Thursday, March 22
Sheen
Slowly improving each day but still making mistakes. Overcame a big hurdle in life, things aren't easier but at least they ain't so bleak. Finding some sort of a divine guidance to trade less directionally as my mental make up just seems susceptible to picking the wrong side of where ever the market moves next. Some plans to increase profitability but not yet, focusing on consistency now.
Also I finally purchased an iPhone. Catching up with the masses!
Sunday, March 4
Trepidation
Perhaps fear rears it ugly head too often around this neighborhood these days. Self-doubt, a constant companion. Takes a lot of effort just to will them away, to focus on the task at hand.
Truth be told, this path hasn't been easy. I'm a stubborn man, takes a lot to stop me and I plod on, head down, weathering the pain.
It shouldn't be so hard, but if I wasn't broken down into pieces, I would never ask for help.
Things are beyond me sometimes, I cannot hope and wish for too much, living in unfulfilled dreams that only result in disappointments. I am trying to change, learning how to cope.
Each step a step in trepidation, lest I fall again. I need to regain my confidence, be the bright-eyed boy I once was - not a broken reject that lives in fear.
Of course, one takes inspiration from a myriad of sources, no less that of Jeremy Lin's meteoric rise in the NBA. NYT (http://www.nytimes.com/2012/02/25/sports/basketball/the-evolution-of-jeremy-lin-as-a-point-guard.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all) has an article on how he made it through with "perseverance, hard work and self-belief". What I do is very much like a sport - putting in the hours, practicing, working on the same ol' drills, discipline and preparing for the perfect moment.
I move forward again tomorrow, not the final test but a good gauge. Goggles down, gears engaged.
Truth be told, this path hasn't been easy. I'm a stubborn man, takes a lot to stop me and I plod on, head down, weathering the pain.
It shouldn't be so hard, but if I wasn't broken down into pieces, I would never ask for help.
Things are beyond me sometimes, I cannot hope and wish for too much, living in unfulfilled dreams that only result in disappointments. I am trying to change, learning how to cope.
Each step a step in trepidation, lest I fall again. I need to regain my confidence, be the bright-eyed boy I once was - not a broken reject that lives in fear.
Of course, one takes inspiration from a myriad of sources, no less that of Jeremy Lin's meteoric rise in the NBA. NYT (http://www.nytimes.com/2012/02/25/sports/basketball/the-evolution-of-jeremy-lin-as-a-point-guard.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all) has an article on how he made it through with "perseverance, hard work and self-belief". What I do is very much like a sport - putting in the hours, practicing, working on the same ol' drills, discipline and preparing for the perfect moment.
I move forward again tomorrow, not the final test but a good gauge. Goggles down, gears engaged.
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