Silence is golden..

Word of the week: Scheming

I almost thought I could trust you. Almost.

Till I realised, or rather, recalled how you treat your 'friends'.

I made the right choice! Yeah!

The dice has been thrown.

The number: 50

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I'm still confused...

and whats the point in being....

Losing track of things...

silence is difficult to handle...

six...

and about to break...

three different groups of ppl ><3.....

no wait... 4!

yesterday was different. definitely different.

but I guess that should actually be normal.

the previous years have just been special.

and I guess I have been blessed to get a few special ones in a row.

I kinda mixed up the special as the norm.

theres no need for sorry, only thanks.

=)

what drives me make these decisions?

In a game of snakes and ladders, I would be in square one, not having been bitten by a snake, but by not having taken a step...

Some friends say the things you don't want to hear, but its actually the truth you just didn't want to hear all along...

speak no evil, speak no evil, speak no evil

this is something i'm obviously not used to, but i guess i better start getting used to it....

and so my design project has come to an end. 25 days spending probably an average of 6 hours or more on the project and now its all over. i should be glad its over, people are teling me to be glad its over. if only i could control our emotions and tell myself to be glad...

how i ended up in a totally random group is still a wonder to me. how i idiotically assumed and didnt fight for what i want. initially, i naively believed that i could do it all. we know and were told that design project takes up alot of time, but hey, i'm me and i still believed i could handle it all. what a joke eh? dont get me wrong tho, there were people in my group that i could actually count on and that kept me going. i guess there are people outside your usual group of friends that you can count on. there may be few, but they are out there.

presentation was today, or rather yesterday. worked my ass off on the presentation slides the day before, and i must say i'm dammed proud of it. it kinda feels like i'm taking powerpoint slides to a different dimension. but after watching the first group present, i realised how naive my slides are. totally misjudged the point of the presentation. theres was totally a lack of constructive criticism within my group. i guess this points to lack of preparation. imagine that our ppt slides were only compiled half an hour before the presentations began. as much as i would like to believe i am, it appears i'm not invincible after all..

eventually there were frustrating moments, which started happening more frequently. there were times when i worked on this project that i felt like giving up. multiple times. but i managed to tell myself its not about the grades but what i learn and take away from it. this should be a step in the right direction. that education is more than just the grades i end up getting. in truth, reflecting on the last month, it seems that i have walked away with more than just engineering knowledge. i had fun interacting with the external consultant. i grew closer to friends in times of such adversity, yes, the adversity of design project. the countless problems thrown at us and the solutions which may seem to make little sense at all. hopefully friendships lasts and its not just me sticking out a solo hi-five.

but i guess in the past 3years of uni, i have been working towards getting a better cap. i was motivated. i drew my inspiration from those around me. its just not so easy to give up something you have been working for, especially after such a long time. at the end of the day, the grade still matters, dont they?

chris feels lost at sea without an anchor... floating aimlessly...

Weather Forecast: Gloomy for the upcoming weeks

When you ask others for advice, follow them, and things go wrong, you have the advice to blame.

But when you follow your own advice, you only have yourself to blame.

Are you strong enough to make your own decisions?

a quiet day... do you celebrate your chinese birthday?

TheQuoteWhore

Love is like a rubber band. We keep pulling until someone lets go, and the one that held on longer is the one that gets hurt.