I am going to try and post about Mav's heart so I can share a little of what our family has ahead of us.
When Maverick was 2 days old Darlene (our doc) heard a murmur. We were still in the hospital and she said she would listen to his heart again at his 1 week appointment. Sometimes babies are born with holes and they close on their own within the first few weeks. So at our next appointment she could still hear the murmur and so she wrote us an order to have an echo cardiogram. She said to give it one more week and then bring him in. So I went back and she said it was time to use the order for the echo. Maverick was maybe two weeks old. I took him to Valley View and had his echo done. They sent it to Primary Children's to be read and then I was contacted with the results. They told me Maverick had an ASD (atrial septal defect) and that I needed to be seen by a pediatric cardiologist. So I took him back in to Darlene and she said that Primary's had contacted her and it was actually an ASD and a VSD (ventricular septal defect). Mataya had a VSD and a PDA so I was a little familiar with the VSD but for some reason most of what I had learned from Mataya's heart surgery had been forgotten. It was 3 years ago and I guess I stopped thinking about it so I didn't drive myself crazy. I told Darlene that Mataya's cardiologist (Dr. Etheridge) couldn't get us in for a few months because Mav was a new patient. Darlene said to see someone else because he was so young and she didn't feel comfortable with us waiting. So we made an appointment with Dr. Molina at Primary Children's for the end of August. Mav was almost 2 months. Kody and I both felt like Mav's holes were going to be those common stories you hear about. Where they are not a big deal. Just small holes that cause no problems to the person. We weren't worried at all.
At our appointment with Dr. Molina we didn't have an echo just an EKG and a chest x-ray. Our echo from before was enough at that time.
These are pics of Mav at Primary Children's on our first visit in August. When Dr. Molina came in she showed us Maverick's heart on the computer screen. She showed us how his heart was enlarged and that he had blood around his lungs. She said his ASD was huge and that it was allowing so much blood to swish around, his lungs couldn't fully expand. It's kind of like being congested. Your heart is a muscle and when it works too hard it will get bigger. Mav's heart was enlarged a little but the main concern was all the blood swishing around. His heart is working so much it makes him tired and sweaty when he eats. Dr. Molina explained that the hole is so big, it likely won't close on its own. He will need surgery at some point to close it. Because of the position of the hole and the size he will have to have open heart. Mataya's holes were closed with a device. Mav's is way too big for the device and will need tissue to patch it up. The VSD still had a chance of closing but with the ASD the two holes together were causing problems.
Kody and I left the hospital that day without saying a word to each other. We were both shocked. We had already been through so much with Mataya. Why was this happening again? We got in the car and started driving home in silence. It was a rough day. Some days you feel sorry for yourself and get the "poor me's." That was that day.
We were able to make our next appointment with Mataya's doctor. Dr. Etheridge works at Primary's but sees patients at Dixie Regional Medical Center once a month. Mataya was due for an appointment so we got both her and Maverick appointments together. It was October and Mav hadn't had an echo since July so both Mav and Mataya had to have echos. It was tough trying to keep them still for the duration of the echo. Mataya watched Bolt on the TV during hers, but Mav was a little harder. Mataya's echo went great. She doesn't have to be seen again for a few years. Maverick's ASD was still huge. Surgery was looking likely but they wanted to give Mav time to get bigger and stronger. She (the doc) said maybe when he is a year he'll probably have to have surgery. Dr. Etheridge said she wanted to see him back in November.
Mataya and Maverick getting echos
We waited for Primary Children's to call us and schedule Maverick to be seen in November when Dr. Etheridge would be in Dixie. That is how it works. They call you instead of the other way around. But they never did. So I called them and we missed her. She had already made the trip to St. George. I was frustrated because now we would have to travel back up to Salt Lake. But we made a family trip out of it and saw the temple lights, and had dinner with family.
At that appointment Dr. Etheridge said he will probably have to have surgery soon. His heart is working so hard that his little body can't gain weight. He is in the first percentile for his weight. So we (us and the doc) made a game plan. I would pump my breast milk and fortify with formula. Which is what I had to do for a year with Mataya. I would make my breast milk 22 calories for the next two weeks. Then up it to 24 calories for two weeks after that. After that four weeks we would need to bring Mav back to Primary Children's for a sedated echo.We would check his weight and see if he had gained with the fortified milk. The echo would be pre-op to prepare for surgery. The doctor then went over the risks of the surgery. It was really hard to hear all of the stuff that could go wrong. She explained that he will be in Intensive care for 5-10 days. Then when he is released he will need about a month to recover. She said I can't go to work because I can't bring home germs to little Mav when he is trying to recover. She said McKoy will have to change his clothes when he comes home from school and be very careful around the baby. Kody and I both felt exhausted when we left the hospital. But we made the best out of the weekend. My in-laws brought up my other kids and we swam at the hotel, went to Chuck E. Cheese's, ate dinner with family, and saw the temple lights.
Then came December and Christmas. We had a great holiday but right after had to head back to the hospital. On Dec. 28th we went back to Primary's for the sedated echo. My dad drove us up and got us a hotel. Each trip is so expensive! It was so nice to have my dad and step mom there with us. It's hard not to go crazy, and when you have someone there to support you and take your mind off things, it really helps. We had to be at the hospital at 8:30am. Maverick couldn't eat before his procedure and was pretty hungry. We had x-rays done at about 9:30. They got his IV in at about 10:00am. He hadn't eaten since 10:00 the night before but he was being really good. They did the echo and then sent us upstairs to recovery. Dr. Etheridge met us in recovery. She let us know that it was time to set the surgery date. She went over the procedure and I felt sick. I don't want anyone cutting my baby's chest open and stopping his heart. I kind of just sat there with tears rolling down my face. I couldn't concentrate. I mostly felt like staring off into space. My stupid anxiety was taking over. Luckily my dad and Shelley were there to keep me from being a psycho. People came and took some blood for lab work. Mav was still out of it, and barley fussed when they poked him. He started waking up and wanted to eat. So after a while of him being awake and tolerating fluids they let us go. We drove to PF Changs to eat. It was nice to pretend that my heart wasn't breaking for my son. I know they do this surgery on little ones all the time. I know they are good at what they do. I know to them its simple. But to me it's my whole world. What is more precious than your child?
Mav is starting to act silly under sedation.
Totally out of it and fast asleep
Being wheeled up stairs to recovery
Still sedated
Cutest little hands EVER
Waking up
Mav is a thumb sucker. Here he is trying to suck his thumb, but they put the IV by his best one.:(
K here's the deal guys. I do have faith that Maverick will be OK. I know Heavenly Father will be there to hold our hands when we need him. He blessed us with these beautiful babies and we will do everything to keep them safe. I am so thankful that I get to hold and love on my little man. There are so many out there dealing with SO much worse. I know these things. I say them out loud to remind myself not to get the "poor me's." But sometimes I have bad days and forget. If I am having a bad day and I forget all my blessings please slap me back to reality. Remind me that I can't feel sorry for myself when I have been blessed beyond measure. That others deal with loss and sorrow beyond anything I can understand and to be thankful for what I have. I will try and remember these things...
***OK a little update***
So we had the surgery set for January until Maverick got RSV. It was terrible. He was hospitalized after a long week of many hours spent on the porch, coughing, breathing treatments, and steroids. We had to postpone his surgery 6 weeks. The surgery is now set for Feb. 27th. We have to be there the day before for pre-op stuff. Hopefully he won't get sick before then. I just want to get if over with so we can start the recovery process. To avoid sickness we pretty much keep Mav in the house ALL THE TIME. It's so hard when you want to go somewhere but can't. We also don't let a lot of people come in our house. The kids want to have friends over but we have to be careful. We really want to move on from all this.
Below are pics from the RSV experience.
(I will try to update while we are in SLC for his surgery so anyone that wants to, can follow his progress.)