A day I will never forget...

Today is the birthday of a friend whom I place in God's care.

I will never forget her sleepy eyes...
Her ear-rubbing habit...
And her Taiwanese style of whining...

Whenever I think of her,
it will always bring a faint smile on my face,
added with a tinge of sadness.

She is such a sweet girl...
that even girls find it hard to hate her.

Had a bad day?
She's ever willing to lend that listening ear to hear u pour out all that sorrow.
Plus, she's got great empathy.
And after that, she'll even bitch together with you to make feel better :)

If you need a girls' party night out,
she's always just a phonecall away.

Never had any one of us quarrelled with her.
She's so even-tempered and peace loving.
Just as angelic as she appeared.
Just the way she is.

I choose to remember only,

the good times we've shared,
the friendship we'll forever treasure,
and a bondage I know will never be broken.


And I know,
I'll see her again when it's my time.

XXXXiu (part 1)

Weird as the blog title may seem,
it's still gonna be an interesting blog you won't wanna miss!
This is an insider's issue!!!

Word has it that XXXXiu is ROM-ing in 2009 with that "built-to-order" flat she's been bragging about.
2009 leh.
And at that point when she announced her so-called "engagement",
it was early 2005.
Wah.
Wonder where her confidence in MEN come from.
Her physical capacity??
or that accountancy-cert driven ego?

To all the babes reading this entry,
I am not being mean ok!
I know we oughta back our female counterparts when it comes to men making such duh promises.
But if you knew how it all started...

Years back,
when we were young and naive,
all was fun and laughter...
and then came studies, along with school pressure and all that bout we've been through.

A handful of those in my class were the "kiasu" type ,
who wanted the BEST results.
XXXXiu was one of those who wanted to be the best.
It seemed that it matters to her a great deal that she's recognised as the smartest and fastest when it comes to studies.
And she would go around asking the smart alecs in class,

XXXXiu : "eh, you study until where liao har?"
XXXY : "er...Chapter 3 loh"
XXXXiu : " orh"

The next day,
XXXXiu said to XXXY :
"eh, I'm at Chapter 4 liao leh".

Being friends, we overlook this small flaw in her and accepted her shortcomings.
Shui Neng Wu Guo ma...hor?

never mind, that's not the crux.

One fine day, when XXXYun sat in front of her,
out of the blue,
XXXXiu said to XXXYun :
"Eh, I ask you hor, u sad or not? your hair like that."
At this moment, when XXXYun was about to open her mouth and defend her miserable hairstyle, XXXXiu said :
" If I were you hor, I would have killed myself liao!"

Innocent XXXYun was left feeling upset and awkward about the whole situation and the comments made.
Think.
A 16 year old teenager,
oredi not much confidence in her appearance,
kena this kinda huge insult.
If she weren't optimistic about the future technology (u know, like rebonding and etc),
she would have really killed herself because of this XXXXiu's words.
Not that it mattered that she was insulted.

It was because, she was mercilessly wounded by someone she thought was a friend.
A friend who didn't mind her weird and funny hair.
All that if mentioned in a joking tone, yes, she would be able to accept.

But, it was all so sarcastic!
Sigh...
To think she treated her as a confidente all along!

Zeng!

That's what describes my state of mind now.

~~~~~~~~~~~~zeng~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the Monsterous eater

I had some spare time today, and decided to jio bui-1 for hoagies.
Yum!!
It's located at a small cafe in yishun south cc,
which sells very good hoagies-crispy baked non-fattening sandwiches.
Eaten without guilt!
Even the chicken wings there are delicious!
The thought of these just makes me drool...

And so I decided to give bui-1 a treat since she's always been so nice to me.
(Minus the suan-ing sessions we always have in front of other people)
She's been driving me around, got into a small car accident because she was driving me home late into the night (but her car benefited in a way ok!!got 100% cleaned up and vacuumed)
Did the OJT assignment and allowed me to plagiarize it (hehe).
Helped me with the presentation.
Etc.

And so it began.
We reached hoagies, and we went straight to the cashier to order.

Bui-1 :"erm, can I have a steak-and-cheese hoagie add on with meal (which comes with soup-of-the-day, 1 coffee/tea and an ice-crea), and change the drink to this(hand holding a bottle of saraspilla)? Also add the 6pcs prawn. and plus fries hor."
Me with jaw dropping : "er, ya, those are what she wanted and I'll just have a ham hoagie and a baked potato + drink".

When the food came, bui-1 finished it (ya, I had chipped in to eat 3 prawns and a few puny fries).
And said that she had space to fill in more.
Wow.
High metabolism rate leh, this girl.

Really wonder what went into her to be eating so much suddenly???
Qing Chang Shi Yi??
Hahaha...
Think she'll come after me after reading this post :P

need more gym session after this ah...

Am beginning to fill into my pants again...sigh~
just when I thought I was getting out of the vicious cycle of getting fat and fatter!!!!


Delusional me

I didn't have time/energy to blog...

Well,

To begin,
I'm sorry, Blog!(and people who read my blog...)
I hadn't have enough determination to blog lately!
Tons of things to blog about and yet had no time to blog.

Blogging takes time.

When being penned down, these thoughts are translated into words that went through my mind...
And I tend to know what I exactly want after blogging.
It's my reflective thinking process :)

And lately, have been very busy with work and the new transfer to another unit.
Oops!
Did I not mention earlier?

The reason why I hadn't been blogging was because a lot of things were coming in my way.
And boy, do they like to come all at one shot.
It's actually 3 big things that I was busy with.
And later, I wonder why I could have gotten so stressed up and busy with just 3 things.

Really incapable and inefficient leh. Me.
There's like only 3 things, and I'm like coping with difficulty.
Look down on myself leh. (at this point, I figure that Bui cheong would be scolding me..."so few things also cannot handle!!still always complain!!!!cannot see the big picture!!) :(

I guessed I've been putting too much pressure on myself to perform lately.
I dunno why also.
As Bui had once said about me.
"Work so hard dunno for what".

I asked myself repeatedly too.
Why am I working so hard?
What am I pursuing?
What is my goal??

And hell, I don't know.

Hate it leh, the bui always makes sense.
But at least she brings me back to my senses.

Lately, it seems that there's a little light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm beginning to see what I am working so hard for. (will not reveal it now...hehehe...must maintain some form of suspense to captivate my readers to tune in to my blog :P)

Back to my no. 2 task.
A surprise assignment for me.
A presenter for big boss' visit.
I asked myself, really ah???
huh, me ah?
Duh.
I hate presentations, and I suck at it.
I wonder what they are thinking to task me this assignment.
And then negativity sets in.
Hello??
Put me in the limelight for what??
Not emplacing me oredi wat.
I have other things to do loh.
Tranferring to another unit means more new tings to learn again leh.
I need to focus.
I dun multitask well.
But anyway, the negativity is gone lah.
Gone for good.
Really can't stand myself for all that negativity.
Don't know where it came from.
It's as if, I am sinking into that PO culture, where when work is given to you, complain!!!
Sigh~
I was like a "yuan4 fu4", living in misery no matter if there were good things happening around me.

But now, I'm back to normal. (I hope :P)
I will cease to complain and do my best in whatever that's tasked to me.(yeah! that's the me I knew :P)

No. 3 assignment was committee work.
I was lucky that I had the help of those more IT savvy...
and come to realise that IT skills are really important in work.
But not having it doesn't mean I can't excel in the things I do :P

The com members ahd already done what I tasked them, and I had to tie up the loose ends.
It's a chore leh, really.
But, nevertheless, it's alomst done (with a smile :))

I missed the times when I was lurking around, looking for work at do at HU.
But it was boring, and aimless.
Felt useless and meaningless.
now that I have some things to focus on, it helps me to expand my capablilties and realise my shortcomings.

Appreciate the opportunites given to me :)
And the help buis extended once again.

This period has been a time for me to use as an excuse to skip gym sessions. :P
Bui is going to sour me again.
Say I've got no determination.
Wonder if she would say, " You can jog still dun want to jog!!duo luo!"
Saw her blog(despite of my busy schedule ok bui!!) and found out that she can't jog for the time being due to poor injured knee cap.
Poor girl.
Haven't been in much contact with her this period (missing gym sessions and no time to come online)
Wonder how she's been doing...
She's a bit like celia who's not so proactive when it comes to keeping the contact...

Why do I keep having such friends???
Hahaha...
But I just love keeping such friends.
Kekeke, not much maintenance needed, I guess?
:P

Hope everyone else is doing fine...

And I promise, for the next blog, it'll be more entertaining than this!
realised that my blogs are getting boring.
It's like I've lost that sense of humour to all the complaining sessions!

Negativity

I have been filled with negativity lately.

And I don't even know why.
I'm normally not like this, but I got lots and lots complaints.

I said it to whoever wants to hear it.
And it's not right.
I think my irrationality got the better of me.

And it's high time that I stop all this nonsense,
for what I said may have already imprinted on the listener's mind and formed an unjustified opinion of the person.

I am so full of complaints!
Hate myself for doing that.
And am regretting what I have done.
Sigh~~

Time to stop complaining leh.
Haiyo!
So fed up with myself!

Oops! to add on...

I also received many pretty presents from friends who went for the BBQ...

So sweet of them.

Love getting presents and cards.
Especially cards.

Dunno why.
have a fetish for receiving cards.

but dun stop the presents ok?!
I love cards, but, I love it even more when accompanied with presents!
Hehehe!
Greedy me!

Of the presents, I received a dry gin.
Funny.
Can't even recall who gave it to me.
Or was it even a present?
Or someone just brought it to the party in hope of finishing it that night?
no idea leh!
Ooops...really blur.

Other presents include...
later I post picture when I get from lia ok?
haha..

So happy to receive so many well-wishing!

BBQ~~~

It was an enjoyable BBQ.

Though the preparation suck!
Took me 2 days to buy he foodstuff and burn a little hole in my small pocket.
And in the end, forgot to serve the good food on the 1 st day~~

alamak.
Prawns and fresh meat.
Very wasted.

Had prepared for 2 days' serving, but sotong me forgot to bring them out.
In the end, served them for the next day's BBQ instead.
But didn't finish the food loh...
so lang fei!

Anyway, it's been sooooo loooong since I celebrated my birthday with so many people.
And actually, technically speaking, it was not even a celebration that I had in mind.
It was more like a gathering...
But anyway, it became a birthday celebration and I got sabo-ed badly.
Water bombs, flour, cream.

Been quite some time since I was under such "attack".

Had a lot of fun and realised my ren yuan actually not so bad lah...
Not like how someone described it hor??!!

Well, I think I am getting very tired.
As I typed, I feel that I am typing in a monotonous manner as well.

Shall not bored you all further...

Wait till I am more awake an perky before I put in another entry ok?
Too long never update blog already...
Must log on and update in case anyone misses me :P
Hehehe...

Passing the 1st Quarter of my life...

Yes, I am much older now.

I'm still trying to cope with that "lost" feeling.
But am seeing a little of that light at the end of the tunnel...

Being 26 is not easy.
I have to start planning for so many things now.
It's like the money I earn is longer just for myself.
I gotta start planning for emergencies (choy choy lah...)
now that my parents are aging, and with the thinning CPF, it may not be sufficient should there be emergencies.
And, it's high time that I take over the role as the main breadwinner of the family.
Paying the bills seem like such a grown-up thing.
I mean, i have been paying bills...but those were of my own expenditure.
As for the household, it never occur to me that I should be responsible.

But, today, as I turn 26, I realise it's time.
Time for me to grow up and take on the role of a daughter.

I hope my parents aren't too disappointed that I took so long to "grow up".
:)