just cynical. or maybe it's that time of the month (not for me, no.). maybe.

I'm half-tempted to step up to this person and ask, "is there something that i'm doing that's annoying you? Must you always find the faults in every person you see and then lock yourself up in this social vacuum?"

Perhaps I don't understand this person's introvertedness. Perhaps.

But really, this person can really be cynical... one moment of happiness, the next, a moment of sorrow, the next, a moment of aggressiveness...

But seriously, I think you're acting pretty childishly. Family matters should never be mixed with work and vice-versa. So whatever happens at home, yes, you may share any situations with us, but please don't bring the emotional baggage to work and start being sarcastic and caustic to people you see just because of home affairs. Get OUT of it!

The WORLD doesn't owe you a living.

Uniformity

Ever wondered why we have uniforms? So that we all look alike?

Well, I would think of it as a way of promoting a sense of togetherness.

There's like some people at my workplace who don't understand the importance of wearing their uniforms nicely and smartly... Yes, you may not be a regular but hello?! your dressing ultimately depicts your attitude and your character.

Much like someone who looks like a DXO at my workplace. oh well, you noe wad i found out? for 2 months plus, he has not gotten a single piece of uniform on his body... i'll comment more later... zack's rushin me... haha... =)

Sarcasm Stinks

just today i experienced the sarcastic nature of a certain un-uniformed person in my office... yes thank you for your all so UN-NICE remarks for all the things I did for you the day before when you were not around... *rolls eyes*

I just can't seem to understand why some people think that the world owes them a living. Yes, you are in a bad mood... but I can be in a bad mood too you noe!? When I speak to you nicely, kindly understand that I'm being, well, GENUINELY NICE. A less than nice remark or reply would automatically make you a brainless moron who knows nothing about simple social etiquette.

To all you people who read this and who noe me, understand that I'm a GENUINELY NICE person when I'm nice. It's a basic give and take situation. I don't expect you to give me a sarcastic, caustic, malicious remark when I speak to you in a nice, humble tone.

So what if you're my superior?! yes, i can't do anything about what you say, but I won't be at the losing end here, NO. Your remarks will be recorded in the minds of people around, inviting their weird stares and their disapproval. Yes, they can't interfere in your matters, but you've lost a certain amount of respect from people.

I may still speak to you nicely. but the motivation behind it will never be the same again. So which would you rather prefer? Someone who speaks to you nicely because he respects you, like the way I speak to Dr Vince, or would you prefer someone who speaks to you nicely just because he's doing it for the sake of doing it?

Think about it.

Dumb & Dumber

sometimes i wonder how some people can be SO dumb. A neat little table for you to work on becomes so messy after just 2 days of not being around. hmmm, i wonder wad would happen if i wasn't around for a month? the place would probably look like ground zero of the the 911 incident. *rolls eyes*

I know that there's this law of thermodynamics in which all things will break down or go into a state of disorder... but of course, there's always a force that keeps things in check at my table. ME.

so if you don't mind, i beseech you to look at yourself and see how raggy you can be, and no, I'm not ragging you, i'm simply "beseeching" you to put in a little effort just to keep my place nice and tidy or at least keep the things to the place you took them from and not leave them around as though the area belongs to you.

(a "dedication" to Mr T and his quintessential messiness)

Things I hate about a person

hmm... here's my hated characteristics (NOT PEOPLE!) in people.

1) Irresponsible people who don't bother about finishing their work

hmm... today's been quite nice. Peepee was in a good mood. was happy-ish when I did the job for her "chop-chop"...

hee... mebbe desktop told her about my background?! hmm... *ponders*

well. office duty was mine today and i left at 6!!! *grins widely* dr dan is do nice... hehe... sometimes i think he's like this small boy... *laughs*

ten got his half-day off tomolo cancelled cos he didn't bother to check if the SMM conference room was vacant already... was really irritated when A checked with me whether the place had been cleared of the rubbish. I was like "erm... I don't think so..." then she was like "I don't think so too cos I didn't see the water pitcher at the pantry"

woo... she went into a rage after that. I called ten up and she was so peeved with his usual excuse: "I dunno leh", she went "I'M CANCELLING YOUR OFF TOMORROW!" and slammed the phone. woo... *wipes sweat off my forehead*

he tried calling after that and of course... i didn't want to answer, neither did A.

and then he came rushing back to the office to help me. so much for being "automatic".

haha... attended the briefing for the ISO certification before that. noticed that office cleanliness was one of the many criterias that SHALL be met. so I warned Ten about his "immaculately" MESSY place, with papers scrawling all over the place. Sometimes I wonder how he can work... eew...

was discussing with brother Zack about his (Ten's) under study... we're wishing... erm no... HOPING for someone who's more hardworking, more "automatic", and less of a slacker... but of course he must know when to slack lah... haha... can't have a work horse stressing all of us NSFs out... haha...

am sitting at the I-net room typing away now.

haha. Dr Rose was very funny when he asked about sound from his comp.

Rose: How come there's no sound from the computer?
Me: Cos there's no speakers sir? *duh*
Rose: (rather bewilderedly) Oh! So there's no internal speakers?
Me: No, sir.
Rose: Then I guess I'll have to buy them then...

and he bought a pair of $12 speakers. haha...

Random songwriting...gospel style

Questions keep arising
How should I live my life?
Would it be good if I tried?
Would it be good if I failed?

But then a song keeps ringing in my mind
Love him, love him and he will love you too.

(Chorus)
Sing! Sing!
And acknowledge your saviour by faith
The angels surround you
and bring you where he leads to...

hm... that's all I have for song lyrics... which I wrote on a bus listening to Jewel.

life day today... totally shacked out... smo is in a meeting and dr rose... dunno where... sigh. and I'm on DUTY!!! argh. gotta wait for them. sigh.

argh... not another short circuit?!!! the lift's broken down again and the fire alarm's ringing on the 5th floor... damn irritating. I hope it doesn't continue on till the night... argh argh argh.

Today's a fun yet tiring day.

for a start, Peepee's not here! *hooray*

then there was like this huge flood in the first and basement storeys of the building so the electrics got a little crazy when the anti-short-circuit system kicked in. There was absolutely no air-con for the first hour or so and everyone was perspiring from the stuffiness and heat!

the worst thing. THE LIFTS BROKE DOWN!!! argh. RSM and I had to climb to the 6th floor to get to the office. SIGH!!! argh again. well... it was fixed later in the afternoon. I tell you, if it was still broken down till now, my legs would have gone crazy.

The OA system, intranet, also went down because the servers were... well, WET! I nearly broke out in crazy laughter when I heard this. A told me they had to shut down the servers for fear that the whole building would go into a blackout if they switched the wet servers on! haha... so it was like some message: "NO WORK TODAY!" cos the whole office rely's really greatly on the intranet system.

Dr Rose actually gave all non-essential staff (ie non duty personnel) in the office to go on HALF DAY OFF!!! argh. I coincidentally have OPS duty today. sigh. was quite sad. but then! The intranet came back on just as we were about to decide to leave the office. A had to declare the cancellation of the off rather reluctantly. quite funny too, cos RSM had ALREADY LEFT. haha... oh well... at least I don't miss out on anything.

oh... and there was like this huge security check for all vehicles coming into the camp today. even dad and i got affected... haha... the RPs were like totally blur and asked my Dad for his 11b and camp pass... until they saw his uniform hanging at the backseats... haha...

"Thank you, SIR."

*laughs*

yay... Peepee won't be around today... haha...

me took half day leave yesterday cos of my eye irritation... moreover, was feeling REALLY sleepy yesterday. the whole afternoon was spent snuggling in my bed... *sighs gleefully*

hmm... ops duty is tomolo... and i hope mark doesn't bully me like he warned... haha... or else. *sniggers*

let me comment on why i said it was wasted. cos RSM and Peepee are quite "good" friends... i suppose if she does anything to me in future, RSM would probably tell her in advance... ha. *smirks*

staring into space... with eyes wide open...

argh. earlee morning... and i'm SOOOOO sleepy. *imagines myself snuggling up in my nice warm bed*

PG's coming this morning!!! argh!!! *runs around the room naked*

life's been pretty straight forward so far this week... but it's still early so you can never guess what will happen next... sigh.

saw Jer's "san-ling" friend who looks so damn straight yesterday. but wad do you noe? this world has become so deceptive... sigh.

aiyoh. RSM saw my Dad fetching me to the doorstep of the HQ Block... but a pity he wasn't in uniform. wasted.

sigh... jer and his "san-ling-ness" is driving me nuts. haha...

PG's not here today. hooray hooray hooray!

oooh... today's a really cool day... hee... no one else is in the office except me. and jer and bon in the library...

PG went for a meeting at 3 and wouldn't be coming back. AK, Ten, Dan, Zack, RSM all went to the RSAF open house. Dr Rose went for clinic. SMO is overseas. Dr Dani at Gombak covering some doc's duties. Dr Vince on MC! wonderful feeling... really... no one else in HC branch... although there's CMC and his secretary... argh!!! how i wished i was doing office duty today!!!

but it's shitty at the same time... wanna leave early but cannot. WHY??? no key to home... -_-

mom's at tiong bahru attending some seminar... so i still have to wait till Dad comes to pick me up... -_-

oh well... i'll just bum around in the office... hee...

yipee... went on MC today... haha... had the common cold... trust external docs to give you MCs... if I had reported at Nee Soon Med Ctr, I would have just gotten some lozenges and NO MC...

was sneezing like crazy yesterday... needed to take 2 claritynes before it was settled down... argh. and good news too, for the rest of the month, PG will be going on many many leaves!!! *cheers*

will be going back to work again tomolo...

oh. just needed to make a note on how to pronouce my nick.

it is not "shanes" but rather, "sha-nez" as in "perez". geddit? haha... my nick sounds a little latin-ised.

argh... I can't seem to get the shoutbox up and running on my blog!!! *whines* bourne: you've gotta help me...

anyway. answering to dreamcatcher's comment about the complain thing... i'd prefer to think of it as catharsis.

Main Entry: ca·thar·sis
Pronunciation: k&-'thär-s&s
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural ca·thar·ses /-"sEz/
Etymology: New Latin, from Greek katharsis, from kathairein to cleanse, purge, from katharos
Date: circa 1775
1 : PURGATION
2 a : purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art b : a purification or purgation that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension
3 : elimination of a complex by bringing it to consciousness and affording it expression

it's healthier to purge my emotions than keep them inside right? roger that?

It's been a week since I last updated this blog... last week went terribly... sigh with all the problems with PG. Irritating, the way she does things... and she never seems to think with her brain but rather her rank. hmph.

Sentry duty was way fun... well, kinda cos I just bummed around doing absolutely nothing but play "Dai dee" on my phone... that was the first time I actually caused my phone battery to "burn out" within a day... haha...

Saturday's outing was really fun... LXG was nice but i seriously felt it could have been better... hm... lotsa great effects and everyone agreed that Mina, the vampire, was our favourite character... hee...

Sunday-wise, was definitely church day. Hm... bible study was really enlightening, as usual, and we were asked by Doc J to disciple the younger youths (haha... a little alliteration here...) next week... Sherina and I will be taking the youngest group of Sec 1s... argh. The rest of the gals were commenting how an army boy like me would be able to control this group with army discipline. Yah. Right. haha...

Feeling a little stressed though I think it's more important for me to go and revise the discipleship series...

I'll end my entry here then...