Its been more than a week since my grandpa died... but wad i am feeling now is still crappy as ever... more afraid than spirits den usual i have no idea why... can't concentrate well... now i am practically blasting music into my ear at work... now is break so i can acutally type the blog a while.

Its so hard to keep this mask on now.... really really miss my grandpa u know... and i dunno wad else to say... just crappy now... but i will be happy for the sake of my friends and God that is above watching over me. Knowing that he will be good to me as he will not give a challenge that is far greater than wad i can take. Well... dun think anyone is gonna read my blog as it seems to be fill with spider web now... haha

Ok ba... thats all... dunno wad to say too... haha....

Its called It's about the cross by Go Fish... kinda meaningful after i listen to it. I'll try to attach the lyrics below =)

Anyway, after listening to this song, i reflect over at my life. What am i living for? before this christmas, i heard this song introduce by JChong again lol.. well.. its about the cross, not about the presents under the tree, not about the star or the bring light, not even the angels. Further more in the 3rd chorus, the composer said it every drop of blood from Him and should have been me. Well... this song made me kinda happy that i have this faith and in this faith i have this God that would sacrifice for me. Onward to serving him even more. Here is the lyrics =)

Verse 1:
It's not just about the manger where the Baby lay
Its not all about the angel who sang for Him that day
It's not just about the shepherds or the bright and shining star
It's not all about the wise men who traveled from afar

Chorus 1:
It's about the cross
It's about my sin
It's about how Jesus came to be born once so that we could be born again
It's about the stone that was rolled away
So that you and I could have real life some day
It's about the cross
It's about the cross

Verse 2:
It's not just about the presents undereneath the tree
It's not all about the feeling that this season brings to me
It's not just about the coming home to be with those you love
It's not all about the beauty in the snow I'm dreaming of

Chorus 1:
It's about the cross
It's about my sin
It's about how Jesus came to be born once so that we could be born again
It's about the stone that was rolled away
So that you and I could have real life some day
It's about the cross
It's about the cross

Bridge:
The beginning of the story is wonderful and great
But it's the ending that can save you and that's why we celebrate

Chorus 2:
It's about the cross
It's about my sin
It's about how Jesus came to be born once so that we could be born again
It's about God's Love nailed to a tree
It's about how every drop of blood that flow from Him when it should have been me
It's about the stone that was rolled away
So that you and I could have real life some day
So that you and I could have real life some day
It's about the cross
It's about the cross

Well.. its the new year and even though i do not really have goals in this year, hope it is going to be great. =)

Well, despite being in so much activity, i decided to join the AVA ministry and till now, had been enjoying it. Still, there are much more things i have to learn and all the things i had learnt, kinda doesn't really fit into picture while in the ministry. Well, the fire inside me of wanting to help and serve the Lord the best i can, maybe this is it. I mean like singing is great but i often missed the notes and kinda wavering around. Well.. just hope i dun press the wrong channels and cause an explosion or feedback. As that time i went to JChong's church, 2nd rule is to have fun but 1st and most important rule is to serve him. =)

Whats more, hmm, my school is gonna end soon =) but ns coming soon =( gonna miss all my friends soon.. wonder wad it will be in inside. As usual, friends will tell you encounters this and that, non-christian friends will tell you ghost encounters. Not that i dun believe in them but i believe that if i dun do anything to them, they won't come and find me. I mean only if u find your wallet den u found it right? Anyway.. thats gonna be like in august.. hopefully so that i can at least celebrate JChong bday. best if it is after nov then i can celebrate all my closest friend's bday... =) The medical checkup is gonna be on next monday. Thanks to JChong again, now i am afraid of the needle -.- basically his friend fainted while the nurse poke the wrong artery. TQ!! DUN ANY HOW POKE HOR =x

Well... kinda excited about the wedding later =) gonna help out in the AV later too. so bb =)