倩；Life's drawing without an eraser

In disguise.

Sunday, March 11, 2012, 12:20 AM

OG14! :)

We seem happy dont we? :)

HAH. okay, we really WERE happy. you know what, feelings change, people drift. and all these can happen in a really short time. we spent weeks getting close to one another, we got so bonded, we were so inseparable. i was really happy i seemed to have found a family in NJ. a group of awesome friends. I WERE and AM still thankful that i got the chance to know OG14, definitely. but somehow, things are not as good as before. seemingly fun and bonded, beneath everything, we have uncountable internal conflicts, some in the light, some in the dark. And let me confess, i really dont like this. its really so suffocating to actually know there are such problems in my close group of friends. Dislikes, Awkwardness, Attitude, etc, you name it, we have it. :) i really just feel very pekchek when people start to think a lot and do stuffs that are so unnecessary. Purely because its meaningless, its waste of a time, and most importantly, its hurting to see my OG mates doing this to one another. i swear i seriously hate it. Not one not two, not once not twice, but MANY. well at least to me, i feel like these stuffs aren't really going to end. Like its only 2 months and we're having all these kinds of shits within us. My dream of having my OG mates as my closest and most bonded group of friends in NJ just popped. I really feel so despondent upon seeing how scary things in OG can be. & the worst thing is, its never seen on the surface, its all behind-the-scenes. WELL, i dislike these kinds of drama. I really cant care to bother about these stuffs but the thought of our OG drifting apart just disallowed me to do so. So I've come to something. The next time i hear any shits like this, i'm going to ask whoever that person is to just accept others the way they are and if they are just that unhappy, by all means, confront that person and tell them what's wrong. Don't keep people in suspense. Dont hate people secretly and then complain to the whole world behind their backs. Sick and tired man. really. i really dont want an OG with people hating each other in their hearts and then appear like a happy family the next moment. i feel so fake. i dont want us to fall apart. so i'll stop those shits. i'll try. for us.

i love my grdma ♥

Dear Life, please get better...

Nevertheless, i still love OG14, that's why i'm so bothered..

how's life? :/

Wednesday, March 07, 2012, 10:38 PM

i want to go some place like this. someday. :)

confession #1: JC life hasn't been much of a fun lately. ):

during the first few weeks of orientation, i used to look forward to every school day. cause' every school day just means: Captain's ball with OG14 after school (Y)! even boring lectures during the day didn't really matter! just because OG14 was my one and only motivation for each and everyday. i was loving NJ more at that point of time and HELL YEAH JUST AT THE PERIOD WHEN OG14 WAS AT THE PEAK OF HAVING FUN, WE WERE SPLIT INTO OUR CLASSES. -.- Seriously. They made us bond with our OG for 3 WEEKS and then separate us just when our friendships were getting more and more firm. That's the #1 reason why i dislike NJ's system. ._. but well, in another perspective, i should be feeling damn happy and lucky that i got to know my OG. if i got my current class as my OG, i think i might have dropped out of NJ. Its totally the class of scholars. I'm a loser in there. ._.

lessons haven't been going well for me too ): H2 MATHS SUCKS TO THE COREEEEEEEE!!! >:( Series and Sequences are just pissing me off big time man. i just can't bloody understand those Un and Sn shits. im sorry but im really cursing maths a lot nowadays. I know cursing doesn't help but its an expression of helplessness im having for maths. ): HAIZ. maybe, afterall, i still need tuitions. & it gonna cost a bomb..

OKAY. JUST HERE FOR A RANDOM RANT SINCE MY DAD LEFT THE COM ON and the empty seat just attracted me :D

Had a chem test today. i failed. There's phy test tmr.
Wish me luck!

MAY I HAVE A FUN LIFE IN NJ. ):
really. that's all i wish for now.

Seeya! :)