If You Want To Know Why, I Will Gladly Tell You

I have always cared too much what other people think of me. All growing up I worried whether I would fit in with my school mates…would I know what movies they were quoting, or popular songs they were singing? Would my clothes be trendy yet mild enough to fit in? What if I didn’t get their jokes (that definitely happened a lot), and what if I wasn’t up to date on all the current fads (even more likely to occur)?

But you know what? I’m starting to not care anymore. As my life moves along I am shifting my energy into more constructive areas. There is this new desire within me to share with others the things I believe.

I am really no expert on anything. I’ve tackled industrial design in college, had a little art shop on etsy, worked/am working at photography. I have kids, I have a husband, we play guitar together, I’m starting to coupon, I try to run an organized and happy home. I’ve visited 6 countries in Europe, seen furniture I helped design become manufactured, and worked for an incredible furniture designer. But none of this matters. I could be the coolest girl of all time, or the universe’s biggest nerd; I could have mountains of money, or live in a shack. The only thing that ends up having any significance is whether I am happy. And here is the thing: I AM happy.

It’s not to my credit that I feel this way. After all I’ve done wrong I don’t deserve much. But that’s the thing about life. Don’t we get so much more than we deserve? If we put our focus into positive things like helping others, feeling and expressing gratitude for what we have, and loving ourselves and the people around us…don’t all these things invite good into our lives? How and why? <-- font=""> Super deep question that I could write about for a looong time. All I’m going to say now is: I believe in God, I believe in Jesus Christ, and I believe that they love me. I believe that if they love me, they definitely love you, and they are the ultimate source of happiness.

The following quote illustrates perfectly the way I’m beginning to feel about how I express my own beliefs (in all areas not just the fact that I am Christian):

“I’ve come to feel that I should not worry about whether somebody thinks I’m a Christian or not, that all I have to worry about is whether I am.

And if they want to know why I am glad to talk to them about it. But I don’t spend any time at all now worrying about whether somebody thinks Mormons are Christians.”

-Dallin H. Oaks, Conversationsmormonchannel.org

So if you want to know why I am the way that I am, and why I believe what I do, then follow along! I’ve got so much I want to share.