Been helping out with this Saturday's National Day Parade Preview. We are forced to KFC for lunch and dinner, which has obviously done bad things to my diet. (Super Size Me!) Swear am not gonna go into a fast food restaurant till I get detoxified. And while the rest of my mates are in camp preparing for Arny Open House, I'm out...haha. Sometimes, I just feel lucky. =)

(back to nursing my sun burns..)

School starts for a lot of people tomorrow while it's just another dreary monday for people like me. Enjoy school and all the joys, jubilations and heartbreaks it brings. How I miss school (just not lab sessions anymore..please...)

Back to the hell hole I call camp. It's not that bad, it's just very bad!

Time for a site revamp. Have several ideas floating. Check back soon.

My life feels like a movie sometimes.

Have to head back to work soon. So dreading it. Wont be getting much sleep this week...gonna be up as guard comdr for 2 days and nights. Sigh.
 
I wonder if depression/melancholy/sadness makes a person more open to his inner world? Or is it the stuff that he writes touches someone else more. It always seem that after a bout of shutting out the world, lying on my bed staring blankly at the ceiling, I would come back with a string of words that I sometimes doubt is mine.
 
I woke up early to take photos today. Someday, I must have the courage to ask people whether I can take their picture. If not, I'll be forever taking boring pics. Maybe it's not feasible to work as a photographer next year but still...it would be cool, if it's only a dream. I don't want to be thrown the wet blanket everytime I mention something idealistic. I'm too jaded in other things as it is.
 
p.s I've borrowed a guitar and I'm on the way to Santana-heaven. lol. can't even string a few decent sound chords!

I am outraged today because I had my picture taken without permission by two gays on the train. GAYS! And they weren't trying very hard to be inconspicuous! Argh. The feeling to see the handphone camera pointed at you; albeit trying to belie that fact that it was in fact capturing your image; and the satisfied faces on the perpetrators' faces thereafter!!! I've joined the ranks of hapless victims of sex crimes. (yeah, I know I'm over-reacting...but..)
 
And it doesn't help to be told that a lot of gays/effeminate males have been checking  me out the whole day. 
 
*shrugs*
 
I guess I'm just homophobic.

Am I the only one in the family that remembers everybody's birthday. Reminded my dad whilst in his car that today's my bro's birthday. And it seems that my mom has got other plans lined up in the morning. Sigh. It's more like a house of strangers than anything else. Everybody's hardly home at all. Good if I desire peace and quiet but...there's like no closeness at all. Drifting apart, that's what it is.

Today I slept like I have not slept for ages. Well, at least for the past two weeks that is. Can't believe how much work we have to do - meaningless stuff in the end to make the boss look good if someone on top happens to drop by and do a check.
 
Keane is such a cool band.
 
Seriously, my mind is so dull these days...boring, I say. And I can't seem to dig into Name of the Rose at the moment. Have been shamelessly reading all the gossip columns in Eight Days and Life. lol. Oh well..this fad will pass by in time.

Finally, we've stand-down from 2NTM duties for now. Didn't go for nights off because I was left in a lurch and I decided to save my money instead. Anyway, I've got chee wei (who's the cos) to accompany me. lol.

We watched Franz Ferdinand's Take Me Out last night on the computer. We're are so inept at stealth movement, we probably be caught if we were real life burglars. lol.

And I am so not a guitar player. Sigh. I'm music illiterate!!!

I showed boss the project that I embarked on last week - a database of all the equipment and items in our holding. I can generate a report rather easily but Access 97 is such a horrible program. Haha. However, him being the prehistoric dinosaur, found the generated report pleasing to the eye. =) [just got hit by another homing missile..gotta scurry off to finish the work for him later]

This stand-by has been quite relaxed. OC's busy with his posting out and last minute orders from the bigger boss (who's also posting out). So not as many turn-outs as the other time. However, I got charged (because of the anal bitch up, up there) but OC decided to mitigate my sentence and gave me SOL (stoppages of leave) for this week. Ain't that bad, considering I can't book out anyway. Plus, I get to collect night snack when I report at night. Absurd but you know bureaucracy, full of bullshit and ass-covering. At least I have the support of my immediate superiors. Haha.

Euro finals tonight. Placed a small wager and crossing my fingers that I'll win. Feeling a little under the weather these few days...and I got nightmares about work. Sigh. Will be confined for next weekend cos we'll be defending the nation while everyone sleeps. Expect: anticipation before turn-outs, frenetic preparations tomorrow and time to read.

My brain feels fatigued at the moment. Wonder why.

Today, I cleared some old stuff from my drawers..I've got account statements from all the way back in Feb. And I couldn't resist reading through old letters, stuff people wrote to me and some I wrote to myself and never gave to the intended person(s). I am a sentimental fool. I have no heart to throw those away. One day in the future, I will...when a new chapter begins, the old one closes. I'll have to decide then, what to keep and what not to keep. Tough.