school...

Thrusday was our last day of fianals!! Thank goodness! But if it were only over..I learned after my first final on friday that I was going to have to fight for the grade I deserved. Never in all my life, have I ever had such a rude teacher like I have had this semester. I have had two teachers tell me to just give up but hers was much deeper and much more hurtful.

I went into her office, after take half the day to think about it and calm down to discuss my grade...as we began talking I realized this was a lost cause and she was not going to move my grade. My heart was broken..after working sooo hard in her class and then finding out that she is not only going to give me a C on my project that deserved a A on but now she is going to fail me. She said to me " Kara, what are your plans? I see that you are in this program..and I see that you have failed another class...are you going to pass that class now..and I said " Well, yes I think so I have worked really hard all semester with that teacher I can't imagine that I am going to fail, did you talk to him? And she was like no, but I just see that you have failed it before. Then she went on to tell me that she sees no future in me graduating from college. At that very moment I couldn't hold back the tears, I have been told this before. My heart broke, I felt as if all my hard work was worthless, why even try? I just said well..I guess I will cross that brigde soon enough and then walked out. I had another final so I had to pull myself together to get through it. I walked outside cryed for a second and pulled myself together and went a took my last final.

Now, I wanted an A on my project and thats what I felt like I deserved, but whatever this was never about the project for her. She didn't want to see me pass her class, she didn't want to help me out at all, instead she broke the law and look at my past records and made all of these past judgements. When someone says your dumb, it stinks with you. It pieced my heart and I will never forget what she said or how she said it. As, if I was a failer in life.

Thrusday was a terrible day, a day I wish never to repeat again. It ruined the day!

AS, I was sharing with someone you must have dreams. If we didn't have dreams then where would we be today. I think all of the people that accomplished something great in this world, it started with a dream. Thomas Edison...prime example. He was poor broke, his lab burned down he had nothing, but he kept going. Rudy, he loved football, he wanted to graduate from college at ND and play football. He only played one game...but he played it. It was a dream. He graduated from college. He accomplished something that everyone said he couldn't do!

I realized more in the past two days, that it starts with a dream. I want to graduate! I want to have a degree..I could care less if I use it, but it's a dream of mine. This isn't everyones dream but it's a dream of mine. Everyone has dreams, you can fullfill them if you chose too, it won't be easy. School is so hard. No one has no idea how it feels to go to school everyday and work so hard and then not get the grades you want. Many days I want to give up, but I made a promise to myself when I was in elementary school and the teacher told me I would never be able to read, and I would never graduate from High School, that I won't to prove everyone wrong. Because I may not be the smartest person in the world, but it doesn't matter because if thats what I want to do then I should do it. And I can do it.

Whoever says you can't do it....forget them and do it. No dreams are ever accomplished easy, they are hard work.

I am done being sad over this...because It doesn't matter I am going to try harder I'm going to do better. I can do it. I've always been determined...and this isn't stopping me now.

DON"T BE DREAM KILLERS!!

YOU Can't Do that......

First, of all I knew this blogging was a bad idea...I knew I wouldn't be very good at this...but o well!

Now...for the venting rage of Kara...


First off I don't know where teachers get changing finals the day they are DUE!! I have three teachers this semester that have changed huge project due dates or final exams!!!

I will explain all if them...maybe this will help me with my anger issues. About 2 weeks ago...I had this huge porfolio due...I knew I had three weeks left to work on it...so I had made time and set up time to work on it everyday...welll, then she decideds "Hey...lets have it due this day." Wait Wait...a second thats a whole week earlier than expected!! Kara Freak out! Soooo...I hurry work night and day on this project..I'm so proud of it. I get home from Gavin's walk into my apartment and I can't find my project, the night before its due. Remind you this project cost not only around $100.00 but also...this is my final project. Gavin's goes on a hunt to find it. No one can find it...Im soo upset I can't sleep...well I end up finding it...i walk into class...and "hey class the project isn't due today...you just sign up to have me grade it" WHAT!! I haven't sleeped all night, I was crying all night..everyone that knows me knows how hard I worked on this!! Anyways...i get graded...I still don't know my grade! I'm still bitter...if I don't get an A....she won't like me anymore!! (There were tons of other problems with this project...she is an awful teacher)

Second-
My communication teacher decided to move abuse powerpoint up a week early!! Once again...I work my little heart away to get it done. Some times I hate being a good student!! Anyways...this turned out okay...because I got an A...and that one worked out all okay..but still why move it up a week early! HELLO...I have a life!!

Third-
This one sent me over the edge...I woke up on Monday at 8am and started my journey of doing my homework...Did 5 DAP assignments, Communication Final, Child 150 Final, Child 150 Paper, one child obeverstation, and one Book of Mormon final, then I work at 10:00pm till 6:00am...all night so I can't do my homework in the middle of the night. I still have to go to class, take those finals. I finally get done with everything at 7:00pm except for my BOM of Final...I feeling pretty good. Well...this is the longest longest longest BOM final I have ever seen, and it's hard. Well...I go to work with it not being done, and worried about it but at this point I can't do anything about it. On all my breaks I worked on it..I worked on it every second I had a mintue at work...I finally got in done at 5:30am this morning...I get home at 6:00am shower, get ready for the day, study for my other final at 8:00am, take the final. Take a power nap on the couch. At 10:15am I walk into my BOM class more tired than anything..ready to just roll over and die...and he decides to let us have till THRUSDAY to turn in our final...now how can you do that? Im soo tired, I wanted to cry when he said that...I wanted to give up right there. I am soo ready for school to be out! I need a break!

Now, I know this won't make since to anyone else...but pretty much I feel better now!
Now, I just want sleep...not to later!!