paying it back

A housemate was telling me how she worked part time here and wants to send part of her pay back home to her parents and to her grandparents.
She feels that, this is the least she can do- while she can, especially to her grandparents.
She had her say.
Unfortunately, my views differ from her's
very different
Yet I feel a sort of guilt creeping into my conscience

I always proclaim my distance from my relatives and lack of closeness with them,
it's nothing to be proud of- but that's my view
Practicality always rule over my conscience

But this time, my conscience wants a say
it wants me to pay it back
it wants me to stop and think for my family
it wants me to put my thoughts into action

my conscience,
my thoughts,
my guilt
my confusion...

at my lows

I'm not impressed by the way my manager handle some of his stuff
Especially sometimes when he talks to me
It's quite condescending at times
Probably he is still young and immatured
but at present, he is my least likable person

once and again I am at my lows
it's not good for my mental, spiritual and morale
especially when the new uni term is starting soon
I feel that dark grey clouds are overhead me all the time
the sudden loneliness and isolation
the sudden re-drawal from mankind, into my shell
I feel no love and compassion
Self-pitying and sadness overwhelms me
sigh...

How I wish for a sudden stroke of fate/luck that can change my predictament
How I wish for the apathy that I once possessed

holiday blues

busy busy lately,
I've gotten my pay today- super happy :)
Perth has been pretty gloomy and depressing this past week
luckily, it will be sun and shine for the next 3 days
I love the sun- gives me warmth in this cold place
plus the wind was super crazy on friday
many trees were uprooted and all the trees were shaken frantically nuts by the wind
my brolly was deformed- destruction of the wind

anyways, I prepared a colourful meal that brightened up my mood
my own creation- chicken fettucine with zucchini and sun-dried tomatoes
I love it :P



desperately in need of a haircut :(
ps: i dunno if anyone noticed this. I can't hear myself but thru my video clips I realised that I speak as if there are marbles in my mouth. Someone verify this with me??

my idol

pezz..

did i mentioned this before??



I LOVE JJ LIN
his compositions rock my sock
his voice soothes my soul
he i idolise after jay chou
if only i can play piano as well as him
and come up with music composition as great as his

i just heard this song and i'm loving it



詞/王雅君 曲/林俊傑
大地被搖晃著 天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了 下一秒瓦解了 淚堆積成了河
但明天是好的
我們要堅定著
愛~讓我們不放棄活著 還要繼續和大自然拔河
當愛與希望 投射炙熱的太陽
昨日淚光 會隨時間都蒸發
別輕易放棄 明天要許更多願望
裝滿了勇氣 就更有力量
當愛與希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回頭望 又是築好的家鄉
我知道未來還有好多路要闖
我打開了窗 看見了晴朗

another song that got me excited is this Olypmics song by JJ Lin and Fan Bingbing
it sounded so grandeur that my hair stood up :P



[萬山之巔] 詞曲：何沐陽
每個人心中都有一座山峰
翱翔那自由天空
每一片天空都有同一個夢
夢裡我們相情相擁
從你的腳印到無盡的攀登
一路多少動人風景
生命的成長是超越的旅程
一山要比一山更高峰
我要奔向 萬山之巔
迎著風雨 迎著夢的光榮
我要屹立 萬山之巔
伸手觸摸彩虹 低頭把你相擁

:)

work=tiring

how's your day?

I've started working since the week I came back from road trip
the beginning was slow and boring
I had alot of learning to do
now it's super busy because of the new student intake this month
I was practically standing for the entire shift (yes, i'm complaining)
been quite blur at times, giving people wrong information and working at too slow pace
I need more practice and more working hours
talking to people all day is seriously tiring

and I need to clean my room soon

signing off
XOXO