
Linus
October 31, 2001 - February, 2010
Oh, Pooky Bear. I miss you. I have been putting off this announcement because I knew I was going to cry while I wrote it. And I am. I think everyone who loves cats eventually has that one. The one that sees you as "his person." In Linus's case, I was his one and only person; Everyone else was expendable.
Linus came into our life while we lived in Tri-cities, WA. When we moved from Texas, Matt's adopted stray, Hobbes, was very distraught as he had moved from being an outdoor cat in Texas to a permanently indoor cat in Washington. After a few weeks of him hiding under the bed and not stirring except to eat, we decided we needed to do something drastic. I figured that adding another cat to mix might be just the ticket. I was pretty excited about this prospect because Hobbes loves Matt. Hobbes does not love me. He ducks when I pet him. Always has. Probably always will. So...after thinking it over for a few days, I found myself at Costco on Halloween day - which just happened to be across from the humane society. After shopping I decided just to take a peek. I walked into the kitten room, and there were three cages of kittens. One with black and white tuxedo cats - all VERY cute - one with a couple of tabby siblings, and one with two black kitties - one very large, and one very small. I don't know what it was about him. He wasn't one of those cats who puts his paw through the door, or flips on his back to play. He just sat there and looked at me. I have always wanted a black cat (my little panther was one of his nick-names), and he just seemed like his level gaze was saying, "I'm not gonna beg, but if you really like me, I'll be your cat." So I took him out and held him, and he laid across my arms like a little limp bag of sand. I was smitten. I called Matt - a couple of times. He eventually said I could have him. The checkout counter sported a long list of pet names. When I came to Linus, with it being Halloween and all, it was decided.

Once he got home, he began sneezing and showing signs of an upper respiratory infection. We had already planned to sequester him initially to control the cat introductions, but it ended up being a whole month before he met Hobbes face to face. Every day for three weeks I would sit "Indian Style" in the craft room and put a dropper full of medicine in his little mouth - with its little sharp teeth. But he let me, and only left me with only a few permanent scars.
After his month of sequestration we introduced him to Hobbes via the instructions from the cat psychology book (yes, really). I will never forget the look on Hobbes face when he first realized that there was another cat in the house (even though I think he had his suspicions, as he spent hours peering at the craft room door.) He stopped mid-step and then hissed. We started by feeding them on opposite sides of the room (fancy, yummy, soft food), and each day we increased the duration of time they were in the same room, and moved the food a little closer. Hobbes had little use for Linus for about six months, but one day, there they were, curled up on the bed together. Hobbes was considered the dominant cat, and so things worked out.
During this initial period, I had noticed something strange about Linus. When I would be holding him and petting him repeatedly, he would periodically freak out and turn into a whirling ball of claws and teeth. I always felt very maligned, but he would immediately jump back into my lap as if nothing had happened. I was beginning to get pretty offended until I read in a book (yes, same one) that some cats (specifically Siamese) have a neurological disorder that can make them react to over stimulation – petting in this case – in this manner. Once we figured that out, we got along fine.
Linus loved to curl up under my chin – even as an adult – but only if he initiated contact. His interest in being held was pretty minimal, but the couple time a month that he did jump in lap, I learned to take the time to enjoy him. Never in his nine years did he jump up in any one else’s lap and sit. Ever. This was our special time where I felt like he was saying, “I know I am kinda aloof, but I really do love you.”
I’ll skip the many cat adventures, but needless to say we had the usually clawing adventures (resorted to nail caps eventually)– and some others that tend to go with cats that have “character,” as the Welsh woman who we boarded them with in Tri-Cities commented once. But one of his most charming characteristics was that he was not the kind of cat that slept on the bed and encroached slowly until he was almost sleeping on your head. He would lay at the foot of the bed, but if there was one slight jog he would jump down, unless Matt was away. When Matt stayed with my parents for almost a year and only came home once every 6-8 weeks, Linus slept on Matt’s side - every night Matt was gone.
Needless to say, when he started drinking a lot of water and losing weight rapidly, I was sick. I knew it would not be good news, whatever the diagnosis. To hear that it was diabetes was especially hard, because we could attempt to keep him alive with insulin shots, but were concerned about his quality of life. Fortunately, I think, we were not forced to make that decision. He went downhill rapidly, and although our vet put in his own time (and didn’t charge us for the extra procedures), Linus did not respond to the insulin. I was able to say goodbye and know that I was making the right choice for him.
Although losing him was so hard, I am very grateful that I had his company for while. He was a special cat. One of a kind.