Best decision of my life

Friday, October 26, 2012, 12:23 AM

It's definitely  heartwarming to see all CCHY-ians coming together trying so hard to trend #中正人 on twitter. I swear I was so freaking touched to see my ENTIRE TIMELINE filled with 浓浓的中正情 ♥
 
Yes, it's the farewell party for our dear principal Mr Ong KH. Saw us through the best 4 years of my life and thinking of him = 中正精神 His emphasis on our moral values and the CCHY spirit is so... memorable. Because he's a very traditional man, I find him a very suitable principal for CCHY because it's like the 中正精神 is naturally part of him! I didn't speak to him much during the past 4 years. Some asked "why are we so sentimental when none of us was exactly close to him?" That's the point! The CCHY spirit! We dont need to be close to every single one in the CCHY family but it's the bond and love that keeps us all together and unique as CCHY-ians.

No matter if the trending excitement gonna only last for tonight, its just that that moment when everyone as a CCHY-ian feels proud of being one. Ranging from Mr Ong, teachers, students and even to the alumni. I remember in 2010, on just one typical school day recess, somehow, the entire school just started to crowd along the railings of our classroom block which started just purely because some sec5 seniors were standing at the railing staring at the garden looking as if a commotion was going on. Apparently, everyone just came together, looking at each other across the building and laughing at each other's stupidity hahaha! Times like this, the uniqueness of CCHY cannot be explained and only as a CCHY-ian will you feel the amazing-ness.

4  years in cchy have developed me so much beyond what I thought I could achieve. It gave me surprises one after another, offered plenty opportunities for me to prove myself. I gained so much experience and knowledge from within. Not literally textbook knowledge but all sort of interpersonal skills that developed me emotionally into a more matured individual. Cchy gave me the boost in confidence in life for I never knew I could achieve so much in the span of 4 years. (Not academically of course :P ) Life was being so kind to me. Being the VHP, getting the All Rounder award, getting the Prom Queen and one of the Top scholars for Olvl. No i'm not boasting but I'm really grateful for all that cchy has given me. All of my friends i have made there are definitely the biggest part of my secondary school life. I found enthusiasm to take part in so many things because of the motivations i got from all my friends and teachers. Because i found my little limelight in cchy and therefore, it's partly why i had the best times of my life there. And obviously, i also had my worst. I prefer not to go into the PBSC stuffs because its kind of tiring to keep repeating bad memories. Friends, families, teachers- I had all my worst of these in the past 4 years too.




To sum up, CCHY has by highest and lowest of my life.


& to ALL CCHY-ians, no matter if CCHY had your happiest of saddest memories of your life, it's undeniable that CCHY has been part of your experience, part of your life and most importantly, part of YOU. So no matter how high you make it in life in future, BE PROUD that you are a CCHY-ian. Every experience- good or bad moulds you into who you are today or in the future.

For me, opting CCHY as my first option is the best decision I have ever made in my life.


Love you Mr Ong, cause without you, CCHY wouldn't be so unique with such a cute and amiable principal whom i'm really glad i've crossed paths with. & not to forget, because you're my distant distant relative. Hahaha!!

To end off, I'M REALLY REGRETFUL I DIDN'T RETURN TO CCHY TODAY FOR THE FAREWELL PARTY :'((((((((((((

I'd definitely cry upon feeling the INTENSE cchy love in that most familiar environment.

♥

Genuineness

Sunday, October 14, 2012, 11:37 PM

Aye... I don't know why but i feel that i have changed over the course of 1 year. Changed for the worse ):

I'm getting nagged and scolded for stuffs more and more often so much so that i feel i deserve those naggings. Just having a bad attitude in doing things and getting emotionally weaakkkkk. No I'm not emo or anything. LOL. Just a little reflection of myself.

I thought that working in a stressful environment is a plus point for me because i'd be more motivated to be on pace with everyone else. But almost 10 months have passed and i think that wasn't what i achieved. Many times i have succumbed to stress, broke down and regretted all the decisions i have made. Complaining as if it changes anything. That never happened to me in the past 16 years of my life. I never felt so weak. I always felt that i was strong, I never ever cried over my academics results even if i failed my tests back then. But this year, I was so different. I wallowed in self pity for god knows how many times and sulk over my results even before they were out. I never studied so hard for a year end exam before yet I felt that i did the papers so badly, worse than my CTs. I can't help it but still feel uncomfortable in the new environment in this new phase of my life. I know right, i have really bad adaptation skills. :/

Even the way i treat my new friends is so different from before. I used to like to smile to most faces which i have seen around in the school before but now, i dont even say hi to my acquaintances whom i have talked to before. I'm not sure if its just the people i have met or I just appear too unfriendly for them to even look at me. I find it much more difficult to make friends here actually. Not because of the people but its just me myself. I find myself so much less enthusiastic in making friends or in maintaining the newly formed friendships. I just feel so sian everyday that i dont really feel like talking. Sometimes i just really try hard to laugh at jokes or smile to whatever people say. I hate myself for being so fake. I dislike myself for being so in-genuine.

I want to become a genuine person. I want to regain my enthusiasm towards my life and friends like before. I want to be able to have at least something to look forward to everyday when I wake up.

This is the change i aim to achieve from today.
Nothing much, but just to be able to live life more meaningfully and stop wasting any second sulking over how sucky my life is.

It's not gonna be easy. But when there's a will, there's a way!

Needa learn to live life, and love life - not on the surface, but genuinely.

Cheers! :)

Btw, RedBull Stratos is freaking cool! Mission to the edge of the space- Free falling for 5+ minutes and breaking the speed of sound. Felix is my new idol!! :D He just took off. Gonna pray for him please please come back safe! One great man who's willing to go an extra mile to push mankind's boundaries a little further. Felix Baumgartner- #Borntofly

"I want to break the speed of sound no matter what it takes. I am willing to go the extra mile." 
-Felix Baumgartner