Sunday, June 29
Friday, June 27
too much
there's too much on my mind lately.
and the pain, it's hard to take away.
why did things have to turn out this way?
sometimes i wish of non-existence.
and the pain, it's hard to take away.
why did things have to turn out this way?
sometimes i wish of non-existence.
Wednesday, June 4
Before Dust
Received the property valuation report today and it feels like the solidification of untold fears and a lingering sense of sadness. Our parents' sins would affect our lives forever. A prevailing sickness passed down from generation to generation.
Would I be the one to break this cycle?
At the precise moment when a piece of lint and dust settled on my keyboard, I felt a spark of inspiration and here I am now; furiously typing away; grabbing words from thin air. Writing has always been cathartic - I write to remember, I write to stay sane.
Walking through familiar hallways earlier, hidden memories surfaced and I cried a little inside. Skeletons in my closets returned to haunt me before receding into the darkness. Somehow, I feel more emotional tonight.
Very soon, I would be leaving this empty shell of a home. When we first moved here, I hated the far-flung location but I have grew to love its tranquility. I will definitely document the space before we move out. I've never been much of a sentimental person (so I choose to believe) yet I can't help but express my sorrows - of being forcibly ejected from a place I called home for seven years.
Time passes faster than we think it does.
Then, all of this would cease to be the present and be reduced to hazy images in the head.
Would I be the one to break this cycle?
At the precise moment when a piece of lint and dust settled on my keyboard, I felt a spark of inspiration and here I am now; furiously typing away; grabbing words from thin air. Writing has always been cathartic - I write to remember, I write to stay sane.
Walking through familiar hallways earlier, hidden memories surfaced and I cried a little inside. Skeletons in my closets returned to haunt me before receding into the darkness. Somehow, I feel more emotional tonight.
Very soon, I would be leaving this empty shell of a home. When we first moved here, I hated the far-flung location but I have grew to love its tranquility. I will definitely document the space before we move out. I've never been much of a sentimental person (so I choose to believe) yet I can't help but express my sorrows - of being forcibly ejected from a place I called home for seven years.
Time passes faster than we think it does.
Then, all of this would cease to be the present and be reduced to hazy images in the head.
Tuesday, June 3
Fan Mail
Spent the entire evening answering fan mails and also submitting my other blog for the Singapore Blog Awards. Don't think I will win anything but no harm trying. Vote for me when the voting rounds begin. =)
Office news flash: The new shredder is here and it's much cooler than the previous one. Yeah!
Office news flash: The new shredder is here and it's much cooler than the previous one. Yeah!
Monday, June 2
Clarity
Somehow I think being where I am now has given me some clarity and traction in life. It made me realize how working at something without love/passion can absolutely blind a person. A career becomes a job, an endless cycle of chores to be cleared before 6 p.m.
Some updates from the office. The office shredder died last week, robbing me of some fun in the office. I'm well acquainted with the photocopier now and also the receptionist for the couriers, who knows me by name now. Colleagues are a genial bunch and my direct supervisor treats me really nice. However, a colleague's on a month's mc and I'd have to cover all her duties till she returns. More menial and boring stuff ahead!
Oh, and I'm scheming my way to get more tech related work from the big big boss. He gave me a relatively simple project last week and hopefully upon its completion, he might use me to do something else. And I also exercised my excel mastery to help one of my colleague solve a problem using array functions. =)
Nevertheless, I am just wishing to end this quickly. I'm glad for this experience though. I've been spoilt because my first real desk job involved lots of creativity and clout, despite being just a temp. And my photography jobs had me running my own outfit, with complete independence (save for clients' moods). Having some corporate lowest-life-form experience has definitely brought my head down to Earth.
Some updates from the office. The office shredder died last week, robbing me of some fun in the office. I'm well acquainted with the photocopier now and also the receptionist for the couriers, who knows me by name now. Colleagues are a genial bunch and my direct supervisor treats me really nice. However, a colleague's on a month's mc and I'd have to cover all her duties till she returns. More menial and boring stuff ahead!
Oh, and I'm scheming my way to get more tech related work from the big big boss. He gave me a relatively simple project last week and hopefully upon its completion, he might use me to do something else. And I also exercised my excel mastery to help one of my colleague solve a problem using array functions. =)
Nevertheless, I am just wishing to end this quickly. I'm glad for this experience though. I've been spoilt because my first real desk job involved lots of creativity and clout, despite being just a temp. And my photography jobs had me running my own outfit, with complete independence (save for clients' moods). Having some corporate lowest-life-form experience has definitely brought my head down to Earth.
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