I hate december!

A spate of bad luck just followed me in December.

First, my network card decided to fail me.
That means no more broadband for me,
back to dial up @ 52.0kbps.

Well, I thought, that's not the worst.
At least I still get to surf online.
At a compromised speed,
paying the same broadband price.

Thought that my ISP would at least show me some compassion judging by the connection speed I have recently and decide to offer me dial up price for that time after I complained my part of the problem.
but they were unmoved!

Fine, what the heck.
It's not as if they are the only ISP around.
Other ISPs are offering great deals with a laptop thrown in ok!

Then, shortly after my network card fail me,
my CPU decided that the problem was not serious enough to garner my attention,
and decided to crash!!!!

I think they feel I have nothing else better to do.
I'll just watch TV.
After they decided that their stupid conspiracy of getting me to upgrade and service both of them is way too useless to grab any bit of my attention, they probably wake up and beg me to lay my hands on them!!

Battle time!!

It lasted for 5 days.
And I LOST.
No upgrades though.
Just reformatted.
back to square one.
where I don't have the most basic softwares again.

but what the heck.

i have to be appreciative of what i have.
Some people don't even own a PC.

Who am I to complain about having a PC with a bloody-ass problem?

Network card

there's something wrong with my network card.
My ADSL modem won't work with it. :(

And I'm on dial-up speed.
52.0kbps!!!!!!!!

OMG.
So sian.
Very slow leh...

Approach me!

I look friendly today.

I must have.

1-2-3-4-5 strangers approached me today.
And asked me for directions.
Or maybe I was dressed as if I stayed in the vicinity.

Then, a thought struck me after I was approached by the 5th person.

In my teenage years,
when guys approaching pretty girls for their contact were rampant,
I've never had anyone approached me for my tel no before leh.
One of my never-will-be-attained fantasies lah.
Haha.

But come to think of it,
which guy in the right mind would have approached me back then?
(with my more-than-needed-attention crown and chbby baby fats still hanging on to me until, like, now?!)

Not that any guy would approach me for my number now lah.
But,
as I've said,
IT'S MY FANTASY MAH.
HAHAHAHAA....

Self-mockery remains as my best self consoling agent.
Sigh~~~~

Perhaps, for my birthday,
what you gals out there can do for me is to engage a hunky guy (preferably look like Aaron Kwok/Takeshi Kaneshiro kind) to approach me on the streets,
not to tell me that my zip is undone,
but to tell me how pretty/slim/beautiful/gorgeous I am that day.
And pretend to want to get my attention.
And my number.
WOW...
Fantasy fulfilled.

But wait, that will really be unrealistic leh.

But what the hell...
Fantasies are unrealistic anyway :D
And they never happen.

Happy shoes

Nope.
the title is not at all related to the show "Happy Feet".
Which I have yet to watch.
And was told by a co-worker today that I looked like the main lead penguin.

Duh.

I hope it looks cute enough.
Too many times has it happened in my life that I was told I look like some cartoon character.

worst of the worst - CHUCKY.

Sai lah.
What sorta friend will tell you you look like CHUCKY?
KNS.

Anyway, I drifted from what I wanted to blog.
Today, I wore my "happy shoes".
On some days,
I feel like bouncing up and down like a tigger while with it on my feet.
On other days,
they made me feel like a graceful ballerina in a studio dancing.

I can't explain why the shoes made me feel so happy wearing them.

Walking on them seemed to lessen the burdens I have on my shoulders,
Walking on them seemed to let me understand how insignificant my worries are.

I thought about the world today when they were on my feet today.
On the worries of others of my age in other parts of the world.

And I realise just how lucky I am.

I must remind myself more often on
APPRECIATING what I have.

The little things in life are so taken for granted.
The clean air we breathe.
The clean water we drink.
The abundant food source we have.
The love from our parents.

It's so easy to slip into arrogance and forget the little things in life.
The little things that spell our survival.

Anyways, I feel really happy today.
Not only because I had my "happy shoes" on.
:)

My trip to one small part of M'sia

guess this animal!!!

(come back to my next entry for answer!)

It was an okay trip...

which i initially thought would have wasted my time...

but it turned out okay...

:)

Something I thought was worth reading...

云卷云舒，花开花落，
都是大自然的景色，
春来秋去两相宜。
人的脸就不同了，
人家给的是笑脸还是严霜，
全凭你的荣辱，
有时候很难舒心欣赏。

同一个人，有求于你，
他满面春花，你也会费心到底；
轮到你要他帮忙，即便讲好了价码，
对方话里还是有棱有角。
极不是滋味的事，不必生气，
应该高兴换了身份更能看清事物。

老扮演同一种身份，
没机会增长见识，
更不用说磨练了。

习惯了潮涨潮落的人情，
荣辱便不太在心上，
日子便可以过得笃定些。

adapted from a column from a local newspaper