Wow...it has been ages since I blogged! I wonder if anyone of my 5 followers even checks my blog anymore!?! ha!
Life has been busy. I wish I was that kind of woman who could do it all: keep a nice house, make creative meals, be a smart/savvy business owner.
The reality is I am a mess. I can't focus for very long on any one task these days. I am in the middle of my 3rd trimester. Yep, you heard right. Baby #3 is on the way. God has a way of making sure you know His plan is in action.
For about 2 years I had been praying. I was asking God if another child was in the cards for us. I suffer from post part em depression. It was bad enough after my second child that I really thought I would never do this again. LISTEN UP! PPD is not wanting to harm my children, or abandon them, that is a whole different condition. Never once did I want to avoid the joy and responsibility of being with my babies. I was just depressed. If you have ever been depressed, you know the awfulness of being overwhelmed, outside of yourself, and lonely.
So, I prayed. I couldn't make any firm commitment to altering my, or my husband's, reproductive organs. I felt that because I couldn't make that decision, God might have something else planned for us. He did. SURPRISE!
I am excited for this new journey. I have had several prayer sessions to ease my anxiety of what may come after the baby arrives. I feel 100% that God is in this, and he will not abandon me.
May God bless you and keep you!
M
