after extraction

okie, ramblings going on here =p

I HATE antibiotics ever
they give me tummy aches and make my (small and big) business smell strange
yea, I have a keen sense of smell in this area
I have poor memory, and often almost miss my timing to eat the medicine

but the worse part has to be the tummy aches
adverse effects of antibiotic are such that it cause gastrointestinal disturbances and nausea
whenever I have this strange-bitter taste in my mouth
i know i'll have a tummy ache and the puking sensation =(
booo

today is also the first day that i dare to open my mouth wide enough to look at the after effect of the trauma
guess what I saw?
other than the expected stitching of my gums
there was a brutal red inflammation wound at the cheek (obvious exaggeration)
it seemed that the dentist had some difficulty extracting my wisdom tooth and used too much of strength on my delicate and soft buccal region
it was so sore, that i thought the dentist had accidently stitched my cheeks with my gum

nasty

the boxer

 

meet joey the boxer!! =)

The day I extracted my wisdom tooth

first the dentist squirted an acidic liquid to numb my gums
followed by 4 jabs of local anesthesia
with the needle about 5 inch long, poking it straight into the root of my teeth
he did a small x-ray, my wisdom tooth was position slated to my right molar tooth
then the dental assistant covered my face, preparing me for my doom :(

he proked my teeth to test if the anesthesia has taken effect
followed by pulling and tugging my teeth
the sturborn thing refused to budge
then I heard the sound of my worse enemy
drill................ing
right into my wisdom teeth
the dentist gave me a warning
and then I heard a crack sound, my wisdom tooth broke into half
the scary part was that the drill broke, twice (i think)
and the dentist was commenting that he won't be ordering the drill anymore
and I was on the chair praying that he does not drill into my gums
my nails were crawled deep into my arms, with every action he did :(

more drill..............ing later
and more pulling and tugging later
my wisdom tooth was extracted, into 3 bloody pieces
he exclaimed " now onto the easier part"
which was to stitch up my wounded gum
it was painless at that time, but now it hurts to no end

so that was how I underwent a 30mins of trauma and abuse to my mouth
I can only eat soft, liquidity food
to complete 2 different antibiotics
and to remove my stitch in 1 week time

I'm in agony now
sigh....

Just for fun =)

peaz, wq and I were discussing about what makes a blog interesting
and peaz mentioned that the blog needs something different to stand out from the others
such as typing "you sux or dumbass" in every other sentence
and subtle humour to attract new readers

well
boo you readers for wasting your time to read my dumbass blog!
you sux!!

hahah, this is extremely random
but I suppose that not many people read this anyways :)
Merry (dumbass) Christmas!!

tired and weary

I was working evening session and I noticed some familar faces
these are the faces that I have seen since I have been working at the clinic for the past 3 years
the faces were weary and haggard
I can feel their tired souls, in need of a well deserved rest
and I can't help but wonder,
will I become one of them?
tired and broken down by the elements of life
slowly and eventually losing faith in all the wonderful things life can receive

Conflicting thoughts

Here I am at home,
enjoying myself again
having to think of no-one, nothing but me

But my mind is in a whirlpool,
thinking of thoughts that are so irrational, radical, confusing
they are so random but they remain in my mind for a long time
and it's difficult for me to get rid of them

there's like a battle going on in my head
and there's no advisor to guide me through this battle
and the enemies are allies
warriors fighting against each of their own, but with different views
it's a battle of conflicting thoughts

I know I should write out my thoughts
put in onto the table and sort it out
but I never gotten to that stage
I blame myself for that

it's so bad that I reckon this post seemed meaningless
I really wish that I could gather all these irrational and confusing thoughts
put them into a bag
and just trash it away, never to deal with it again

home and safe

it's been 3 days since I'm back home
9 months of absence and Singapore has changed quite abit
the people, the sights, the air

cindy was here for a day trip,
and I was glad that she enjoyed her trip here
I apologise for being a poor host, it was my first time =p

these 3 days has kept me occupied,
but I wonder how the rest of my holidays will be like
and now that I have a new set of routines and lifestyle
I'll need time to adapt to these changes
*familiarity breeds contempt*

yupe,
change is constant and varied
and at times when I feel overwhelmed by it
I need to be strong and opened to deal with these changes
when there's a will, there's a way =)

embracing change

i was never the type who was too afraid to try any new hair style
my thinking was that hair could always grow out
so heck it and do with the change

and only just
I went to have my hair cut with Peaz
and I could not accept the change in my hair style
i felt that it was not only the hair style that was changed
I was also concerned about how my friends will view me
how other people will think of me

gosh,
it's so bimbotic
but I felt that when a part of me has changed
somewhere in me has also changed
eh... i don't get what I am typing
sigh

the underline statement is
I find it difficult to embrace changes right now
and my hair makes me look like a kid :(
damn it... i really hate my hair now

goodbye phone

I am freaking upset now
because i ruined my favourite phone
it's spoilt
and it's my fault
it's old
but it's my favourite phone of all

sigh,
why am I so featherbrain and careless
goodbye my favourite phone

Friends

and before I know it
three papers are already finished
and I will be going home real quick :)

and although I really miss home,
there is no rush for me to go home
cos there's elements here which I will miss

so glad that I found gems within the network of friends that I have
the certain people who have helped me made my life here better
it was not apparent, but they slowly emerged
like previous gems, that shine with just a little rubbing

who knew that within a short year or two
I will make friends that will be part of my life
whom I will treasure dearly

Honesty is not easy

this is so not the right time to write a blog
but i need to vent my feelings that is bottled up =(

One of the basics of people's interaction
contains honesty
honesty to tell them they look crappy in that fugly fish-net stocking
honesty to tell them that their food taste salty
honesty to tell them they look gorgeous
what the...

anyway, it's not always that easy to tell someone what you think
I have difficulty with that
and it's so frustrating not being able to express what you feel
and not able to put your words through
sigh
what am I doing?

really randon thoughts

Weather report:
grey, heavy-casting clouds
cold and chilly (wish for a bowl of hot pipping kimchi soup and similar)
Mood: Relatively stable and normal

It's the exam break
and one disappointing assignment result
first to boast: I got invited to apply for the Honours Programm
It's something I am really proud of =)(if you know my A level results, you will know why)It's really competitive; out of a class of 100, 40 got choosen to apply for honours. And of the 40, only 12 people will get to be paired up with the 6 supervisors of the program.
Sigh, here's where the bad part comes in. My grades this semester is quite mediocre. I had one which is 50%(stunning :() So basically, it's tough competition for ME

Studying have been quite productivity so far...
Not too bad I suppose, but I reckon it would be better if i stop surfing the net, having some naps, snacking, youtubing, playing spider solitaire....

yeah did I mention that I like my teachers?!!
this is so random
but I went to see my teacher yesterday cos I was upset with my results and wanted to know what went wrong. I emailed her the day before and K (my tutor)replied within 2 hours that she was available yesterday (efficient tutor).
So when I went to see her, she was so willing to give me 30-40mins of her time and go through all the queries I have about my assignment. And she assured me that my paper was good, (not excellent good, but I had the basics) and that she had new recruits in her previous workplace who sort out their difficulties with the stuff (Workers' Compensation system and vocational rehabilitation) after working everyday for 1 year.

Anyways, the details were not important.
What was important was that she lifted my motivation and gave me encouragements to move on with my studies. Her patience and delication to her students are beyond what I have experienced in the Singapore teaching system.

Am I bias or what?

okie, I seriously feel that my thoughts are not coherent now and there's lots of random thought flowing about my head. I will edit this later.

Daylight saving is quite disruptive.
Previously, I depend on my stomach and the daylight to prepare my dinner
Now, I have to depend on my trusty clock, 6 o'clock to prepare my dinner

cheer up
cos the sky will not be gloomy always
and the sun will shine again

New Sport: Ghosting

Ghosting, a new fantastic sports created by Hamish Blake and Andy Lee in 2008.
It requires people to invade into others' personal space.
1. Ghosting. To follow people behind their backs until they notice someone is following them.
2. Speed Ghosting. Same as above except faster.
Do not undermine the entertainment of this sport.
Check this out to play the sport.




hahaha, gosh I can barely contain my laughter =)

Weather report

"And for the weather report. Onto you Carrie."

"Thank you Jon for that. Hi this is Carrie reporting the weather for Perth."
"Perth is enjoying fine weather, clear skys- no clouds."
"The current temperature is 34 degree celcius."

"Gosh Carrie, that's really hot"

"Jon, that's probably an understatement. It's bloody hot."

director "Hey Carrie, mind your tongue!"

- fiction-

HEAT WAVE!!

yes, i do prefer the heat to the cold
but today's temperature is really really hot
It's giving me a headache
I can't concentrate on anything at all
every minute later, I feel dehydrated
and intensive headache
and stuffy room
and disorganised thoughts

and i do really want to read on about Fanny in Mansfield Park

Spring -status:arrived

Spring is finally here
flowers are blooming
and flies are invading the streets once more
the scorching sun tans your skin
and bbq sounds like a really great idea =)

3 more weeks
and the exams approaches
then the mugging and many late nights
burning lightbulbs and fusing brainwires
turning the study desk up, side, down

and finally,
comes the goodbyes
farewell friends and people who entered my life
and then have to leave
it's a cycle of entry and exit
but those are the memories I will keep
I will hold on dearly
thank you for this past year
It had it's ups and downs
but I truely enjoyed it

University Talk

So, 3 major assignments were due this week
I had 3 buckets full of headaches, frustration, agony and reluctance
reluctance to start my assignments
frustrated at the progress of the assignments
agony at being stuck on a certain question
reluctance in continuing the assignment
headache when rushing for the deadlines
agony waiting for the return of results
frustrated at my disappointing results

you see, it's all a cycle
and I can forsee it to continue on and on, probably until I retired and offically become a taitai

now my point is,
all these stuff seems like a relatively small deal in the big world (next 18 months for me)

(my thought process is not working well now- slept for 3 hours)

every now and then, the lecturers will invite disabled consumers to share their life experiences with the students
their stories are not those dramatic extraordinary ones, where the tragedy is oh-my-goodness experience (obviously lacking in vocabulary)
the stories they share are incidents that commonly happen on an ordinary day
and their tragedies could happen to anyone
unfortunately, often they do not end up with glamourously sudden change in their experience where their disability made them extraordinary
No, in many cases
they ended up dependent on someone for all their needs--for all their lives

and what strikes me most is that when accidents like those happened,
they were in their 20s- just like me
and I share the perception that their tragedy could probably one day happen to me

therefore, (after all the long post)
not doing well for an assignment is probably not a big deal
my life does not just end there
what I need to do is to make my life worth living every day
do all the stuff while I can

I know,
it's really really easy to tell yourself that
but it's not that difficult to do so
I'll have to constantly remind myself to plan ahead, and do my best(est) in my work
if it didn't work out right,
maybe I could change my tactics and try again
at least I still have the chance to do so
to try and try again (probably not a good idea to take too long a time)

I have a good life ahead
and I believe it will get better
sulking over an assignment that I've handed it won't make any difference

smile =)

Wednesday Morning

I woke up with a throbbing headahce
and as I swallow my saliva, I feel a hard lump stuck down in my throat
or rather, my pharynx was all swollen
the sensation of swollen muscles brushing against each other --what agony
my tonsils feel sore and swollen
my body feels tired and lifeless
my eyes were swollen, bruised red and black
a stark constrast on my pale face
my brows narrowed into a perpetuated frown
and my lips pouted in disagreement
my skin looks flakey and totally dehydrated
it wrinkles like a elderly lady
my cup stained orange from the effervescent redoxon
I am counting on it for my recovery
oomps of vitamin C and zinc- double action
wonderful tasting liquid, healthy and sweet

on my hand,
I have 4 major assignments- still struggling to be written
handful of personal issues to sort out
what's for dinner?
fighting for recovery

that's 7 hands full of things to do on a wednesday morning
I reckon that's an awful lot
But a least the weather is fine,
though it's all overcasted with clouds --hey no rain :)

tang yuan

Finally after for so long, and after the festive season
I made tang yuan (gultinous rice balls)with my housemates
At home, we usually buy pre-made tang yuan and just cooked it in peanut syrup
never knew that making tang yuan from scratch would be that fun and easy
We had Milo, Gula Melaka and tang yuan with no fillings
Gula Melaka was the best, the sweetness of the coconut sugar burst into your mouth when you bite into it
the rest was---alright





on a personal note,
I realised I have a lot of personal issues to sort out
and it evolves around interpersonal relationships.
I never was a people-person (if u get that meaning)
I like my solitary and my space
I dislike having to act in anyway to delight someone and to put myself in misery
this is probably exaggerated
But I think that, I should just live life as it is
and put all those shit in the trash bin
because eventually it will sort out on its own

Wettest spring

This must be the wettest spring ever
gone yesterday was one of the few fine days
and following today onwards,
rain rain and more rain

I want the sun
less the cold wind
then it will make the perfect weather :)

beer breath

Never drink alcohol on an empty stomach
it's not a good idea

Went to 3( a mobile network) prepaid launch night
aussies are really a bunch of lay-back and fun-loving people
had food and free flow of alcohol
yeah, everyone was happy

now I've beer breath, stinky :P
burppp

Wordle

everyone do take care

Only as useful as toilet paper

question...

What has become of this world lately?

Almost everyday these past weeks, when I view my internet homepage
there will be news on "Lehman Brothers Bankrupt", "FED reserve bails AIG for US85 billion" or the latest "Morgan Stanley, second largest investment bank, on SALE". Great Singapore Sales ar??

I have limited knowledge on finance and market studies
but with news as such, It really grabbed my attention and wonder if the world's finance market has gone insane

there is unstability everywhere, it's frightening
imagine the return of the Great Depression
people going insane because of the crushing market
heaps of human queues outside the bank, all waiting to withdraw money from their account
one by one, banks go bankrupt and close down
people frantically buying all the necessarities and wiping the supermarket clean of all their products

What if paper money becomes only as useful as toilet paper??

sigh, does money really makes the world goes round?

seriously, I don't know the answer or what I just wrote makes any sense to you
I never study economics or finance before
I don't think I will, not right now
But I will be VERY interested to listen to such conservation
If someone is willing to tell me more about it
hinting to PEAZ to pass some your accounting knowledge to me
I will be waiting :P

I should really return to my assignment :D

Most Stupid thing I've done this semester

I can't believe that I am so dumb :(

yesterday I was on facebook trying out one of the so called IQ test for fun
at the end of the session, it prompted me to provide them my mobile phone number so that they can send the results to me.
I did, without reading the terms and condition
in total, I received 4 of their sms and happily thought it was free

today, I checked my phone balance and found out that they actually deducted money from my credits
I am not sure what exactly happened
but before this incident, I checked my phone credits so I am sure that the credits are gone
I did not make any long phone calls during this period for that amount of $$ to be deducted

SO I DEDUCED...

it's stupid facebook application's fault
mine too for being dumb

I seriously hope this is a once's off thing
And I am sure you will never catch me doing such a dumb thing ever again
If they still continue to deduct my credits, I am so going to find them and destroy them

LESSON LEARNT:
ALWAYS READ THE BLOODY FINE PRINTS BEFORE AGREEING TO ANY DODGY THINGS
THEY ARE THERE FOR A REASON! :(

A-typical day

I have watched this 5 times and it never fails to amuse me


my finger sprain still hurts
I think I'm a whiny baby
but do i care... NO
haha

Today consisted of placement and work
it's typically boring day
I made friends with an Iraqi in the supermarket
amazing how easily you can chat up with someone over here
he started off with "hey gorgeous..."
lousy pick up line?? but hey it worked
received strange msg from a newly acquainted friend
who had boldly asked me out for lunch/dinner
unfortunately, he was briskly turned down by me
Making friends is one thing, going out with someone I don't know is another

I should really get back to studying :P

SUCKS THINGS happen in 3s

It sucks, not being able to perform to expectation
It sucks, when you loss marks because I did not read carefully and pay attention to important stuff
It sucks, when you are faling behind your peers
It sucks, when things are sucky

I really wish for a stroke of change
But I know that changes will happen either by luck or when I fight for it
Which really really sucks

MOOD INDICATOR: Obvious isn't it? It's a sucky mood. I'm so DOWN :(

1 HOUR RESTRICTION

I just saw that I've already posted up 203 entries. There should have been more cos I deleted some past entries that were about me blogging crap :P

I think I started blogging in 2002 when blogger was just set up. I remembered my entries were about school and who were the people I disliked and the anime characters that I liked. And then, there was this period where I could change my blog template every now and then which helped me to learn about html codes. Blogging has then become an integral part of my life, it allows me to ramble about silly stuff which I can't seemed to tell people without making a fool of myself :P

Anyways, today's ramble will be on how rashness/impulse can make you loss out.
I had a sprain finger; one that has been bugging me for the past 3 months
dear me went to a doctor who said that I should have come earlier and any damage on my finger had already be done. I was disappointed. Me, an OT student who is currently studying about hand therapy and yet didn't understand the consequences of delayed treatment.
So I was recommended to get an anti-inflammatory gel which would help relief pain and inflammation. In my impluse, I went to the uni pharmacy and gotten the gel at $XX. After class, I popped by Coles to get ice cream and i saw the exact gel selling at $X. Goodness!! the money that I could have saved can allow me to buy that tub of ice-cream.

Lesson learnt: Don't buy things on impulse

The above entry is seriously a joke. NO.
Every penny should be spent wisely... sigh

Next,

I have an issue with time management
time seems to fly by when I'm online and when I hit the books, the mind tells me it's bedtime. And I can't seem to get up early anymore.

SO,

I HAVE DECIDED,

TO PUT A 1 HOUR LIMIT,

TO MY INTERNET(ENTERTAINMENT) USAGE

FROM THIS DAY ON

I will have to stick to this restriction or else I'll be more familiar with facebook than my actual textbook (even if both are books)

okie so that's all
people who are reading this blog of mine
keep me updated with whatever's in your life

an diary entry of a vainpot

Since young, I always have to battle with two enemies

DARK
EYE
RINGS/ CIRCLES
and
EYE
BAGS

they suck
and it seems recently that they are becoming more prominent
they even show after I concealed them
sadness :(
HOW!?

One week study past has (once and again) past so ever quickly,
It has been one busy week of working, meeting up for projects, studying, shopping and playing. Bamm.. packed and full of activities
Evening was the house's night for texas hold'em
It's really nice to see all the housemates come together, play, chat and laugh

These past seven months staying with them has been a pretty interesting experience
I got exposed to alot of different situation and allowed me to experience a diversity of feelings (eg. disgust, paranoid, irritation, anger and joy)
Even right now, some housemates are not getting on well with the others and it's really awkward being in the same room as them. I'm so glad that it's not any of my problem. I like switching to my cynical self, it is my defense strategy against situation not favourable to me.

So uni security has been pretty bad
people got robbed and bashed up
they caught a few of the thugs
but i guess there's always going to be more of those every semester
5 kids got killed while speeding yesterday
It's no fun driving when you are heading towards your grave
I guess I better hold on to my desire to drive other people's car

My plant- My hope
in the cold damp soil
I fingered a little hole,
placed a seed inside and
covered the hole with the soil
I'll water that spot everyday,
not too much
and hope something will grow
probably not in one day, not in one week
but i'm sure eventually it will sprout
it will sprout and grow
it will

one of my favourite hobbies

One of my favourite hobbies is to watch people perform piano covers
it's really amazing how our brains work
talented people are able to play songs by songs by just listening
How i wish I have the talent to do so
listening to their playing gets me all hyped up and excited

I miss my piano :(

been pretty busy since semester started
now I have to do my 'catching up' during my study break
semester didn't start off on the right foot,
but it seems that things are getting better
for one, my mood is improving :)

awaits the bloom of spring...

paying it back

A housemate was telling me how she worked part time here and wants to send part of her pay back home to her parents and to her grandparents.
She feels that, this is the least she can do- while she can, especially to her grandparents.
She had her say.
Unfortunately, my views differ from her's
very different
Yet I feel a sort of guilt creeping into my conscience

I always proclaim my distance from my relatives and lack of closeness with them,
it's nothing to be proud of- but that's my view
Practicality always rule over my conscience

But this time, my conscience wants a say
it wants me to pay it back
it wants me to stop and think for my family
it wants me to put my thoughts into action

my conscience,
my thoughts,
my guilt
my confusion...

at my lows

I'm not impressed by the way my manager handle some of his stuff
Especially sometimes when he talks to me
It's quite condescending at times
Probably he is still young and immatured
but at present, he is my least likable person

once and again I am at my lows
it's not good for my mental, spiritual and morale
especially when the new uni term is starting soon
I feel that dark grey clouds are overhead me all the time
the sudden loneliness and isolation
the sudden re-drawal from mankind, into my shell
I feel no love and compassion
Self-pitying and sadness overwhelms me
sigh...

How I wish for a sudden stroke of fate/luck that can change my predictament
How I wish for the apathy that I once possessed

holiday blues

busy busy lately,
I've gotten my pay today- super happy :)
Perth has been pretty gloomy and depressing this past week
luckily, it will be sun and shine for the next 3 days
I love the sun- gives me warmth in this cold place
plus the wind was super crazy on friday
many trees were uprooted and all the trees were shaken frantically nuts by the wind
my brolly was deformed- destruction of the wind

anyways, I prepared a colourful meal that brightened up my mood
my own creation- chicken fettucine with zucchini and sun-dried tomatoes
I love it :P



desperately in need of a haircut :(
ps: i dunno if anyone noticed this. I can't hear myself but thru my video clips I realised that I speak as if there are marbles in my mouth. Someone verify this with me??

my idol

pezz..

did i mentioned this before??



I LOVE JJ LIN
his compositions rock my sock
his voice soothes my soul
he i idolise after jay chou
if only i can play piano as well as him
and come up with music composition as great as his

i just heard this song and i'm loving it



詞/王雅君 曲/林俊傑
大地被搖晃著 天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了 下一秒瓦解了 淚堆積成了河
但明天是好的
我們要堅定著
愛~讓我們不放棄活著 還要繼續和大自然拔河
當愛與希望 投射炙熱的太陽
昨日淚光 會隨時間都蒸發
別輕易放棄 明天要許更多願望
裝滿了勇氣 就更有力量
當愛與希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回頭望 又是築好的家鄉
我知道未來還有好多路要闖
我打開了窗 看見了晴朗

another song that got me excited is this Olypmics song by JJ Lin and Fan Bingbing
it sounded so grandeur that my hair stood up :P



[萬山之巔] 詞曲：何沐陽
每個人心中都有一座山峰
翱翔那自由天空
每一片天空都有同一個夢
夢裡我們相情相擁
從你的腳印到無盡的攀登
一路多少動人風景
生命的成長是超越的旅程
一山要比一山更高峰
我要奔向 萬山之巔
迎著風雨 迎著夢的光榮
我要屹立 萬山之巔
伸手觸摸彩虹 低頭把你相擁

:)

work=tiring

how's your day?

I've started working since the week I came back from road trip
the beginning was slow and boring
I had alot of learning to do
now it's super busy because of the new student intake this month
I was practically standing for the entire shift (yes, i'm complaining)
been quite blur at times, giving people wrong information and working at too slow pace
I need more practice and more working hours
talking to people all day is seriously tiring

and I need to clean my room soon

signing off
XOXO

roadtrip rambles 1

5 days road trip ended so fast
just on tuesday we packed our bags and travelled north
and now we unpack our bags and await for good weather to wash our clothings

I really enjoyed this trip
the company was good
the views were magnificient
the temperature was ideal
unfortunately it started to rain 2 days in our last days of the trip which totally ruined our plans :(

Day One

#1 Emu Wind farm


#2 Pinnacles at Nambung National Park
thousands of limestones pillars rising mysteriously from the sand dune


#3 me and the finger-like pillar


#4 all girls group picture


#5 lunch in Cervantes~ yummy pizza


#6 Jurien Bay


#7 me and my cool fringe flying in the wind


#8 Greenhead
magnificient view of Indian Ocean


#9 blue blue waters


#10 looks like the edge of the world


#11 Greenhead


#12 view from the car

Day Two

#13 greens for distances


#14 Shark Bay
this was also where our car ran out of pertrol and we had to flag down cars to ask for pertrol. Fortunately, there was this one cute looking aussie who saved our lives when he sold to us his 20 litres of petrol, or else we'll be stuck in the middle of no where. the nearest town was 60 km away; our life-saver :)


#15 Shell Beach
Shells lined the beach instead of the usual sand


#16 Shell beach


#17


#18 really really clear water


#19 roadtrip kahkis; david, michelle, me, lisha, cindy and jennifer


#20


#21 a lot of vans were spotted with funky appearances


#22 welcome to denham


#23 Eagle bluff


#24 Eagle bluff

okie I'm 'exhausted' with blogging for now
I'm down with a cold, which I suspected was spread to me by one of the travelling mates
within this 5 days, I've taken 800++ pictures and more pictures to get from the others
This travelling experience is really awesome because I got to see the beauty of nature and its creations. It took my breathe away and if I were to count how many times I said "OMG, it's so beautiful"... that will be 9873645756440 times.

I am so thankful that my parents allow me this trip,
I have good travelling mates
We met friendly and nice aussies in all the towns
I also encountered my many first along this trip:
-learnt how to fish
-saw dolphins
-saw wild kangaroo (not domesticated in the zoo)
-saw many double rainbows in one day
-seen a beached lined with shells
-saw my first empty car tank-- got almost stranded in the middle of no where
-saw the capture of a live squid
-sat in a 8 seater car

and of course, now it's back to finding job, getting my results and arranging timetable

alloha winter break!
*PS- it's freezing cold in Perth; I miss the temperature up North*

quarrelling- thee i loathe

if there's one thing that gets me irritated
it would no doubt be:
people quarrelling (especially couples)

two people
conflict/disagreement
raised voices/shouting
creating a racquet

sure, I know people (especially couples) quarrel
it's normal, everyone wants to make and state their point to the other party
but i can't stand the shoutings and questionings to the other party
it gets on my nerves
why can't people communicate properly??
the worst is being stucked in a quarrel
the atmosphere is so unpleasant and unfriendly
I hate that feeling
It makes me feel as if two animals pouncing their paws at each other, shredding off each other's skin and making sinister growls during the fight
most of the times i would very much want to tell the two people to shut up, stop quarrelling, shake hands and make up
I know I am strange :(

i hate quarrel

on the happier note,
I will be going on a roadtrip to the north of WA tmr
set off from Perth to Monkey Mia
It will be a 5 days trip
hopefully everything will be nice and good
I am so excited, haven't start packing yet

happy winter break :)

3 days counting down

three more days until I finish exam
I can't wait
now that almost all of the people around have finished theirs and is enjoying their well-deserved break
I guess I'll lock myself in my room and keep practicing my role-play practical exam :(

well yesterday was a stupid and freezing day for me
this was how my day started
(California-phantom planet ringtone playing)

7:45
"hello this is XX school calling. Are you free to work today?"
"huh? yeah, what time is it now?"
"it's ermm alomost 10 to 8"
"okie, then I'll be late. Is it alright?"
"yea, see you"

7:55
went to toilet, brushed teeth
return to room to check bus schedule
BUS 33- 8am
"SXXX!" and quickly rushed out of the house with no JACKET and no LUNCH

8:15
reached the school and was allocated room 11
was walking along the corridor when it rained hailstones
so glad I made it to school before the hailstorm

8:20
orientation around class then students began to come into class
it must be my lucky day, 3 out of 6 students turned up for class. one student for each teacher and educational aides. The work task was relatively easy since we only needed to mind 1 student

it was a long day ahead, so here's a summary of what happened later
tea break
work
lunch break
playground duties
rained, had to gather students into shelter (one kid was standing under a tree during the rain and I had to drag him with me to the shelter)
I was cold and wet (remember? NO JACKET=STUPID)
went back to class
horiculture time
went to the outside garden to pick weeds
got hit by a student on my back
he got scolded by the horiculture teacher
rained again (darn!)
ate a organic cherry tomato (sweet!)
the sun came out again, back to the garden
feeling cold and frozen, totally disregarded my job and stoned
finally went back to class
swept the floor
Home time
waited with the children to board their bus
stood in the cold again
return to class to unpack and prepare for the next day

15:15
signed out :)

cold cold cold
plain stupidity to go out in winter without a jacket
went back and quickly had a hot drink and slept for the rest of the day
sigh my back is aching from the cold and the accident

at least the pay is good
*it's 6 degreesCelcius now, freaking cold*

giving thanks

so many times in life i've always wondered why things happened the way I don't anticipated it to
when things go wrong, I blame and swear
when things act according to plan, i sometimes forget to give thanks

has it happened to you?

how many times I forgot to give thanks for the things that happened to me
all the joy and happiness
that sparkled my life
and made me a happier person

certain nights when i remember to give thanks
i give thanks to all the good and horrible things that appeared in my life
may it be those events that put a smile on my face or annoyed me to the core
i still give thanks for these as they made me a stronger and more experienced ME
i give thanks for keeping me and my family safe, happy and healthy
nothing more that I can ask for

today, I want to give thanks for the friends that I've talked to online
I was irritated and soon that feeling was gone when I chatted with my friends
they diverted my attention and now i'm feeling so much better

I give thanks to everything I've missed thanking



thank you

laksa sedap

my mother will be proud of me
hhaha, i cooked singapore style laksa today
*bleamed with pride* with some help from my friends
i know, exams are not yet over
but I have to satisfy my cravings,
on top of that, i was so motivated to finish some of my revision after that delicious lunch :)

in love with food

#1 laksa paste and cooking directions


#2 friends who helped out, des,cindy and michelle


#3 ingredients


#4 the cook who has messy hair


#5 stirring the veg


#6 arranging the ingredients, nice colours


#7 happy people


#8 lovely golden liquid


#9 laksa sedap

the laksa cannot be comparable to those in the hawker centre
but i loved it, and so did my malaysian friends who haven't tried singapore style laksa
i finished every drop of that wonder golden liquid

sedap, i can't wait to cook other wonderful local cusine soon :)

3rd day of exam

today i finished all my written paper
still one more practical exam to go
ergonomics paper was crazy
the questions and the marks allocated= write alot
so much, my arm sore again
within that two hours, i really prioritised my time punctually
"die lah, 1 hour already still haven't finish....skip"
that's like typical singaporean style
skip skip skip, "end of exam paper"
then go back and fill in all the empty spaces
really, I think we were trained to do that cos my Malaysian coursemates will want to finish their questions first before proceeding to the next one

writing writing
saw one figure walking down the stairs from the corner of my eyes
writing writing
saw another figure walking down the stairs
what's wrong with them!! (or me)
i didn't put down my pen until the invigilator said pens down
these people just finished it so early
probably they know the essence in answering the paper
which brings me to another point

being here in Australia for 1++ year
having myself exposed to their uni education system for 3 semsters,
I sometimes still find myself clueless about what the people here expect for their answer
it's complicated, cos what i write may not be what they are expecting
the ah moh's here are getting it right but not me
the answers that they want may be different from what i think they want
you get it? not me. I'm kinda of confused already

anyways, after the paper michelle, cindy and I went to this singapore malaysian food shop for makan. I had mee goreng malaysian style. Huge plate, large portion= no appetite for dinner now (just had hazelnut spread with bread)


my packed lunch- fried beef rice


my dinner- mee sua with my dumplings


this is 6pm outside my window, so dark already
and cold...

2nd day of Exam

2 papers down, 1 more tmr and another practical exam next friday
the exams really went past faster than I thought it will
previous 1 week of study break, i was really slow with my progress
i somehow lacked the motivation, the scare, the panic and frantic feeling to buck up with my studying
my first year was full of those feelings because it was those factors that made me decide to study overseas

anyway, 2 hours paper flew by really quickly
by the end of the exam my right arm was a bit sore
it felt as it i was just 15 mins into the paper, and WHAT?? they are collecting it now??( yep, that kind of feeling)

2 hours=
1 movie
1 period of afternoon nap
1 session of makan with relatives
1 return bus trip to and from Fremantle
1 session of exam that is going to determine my future

everything seems to be going past real fast
yet i feel as if I have stopped in time, no longer moving forward
just looking at the events that spinned past me,
and I don't seemed to be able to keep up
I very much want to lift up my legs and take that first step ahead
but it is not moving, or rather reluctant to move
I need a push, a pull from somewhere
a hard one, a gentle one, an encouraging one
no matter what
as long as gets me moving, so that I move along with time
to catch up with what I missed
keep up with my surroundings
enable me to do the things that I am suppose to do

food craving

i am craving for food at home!!
seriously!

strange thing is that the crave is getting so bad, ESPECIALLY WHEN NOW IS THE EXAM PERIOD
for the past one year i've been here, i've proudly told my mother that I have no craving for Singaporean food because I can cook on my own
and 1.5 years later, the craving has kicked in
i seriously need to concentrate on my studies and not on food
and to make things worse, it's getting colder now
the combination of the cold weather and my craving for local food is torturing me
i have to go online to satisfy my craving for local food cos i have no time to cook
ieatishoot is the best website for me, the pictures and the words describing the food
OH GOSH!!!!

my list of cravings:
laksa
hokkien mee with lotsa of sambal chilli
bak chor mee
hainanese chicken rice
beef hor fun
char kway teow
bak kuh tei
prawn noodle
nasi lemak
mee soto, mee siam
char siew mee
wantan mee, shuijiao mee
economic rice
roti prata
and strangely MOS burger
you get it?!!


alright i have to return to studying
My first experimental cooking of local food will be in 2 weeks time
that dish will have to be laksa
i miss my laksa with cockles and coconut milk
so fragnant, so smooth and so sweet and spicy at the same time

*looks at my box of already depleting supply of choc-biscuits*
arghhh!

my dinner

i love my dinner
gosh, it was so yummy!!
i've been eating alot ever since the start of the study week
maltesers, biscuits, celery, gummy sweet, alot of cooking :)

here my dinner for tonight,
it's beef fried rice with vegetable and egg
i've separate it into 3 portions, dinner, lunch, dinner



here's my previous dinner
it's roasted chicken, potatoes and stirfried chillied spinach


my sister said this was an unhealthy lunch
roasted chicken, mushroom omelete and chicken nuggets


and lastly, my almost emptied box of celery

i'm hungry again :(

PERTH time freeze

I PARTICIPATED in PERTH TIME FREEZE 2008

my friend read about the invite in facebook and told us all about it
it's like a mob event, where people are suppose to freeze in their position amongst the unknown crowd

and since it was the last week of our semester, we decided to attend this event to mark our end of semester

unfortunately, the weather was not on our side
it was pouring heavily and thunderstorm scattered over the skies
HOWEVER, the people of perth are not that easily put down
come rain or storm, there were already many people in their rainsuit, umbrellas awaiting this significant event
many were like us, unsure if the event will continue since the rain was so heavy
others were hyper excited, one even danced in the rain, he could not contain his excitement
the buzz along murray street mall
people were anticipating 12.05pm

at the signal of the airhorn, we freezed
everyone who participated in this event stopped in time
the rain was lashing at them but no one moved
then there was this blood-curling scream
as if a little kid was horrified by the sudden pause of the people around him
it continued for like one minute
i was at the verge of laughing
i stood still but can't help blinking frequently
my eyes watered and it was darn cold

the people around us were busily snapping pictures, video of this mob freeze
we stopped the traffic and made people aware of our presence
boy, that three minutes was long
before going to this event, my friend and i practiced our intended pose and always couldn't help but burst into laughter
amazingly, none of us break our pose during the freeze
it seems as if,
there is a need for us to stay still and not to destroy the purpose of this freeze event

when three minutes was up, the airhorn was sounded again
and off the people went, in different direction like there were awaken from their dream and nothing happened at all
yea, we walked straight ahead and turned back to meet our friends

around me,i saw all sorts of people who participated in this event
one guy had a piano, it was drenched in the rain
many pushed their kids' pram
international students
local aussies
people from walks of life
now are all bounded together because of one event
it's really awesome to witness the experience where all strangers come together to perform something which they all believe and desire

it's occurring to me that this freeze event is not just a mob attention seeking strategy
probably there's a message behind it
that,
even if we are all strangers
as long as we believe in the same cause and possess the desire for that cause to happen
it will happen, no matter what, no external elements can stop us

or probably there's no hidden message behind it
but to tell us that we live just once
and to do things that our hearts and minds allow us to,
living our dreams
and then
following it

i am scared

these are my personal thoughts...

i think one of my male housemate is scary
well at least he scares the hell what of me
why is that so?
because he gives me the creepy look everytime our eyes meet
he gives out a vipe that makes me just wanna avoid him immediately
he knocks at my door asking for strange requests when there are 3 other female housemates who lives on the same level and are nearer to his room
no, he choose to come over to the other side of the house which is my room

i really wanna question him on his behaviour
he scares me
he makes me feel sick everytime i see him
i hate that feeling
he makes me a prisoner in my room
therefore, I despise him for making me feel this way

in return,
i gave him all my irritated stares
silence treatments
ignored his presence
i know it's mean
but i really really hope everything will stop and return to what was like before
no awkward meetings
just chatting with a housemate

i am scared
really scared

CARSON STREET SCHOOL

finally i have the determination to sit down and start this entry on CARSON STREET SCHOOL.
this is the only state primary school for children with disabilities where they get to do some classroom stuff, play and do pretty awesome things
it began as a mandatory unit cirriculum as part of service learning for 20 hours
the purpose of this unit is to get us out of our comfort zone and to experience stuff which we have limited exposure to
we had a range of choice to choose from
and i chose Carson Street School for very simple reasons
a)it's one of the nearest place from home
b)i've never worked with kids and i'm terrified of them
c)kids look harmless compared to the other place which i had in mind

yupe, so this was how the ball got rolling
first visit was a simple orientation of the place, kids smiling at me *awww my heart melted*
second visit, i was assigned to room 5 with elma, ruth, ann and 5 kids
they are so adorable, they may have disabilities but they ain't stupid
in fact, they teach me something new each time i visit
they are incredibly smart, very cheeky and love high five(s) :P

the 20 hours limit have long past, and i have no idea how many times i have revisited the school to volunteer
at times i will be lazy and skip a session
but when i make the effort to wake up early in the cold morning to volunteer, i always feel a sense of satisfaction after the service
there are limited number of teachers to attend to the children
and these children need alot of attention, i really mean ALOT!!
they demand 1 on 1 attention
they just want someone to talk to them, praise them, give them high five(s),stickers and computer games to play
the poor teachers have so much to do
"ruth!! look here" "ruth ruth ruth"
the education assistant is much wanted by everyone *she has an amazing voice*

whenever i feel shallow and meaningless about life around me,
volunteering makes me realise that there is so much to life
it makes me stop to think
about the world and its people
I no longer exist
it's US in the world
i stop feeling discontented with my life
and start to apprecipate the good and the wonders of the world
it may sound so unreal
but i assure you, when you see the kids smile at your efforts to help them
it will really warms your heart and makes you feel really contented with your life

well you can guess it
i just came back from volunteering thus it explain my urge to write this entry
i hope that i do continue this service after exams
:)



datoka's attempt to take my picture

got me thinking...

tonight's dinner was stired fried french beans with chilli and dried shrimps as well as yummy beef(with my special marinate). I love my dinner :P

it's cold again and I am feeling so slack now
i know it's an excuse not to start my work and then procrastinating until close the due date when I'll be frantically panicking

my friend introduced me to a blog one day,
it was about a guy who is very much involved in the "elite and goodlooking" people scene in Singapore
then it got me thinking...
how would it be if i were to be part of this social group
it does evolve around social structures of class division
where would i stand in this social structure?

i would like to experience this class difference
ha, infatuation with eye-candy :P

i am mental

i think i must be mental

instead of studying for my phys rehab test tmr,
i happily went to add a person who i don't know in facebook
and the person must be like scratching his/her head trying to figure out who this little mental girl is and why she added he/her
i don't know what gotten into me
but i thought that it will be harmless to just try adding that person
haha
i know
i sound mental
i am mental

it was a beautiful day, thought the winds were abit to strong
i have tinkling sounds inside my head
time to start revision

i have no guts (literally)

This post will discuss about the landlord who lived in the opposite house
who is making this blogger very irritated and frustrated
and this blogger is unable to voice her opinions cause she is afraid that the stupid landlord may invite her to sleep on the streets. Therefore, the blogger will state all her thoughts and feelings in this post where the idiotic landlord will never ever read :P

there's always two side of the coin
life's like this too
living next door with my landlord is great
because
if i locked myself out of my room,,i can pop by to get the spare keys
if i need to request for something, i can pop by and ask although i hardly get what i need

living next door with my landlord is horrible
because,
she likes to pop by the house ALOT
her husband dirties the floor by wearing his boots in the house with his ridiculous neon-orange vest
she has alot of strange demands
she has alot of opinions which i don't agree
she likes to make a lot of unneccessary comments (i don't appreciate it)
her husband makes alot of noise pollution with his DIY projects which ain't that great
she likes to sing "SHAN GE" songs from the mountain early in the morning and sometimes in the evening right outside my window
she is disliked by moi

I know, I am being ridiculously childish and insensitive to this elderly lady
I should not be complaining and whine like a child (I am still a child, seriously)
but seriously at times,
"I CAN"T STAND HER AND HER HUSBAND!!!"
I want to shout it out loud, and express my thoughts
sigh... I have no guts to do that

so here I am , typing furiously, venting my anger, blasting my music
hoping my anger will diminish

It will
but when will it relapse?
I don't know
I'll let you know when it happens :)

BUSY... yeap, it's not a excuse (seriously)

BUSY BUSY BUSY
i am so busy
that is because
(1)I have alot of assignments and presentations to do
(2)I never priorise my time
(3)I am just busy okie :P

been jogging occasionally to a nearby lake recently,
it's beautiful, especially so in the evening
the sky's all pink and blue
it's really a spectacular sight
*must remember to take a picture one day*

anyways, yupe I am very busy
I've just handed in a 40% 2000++ words assignment
one presentation due tmr
handed in another 45% 3500++ words assignment on last wed
another 25% 3000++ words assignment due on next mon
one phys rehab test
another 45% 3500++ words assignment due soon... 2 weeks? haha
then it's one week INTENSIVE STUDY WEEK
and finally EXAMS!!!!!!

gosh, one semester really flies by quickly
i'm so not really for it to end
and I'm not complaining about being busy
busy is GOOD, it means that I am occupied with meaningful activities
MY life has a purpose :) great knowing why I'm here yea?

hee
I'll not be going home during the one month winter break
will be chilling out in wet and cold Perth
plane tickets ain't cheap you know :P
My friend and I thought of whipping up a new dish every week=4 dishes in the holiday
I have alot of cooking to learn from youtube
what will i do without youtube??!?!

yeap, I miss home alot
especially times when you feel so down and you don't feel like sharing your thoughts with your friends
I miss the time when I will hide in my room and cry
hahha then slamming the doors and get scolded by my mom
that's so funny
maybe not
But i still miss that :)
WILL BE BACK REAL SOON!!


a picture to show that i'm still surviving, please ignore me and look at the background which i happen to block. it really reminds me of diagon(?) alley in Harry Potter