happy new year

HAPPY neW YEAR!

it's the end of the year again. bye bye 2007 and hello 2008!
i've been meeting up friends, visiting many neW places in Singapore
my maiden trip to MOS, pubbing and game's cafe
i feel so outdated...

i began this year with apprehensiveness and hopefulness for the brand new start i was blessed me
thankfully, i ended this year with a complete sense of worthiness. i have accomplished something, but this is just yet the beginning.

2007 has been a year of challenges and I hope that i did emerged as a stronger person.
May 2008 be another fruitful year for me and for all.

many blessings and cheers to the 2008 ahead

change=k (constant)

sister:"the only thing that is constant in Singapore is --- change"
that's so true.

the few places i have visited these past week, all had some changes to it
I feel that i have lost touch of the familiarity of my previous hangouts
changes are constantly occurring, everyday
I also seemed to lost my stamina, to keep up with changes

but that's probably one of the attractiveness of home
changes occur to keep up with time
always welcoming the new and retiring the old
this young city constantly competes for a fresh look

well, all has been fine since I returned home
i rested, relaxed, rejuvenated
now i spend part of my holidays in the clinic,
patients are the next frequently seen people after my family
the many rainy days are a big boo boo this holiday
the wet weather often dampen my mood
i wish for better weather
i long to explore the many more changes at home
*also for my clothes to dry faster

this holiday has been slow and steady so far
other than the many unexpected events happening at home,
everything is fine

hope everything is fine with everyone too

raining day

it's now raining hard and heavy and I am in the clinic reading on the race of search engines on Newsweek. It's been ages since I last read Newsweek. I remembered we were 'forced' to purchase this magazine as part of our reading curriculum in secondary school. It seemed like a chore previously but now it's a way of keeping me in touch with the happenings of the world.

It's hoildays for me now until february. But I am still feeling the tension akin to exam period. awaiting the exam results is torturous.

back in sunny Singapore

hipee!!
I am back in sunny Singapore.
happily slacking at home
while all my friends go out and work
in fact,2 of them are working at Comex fair, earning big bucks
i will await your treat :) *SMILE WIDELY*
den, 1 is going to cold cold beijing to climb the great wall of china which is as tall as her

have fun! hooray for holidays

end of exams

this is a bitter-sweet post

sweet - because i've ended my week long exams
bitter - i have to face my verdict and there's many unsettled stuff over here

i can't wait to go home.
so that i can bask in the sun
be carefree and laugh
back with my family and friends
and earn some pocket money :)

i remembered back at home when i finished my exams, i would be out with my bunch of friends, hanging out in some shopping complex cooling out all the stress and sweat incurred during the exam period. that was mindless but it was fun. I really missed that.
Now, when i finished my exams, we cheered in the theater hall then headed back individually to our flats for dinner. No hanging out, no mindless chatters, no fun.

My mind is drained, I can't think straight.
This semester has not been a great one. Lotsa of unpleasant worries and events.
I can't wait to go home. Cos every time I return to perth, it's like a brand new beginning. I like the feeling. All the new stuff to rediscover.

so yeah
a mini cheer for me please
hooray for the end of semester!

highly irritable now

i have exams today!!!
and will be going home is approx 2 weeks time

yet,
i am so highly irritable during this period
especially last night... "what the hell was going on man!"
i was pissed off, irritated and frustrated
now i can't be bothered thinking about it anymore
it's human bio 7 hrs later!!

EXAM STUDY BREAK

"sometimes in our life, we all have faith and we all have sorrow
but if we are wise
we know that there's always tomorrow"

EXAM STUDY WEEK!!
my first paper starts on the 12.
hope I can finish studying by then
I'm too slow.. i wonder if i have bradykinesis
hahah

the semester is coming to an end in 1 months time.
that's so soon
and i'll be heading home :)

good news:
i won $100 credit while topping up my mobile phone
finally had a sms from the school to ask me to work(which i declined :( )

strange stuff:
a call overseas from Perth to Singapore cos MUCH LESS than a local call in Perth!!??
it is so much cheaper to call home than to call my friends on their mobile in perth and i am using Australia local network. i have to figure this out after my exams



*seriously in need of a haircut*
cya soon :)

life must go on

i just heard news off my friend's mother passing.
it's a very upsetting news
to him and to the rest of us who love our parents dearly.
life is sometimes cruel and unpredictable

unfortunately, there's nothing much one can do about it
we just have to be strong

life must go on
let the music play

cranky mood sucks

i am seriously pissed off with my flatmates.

today i made a comment to her to clear the sink because all her food stuff were stuck in the draining holes. It was not the first time and i have cleared it for her many times already.

guess what?

"BANG!"

she walked over and picked up her stuff then deliberating smacked the grill tray hard in the stove to show her displeasure.

dude, do you think i care?
Your family member may tolerant your actions, but I don't.
I may be angry at times, and I do express it by facial expression,
BUT I never deliberately slam the door or smack the damn tray to vent my damn displeasure.

The flat's atmosphere has been pretty cranky lately. And I don't like it. Maybe it's due to approaching exams and assignments... NOPE... what lame excuses.
I've a fiery temper but I've learnt to keep it down cos I know I am staying with other people than my family. I've learnt that tolerance can go a long way. But I do not tolerant people who thinks that they deserve to vent their anger by unnecessary actions. That is so totally not cool.

Maybe I am just too sensitive.
Maybe I am not.

My application for student housing was rejected. So were 120 other applicants. There was around 200+ application and I reckon only 80+ people was successful. It means time to find housing when I return to Perth. One thing is for sure, I do not wish to live with some of my flatmates anymore. I have seen enough of their temper. One year is sufficient for me to see what sort of character you are. It's scary though, people knowing me, knowing my bad peeves, my habits. I want a change (from a fiery mood). Therefore, I've decided to make plans with my coursemate. She sweet-natured and nice. However, there's no concrete plans yet. So vague :(


I hope her hand hurts...seriously
OUCH!

random post

*random post*

it's really freaky.
when i type my name on google search and click on 'i am feeling lucky',
it will link immediately to my blog.

i don't want that to happen.
imagine, if i blog about me picking my nose and enjoying it
or i can form an ensemble with my farts
then everyone will know!!!

tell me, how do i get off the google list

seriously, this is so not funny at all
there's this blog which i occasionally read, www.yihuey.blogspot.com
her blog is so much more interesting than my boring updates
and her URL says everything!!

why am i so concerned about it
cos what if a hot guy i knows (purposely)/accidentally type in my name and he rea my picking habits???!!!
it's not funny anymore

this post is meant to amuse my readers when i am suppose to study for my exams which is in 2 weeks time.

part 2 Kulin

janice, i think i lost the zest to continue writing... haha

anyway, on to the second day:
our day started at 9am. breakfast was our packed sandwiches from the day before, all squashed up during the bus trip. we toured around Kulin shire before heading towards our destination-KULIN BUSH RACE. It took 30 minutes to reach there from our accomodation. Along the way, you could see many horse figures made out of tin. There was a playhorse( meant to imitate playboy), a horse climbing ladder and more other creations by the people of Kulin. I think it was like their shire's pride, like what merlion is to singapore.

the place of the event was huge. It was facing Lake Grace, a wonderfully mesmerising green lake. They had a huge tent to accomodate the people, racing tracks and an outdoor pub for the evening party.

Yes, we volunteers did what a volunteer must do. Clean up, help out at food stores, clean toilets, direct traffic, entertain the kids, etc. Nope, we did not have to do all the duties. Most people, including me did 3-4 duties. you'll be bored if you stay at the same place for more than 3 hours. Say "Do you want Hamburger" 50 times...hahha maybe I am exaggerating.

this trip was enjoyable and it did helped alot when the people there were friendly.

i have mental block right now and i don't think i 'll be able to blog properly tonight.
It sucks too when blogger doesn't allow me to post pictures due to some error unknown to me. you could see some of my Kulin photo on facebook though.

i am so not productive. it's nothing new and I dislike myself for this.
there's an assignment due on thursday and I'm still struggling with it.

It's constant frustration overwhelming me.
You could drop by and splash a bucket of cold water on me. Maybe it could help to diminish my flaring flames.

KULIN-part 1

john curtin weekend~ kulin, WA
and "nope, we are not from john curtin high school"

this trip was one fantastic trip, it was really an eye-opener
it's about 4.5 hours from Perth, inland towards east
nope, i did not visit any touristy, iconic or any place you will find on 'top places to visit in western australia' haha.. far from it
the way i put it "it's a place you never ever thought of visiting for a million years.. Make that a trillion" (ohh.. i sound so mean)

Kulin is small dusty shire (something even smaller than a town)
there's a population of about 600
a tour around Kulin shire took about 15 minutes (via bus)
i reckon that there's:
one primary and high school
one IGA-Kulin (not exactly super-supermarket)
one furniture store
one Kulin hotel cum kulin pub and entertainment centre
one swimming pool that looks sad and one cool waterside
one Kulin memorial hall
one information centre cum library cum exhibition hall
one recreation centre, bowling centre
one cafe and one community bank
one home-based bakery
one..i forgot.. nothing else??

it's really a cosy little (abit arid) place
fortunately, the people there are REALLY warm and friendly (no sacrastism intented). They are really nice folks who tried to make us comfortable and let us fit in with them.

first night:
we left uni at afternoon and we roadies arrived Kulin at 9.30pm. had dinner at the pub. it was buffet style. i seriously didn't enjoy the food; Australia food doesn't really excite my tastebuds. in my opinion their food is dead boring and dull.
Later we decided to join in the dancing at the backyard of the pub. their band was great albeit some of the songs were relatively unknown to me. young chaps were dancing around us. trying hard to impress. there was this one chap who used his ultimate bum shaking on joanne. he was practically poking his bum into joanne's one. a seriously amusing sight if you can imagine a young curly blonde hair chap sticking his bum towards your direction. haha
the rest of the chaps was equally amusing. their constant public display of brotherhood affection. the drunken older chaps throwing themselves onto us (they are so very heavy) and other strange entices. one friend was licked on her face and carried up by a bald, drunkened and oversized guy. the night was about alcohol,music, dancing and amusing sights. and lotsa phototaking :)
my groups ended the night early in preparation for the next day's volunteering event. another thing that i suspected was that the country people seemed very fascinated by asians because we were kind of the centre of attraction that night.
haha.. the asian and caucasian thingy (there's nothing wrong about that)

to be continued....

travel to kulin in 3 days time

my room is in a mess
the internet bytes are soon to be used up
assignments are piling high
my test is in 3 days time
i'll be leave for kulin on friday
on a crazy volunteering expedition

my friend: "you have too much time ah?"

hahah..
i wonder why too :P

my ever first participation of uni event
i can't wait

bummer

blah, it's another week of hoildays. but i don't seemed to be spending my time as wisely as i thought i would. what a disappointment.

well, i was in a mood for lamb tonight so i made a homely, throw-everything-in-and-cook lamb stew. hee, it turned out well and i must say, it does really taste good. not bad for my first try. you can ask me about my "special receipe" if you like.

it's seriously troublesome to travel around here without your own vehicle. And even if you have one, the parking fee itself will kill you. a typical parking fee in the city for about 3 hrs would be about $8.00.

another big disappointment. finally i had my children check done, i emailed the school but there's still no reply. what a bummer. :( i shall email them again next week. to irritate them :P

life's not a bed of rose here. Often, I'll think back of my lifestyle in Singapore and realised everything that i've taken for granted. My transport journey, my stable internet connection, the highly efficient services and most importantly, MY SAFETY.
just last week, my flatmate was robbed at the bus-stop near the hostel. It was a quick and smooth operation. the guy walked up to my flatmate and snatched her bag, ran under the tunnel-passage way and escaped with a car awaiting him. My flatmate was so traumatised and unfortunately lost many precious possessions. The only fortunate thing was that they didn't harm her. well physically, but mentally i think it was a great shock and horror to anyone.


i looked messy
so much for my random thoughts
stop bumming around!

gloomy people

as the dark times return,
the people gloom in despair
crisis and panic increasingly arising
when will the saviour come?

nothing of that sort of things happening here.
it's sunny and windy, occasional dark clouds that's all :)
but, it's true for the part where people are gloomy
i'm currently bright and chirppy because i did well for my test. period.

well, people are really a complex mammal
our wonderful gift of intelligent can sometimes turn against us and create unnecessary problems for us too.
thinking is- good for problem solving and stuff
thinking is- bad when you decided to FIND problems to think about

such is the double-sword edge of our amazing brain
no names in particular,
to KaBooZAc: think deep but not too deep. think shallow but not too shallow
think appropriately and you will live your life long.

think this post is a whole lot of bullshit?
well, may be, maybe not
it's up to you to decide :)

indigestion

i think i might have an indigestion.
i think i might have ate too much
i think i might have put on weight

my stomach feels so bad
i am so upset
i hope the pain goes away soon
so that i can play =P

yilin's bdae

within a week, our flat had 2 birthday celebration

today it was yilin's turn, to be another year older..perhaps wiser :)
i drew a uber cute greeting for her
i'm glad she liked it, it's a really small gesture since i didn't prepare any present for her :P



later in the evening, we had dinner at Chi Restaurant, a chinese eating place in Vic Park. The food there was alright, and we also had a homemade rum and raisin cake baked by Pam.



I am so stuffed. I piled on like 1.5 kg of weight within a night's worth of meal.
Pam was so amazed by me. Around 4pm, I had a box full of noodle and by 8pm i've polished up 2.5 bowl of rice.
Can you imagine how my tummy is like now?


no kidding...

park's b'dae celebration

tonight we celebrated Park's birthday. His big 20s++++!
He is the eldest in our group of friends

we prepared BBQ for a mini gathering as well as for his birthday celebration
Unfortunately, all of us were too busy to bake him a cake. Buying a cake was way out our budget so we had to abort the idea of getting him a birthday cake.

Eureka! Then I had a brillant idea. I really mean an ingenius idea =)
Vicky had long bought a mini pre-baked cake from the supermarket but she didn't want to have it. So Pam, Joanne and I decided to work on the cake under my supervision(",)

we melt some chocolate pieces in a hot water bathe
sliced the strawberries thinnly (they are in season so it's real cheap)
use the chocolate to adhere the strawberry onto the cake
on top, we shaked icing sugar to create the snowy effect

behold!
within 15 minutes, we transformed a innocent, plain looking cake into something that looks as if we had painstakingly baked it.

I know my idea was brillant.
Park looked surprised and touched...yet abit apprehensive
no matter, it was a success =)

I am glad he liked it because he requested to take the cake home

still in a foreign city

dear blog,

someone said i complained too many a time to you
but you are a place where i can vent my worries and anger
therefore, I am so going to ignore this friend
and complain more ..again =)

i am finding job in Perth, but it hasn't really been going smooth.
the job that i have applied for seems like a really great job
-nice working duration (8.30am-3.30pm)
-good pay
-nice boss

the things is that, in order to protect their citizens, new applicants have to
apply for many security checks and clearance to ensure that they are safe and of
no threat to the community.
however, this is australia.
everything cannot be done under one roof.
every different checks and clearance have to be done at different location
and every location is so far away
in addition, it is not cheap to do a single check/clearance
and it takes damn long a time to process
so i can't work until they clear my application =(

I have to do 3 checks/clearance. So far, I've only done 2 of them. The third one is a federal police clearance. And no, it cannot be process in your friendly, nearby local community police station. I have to travel to the city to process it. I'm so exhausted travelling places.

Today, I made a trip to Victoria Park to apply for my working with children check. There, i encountered 3 really wacko aussies. A total new perceptive of aussie was there unfolding before me. (what am i talking about?)
Anyway there was one event that was really memorable. These girls were somehat talking about their friends car that was stolen. Then, they saw a similar car waiting for the green light. One girl walked up to this unfortunate chap and peered into the car from the opened window, to check out if it was their friend's stolen car. It was so random and sudden, the girl mentioned to her other friends that the chap quickly locked his doors when she approached his car. Of course the chap was frightened. I will be too. Then they turn their attention to me and start asking me where I was studying and stuff.( I was reading my notes) In my mind, I was praying hard that their bus will quickly come so that they will leave me alone. My first strange encounter with wacko locals.

I am in a city still foreign to me
Far away from where my heart lies

how fragile, life is

just when you thought, your life was on the track
just when you thought, your life was wonderful
a stroke of wild luck, and you could find
your life diminishing in front of you
gone within minutes

how fragile, life is
no matter how you prevent it, disasters may come on you
your time has come,
your fate has long been written, in the books of death

the cryings, the agonies
so loud, they can awake the death
but no way can the death be returned to life
the anger, the fears
take it away from me, far beyond my sight

how fragile, life is
you try to keep your distance, but destiny may still come on you
your time has come,
your fate has long been engraved, in the books of death

treasure your time when you are alive
start living life when you still can
remember all things good and forgive all the bad
believe in human faith, peace and love
believe in these, while you still can...

raining hailstones

it was
so sudden,
so quick,
so nosiy




it was
raining HAILSTONES
my gosh, in Perth
during a sunny afternoon
it lasted no more than 5 minutes
after which, a rainbow appeared

my very first encounter

disastrous lecture

it's the 2nd week of uni
it's less noisier than i've expected

today's lecture was disastrous
the lecture theater was evacuted because of a suspected fire. The fire must be invisible because obviously there was no burnt smell anywhere in the room. I reckon some idiotic person might be smoking near the smoke detector and set the alarm off. Whatever it is, hundreds of student were stranded in the wet outdoors while the police did their job- to locate the 'fire'. And frankly speaking, they should have put up a more threatening and menacing fire alarm sound. The current one sounded too kind , similar to the sound of the lift when it is overloaded.
Once everything was fine, everyone was allowed to return to the theater, but the worst was yet to come. Apparently, someone decided to turn on the air-port to disperse whatever smoke there was in the room. The sound of the fan was so loud, it over-powered the pettie lecturer's voice. And students like always, were making commenting on the noise and excuses to delay the lecture. The poor lecturer seemed so helpless, she made some call and no one seemed to help her.
Within 15 minute, one by one, was making their way to the door.
we left too, after 30 minutes.

human biology module is going to be so died for me. I'm still stuck at endocrine, the every first lesson and i'm so clueless about this topic! HElp!

i wonder if it's the same culture everywhere. It seems to me that if a student (or a group) is not interested in what the lecturer have to say, it's natural that they leave the lecture. It's so common here. Sometimes I wonder how the lecturers feel. dissapointed? Concerned? Apathetic?

rain rain go away, come back another day

disgruntled

disgruntled
since i'm back in Perth, there are a few things that are making me quite upset.

firstly, with due accordance to the changes in housing policies, we students now must pay for internet. Previously, internet usage was free and of smooth quality. With new changes, the internet access is so terrible. Apart from the fact that we are paying for it, the internet connection is so highly unstable. Depending on your luck, you may or may not log on to the internet. I can imagine the day I'll suffer a mental breakdown when I am not able to log into the internet(due to high traffic flow? bullshit) and the next day is the deadline for an important assignment. That will be, pouring endless amount of salt on my wounds, killing me gradually and slowly.

secondly, the weather is very unpleasant. It's been raining like no end. To the locals, it might be an answers from the heavens in the period of drought. To a student, it means getting wet and miserable because umbrellas are of no use here when it is raining. No aussie BBQ!!

whatever it is, today is the start of my 2nd semeester.

my tiny regret

yep, time passed by so fast, it has been 3 weeks since i'm been back. Another week more at home and i'll be heading back to study.

i've been lazy, really lazy. well that's me for you. i've not tried dragging myself out of the house to see the many changes around me, be it the environment or my friends. I've not put in the effort to get myself out and i really regret not being able to hang out with you guys, well maybe until my return in dec which i'll be staying on for a longer period. =)

truth is, i'm very contented lazing around in my tiny shelter. in this shelter i delicate 100% of my time to myself and to my family. Someone said to me, "you are such a mommy child". yep you are absolutely right, I am. what are you gonna do? na-nani-poopoo!

well the main thing is that i apologise for not meeting up with you guys, missed out on your latest juicy development, your growth and your life. next break will be 3 months and i 'll long to see you all then.

meanwhile, do keep in touch via email alright =)

i'm home

yep, I am back home now.
the feeling of being home is great,
and it is greater when you know that you are surrounded by your loved ones.

yea...i feel so loved. :)

Friendships= Finds Perish

sun rise, sun set
time runs, without a rest
no time stands still to witness the transformation of man-kind
no time stands in the shadow of past
time is present, always on schedule
once you miss it, there's no turning back
there is no: "how i wish i can turn back the hands of time"
time is always flying pass us
the treasure that cannot be kept or passed on
the treasure once gone, can only be remembered in our memories
but still it will slowly fade away
time is ticking away...


the see-saw that once carried the weight of playing friends
now sits creaking so lonesome in the park
the swing in which friends used to push one another in
now swings alone in the wind
as time past, friendships gradually drift apart
familiar faces become memories of faceless characters that used to be part of your life
friendships=finds perish
yes, of course, eventually
but isn't it happening too fast?

Post Exams Syndrome

Post Exams Syndrome
this author experienced 2 different type of symptoms to this condition within a day.
In fact, it was 2 drastic difference that may appear after exams.

Student1:
This student was very relieved and delighted that the exams were over. Activities which this student did were to go shopping and eat nice food.

Student2:
This student was very troubled and worried after the end of the exam. Sought alcohol to relief the tension (does not seemed to help). Appeared moody and grouchy.

this author demonstrated the behaviour akin to student1. This author feels that there is no point in broding over the outcome of the exams because it will not change the situation at all. This author reckon that student2 should chill and relax and PARTY. Of course, pray and cross your fingers that there will be a positive and satisfied outcome.

the mark of end of exam

this is what kept me on during the exams.
BISCUITS.
They are so nice, I think they deserve a post all by themselves.

Hooray! I've finally finished my exams. I am so relieved. Really hope I did well :)


things i did after my exam:
1. shopping
2. slacked around at my friend's house
3. went to her church for free dinner and socialising (not).


At my friend's house, I meet the boy of my dreams. The terrorist of terror. The boy meaner than dennis.



Meet Bart Simpsons.

Cravings for endophrine

my head is spinning,
my heart is stinking,
my stomach is growling,
and i just watched TV.

I've finished 2 papers already. 1 more paper on next tuesday. Seriously, I can't wait for the exams to be over. I hope i'll be able to do well for my exams. I really WANT that to happen.

hmm.. brain power is still in hibernation, need to go to COLES tmr to do my weekly groceries replenishment (looks like a wrong spelling). That is my weekly retail therapy. All international students do that.. well almost i reckon. I could spent 1 hour on each trip. Before I start my therapy, i'll scrutinise the weekly promotion catalogue, after which I will still stroll along every aisle to look at all the items in the supermarket. And if I managed to purchase an item that is like $2 off the original price, man I'll be so happy with my good buy. It's my endophrines. It never cease to work.

the prohibited post

This is seriously a prohibted post.
Exams starts in this coming monday,
Finally, I am almost finished with my human biology. Tmr will be another round of revision.
Anatomy, my good friend, doesn't seem to have much progress. Come to think about it, I think pract tests were so much more predictable than the theory part. I have no idea how am I suppose to study for it. So much for being ambiguous :(
I suppose OT theory is another killer subject. Theories and critical thinking. This is so bad cos I was never a critical thinker at all. I am so lazy, I sometimes don't mind people putting ideas in my brain as long it doesn't conflict with my values and beliefs. pig (oink)

clash. clask. clach. clack ??!!

stand by you

here i am again, typing yet another mindless chatter swarming in my brains
but today, i'll be touching on a sensitive issue.
it will probably be another messy post.
FYI, you will most probably read this post and disagree with me. I'm fine with that; are you?

anyway, here it goes.
Previously, before I start my module on psychology, I had little tolerance for people who complained about their emotional issues. " No one understands me", well and other statements which I cannot remember (i'm sorry. I choose to forget).
At that time, I feel that these are the people who have too much time on their hands and thus they complain instead of doing constructive things to better their situations. It seems to me that they are extremely selfish and cared only about themselves. They see no one but themselves.

You can infer that I am a very cynical, skeptical and unsympathetic person. well, i think that clearly explained my thoughts. But gradually, I did get a little more picture behind such emotional outburst. And interestingly, such issues do relate to alot of other things in life. It relates to an individua'sl coping style, their attributional style, their attitudes and a whole lot of internal and external factors.

I have come to see that every individual is an unique entity. everyone is different and not everyone thinks the same way as I do. I was ignorance. However, it still doesn't change my point of view. Instead, I learned to be more tolerant to people who are different from me. Try to see things from their perspective and to lend a listening ear.

My 2 cents worth of thoughts: For any emo person reading my blog, do try to see things outside your own perspective. The world doesn't evolve just around you. There are many life and death issues beyond what you are now experiencing. Talk to someone POSITIVE about your issues and try to work out an appropriate solution. Do something constructive to change your situation. Your future lies in your hands and not of others. If all things fail, seek professional help. If you are in depression and need help, please seek help immediately. Don't let this illness drag on and waste your life. Depression is curable and it is not a shameful thing to admit this illness. I am sure all your loved one will stand by you :)

That being said, I am willing to lend a listening ear to those who needs it. And I sincerely hope that this post doesn't offend anyone whom had gone through this journey.

i marvel mothernature

this may sound silly,
but i couldn't wait to type my post.

i sincerely marvel mother nature. time and time again, I am always struck by the amazing natural environment changes.

First, I finally witness the pretty sight of leaves on trees changing colours. From green to many hues of red and lastly orange. I saw this one tree in uni where all these three colours come together. The bottom layer (obviously still taking in supply from the roots) was green, the middle layer was red and the top layer was orange. It was a spectacular sight. Pity that I didn't take a picture of it.

Second, I was amazed by how fast the sky turns dark in the start of winter. My mom always tell me of her days in Syndey when the day turns night around 4-5pm. Now seeing is believing. I was happy studying for my exams ( sleeping most of the time though) when I decided to check out the wind condition (the wind was howling very loudly). I peered through my window and the sky is dark already at 5+ .Other than the tint of light at the very far horizon, everything is almost dark. (As you can also infer the very lack of public lamp-post here in Perth-thus I never wander out at night= infer-not safe).



haha..another mindless post to distract me from my freezing brains, purplish fingers and dry skin :)

give thanks to peace

i was going to start my post about autumn here
when i chanced upon this article on yahoo.
it was about a young jewish girl's dairy; writing her life, about the cruelty of war and her longing for freedom- something that we all take for granted.
although i did not feel any connection with her, i was unable to control the tears welling inside my eyes. I can't image the fear and horror that those people experienced during the holocaust, but strangely i always have this uncontrollable burst of sympathy and empathy towards this issue. I know many of us have the same feeling about this.
my module on psychology has exposed to me that the holocaust-started by Hilter- has a sad and unfortunate story behind it. Raised in a problematic family, parented by a sadistic father and an extremely submissive mother, Hilter grew up with hatred towards minority groups. Combined with other situational factors, a person -a murderer- was created. Thousands of innocent people fell victims to his ambition- the geocide of jews- and the rest of history we are all familiar with.
Today, another batch of army personales are sent off to Iraq. The news aired a footage where i saw a young girl wearing her sunnies, dressed in her army uniform. I thought she looked hesistant and fearful of the unknowns in the war far away in Iraq. Perhaps she too understand the horrors of war. She could be spenting time with her friends in an cafe and talk all day, but no; she's off to war, for peacekeeping? i wish i knew.

this is a messy post, unfortunately
but i do hope for peace one day for everyone
peace= a day of no violence, one is able to perform his/her occupation without the fear of any harm done onto them. give thanks and look forward to another peaceful day.

annoying person

i think i have become an annoying person.
exams are approaching and i am getting more anxious at each passing day.
many things still unknown, study list gets longer
and it doesn't help that i am sleeping alot when the weather here is becoming so cold
like a bear hibernating= eat alot+ sleep alot
i have been finding excuses when i under performed
project my frustrations at people who are concerned for me,
i know that it was very mean of me to do so
but i did it anyway
that's why
i am an annoying person.

you are missed

dear blog,
how are you doing?

has life been good to you?
has fate been unfair to you?

I am fine, really fine
the sun shines as bright over here
the wind blows much harder over here
the UV rays stings the skin ever sharp over here
but you are missed over here

my little fortress
in the shelter i always pray
to keep us happy, safe and healthy
and always i pray for these

no matter where i am,
my fortress, you are always missed

friday night special

well, it's official
friday night is my experimental cooking day
it's an ideal day because next day is saturday-there no class
if there's any mishap(e.g. diahorrea), the toilet is just steps away from my room

i want to introduce you to an easy pasta meal, it takes about only 20 min to prepare and cook

ingredients (estimate to your desired portion):
1 slice of bacon rasher, cut to bitesize
fresh field mushroom (i reckon that canned button mushroom would do a good job as well)
1 crabstick, cut to bitesize
desired amount of pasta (i used spaghetti today)
fresh cream( don't know the amount i used, but i think it's all right to use more since the cream can be reduced)
hand full of chopped spring onions
cooking oil
pepper and salt to taste

Method:
cook your pasta as you usually do. A trick that may be helpful in determining if your spaghetti is cooked is to throw your spag onto the tiled wall. if it sticks on the tile, spag al dento :)
for the sauce,
i oiled the heated pan and put the mushrooms, bacon and crabstick to fry.
once it's done or looks golden brown we can start adding the cream into the pan
i think you have to add about 100ml of cream? add a little more it you want to have alot of creamy sauce over your pasta. the cream will bubble in the pan
keep stirring your sauce until the sauce is able to coat the back of your spatula
(make sure you don't over cook your sauce)
turn off the fire and serve it with your pasta with the spring onions
add salt and pepper to taste
hmmmm.... delicious meal

well, i am still working on to improve this dish
may not be the best pasta meal
but a least i cooked it myself and it fills me up
i am contented with my dinner :)

Facts you may(or may not) know about Perth

Facts you may(or may not) know about Perth, Australia
Western Australia has the highest unsatifaction level with their quality of water (ABS, 2005)
i was no exception
water here taste strange, similar to the taste of minerals( not like i taste minerals before)
sights of locals buying gallons of bottled water home are common

i provide clean water for my master everyday

i am a mean filter alright, i worked hard to purify my master's water

Tolerant

I am so pissed off with my flatmates
they are so bloody noisy
i mean 1 is doing her honours this year and the other 1 is a first year who proudly announced that she failed her test which is her major
they are so not considerate, the fact that they always make so much noise at night
shouting, screaming, laughing, giggling, whatever
it's really getting onto my nerves
the exams are just 1 month away and i am still not prepared yet

tolerant, tolerant, tolerant

OT- in my opinion is a wonder therapist

I have only watched it on television.
The setting of the drama was in somewhere cold. When the characters spoke their lines, you could see misty pockets of vapour 'sprouting' out of their mouths.
well, that was what i experienced this morning. It was so freezing cold, and as usual, I was mumbling to myself when I discovered that the same misty pocket of vapour effect. I had fun doing all sorts of mouth movement to produce that effect until I reached the bus stop.

I really enjoy such moments by myself. The process of discovering and doing silly things and having no one to comment on my actions. I feel as if that time belonged to me only and no one can take it away.

Today was the end of my 2 days fieldwork placement. The experience really heightened my interest in my pursued course of study. However, this is still only a small area of what an OT can do. I was placed in a mental health institution for senior citizens if anyone is interested.

Yeh, one could ask, "so what is an Occupational Therapist?"
well, the answer you can receive from a lousy OT student like me would be, "we are allied health professionals who help people optimise their occupational functions."
so what does that mean?
my respond now, after my placement would be that, OT helps you in a very wide aspect of your life. Everything you do that has a purpose is considered an occupation. everyone has an occupation, as a student, parent, sister and even a friend. However, when you have an disability or impairment with performing a task, that is when an OT can step in to assist. OT assess that person and chose an appropriate therapeutic intervention or treatment to help maximise your occupational performance.
if you still don't understand what OT does, then you can think of us as a WONDER THERAPIST who can help you when you need help :)

At this moment, I am glad to say that I am very proud of my choice of study. You can be a doctor, a lawyer, a scientist or someone with great recognisation by the society. You get fat pay wages, high-end social status and admirations from your admirers. But, there is one thing allied health professionals get and you might not get. It is a smile or a sincere gratitude you get from a patient when they are able to perform a task that they are unable to do so previously. These simple acts are priceless and valuable. You pocket will never get any heavier but your heart and soul becomes so much more enriched.

"Don't ask what people can do for you. Ask what you can do for other."

wacky wacky

I am so relieved :)
I have passed another hurdle, another hectic period of tests and assignments.
It's over...for now. For these, I have made a conclusion. My body defence mechanism against stress is to sleep. It's seriously amazing that i can sleep so soundly amist all "the stress" i am supposed to experience. I also feel tired.... my secondary classmated can vowed for it. One of my younger course mate seemed very stress. You can see her frowning constantly and a very tense expression on her face. Maybe, it's the taunting 'A' levels experience that helped me to cope with this situation . That exam was a total unneccessary stress factor. I still have phobia about it sometimes. cring. I am glad that i have another laid back weekend. Of course it's time for another assignment... that will be dealed later :)

anyway, i am really amused with the fact that the Police in Australia likes to ride on horses when patrolling a place.
I sighted it in the city before. I thought it was something common in this foreign land.
BUT
i sighted them in my uni carpark. CARPARK??!! let's get this straight, there's 2 policemen on horses playing cowboy in uni. how cool is that?
however, that did not amuse me even more than this. One of the horse halted for a POO stopover. yeah, it did it's morning ritual in the uni carpark. After it pooed, the policemen did not even bothered to clear up the "sacred" liquidy matter and galloped off in style. You do know what will happen when you put cars together with poo right? you are absolutely correct. When i returned to the carpark later, the poo matter was cleared up by oblivious car drivers. Patches of yellow stained the black tar ground. phew..... stinky cars

by the way, do you know that you can customise your car plate here in Australia?
just pay a sum of money and you can get your ideal carplate, one and only, uniquely in Australia.
so far, I have spoted "P4ND4", "1EGGY", "1BOY" and other funny and absurd ones which i can't remember.

Aus. everyday, a new wacky discovery. :)

smiley day

yihuey:" brighten up your day with a smile!"

today is going to be another busy day. Nevertheless, I hope to be very enlightened by the end of this day as more knowledge is packed into my puny brain.

i am smiling this instant :)
so smile too

experimental cooking

once again, i did experimental cooking tonight for dinner
roasted honey pork belly
it took a long time to cook because i did not know how to do cooking with the oven.
nevertheless, after 2 hours of experimenting, i managed to fix a decent dinner for myself.

(photo was removed because aggie does not know how to appreciate my cooking :( )

the dish did not turn out as expected.
the smell was queer, but it tasted absolutely fantastic...well not too bad :P

*by the way, my flatmates tasted it and commented that it was nice :)

messed up again

this is the second time i am feeling very upset and disappointed with my performance ever since i came over
BUt, i think i really screwed up this time. BIG TIME

the feeling of fear and dread is overwhelming. my heart is in my STOMach, a sock in my mouth
yeap, that's right. i dunno what to say. i am flabbergasted.

procrastination will get me no where. this i know since primary school....but to no avail
i am really scared now.

i write no literary statements and no poetic lines. but i'm sure my expressions in this blog can tell you that i'm real messed up now.

cold day again

it's another cold day today
it has been raining for the whole afternoon and you could see everyone running in the rain to get to their next class.

i made a discovery today. I billed a total of $8 today for 9mins worth of call to a landline. I seriously think that the telephone calls here are very expensive. Even a standard call at a public booth starts with 50 cents. Am I being too price-conscious?

once again, i did experimental cooking. I made grilled chicken. It did not turn out the way i expected it to be. Nevertheless, it was still yummy and delicious.

in chains and rankle

"Man is born free but everywhere he is in chain."
Jean Jacques Rousseaus

a random picture taken in the city

lily allen

frequent rides in my flatmates' car
i was introduced to lily allen
her voice is unique, lazy yet refreshing
the songs are "one of the kind"

i really enjoy listening to her music
it's entertaining, especially the lyrics

here's one:
Knock 'Em Out

Alright so this is a song about anyone,
it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing
and some one comes out the blue,
They're like, "Alright"
He's saying,
"Yeah can I take your digits?"
And you're like,
"no not in a million years,
you're nasty please leave me alone."

Cut to the pub on a lads night out,
Man at the bar cos it was his shout,
Clocks this bird and she looks ok,
Caught him looking and she walks his way,
"alright darlin, you gonna buy us a drink then?"
"err no, but I was thinking of buying one for your friend..."

She's got no taste hand on his waste,
tries to pull away but her lips on his face,
"if you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer"
"sorry love, but you ain't a pretty picture."

Chorus
Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you cant have me number,
"why?"
Because I've lost my phone.

Oh yeah, actually yeah I'm pregnant, having a baby in like 6 months so no,and yeah, yeah...

"I recognise this guy..."
That's what she's thinking,
As he comes over her heart starts sinking,
She's like,"oh here we go.."
It's a routine check that she already knows,
she's thinking they're all the same.

"yeah you alright baby? You look alright still, yeah what's your name?"
She looks in her bag, takes out a fag,
tries to get away from the guy on a blag, can't find a light,
"use mine"
"you see the thing is I really don't have the time."

Chorus
Go away now, let me go,
Are you stupid?
Or just a little slow?
Go away now I've made myself clear,
Nah it's not gonna happen,Not in a a million years,

Chorus x2
nah I've gotta go cos my house is on fire,

I've got herpes, err no I've got syphilis...

Copyright EMI Records 2007

typical day

to me and anyone interested to know :P

today was a usual typical day in uni. i had class at 8am so i had to brave the cold on my way to class. it was so chilly and my hands were practically frozen.

Have i mentioned that the clouds in perth look very similar to the one in The Simpsons?
yeap, patchy clouds floating in the midst of the very vast blue blue sky.

my carelessness and foolishness has caused me something precious. I spoilt my favourite watch :( i am so going to nurse my sad sad hand now. it's going to miss a friend.

are you missing a friend as well?

happy day

this is amazing

after i updated my zonealarm, i am able to blog :)

i am so happy

anyway, today was geraldine's 20th birthday.
happy birthday girl :P
we had a nice dinner and had great fun singing karaoke.

but still... a psychology assignment due soon
nevertheless, it's been a happy day today :)

happy NEW year

i am finally able to use blogger.
My uni hostel bans it so i can only use it when i'm at my aunt's house.
so far, i can only describe australia as a weather crazy place.
just 3 days ago, the weather was so freaking hot, at 42 degrees celcius
yesterday, it was so cold and windy. it almost blew me away.

everything in school is so new to me
the people, the friends, the environment and most importantly, the subjects i'll be studying
yeh...happy NEW year

my roommates are nice. my cooking sucks. The Simpsons is aired almost everyday.
i haven't been to a pub. i haven't stain my tongue with alcohol. i am still a nice good girl :P

no picture updates yet cos i realised i have not been well-utilising the camera at all. what a waste.

well, so you know this blog would be update as frequent as i want to, but you can feel free to email me. i do reply my emails...really

so cya soon

the mice!!!

finally, we caught the mice!!!

hello from perth

hey people!!

i'm in perth right now.
currently i'm still staying with my aunt so i haven't really fixed my computer up yet.

it's blazing hot here and the sun is like scorching your skin
I have issues with my skin, lip and eyes. They might just be damaged if i don't take care of it soon.

oh man, everything was like in a rush because i was enrolled late. so i've screwed up timetable(which i'm gonna fixed it on mon). made only aussie friends cos the other international students are just so sticky to each other that i don't know how to start my introduction.(what a lame excuse). but it really doesn't bother me as long if my partner for assignments is a great person.

In my course of 153 students. Only 5 are international students. There are some westernised asians (about 10 students?)who have such strong aussie slang. So, maybe it's not a bad idea to just mix with the aussie because most of them are AUSSIES!

haha..just to digress. (some of) The aussies here reminds me of barbie and ken. there are definitely some head turner beautiful gorgeous girls here. and some extremely obsese one as well.

okie.. so that all now. if you want to contact me real time. ask me for my contacts? Details will be given out based on my discretion.

bye for now

a drooling kid

Yesterday(or was it the day before?), there was a little male patient who visited the clinic.
The boy was adorable.
He gave me a sheepish smile when I waved at him
and guess what?
He drooled saliva which slided off his tiny mouth and landed on the floor.
Then the mother came forward to clean up her child.

A drooling kid? hahah..wow

be careful

To all new young drivers
this might happen to any of us...



click HERE if you can't watch the video

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to one and all.
Welcome to 2007.
Time really past by very quickly. Not long ago, I was still a ignorant little brat.
Well, this year is going to be a very challenging trial for this little brat.

It's going to be one growing up experience I think I'll never ever forget.
The clock is ticking....
and I'll be leaving in about 50 days from today.