I feel like I have been just busy busy busy lately. TOO busy. I need a break.
I get it this weekend : ) 3 whole days with my hubby and my kids all together, no work, no nothing. Just us. I CANNOT wait. I love that my husband is a hard worker. However, his busy seasons are brutal. He leaves by 6:30, if not earlier, everyday. He doesn't get home until 7 or 8 every night. It makes for a LONG day without my handsome guy and a long day for the kids without their dad. But then a slower season comes and we get to see him on a normal schedule. Until then I struggle with being a patient and fun mom.
This weekend, they will probably be angels, making me feel like a complete liar for telling their dad that they have been rotten!
On another note: We have been reading "Heaven is for Real." It is an amazing book. Whether you believe it is true or not, it really makes you think. Heaven is so big and outside of our mindscape that I don't think about it much. But since we started this book, and are doing a series of sermons at church about Heaven, I have been pondering this celestial place much more. I believe in Heaven. I believe it with my whole heart. And since reading the book mentioned above, I have really started focusing on my faith.
Do I have a child-like faith in Christ, God, Heaven, etc? In some ways, yes. I believe there is God, Jesus, and the Holy spirit, and that they live in some realm that is outside my field of vision, imagination, and understanding. I have never "seen" God's face per se, but I have seen God's work. God is so big. I think as humans we cannot possibly fully grasp the largeness of God. We focus on the small, the mole hills that we interpret as mountains. Children see things and say things in a different way. A direct way. I want to be more like that. They seem to know they are little, but that they are important. I want that, too.
I want God to remind me that I am just a speck in eternity, an important speck, but a speck none-the-less. I want to have faith that I am a small part of a much bigger, and more important picture. I want to provide my children with an example of faith everyday. And I want to make sure I am living my faith to the fullest.
That is my prayer; to live in faith. I am NOT living my faith the fullest right now. I know it.
Oy! I had a lot to get out, but it looks like rambling now. Sorry!!
Excited for a break,
M