Post exam

Post exam feelings

hmmm, i do feel really relieved that it's over ....for now
there were much more challenges that I have to face this year
like dropping grades, work, travelling (swine flu scare), planning for my clinical placement next year
but having gone through that, it makes me feel that I can go through all that again
I've become stronger, resilent, less impulsive and in more control
and I do hope that I will continue to improve these traits

I went for an interview yesterday and I was daunted by it
work can start at 6am and can end at 6pm
in order to survive, i definitely need more strengths than what i've now possessed

my mind is so messed up now
and it's urging me to tell you about how my frens in perth can be rather 'impossible'
yesterday, one fren bought a 47' Plasma TV. Truthfully, the screen is even bigger than all of my 3 TVs combined at home. Why does a college student need such a big TV? It's sitting in this desk and taking full possession of the studying territory.
Another fren, he said that he's quitting and I seriously hope so, likes taking big risk on the gambling table. When I mean big, think of a 5 digit number in dollars. The first time I saw him play, my heart raced, and my stomach had butterflies. It was so bad, I wouldn't stomach the fact that he was putting that much money and using it as a tool for his entertainment. My thought traced back to when I first bought my laptop. Peaz can related to this =). I had such a hard time thinking of what to get cos everything within my sight was going to cost more than anything I've ever paid.

On other note,
I feel really sore that I can't write a proper post that actually flows
I was reading other blogs and I envy their ability to write post that is so enjoyable to read, so real and smooth
I should get back to reading books, which i haven't been doing for the past 3 years
apparently, reading can enhance one's writing =)

and Yay!
Bye 3rd year( if i dun fail) and Hello 4th year =D
*off to work*

mediocracy-- my absolute hate

No one likes mediocracy
I don't like mediocracy
but why do I keep finding myself encircling around it
I hate the feeling
I want to do my best
I want confidence to know that I can still achieve the best
and come out of it
ASAP

exams+car+house=CRAZY

dear blog,

this past few weeks has been CRAZY!!!
first was the dates of the exams
then my clinical placement list
now it's exam studying
and car hunting
and rental house hunting
there's so much to handle =(
but I'm glad that I have supportive family and friends to help me along the way

jiayou for exams

One of Singapore's great leader

Cheers to Mr Lee Kuan Yew on receiving a lifetime achievement award in Washington DC.
He is a great leader and a great man.
Modern Singapore would not come this far without him.
I salute him.


I had the last class of this year today
there was no hoorays or cheers cos exam preparation is enough to kill
my tradition to end this day is to lock myself in my room and endulge in dramas/shows until wee night and then finally complete it with a 10 hour sleep. Perfect.
Unfortunately this tradition have to cut short cos of work tmr and endless revision to do
....one more show won't hurt?
or will it?

=)

DEL

Getting emo?
probably yes, cos I'm not doing as great as I thought I would in uni
the only highlight would be that semester is ending really really soon
that would be kinda sad too
such a dilemma

Slowly deleting you out of my life... DEL

I'm ready to move on =D

Crappy day and assignment rush

Assignment rush!!
1. Paediatrics 15/20 pages done- due in 2 days time
2. Groupwork faciliation tmr =/
3. Community Based Rehabilitation 5/7 pages done- due in 4 days time

Exactly 1 month until the end of this semester!
How time passes so fast, it scares me some times
but I'm glad that it's ending soon so that I can have my break =)

Crap of the day:
I hate myself when I talk before I think
and then does something that annoys people
sigh, when will I grow up?

proud of my religion!

I've reached another landmark!!
MY 300TH POST!!!
it's been since 7years back when I first started blogging
i cannot imagine what will happen if one day, an earthquake come and destroy all telecommunication stuff and internet
that will be byebye to my memories
maybe I should write a paper diary instead
tell me what you think (if you care to) =P

anyways,
once again, a fren of mine questioned me about my religion
this time was about "do you feel at peace going to temples?"- something along that line
and my answer will probably not change for another million years
"YES"
I am comfortable with my religion, despite the somewhat weird looking statues
and the many gods whose names escape my memories
(i'll ask my parents and they will say just pray for good luck)
yea, still for the past 22 years that's how my life has been
my religion has been good to me,
praying to them makes me feel secure, reassured and contented
all my major decisions have been somewhat based on my religion
through on my life journey,
i picked up other religions and gods and combine them all into my so-called religion

okie this is getting no way

but the point is,
I feel that people should not question my religion in this way
Christianity is the not only path of life
it is not the only belief I have to hold on to
and I don't like the way people who only has sole knowledge of their own religion thinks all other religion is not as good as theirs
have you even study other religion in depth before you make the comment??
I suppose not
they are probably too caught up in their "own world" and do not see that there is perhaps
another belief that other people hold on to , that is good and real as well
we have the control and choices to believe what we want
as long as it is a safe religion
and not some unorthodox Ku Klux Klan

ultimately, it really boils down to the individual
it's not really the religion you belong to that makes a differences
(do you make fren with only christians frens cos frens of other religion suck?)
but the values and beliefs that you hold on to that make you the person you are
and that comes from your upbringing, experiences, perceptions
that's in my honest opinion

I realised this is not the first time I'm pissed off with people talking about religion stuff
I've learnt throughout this semester to express my thoughts to people
to make my opinion known or else it won't be called an opinion
that's called effective communication
and not just ranting it here where they can't read
it's time to be honest with them
when the time comes, I will have to be prepared to give them my stand

this rant is all over my brain
and i am not sure if it's logical
i read from somewhere that all gods are the same, that being a christian is a lifestyle
i admire that,
and to end it
I am seriously comfortable with my religion and my skin
and I should not be ashame to tell it to the world =)
*by the way, I'm half buddhist and half freethinker and partial christian believer which makes me ROJAK*

I'm ready to move

you know what,
I think I've reached my limit
staying in a house of 12 is not something I can handle anymore
sure it was fun
seeing people's flabbergasted expression when I tell them the number of people living with me
people being amazed at how 11 rooms can fit into 1 house
having 10 other faces to see and talk to when I hate seeing the face of another
thanks for the fun, but enough is enough

the horror unknown to others are that
kitchen is probably the most filty place in the house
water puddles all around, soiled food on the gas stove
food stains all over the countertops
sometimes, it reeks
the floors are always covered in layers of hair, dust, dirt, etc
12 people walking in and out of the house, not including the extras such as boyfrens and girlfrens and visiting frens (an average of 15 people in the house in the day)
that's why we wear house slippers at home.
Not to make the house cleaner, but more to protect our feet from touching the dirty floor

I'm tired of cleaning up after people as well
they could jolly well put their unwashed dishes around the sink area for up to a week
and sometimes there is a biology class worthy material such as fungus in the ricecooker
it comes in mainly green colour, but I've seen pink ones before
oh and the usual black bread mold

to be fair,
I like staying in this house
it's safe, furnished, has internet, housemates are nice
i suppose familiarity breeds contempt

I am so ready to move!
but that will only take place next year
2 more months to go
Gambetti!!

beautiful day

ZOMG, the day is BEAUTIFUL = 美丽一天 =
the sun is shining, and the sky is never so clear (for some time now)
and patches of clouds like candyfloss in the blue sea up high
the air smells fresh and sounds of someone drilling in their backyard
please tell me it's SPRING already!!
hooray!!

it helps alot that I've just finished reading an archive of wongfu's blog
they crack me up everytime =)
check them out and share my joy!!

but unfortunately I can't enjoy this awesome day
cos I've to work in 30mins time,
and due to the result of prolonged procrastination,
I still have uncompleted assignments (the thought of doing it hovers in my mind)
darn, I need fulfilment

on the other note,
I've learnt how to play 4 chords on the guitar and I'm really excited to get my own when I'm back in Singapore
yeah!! I'm so getting musically inclined =)

my favourite moments

Imagine this,
in a cold night
lying on your bed pitch black in your room, wrapped around in your warm blanket
while your favourite songs are playing in the background
ignoring everything and just enjoying the moment
things just get better after this =)

don't let opportunities pass you by

-Le LOVE-

I met a boy and fell for him fast. We moved fast. Everything was such a rush, everything was perfect, we were so obsessed with each other. He would tell me I was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen. He would say “you're amazing” every hour. Except when he said it, it wasn’t just a line, it was the truth. The truth in his eyes. But I had to leave, and I knew I couldn’t do long distance. I have too ,any whims, I’m not good at being alone, I would have strayed. So I just cut off all contact, said cruel and hurtful things, pushed him away on purpose, alienated him so that he would leave me alone. Because it hurt too much to be friends, I thought it would be better to have no contact.

I was wrong. It was the stupidest decision of my life, because I find that not knowing someone well, can make you never get over them. The truth is, I don’t know him that well. What we had was short, it was over before I had a chance to see whether we were really good together, whether he was right for me. So all this time, even while I’ve had relationships with so many other guys, I always compare the new boys to one boy who I barely even knew, and they all fall short. Because his memory is so perfect, it’s so indestructible because it’s unfinished. I didn’t have time to discover his flaws, the little quirks that annoy, the arguments that break a couple a part. I didn’t give him a chance to show me that side of himself. All I have are the memories of that new, excited feeling. Of butterflies every time his fingers brushed my arm, of electric sparks every time we kissed, because it was so new, and unexpected and amazing. I have idealized this boy to the point where he is perfect in my eyes, and because of that, I can’t be satisfied with anyone else. But I can’t go back to him either, I cut off all ties, made it clear I never wanted to talk to him. He doesn’t know I think about him every day. He probably thinks he was completely insignificant, because I lied, and told him that he was. I swore I couldn’t care less. He has no idea. And I have no idea what it would be like to really be with him, have a real relationship with him, and I have to live with the fact that it is completely my fault. For being so proud, and so presumptuous to think I would get over him in two minutes. I never thought I’d hold on this long, to a ghost of a person. To an illusion of a person, that isn’t very likely a true reflection of him anyway.

And my advice to anyone reading this is, don’t let opportunities pass you by. Don’t dismiss people without thinking about how you may feel later. Don’t end something great, just because you think it would be too inconvenient to your life to let it continue. The truth is, everyone needs closure. Even if you do try something, and it’s difficult, and it ends, at least you know you tried. At least you know it was really the right decision to end it. You tried, and you failed. That’s okay, that’s something you’ll get over. But wondering, always wondering how it would have went if you had just let it happen, that’s torture. It’s the “what ifs” that keep me up at night. And the fact that he was strong enough to want me, to want to put up a fight for me, and I wasn’t strong enough to fight for him. And for the way I feel now, I have only myself to blame.

- Anonymous

like the water you drink

I wonder if any one feels the same way as I do
that sharing a part of yourself can be scary
letting people into your inner thoughts and feelings
it's like they having a piece of you in them
the thought of it makes me feel so vulnerable

letting other people in your life is like drinking water
like the water you drink,
flowing through your throat, into your stomach
it doesn't just stay there,
it continues on into your bloodstream and then all over you
it goes through the whole body, knowing every single part of your life
bad and good

what's so bad about it?
I really don't know
other than the fact that I feel vulnerable and scared

Comfort food

I was sad
the weather was cold and dreary
I've been cooped up in my room the whole day doing assignments

Fortunately when it was dinner time
I became really HAPPY
as happy as a lark !!!!!!!! =D

cos I'm having beehoon soup for dinner =) *lovelove*
it reminds me of home too
on friday nights, it 's our family tradition to have beehoon soup with yong tau foo
i love it cos it's simple to eat
clear soup with the sweetness of the yong fau foo and MSG
non-oily, non-fatty, non-fussy
and it's all so yummy

unfortunately I don't have yong tau foo
so I substituted it with whatever i have in the fridge
and the result is still yummilicious
it's the perfect dish to warm me up on this cold night =)

Mmmmmm'mmmmm

Here's how I cook it, so easy peazy

Ingredients:
ginger, prawn, fishcake, baby bokchoy (chinese cabbage), seaweed and beehoon (of cos)
(you can add more ingredients if you wish, I really like mine easy and simple)

Seasoning:
salt, chicken stock granules, pepper

Method:
1. Blanch beehoon with hot water and soak it until it's soft; drain and leave aside
2. prepare the ingredients: wash, cut, chop in whatever way you wish =P
3. Boil water and put in the prawn head and ginger; put in chicken stock for taste
4. put in all the ingredients except for the beehoon and let it cook
5. when it's almost done, put in the beehoon; add salt and pepper for taste
6. feed your hungry stomach =)

i dislike my voice

I'm feeling so screwed-up because my counselling video is so crappy !! =(
I dislike counselling even though I know how useful it will be for me in the future
i wish my voice was louder, I was like mumbling to myself throughout the video
I'm afraid that I won't get good grades because my tutor may not be able to hear me
and I'm afraid I'll let my partner down too (cos I was so soft in the video, and the tutor may not be able to hear my response) =(
I really want us to do well

i dislike my voice!!!!!
I wish I would be more confident
and louder and more powerful

a reason to smile

dear blog,
it's been another gloomy week
uni stress has been a big issue with all my coursemates
me as well
procrastination remains my 'best friend', always sticking by me no matter what
I want to change... I do really
but it just helps me to cope with my stress
so that I can get a breather in this moment of time

and the weirdest thing is that
I confess to my friends that stress probably makes life exciting
it spices up my mundane life
I don't like stress but a little is really what I need, what everyone needs
it gives meaning to what I do, I have a sense of purpose in life
in the end, I have a reason to smile when I accomplish my work

which means, I can smile tomorrow after handing in the assignment
and work hard tonight, really

tennis gives me another reason to smile
I have to focus on the ball, and not miss it again

KFC and random picts

I had KFC from the Karawara branch for dinner tonight
it was HORRIBLE!
the chicken was covered with a thick layer of flour( which i think is more than the meat)
and there's heaps of fat all over
the hot and spicy flavour is so weak
I miss KFC at home!!!

This is so amazing!!
A lost world in this century!
http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2009/sep/07/discovery-species-papua-new-guinea

Here's a picture of my workplace, hopefully it's not against copyright =)
Here's another collage for spring!!

I went for powered paragliding

and yes, it was the best thing to do before the end of my study break!!
it started early morning at 830am down a 45mins drive to Burns Beach
the weather was cloudy and cold, and silly me did not wear enough clothings to keep warm
there we were introduced to Richard, my housemate's fren, who was going to carry us up into the air with his trusty paramotor and parachute

check this out

before flying, we had to do some checks:
-wind check
-weight check
-petrol check

it wasn't easy for Richard to bring us up, seeing that he was carrying a 30kg paramotor, and another additional weight infront of him (me and my frens- guilty)
for me, it took abt 3trials before I could fly because I was too light and had no ability to pull forward to run when the paramotor was started. =(

despite that, the view from the top was AWESOME!!!
it's like watching a National Geographic documentary from my own eyes, not from the TV
the 0h-so-blue waters,
my friends became ant-size,
the houses and roads are all so small
I could see the far horizon and much further away (darn, i should have worn my contacts)
one word to describe it- FANTASTIC!!!!

but later, the flight became abit too much for me to handle
nauseated, I could feel my salivary glands overproducing sour juice that could induce vomit fairly soon
I signaled that to Richard and that was the end of my flight

I believe that I was about 500 feet about sea level, another awesomeness!!
my first daredevil stunt ever!

"I believe I can fly"

pardon the poor quality of the video, it was taken with my hp =)
more picts later

Rants

hello blog,

I am tired. But in a good way.
I've finished a 3000 words essay,
complete my neuroscience group work,
worked for 5 hours &
managed to catch up with friends over dinner and supper at Greens and CO.
all in a day
tiring, but satisfying =)

I been wanting to blog about my work,
I actually feel really proud with the fact that I can cope with full time uni and approximately 15 hours of work a week
the reason for working is not that I'm hard on cash
My parents manage my education overseas expenses within their means
however the fact that I can meet and interact with other people, and exposing me to other cultures is so much more interesting than staying in my room during my free time
And being appreciated at work feels so good.
Yes, there's sacrifices I have to make
I no longer have much free time at all
it's really just uni-work-home
I have to really priortise my time so that I can cope with studying
And I reflect on it.
I think i'm cool, having the ability to cope with all these and maintaining a rather average grade =P
.........
actually, alot of my course mates are doing the same, coping with work and uni
it's the culture in Australia
self-reliance and independence is a BIG thing for the teens here
they dislike to use their parents money once they reach 17-18.
when they borrow money from their parents, it's like another debt that they have to pay off
they are so lucky to have a government who gives out money to teenagers living out of family
imagine being in Singapore=)

Anyways, you have to catch this
it's so hilarious, I never knew that Singaporean kids are so reslient to stress until I watch the World's Strictest Parents.
The Aussies kids in the show are absolutely going nuts living just 1 week of our student life
Yeah to Kiasu Singapore!!

Oh sweet,
I'm on my uni study break now=)

My fren's feet

BeforeAfter

Happy Birthday Singapore!!

oh dear, I am supposed to be studying for a test tmr
but here I am =)
oh wells, hee
because it's a really special day today.....

it's National Day
Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!!

And how did I celebrate this day?
I had dinner with other Singaporeans in a cafe along Albany Hwy, Perth
at a place named Makan2, how apt =)
Most of us dressed in REDs and WHITEs. So Patriotic!
Singaporeans from UWA and Curtin
and to digress, UWA boys are so CUTE!! =)
it's a pity that the webcast of the NDP was not avaliable due to the organisers not preparing the internet
nevertheless, it was fun cos we said our pledges together and yumseng real loud =P
and!!!!
we had Singapore goodie bags airflown, DHL to us
and I have one too (I shall post the picture soon), without having to attend the real NDP
yipee!

PS: sigh, missed NDP for the 3rd year already

The princess and the pea

One of my favourite children stories

Hans Christian Andersen

There was once a prince, and he wanted a princess, but then she must be a real Princess. He travelled right around the world to find one, but there was always something wrong. There were plenty of princesses, but whether they were real princesses he had great difficulty in discovering; there was always something which was not quite right about them. So at last he had come home again, and he was very sad because he wanted a real princess so badly.

One evening there was a terrible storm; it thundered and lightninged and the rain poured down in torrents; indeed it was a fearful night.

In the middle of the storm somebody knocked at the town gate, and the old King himself sent to open it.

It was a princess who stood outside, but she was in a terrible state from the rain and the storm. The water streamed out of her hair and her clothes; it ran in at the top of her shoes and out at the heel, but she said that she was a real princess.

'Well we shall soon see if that is true,' thought the old Queen, but she said nothing. She went into the bedroom, took all the bed clothes off and laid a pea on the bedstead: then she took twenty mattresses and piled them on top of the pea, and then twenty feather beds on top of the mattresses. This was where the princess was to sleep that night. In the morning they asked her how she slept.

'Oh terribly bad!' said the princess. 'I have hardly closed my eyes the whole night! Heaven knows what was in the bed. I seemed to be lying upon some hard thing, and my whole body is black and blue this morning. It is terrible!'

They saw at once that she must be a real princess when she had felt the pea through twenty mattresses and twenty feather beds. Nobody but a real princess could have such a delicate skin.

So the prince took her to be his wife, for now he was sure that he had found a real princess, and the pea was put into the Museum, where it may still be seen if no one has stolen it.

Wikipedia

Researcher Jack Zipes notes that the tale is told tongue-in-cheek, with Andersen poking fun at the "curious and ridiculous" measures taken by the nobility to establish the value of bloodlines. He also notes that the author makes a case for sensitivity being the decisive factor in determining royal authenticity and that Andersen "never tired of glorifying the sensitive nature of an elite class of people"

hmmm, never thought of that.
on the other hand, it's wikipedia =)

bored?

Surprise Surprise!
I am actually bored!
and I've finished my intended reading for today =)
and there's nothing interesting on the internet so I thought that I may as well tell you about where I am living now (Not the landlord saga)

I live in Karawara, a suburb near Curtin University (which is in the suburb named Bentley)
yupe, suburbs are just small districts separated by names and looked after by different people
My place is really near to facilities such as supermarket, food outlets, bus stops and more.

People say that the suburb Bentley and Karawara have alot of Aboriginal people and we have to beware of them because they commit petty thefts and are mainly drunkens
In my 2.5 years in this suburb, I never had a problem with the Aboriginal people
and of the petty thefts that I heard, none was committed by the Aboriginal people

It's actually quite interesting to read about the Aborignal people and why they are thought of as nuisance and stuff. Check out the stolen generation.

PS: My fren just made me emo. darn it

writings---failed

My third attempt at writing
and it disturbs me to no end that I'm not able to concentrate my thoughts to complete a simple post
words are just randomly popping out, in no relation to my theme
and the train of thoughts are jerky and disrupted
tried writing abt the cold---failed
tried writing abt the acquaintances i know--- failed

it doesn't help that i am perpetuately tired each day
from work,
from the dramas in the house,
or my mind simply just trying to block off everything stressful
so that it can hiberate in the world of my own
for survivor and protection against mental distress

ps: I long to be home in Singapore now despite how i loath mosquitoes at night

idiotic landlord

my landlord just gave me a playful slap on my left cheek for not attending her lunch party
because I have work tomorrow. wtf
She is idiotic
and What an ass**** she is

*edited*

after a night of pondering,
I felt that, in no circumstance should I expect to receive that slap
playful and not, it was still an expression of slap, an indication of violence (extreme)
there was no obligation on my contract to attend any of her functions
and thus, this incident left me really vulnerable because I was in no position to retaliate
It left a large negative impact in my life right now,
imagine unpleasant encounters, with a psychotic landlord and a cheeky new housemate (another story) knocking on your door in 2 consecutive days
I'm paranoid and cautious in opening my door now to anyone
you never know, one can never be too careful

My next step would be to definitely move out after I've finished my rental contract,
get back all my due bonds
avoid all contacts with the b*tch
and try to ease my paranoia feeling =(

Semester 2!!

Oh yes people!!
I am finally embarking on my finally theory semester of my uni course
thinking back, 2.5 years is not that long (not that short as well)
I've persevered for so long and I am determined to do well this semester
(cos last sem was bad...really bad)

Winter Holiday was awesome because:

1. Awesome Melbourne trip =)
   
2. Tiring work but earned back my travel cost =)
   
3. tortuous ice skating =(
   
4. exhausting rock climbing =)
   
5. strange encounters during dinner at little creatures =\
   
6. winter is getting colder =(
   

alright! time to hit the books

The day I lodged my tax return 2008-2009

I filed my Tax!!
haha, it really reminded me of my tax work in IRAS when I was seventeen
fresh out of college, and eager to earn pocket money
After doing the Australia Tax, I really appreciate Singapore tax system.
Singapore tax system, in my opinion, is much more simple and easy to do
Australia tax system, on the other hand, is more complicated because of the additional items such as medicare levy surcharge, bank credits that one has to consider
and it doesn't help that i was unfamiliar with the items on the form
and thus I spent a ridiculous amount of time on filing tax for this low income earner

but all in all,
it was fun looking at the type of income that was taxed, the deductions, the tax offsets of another country's.
and the best thing was,
my estimated tax refund is FULL REFUND!!
I can now boast that I can file tax in 2 countries without a tax officer =)
yeah!!

happy night

I made lemon barley water tonight!
it's refreshing and tasty!!
and the best part of it is sharing it with your housemates
where everyone gets warmed up by the hot beverage in the cold night
=)

it's simple too

Lemon barley water

Ingredients:
150g of pearl barley
2 litres of water
sugar to taste
lemon to taste

Method:
1. Blanch the pearl barley with hot warm to wash away the impurities
2. Place the barley and water in the pot until boil
3. Scrap off impurities in the water
4. When boiled, turn off the fire and add sugar to taste (I put heaps of sugar =) )
5. Distribute the water into cups and add lemon to individual liking
6. Share it with everyone =)

Hail attack!

It was raining hail just only!!

I was in my room and the roof above me was creating such loud noise
"Pi-Ta-Pe-Ta!!"
at first thought, I thought the water tank was spoilt and water gushing out was making the noise
but the ceiling wasn't wet
and the noise just got louder
I peeped out the blinds and saw my opposite neighbour looking at the floor
at that instant, I burped out "HailStorm!" to myself and proceeded to announce this news to my housemates
when I reached the living room, all of them were already standing at the sliding door, looking out into the dark and onto the floor where small ice pieces were melting
another housemate was exclaiming, " MY CAR!!" ( i have a fren's whose car back window was smashed by hail in 2007)

hahaah, yeh
My descriptive english sucks big time, time and time again =(
but hey,
the main point is that, Hail always amaze me
how ice is formed in the sky and fall down onto earth
the wonders of mother nature

On another note,
I am so happy that I cleaned my room today!
Yeah for Organised!!

Serious Blackout

Blackout in the house!
dinner in darkness illuminated by lights from mobile phones

but strangely, the power in the socket can be used =P
so I bathed using the torch,
while a group of housemates playing dota in the living room

thank goodness that the heater can be used =)
and internet to surf

freakin' lazy

OMG
I am so freakin' lazy to almost anything
except for work during the day,
you will find me sitting infront of the laptop most of the time watching dramas and not doing anything
yes,
not even to bathe (muahahahha)
hey, the heater next to me is so warm and comfortable. how can i do myself injustice to even lift myself out of the chair to walk out into the cold corridor. EXCUSE ME??!!

heehhe,
not sure what's getting into me but I'll sure to enjoy my 2 remaining weeks of holiday before I start serious studying.
i need to. My grades last sem suck to the core. =(

melbourne pictures will have to wait
but here's a few of my favourite =)

#1 Graffiti @ Melbourne Central

#2 Skiing @ Mt Buller + serious ski gears =P

#3 Look at my ultra red hands; almost got frostbite in the snow. FML

I love Melbourne!

I'm BACK FROM MELBOURNE!! yeah!!

melbourne was awesome
I love Mt buller and skiing
I love Melbourne, the city that doesn't sleep
just like Singapore
I made new friends in Melb =)
and ate Krispy Kremes

right now,
I'm tired and feeling abit sick
but I'll bounce back to health very soon after I have my power sleep
=)

Pre-Melbourne Mood

I AM GOING TO MELBOURNE ON 29th JUNE!!
Woots!!!! YAhoo!!

hhehe
many thanks to my parents and sister for allowing me to continue this trip despite Melbourne being a hotspot for swine flu.
I won't make you guys worry. I will sanitize my hands every time possible and avoid crowded places and etc...

heheh I can't wait
It's currently about 1degrees in Mt Buller
that's like possibility the most freaking cold weather I will have to experience ever
BRrr..... but oh-what-fun!!

Okie,
first I have to pack my bag and my room
which has become like a battlefield after the exams
everything is lying around! that is so not me!!!
sigh, the luggage bag is empty and I dunno how to start packing
have....to.....start....no......watch harper's island first......NOooooooooooooooo

Will be back on 5 July
with boxes full of krispy kreme and NO SWINE FLU!!

=)

Michael Jackson

24 June 2009

this day marks the end of Michael's journey on earth
the person who brought many good music and good times to us
thank you

RIP Michael Jackson

holidays

yeah!
I changed my blog skin again
I was kinda bored by the previous one =)
the columns are wider and the real reason why I liked it is...
because it's green
I LOVE GREEN!!

this morning, one of my housemate moved out of the house
he finished his final sem and was returning back to Sg
I left him a goodbye card last night before I slept
when I woke up, there was a bag of nougat and a note on the dining table
when i read that tiny slip of paper, I teared
and i suddenly felt really emotional
departures are so touchy *sob*

and my 100 masks that i ordered on ebay for the melbourne trip arrived!!! =)
yea!! we are protected from all the nasty virus
die you horrible creatures! DIE!

heheh
and I am so happy that I've gotten my big bang theory and harper's island series!!
*big smile*
everyone should watch big bang theory, it's so hilarious
and if you get any of the joke, it makes you feel super duper smart (even when you are not)
heheh

coldddd...

it's eight degree celcius,
imagine,
being in a cold room without switching on the heater



that's my current situation =(
cos the electricity keeps on tripping due to shortage of power
FML.

Exams!

OMG! I interpreted one of the question wrongly and wrote a wrong theory when I know the correct answer. I just want to knock my head against the wall! What's wrong with me?

Pictures of what happens during studying:


#1 Me. I think i need a haircut. and i want to dye my hair too =)

#2 Things you should not do during exam time: playing with poladroid

#3 Assorted stationery and pretty colours!!

#4 Free Dinner from FGA church. Thank you for all the sumptous food!

#5 Chicken curry with rice...

#6 and YEO's grass jelly drink! Love! Other than the drinks, I don't really like Yeo's products. That's another story.

#7 My new table and study materials : Neuropsychiatry =(

#8 Reading materials you rather read than your notes. Yeah, that's the all-so-important Coles catalogue for your weekly purchase

#9 Unwashed laundry from eon years. What!! you do my laundry for me lah, and also it's been raining alot so no point washing cos it will not be dry....ya just lazy


#10 Fuji apples! they are so fragrant! these apples freshen up my room. Juicy and not too sweet =)
#11 Another thing you should not do: Playing with Picasa

watch this space!

Wth!
I was looking through my past posts,
And Damn!
I was a much happier girl back then
silly comments and POSITIVITY!!
looking at those post cheered me up =) *big smiles*
what happened to the same girl?!!
have I lost touch of my humour?!!

I promise much more entertaining post after the exams
watch this space!

Neuroscience the killer

This is possibly the second worst exam in my university life
NEUROSCIENCE I was a killer
I have no clue to what they are asking for almost half the paper and resort to writing crap about how health is impacted by the disease blah blah blah

I seriously want to cry la.
first time was during 1st year, I remember vividly the darn human biology II exams
I even made plans to fly back to perth during the summer holidays if I had to redo a supplementary exams.
Now, I can't afford to fail cos that means staying back for 1 year before I graduate
I dread this...
Please pray that I will pass this exam

Sigh, 2 papers more to go

Yeah, I realised that all my previous post sound really depressing and sad and boring and... wth
this is what you get from a 3rd year OT student+part time employee with no life
and my only consolation is to do well for the exams
enjoy myself in Melbourne
register a good timetable next year
and the world will be a better place... period

=\

Swine Flu, go away

a very brief update here!

I'm on my study break, doing my best to study =(
and I got distracted by the news about swine flu in Melbourne
my friends and I have planned out Winter vacation there and I read that the flu is spreading quite rapidly there

So SAD! =( we have been planning it for months
No way we are going to cancel the trip
so we have been discussing about getting flu vaccinations, getting prescription for Tamiflu in handy and buying masks and hand sanititzers
PRECAUTIONS PRECAUTIONS!!!!

I am very determined to go to MELB
hopefully the flu can be contained by the end of this month

Sigh...

No one can poison my mind

F**k you smirK!
No one, not even you, can poison my mind!
I am not going down so easily.

how do I gain back the trust that I've lost?

How do I gain back the trust that I've lost?
the most precious thing possessed between 2 people
which is so easily lost when the promise one made is not fufilled
the disappointment and disbelief
I hope I've not lost the trust of my treasured friend

=( screwed up day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sick in winter

Freak weather! Three days of storms and heavy rain
that's enough to make me sick =(
the weather changed so drastically, even the temperature is playing up as well
now as I type, it's 11 degrees celcius- 3 days back it was an average lovely 24degrees celcius.

So, what I have now is:
massive headache, body ache
leaky nose and peeling skin from all the abrasion from blowing my nose
feeling really sick and weak

boohoo,
I wonder if I can withstand the weather in Melbourne when I am so vulnerable to the weather in Perth =(

SH*TTY DAY!

so I'm in uni now- since 9am this morning.
I never stayed in uni for so long... okie the truth is I'm not so studious =(

anyway, uni has been my hideaway today
from my mental health consumer
from my work

I feel so screwed up, life is finally being VERY VERY MEAN to me
1. I accidentally deleted my groupmate's speech before she could save it
2. the other groupmate smirked at this awkward situation. b*tch
3. A handful of my aussie classmates are horrible. so i think

really, it's not just the usual mean people which you have to handle in your everyday life. being in someone's country, and being the very shy person that I am that's ALREADY hard to begin with
and with idiotic AUSSIES who think that you are an idiotic, quiet, uncontributing asia girl in their group- IT SUCKS BIG TIME!!

it's not just uni stress i have to handle everyday
I have to deal with People who are just hard to be with
1. We have different culture
2. We are not so bold to confront you
3. we are just too nice to accommodate you
4. We are not you

guess you won't understand what i'm saying
bottom line is,
studying overseas is not a bed of roses (if you have a character like me)
it's hard and only your INTERNATIONAL friends can relate to you
Aussies are not as friendly as they seemed (not like I'm friendly too)
but the country side AUSSIES are REALLY REALLY NICE people

in conclusion
I just had a shitty day

Pinky

#1 View of sky after work one day. Not possible to see this now cos by the time I knock off, the sky is dark already.

I wore bright pink to uni today, and I realised everyone around me was wearing shades of grey and black. I stood out =(

Yesh! I finally finished my neuropsychiatry assignment.
but it's not over yet. My client is not able to start his drawing class because (I and my partner suspect) the Clinical supervisor is against this idea! Boooo...
I never considered the organisation's regulation in clinical practice and this is my first time hitting a brickwall that is not easily settled. I feel so naive and ignorant.

"Why things cannot go in according to the way we want?!"

Updates of this week:

1. My housemates and I cooked Chicken Rice for the first time! OMG so heavenly! just didn't like the garlic breathe

2. I cooked my first pork rib herbal soup and it was so GOOD!

3. My housemate let me drive her manual car and I did not stall the car until I reached home! AMAZING! that's like after 2 years of just driving AUTO and I still can remember how to drive MANUAL!

4. Procrastinated BIG TIME!!! feeling so guilty 24/7

5. Cleaned my room!

OT assignments

Once again, I am stuck writing my assignment. And it's not even writer's block.
Occupational Therapy assignment are structured so broad and vague that you can practically twist and turn the assignment to anything you want. Despite the versatility and flexibility of it, I am STUCK.

*HELP! I feel so lost!

It's simply a 1000 word section and I've already written 700 words. But wait a minute! Am i doing it right? It's the same question I've been asking myself for the past three years of assignments and I have yet to get an answer to it.

I think the problem is that whenever I get back my papers, the red scribbles on the paper is meaningless to me other than the numerical ones where I'll frantically calculate it to the percentage grade. And that's it. No asking about what's good or crappy about the paper. I have no answer to that.

Now the paper is due on Wednesday, am I am waiting anxiously for my lecturer to reply my appointment with her. The waiting sucks. It's agonising =(

brief updates

1. housmates' bikes got stolen
a)bicycle A was stolen, without the wheel that was attached to the lock
b)bicycle B was missing a wheel that was not attached to the lock
c)bicycle C was lucky
d)equals to one stolen bicycle

2. realised that despite the not-so-recent-invention of microwave, housemate did not know how to use it. Housemate put aluminium foil in the microwave and lightening sparks were observed in the microwave by another housemate

3. tennis tournament lost 0-8, more practice needed

4. getting colder

5. love gossip girls <3

Updates

hello world!
I feel so isolated from you!
where have you gone to? Or rather, where have I gone to?
lame....

seriously,
home-uni-work-coles-home-sleep
zzzzzzz
talking about sleep, I had the best sleep ever last night even though I had really bad stomach cramps (what a bummer) 11pm-8am, 9 hours of quality sleep. I didn't want to wake up at all plus the weather was so nice and cooling in the morning. I just want to hide under the warmth of my quilt and continue my sleep.

updates:
1.still the same mundane life
2.got really pissed of by my housemates and coursemates
3.cindy (housemate's) car got dented by someone's fist (ouch!)
4.i feel so aimless, and afraid of my gerontology assignment
5.I made cauliflower and cheese, it's amazing nice for such simple ingredients
6.feel that my Engrish sux although i've been in Aussie for 2.5yrs
6.1 month to exams...
7. =)

When I am angry...

When I am angry,
I know I look scary and damn pissed off
I probably emit threatening vibes
the sight of it can turn people off

I dont't blame them,
I can't even bear to look at myself in the mirror when I am in a bad mood
I can feel my facial muscles tightening, my face blushing, my lips pursed in a line and my eyes shooting staring glances
basically, when that happens, there seems to be a patch of dark cloud overcasting my head, and I just don't feel good

like today,
My housemates used the house as a meeting place for their weekly cell group meeting
the moment the cell mates came into the house I was pissed off
despite the fact that they informed me earlier
the fact that strangers are "intruding" the privacy of my home made me very vulnerable, thus angry

I know that It's not right to feel this way
but I am just not comfortable with people
not this way.
sigh, and that's how I appear very unapproaching to people =P bleah (I don't really care)

on the other note,
You know that winter is coming again when it becomes pitch dark outside at 6pm =(
how miserable...

birthday ramblings

21st April 2009

Happy Birthday to me!!
thank you my lovely friends for all your wishes! (I assumed that all my friends who read my blog did wish me... haha if not...horror!!!)
Jokes aside,
I feel really blessed with all the wishes even though I am not able to give thanks to everyone.
Fb is great. seriously.
Friends that I've not keep in contact for years sent me birthday greetings & it really made my day especially wonderful (not forgetting my family and close friends)
It was such a pleasant surprise to hear from them =) I felt so touched
only one thing pissed me off,
I was expecting a friend's greeting, but it never appeared
One small disappointment, and a huge relief
THEREFORE, I know what my action plan will be for now(this will probably make no sense to you, but it doesn't matter =) )
(lcen)

22nd April 2009

Attended the weekly meeting with the mental health consumer but he did not turn up
and I met the most charming boy from scotland (I love his accent)
he told this joke:
" Where does the bee goes to pee?"





tada!!
the answer is "The BP station"
so adorable!!

Something i dislike...

As it happened to you?
The person you are talking to has limited english vocabulary
and when you comment on something, the person misinterpret the meaning and start talking about something else or worse, take offence of what you said
and I am not even talking about using bombastic words or jargons

I find that quite frustrating
I am no english "connoisseur", I am far far from it
but having a conversation with someone who does not understand you is really unengaging
and annoying
especially for someone who has undergone 2 years of university... how did you even make it there??!

Amusingly,
it's something I just realised that is on my NO list

On the other note,
I did something wasteful last night
I switched on the lights, and the laptop was playing music in the background
and I went to bed
it was awesome,
sure I had interupted sleep(it was meant to), but somehow I had an awesome sleep
the music was stimulating to my sleep and the music sounded so much nicer than when I am awake
but alas, I'm wasting electricity and guess who has to pay for it
me and the housemates =P
ooppss....

Heathcove- Bluewater

Picnic in the park, that's something I always enjoyed doing with my family.
With friends. That's new.
We took advantage of the uni break and easter holidays to unwind and have a bit of fun before the greys of uni take over us. The park is seriously filled with children and more children. There was a huge pirate ship playground which looked tempting to play. But we reckoned that if any of us boarded on this pirate ship, we'll be stared upon by the tens of little pirates wrecking and having the fun of their life. Bummer...

The BBQ, the scenary, the games and time spent together interacting was awesome.
And I hope there will be more to come. I realised that I am already in my third year of uni. And there is no better time to enjoy myself now, while I can! yes, employed people don't have the luxury to bum around like I do :) Fourth year will be hectic so I really need to endulge myself in all these enjoyables while I have the authority to control my life.

By the way, Lexus (the dog) scratched me real bad. Not bleeding pain, just really superficial scratch pain. :( He was probably excited to see after five months since I went to my aunty's place, that's why he pounced on me and accidentally left his mark there. Boo...

the terrifying sounds

just within 1 month, I've probably already encountered 2 car accidents near my house

imagine this,
I sitting in my room
suddenly I hear faint sound of car skidding then "BOOMM"
another faint sound of people talking at an excitable pace and lots of "OMG"
and I am not able to see anything from my window, then taking peeks from my housemate's window
mins later, the sound of siren echos through the whole suburb

that causes a feeling of panic and fear to encroach my heart
and I hoped that nothing bad has happened, except probably for a expected badly battered car

I've never experienced any of such sounds at home, never
it's terrifying, it scares the shit out of me
I am so thankful that my room is not facing the road, where all the accidents happened
or else I'll be very traumatised

the bring home message: drive safely and smartly, be cautious

the sky at night

As I lined my laundry out in the night, my eyes were fixated on the stars spotting the dark velvety sky. it was a welcoming sight. the stars shone blazingly attractive. So i stopped doing my things and looked at the sky. No photograph will do justice to the beautiful sight of the sky. the stars were just like diamonds afar and unreachable.
Alas, the night was rather chilly and I quickly went back into the house. It's autumn already and daylight saving is over. At the same time, it's the 2 weeks uni break =)which technically is not a break for me because I still have to work, do interviews and assignments. I reckon it will be a nice change from the usual hectic routines. breaking the habits...

PS: need to improve my english

and thanks PEAZ, you are so thoughtful although it's rather too early =)

I like WIKI!

I am a total fan of Wikipedia!!

Shortly after commenting to Peaz that I needed to read more to improve on my general knowledge, I read the yahoo news for updates that i've been missing out for ages.

I started off with the top stories of the days which were not entirely exciting; killing rampage in US, freak death fall in Pasir Ris, Maggie Cheung and Miss USA in Guantanamo Bay.
Seeing that I've seen the name Guantanamo Bay many a times in Times and Newsweek during the Afghanistan war period, yet I have little idea of what it actually is other than a war detention prison. This spurred me to Wikipedia (Wiki) Guantanamo Bay.

The important piece of info I've gotten out of Wiki was that US President Barrack Obama had ordered the closure of this prison in Cuba in Jan 2009.

and then,
the interesting thing was that it lead me to continued reading other related stuff for the past one hour.

from there,
I wikied on Fidel Castro, Cuba's Revolutional Leader,
then on Cuba's revolutional war
then to Castro's favourite philosopher, Ernest Hemingway
then the possibilities are endless :)

Although the new info are still quite vague in my mind
it opened up my mind to stories and history that I've not read about before
and it's been a great experience compared to me surfing on facebook aimlessly

I'm so glad that I sticked to my goal, and I've not gone on fb for the entire day
(i am such a fb addict, not an active one though)
and it gave me the time and opportunity to gain knowledge through more meaningful ways

Yeah to WIKI!

Growing old...

http://www.dayswithmyfather.com/

this is so touching, and it makes me think of how life will be when I grow old

I get pissed off really really easy
I was tonight, and the only thing in my head is "shut up you bitches"
for obvious reason that didn't escape from this young refined lady's mouth
man, I am so crude
but I just can't stand whatever thing she does, good or bad- it doesn't matter

another matter that pissed me off is the fact that my housemate is being "kicked out" of the house by the landlord
she's another pain in the arse

It seems to be the season for foul moods =(

I don't handle stress well

I don't handle stress well
at all

I was so stressed up with the sale of the mambo night tickets that I was perpetuately having this tense and stressed up look on my face
and I just want to avoid conversation
it's so obvious, all my friends were commenting

I feel that I loss the ability to function properly with the stress
and the worse thing is, i think i self-imposed the stress onto myself
probably guilt as well

it's just not comprehensible
=(

No more fbing... period

I
Have
To
Get
Away
From
Facebook..................

NONNONONONO!!!!?????
=(

Cerne Abbas Man...kewl

Cerne Abbas Chalk Geoglyph
Cerne Abbas Man, the 2000 year old outline of a man originally intended as a symbol of fertility, marks a chalk hillside above Cerne Abbas, Dorset, England, UK.


Fun read: http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/793190/teen-paints-18m-penis-on-parents-roof

Tuesdays

The landlord is changing the internet line, supposely tomorrow morning. Hence, the housemates and I have the privilege to use up as much bandwidth as we want.
The thing is,
I don't know what to do with the excess bandwidth.
When I am truely bored,
I pop by youtube to watch my fav video bloggers and "how it is made" videos (totally love it, geek)
facebook
oasis
blogs
then nothing much.
.
So I was comtemplating on downloading videos and musics
and the next point is,
I don't know where and what to download
I am such a noob in this cyberworld =(

Timetable has been hectic as usual
lots of complains, but only to my family
hee, I love my family

I felt so lost today,
I woke up after a tea-nap and went to the supermarket to get groceries
but when I reached there, I was clueless of what to get
so I grabbed whatever I saw and headed back
what's going on with me??



Lastest outing
yummilicious, totally worth the 45mins drive up Perth Hills

I'm seriously lost with words

Mandurah

 

I love this picture.
It was taken at a bridge in Mandurah. What's so special about this bridge is that it is a connector between two sides of the land and it also acts as a fishing hangout for the locals and tourists. At the bottom of this bridge is a platform dedicated for more fishing and crabbing. It's just so lovely. You see family doing fishing together, you see students who are spending time away from assignments and you see retirees just enjoying life. Oh ya, I saw a school of dolphins in this river. It was a spectacular sight, 7 of them happily swimming in the waters (hahha to think my friends and I travelled all the way up North to see dolphins too). Loving all these moments =)

Budget airlines, you suck

only 1 week ago I was urging my sister to book her flight tickets so that we can travel to Melbourne together.
After much discussion, she felt it was better for me to book it with my friends
so, I happily booked my flight tickets from Tiger Airways thinking that it was the cheapest deal at the moment

TODAY, JUST ONLY
TIGERS are having at FRIDAY the 13th special.
all the tickets are starting from AUD $13 + tax
so freaking cheap!!

Now, I am cheated by $100 because of this promotional
I am also very amused at how the company can adjust the ticket price to such drastically low price

$100= 20 X $5 clothings from harbourtown shopping centre
$100= 1 night accommodation
$100= nice food in Melbourne
$100= almost 6.5hours of working
=(

so random

today when i cheerfully said "it's time to go back man!!"
my boss commented that I don't sound too happy working
the truth is,
I don't.
Work is not enjoyable, if that happens 5 days a week.
If not for the money towards the Melbourne trip, I won't be working almost everyday. It's just too much to handle for a full time student like me =(

I shouldn't be doing this now when I have a assignment due very soon,
but I want to post up my steamboat pictures.

Typical day 2009

TIRED>>>
just finished work 1/2 hour age and I am hungry now
here's a brief summary of my work:
-picked up phones from other phone shop
-attend to customers (doing connections and explaining how the plan works)
-saved personal id
-paperwork
-swept the floor
-pack the new phones
it's a long list yea?? IT IS!! =)

though I am hungry now, I have to cook dinner later because there's too many people cooking at the same time. Darn the landlord for squeezing so many people in one house and yet providing only a small kitchen.
While I have been back for almost 1 month already, my meals are horrible. I still don't have the urge to cook proper meals and resort to instant food and pasta everyday. What should I cook? It must be easy to cook, simple ingredients and taste fantastic =)

How i wish someone could come up with a Food pill. Then I don't have to hassle about cooking ...

back to uni...back to being lazy =)

It's now the 2nd week of uni
uni has been relatively good, except for the two 8am classes (what a bummer =()
work has been crazy, there was one day where I worked for 9hours
I know I seriously need to cut down on my working hours
but the work load in the shop is piling up each day and never seems to end

good news that brighten my day are
I got my bookshop grant!! It's worth $300, so now I can buy the books that I wanted to get!!
I managed to register into tennis class!!
the respond for tennis was so good, I was so afraid that I'll not be able to get a class. Yippee to Tennis!!

yea, so after a crazy and tiring day at work
I totally slacked and bummed about in my room (where else can i go?)
and I am so lazy to cook a proper meal
and too lazy to structure this blog properly
I guess my bowels are pretty lazy too, cause I think I may have mild constipation

the weather hasn't been behaving itself too
one day it's hot and sunny
the day after it's dark, cold and windy
then it's back to being hot
and then it's chilly

probably autumn is approaching really soon
cause the trees are all shedding its bark, and revealing its inner white fibres
maple leaves are paving the ground, and
the sound of yellowed maple leaves crackling under your feet as you walk is just marvellous =)

Freezing cold in summer

Feeling cold in summer??

that's apparently nothing odd
in the morning, grey clouds overcasted the skies and in no time it was pouring
And since then, the weather has been feeling much like autumn's one
cold and calmy

nevertheless, it was a nice change from the blazing heat
the cool soft wind was very much enjoyed by all =)
unfortunately, I am not one who can take cold - which explains why the heater in my room is switched on

there was an unexpected vistor who popped by the house just now
and it kind of make my day (or night) =)

so many random thoughts...
PS/my room is still messed up and not cleared even though I've been back for 2 weeks
sigh, I blame it on my work =(

Scarborough Beach

A trip to the beach and this is what happened,



sigh,
Look at the monstrous wave, so huge and strong


As a result, I was dragged along the sandbed in the water
and thus a sore bruise on my kneecap =(

on another note,
I've secretly nicknamed one of my housemate as elephant
the clumsy and noisy walking around
the careless slamming of cupboards
the loud trumpetting voice
all are akin qualities of an elephant
= annoying

ignorance is bliss

sometimes, ignorance is bliss
and i'm glad today is one of those ignorance day

"do you know XX?" YY asked smugly
"Who's XX?"
disappointed look on YY's face
YH smiled

Who and what I don't know
cannot harm me =)
- this doesn't apply to academic stuff

meeting new people in crowds =(

I hate (probably too strong a word) meeting new people in crowded gatherings
I feel that it's so inpersonal
and I'll probably forgot the people I met tomorrow
and so will they
It puts me in an embarrassing position when I messed up my conversation
...very often which I do
...actually I just messed up one =(

anyways,
it was a good experience
but not one that I would like to go through again

Melinga Court

My Convocation.. in 2 years time

It's graduation time again in Curtin
the uni will soon be spotted with pink , blue, yellow, baby blue robes
and lots of people taking photo
all the buzz and excitement

Sigh, the disappointing thing is that
I missed my friend's convocation tonight
I didn't managed to take pictures with them and share their pride and excitement
that must be so precious
double sigh... i missed my sister's convocation too last year =(

then, thinking about how in 2 more years
it will be my turn to graduate
all the exciting things i'll experience in my future ahead
ahhh.... can't wait =)

I'll make sure I won't miss my other friends' coming graduation. fingers crossed

back to perth

i'm back in perth now
arrived this morning, freaking tired

everything here seems the same
except the missing people
and the additional room- in making

I'm feeling abit timid and insecure today
somehow I don't think that I am as brave as i would like to be

I miss home already

faceless

once again,
being faceless,
having no identity
feeling so alone
despite the crowd

sigh,
back to square one

Chinese New Year 2009

Happy Lunar New Year!! Moo moo

According to the local mandarin tv programme,
only those born in the year of the snake will have a better year ahead than the rest of the other animals... bleah

nevertheless,
I enjoyed my visits to my relative houses to "bai nen"
as strange as it may sound,
I am consciously reminded of the importance of marrying the right person
during my visits, I am surrounded by blissful marriages and loving families
and I wish that will come true for me in the future

I am so blessed and thankful for being a part of this loving family
where I don't have to worry about poverty and conflicts
where I can eat all the pineapple tarts and bak kua I want
where I can make my own choices and my family will support them

May the love be spread to everyone =)

broken plate- heart wrenching

I didn't know that breaking a plate can be so heart-wrenching
the crashing sound
the sight of thousand little pieces of porcelain lying on the floor
the disappointment that I broke one of my parents' favorite plate
the disappointment that I couldn't perform housechore properly :(

the strange thing is how the way the plate was disintegrated
my past accounts of broken dishes are vague
but tonight, as I swept the floor
the pocerlain broke into rather retangular small bits
and the pieces dispersed in all 360 degrees around the kitchen and some made it's way to the dinning area
very different from what I expected

sigh, it's been a while since I am so butter fingered
my heart is feeling very heavy and sunken
I feel like a kid again...

Haji lane

I love sleeping =)
it makes me so happy, provided I don't oversleep

Lately, I'm on an impossible mission of trying to compose catchy pop-music
the result so far, has been annoying my sister and probably my neighbours
with my endless mismatched and clashing chords
bleah,
that's what happen when you are bored at home, and your frens in school

I had to get out of the house,
so I made my way to haji lane after I made a trip to the ICA to renew my passport

Hmmm, how do I describe Haji Lane?
first I was greeted by a pillar masked with scribbles of graffiti; total ugliness
maybe I am being critical,
but in my opinion, the scribblings at the entrance totally ruined the charm of this so-called artistic lane
anyways, I strolled down the lane aimless, and the stroll ended in 15 mins
along the way, I saw people taking snaps of haji lane
although, I doubt what kind of pictures this pair of girls are taking as they were focusing their camera at the aircon box thing

in short, haji lane is an entertainment lane with a different twist
the lane is filled with bars, cafes, shisha bars, vintage clothing shops, unique accessory shops, and group of strange boys sitting on the concrete pavements (in black and white? and jap style hairdos)
carpets paved the five foot walk,
small signboards indicating their shops on the second level

the goods sold in Haji Lane is not suited for the mainstreamers,
that's their unique marketing point
but with a strangely overly floral dress priced at $80++
that's really a very unique selling point (ehh, make sense??)
the prices are seriously not friendly to my wallet

on some displays, old toys were carelessly arranged across the cupboards
*omg*
among those toys, I spotted quite a few pieces that I regarded as trash and had just disposed it for recycling in the plastic pile at home
eekss, if i were go into this line
the items that I had thrown away would be like gems *sparkling*

I am so glad that I'm so not into vintage
it will probably burn a hole in my already frailing pocket lining
*or*
I would be regarded as a hoarder and my house will always be filled with things that I can't bear to throw but have absolutely no use of

I had a stop at a cafe- the coffee nations
chocolate cake caught my attention!!=)
the cake was yummilicious, dark choc and a hint of rum
but I wonder why the service was kinda of slow
it was real nice of them to add a personal touch to the dish by drawing a smiley girl
however when you are faced with a hungry customer, I would very much do without it
nevertheless, it was sweet =P



my sister had a chicken soup with pie- not the best choice of food
the atmosphere was tranquil and nice
great place to hangout i reckon

so that concludes my outing
I have more to say, but I'll leave it here like this
the tone is probably critical
but no feedback = no improvements

I will be back there in the next 10 months to see the changes
so charm me =)