“I JUST HAD SEX

& IT FELT SO GOOD~!"



HAHAHAHA! AWESOME SONG FROM LONELY ISLAND FEAT. AKON!
No. I Am Not Horny.
I love the kind of atmosphere and the music gives, esp the chorus!
i dont really know how to describe the kind of feeling but its melody just caught me!
the beats are nice too!
well apart from those dirty stuffs,
the background for the mv is damn nice. ISSIT PARIS?
cause it gives me the damn Paris feeling! i can feel the shiokness of the 3 ple standing so high up and enjoying the night breeze!
Truthfully, the first thing that caught my eyes is the scenery, not the 3 guys. HAHAH!
WELL.

I LOVE AKON'S VOICE. :D
He's the best inside!
His manly and warming voice, sing how dirty de song also nice!
LOL. But i didn't download it though. I cant play it in this living room then my family will give me that questioning glance.


:)



日子像旋转木马，在脑海转不停
出现那些你对我好的曾经



TEACHERS DAY COMING UP! :D

& i really have the heart and thought to do something for teachers. Yet, i can't drag myself away from slacking and get myself working on the cards. ):
I'm suchha disappointment!

---


♥

Remembering how close we once were,
how we confided in one another,
how we encouraged one another on when either of us was at the verge of breaking down,
how we look for green jackets together,
how we quarreled.

Yeah. I remember. Do you?
I'm Very Sure You Do.



We continue to greet each other with smiles.
Plastered smiles, i'd say.
& the moment i brush pass your shoulder,
I'd uncontrollably let out a sigh,
and the whole pile of nostalgia comes engulfing my mind like mad.



I Miss US Alot!!




曾经一起走，却走失那路口

We're parting our ways like our paths have never crossed.
We're like mere strangers. Awkward strangers.
HOW SAD IS THAT.
I always dont believe in those kind of things where people would get awkward with one another when they breakup. I'd think 'what's there to be awkward about? you two were so close, like soulmates!'
Now i know, this kind of awkwardness is uncontrollable and no matter how i try to break the ice,

IT'S JUST FUTILE.
I can break those awkwardness with strangers whom i may have only met a few seconds ago, but
Not You.


Since things have come this far, we'll just have to continue where we're heading.
To your new group of friends, and similarly, to mine.
Sorry for always having you felt Unbelonged.
But nothing's going to change.


You've found your complete new circle of friends, and so should i let it go.
We'll remain as acquaintances and though this might last forever,
it might be that we'll Never regain the closeness we had, yet,

I wish you, never having to be hurt the same way as before and All The Best with your future/current friendships!
Cause' True Friends DO EXIST.
:)


Those memories shall remain.



因为曾经拥有，所以要经历失去
因为曾经开心， 所以要经历伤心


但

不应该因为经历过失去 而不在懂得争取
不应该因为经历过伤心而不再去寻找快乐

NOSTALGIA.

尽管再不舍，

让我们继续向前走吧! :)





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Productive today @ MAC! :D
4 hours of chem. (and macwings)

AWW.
FAT ME.
HHAHHAHHHAH :P

PRESIDENT SR NATHAN.

♥

AWW I'M MISSING HIM ALREADY.
im going to miss his faces hanging around in clinics, hospitals, schools, CCs ..
his foverver-indifferent expression.
& the way my grdma calls him is damn hilarious.
But i shan't post. cause its damn freaking Racist. LOLOL.
well. Old people can be real interesting too!
& they dont feel anything despite being a racist.
I LOVE MY GRDMA :D

Well, i hope President Tony Tan will bring Singapore to greater heights despite the fact that Singapore is already at perfection. (well it certainly IS)
Lets not keep calling him Tony Tan Tony Tan, cause when everyone calls him that, i feel that Singaporeans hasn't really regarded him as the president.
Just like some sort of competition and he won.
Dont have the "He is our future president!" kind of feeling.
















Know what?
sometimes i think i'm just here to crap.
No Topic. Just Purely Typing whatever comes to my mind.

but well,

That's Cool.
:D





OFF TO NATAS FAIR SOON! :D






Slacked for 2 days and still counting... :)

Reignite my flame of passion i once had for you.
Cause, i cant seem to find it back.
):

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY

TO MY TWO PRETTY GIRLLLLLLS!!!:D


TAN LISHAN = STEAD ♥
(16/08/11)

(24/08/11)

Know what?
.








I LOVE THEM. A LOT. :)
Really thank god for giving us the chance during YOG to foster stronger friendships!
Really blessed to have such gooddd friends :D

And Talking about these two girls definitely reminds me of LEE XINHUI.
The awesome and special LEE forever.
I CAN NEVER FORGET HER. NEVER.
She really spammed my drawers with damn lovely cards. got leaves summore ;P LOLOL.


Love My Friends TTM LAH ♥





Just what i love to do. :D


Shall go Lower Seletar someday and just stone there like that.
It's just the best relaxation ever. :D

Oh yes. i should go Clarke Quay after my Prelim 2 to have a cookie and cream from haato and co. too :D i had this craving during my Prelim 1 too :P
Maybe its becoming a tradition for me! :P
Just like a reward!
Since i always get emo during exams. Not really always actually. It just started in Prelim 1 :P


Have a Ice Cream,
Sit along the Singapore River in the evening night scenery,
Enjoying the best Riverside scenery you can witness in Singapore,
along with screams you can hear from the exciting bungee ride,

HOW RELAXING IS THAT. :D

esp the part about sitting there enjoying the night breeze.
everyone will be sitting there so you wont be deem as a emo girl :D
AWWWWW...

But i always get lazy after Prelims -.-
and Olvl is nearing, nobody would be as crazy as me to go relax at this point of time.
Well.
I'm always the one out of place and there's definitely no way i can force myself to be a mugger so DON'T PRESSURIZE ME FURTHER. HAHAHAH!

im definitely pressurized enough.
THATS WHY I EMO RIGHT.


The only thing different is that the pressure and stress transform in to your motivation, but it just becomes something that make me more reluctant to study instead.


HAHHAHAHHAHAHA.


SEE, I'm Always Out Of Place.
Crazy me. ._.










One Day, I Will And Must Visit Paris.
With Him.

IEFEL TOWER FTW!!!! ♥




When things get though, Hold On.
We Are Just A Few Steps Away From The Summit.
Look at how far you've come to today.

H.A.N.G.O.N.

K.E.E.P.G.O.I.N.G.

There. Alone.

现在的心情，身心的疲惫，我无法形容。
我只能说
我很久没这么的难受
说不出的难过
对自己一次一次的期望
随着确是一次又一次的失望
失望到了谷底

我真的，
不知所措。


会考的逼近，
我的彷徨
加上我能力上的不足，疲累的心灵

我真的，
束手无策。


我没做什么，
却累了。

也就因为我没做什么，
我的愧疚慢慢的累积，
到如今剩下65天，
让我感到绝望不已，
从来没有过这样的没信心。



只能说

加油吧蕴倩。














不是说什么坚持到底

而是希望你能撑过去。

我很想找人说话，却不知要说什么。

好无奈

B-O-R-I-N-G !

Studies just spell BORING. SIANNESS. STRESS. EMO.
Life has been such a bitch to an extent that i'm probably giving up on myself.
NO motivation to study. Yet, the lazy attitude is still staying strong within me.
ITS CONTROLLING ME .
ITS AFFECTING ME.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I HATE LIVES BEFORE OLVL.

But, the times i have with my awesome genuine friends, dilligent classmates, passionate teachers, i'm really going to cherish them well. real well. Frankly speaking, studies; Olvl, are not my first priorities at this point of time. Its the mere few weeks we all have together before this kind of school life ends. A Sad Fact: After the upcoming prelim 2, we all only have bloody 8 days left together in the classroom. Those lessons in classroom, those motivational videos, those lecturing, ITS ALL OVER. It signals the ending of our short 4 years of secondary school lives. How suck can this be? We have 6 years in Primary School when we're all innocent and dumb children, and we begin to mature and learning to treasure the things around us, in the secondary education, we only have 4 years. then moving on, 2 years in tertiary education. STUPID.
Friends are Awesome. They make one's life so much interesting and tells us that We'll Never Walk Alone.

Friendship.

I know you're hating me. Those true feelings and harsh words, i know, its me. I'm sorry. I really don't notice anything unusual in our daily interactions. I mean, right from the start, i know you probably hate me, to the core. I think it'll be far worse than hell if you were to enter the same JC as me. I'm sorry. I'm a very fail friend. i admit, seriously. How many people actually like being my friend? Probably i only bring unhappiness and boredom to the people around me. First it was HER, and now its YOU. You said you found me irritating in Sec one. And i actually find you irritating at times too. But i know very well that i cherish this friendship. I dont want it to have any cock ups. But seems like im letting me emotions get the better of me. I just dont like it when you do certain things. You dont change, even after telling, i swear. But whatever the case, I want you as my friend. And i still treat you as a good friend, but i feel a repulsion from you recently. You may not know, but i'm genuinely sorry. I know i've hurt you in many ways when i'm irritated by you, snubbing you, ignoring you, treating you like a transparent sheet. I believe there's no friend you have out there who made you suffer as much. I screwed you secondary school life, not the 4years, but probably the last 1 or 2 years. You have the choice to hurt me. i seriously, wont rebut. Cause' there's not a way i can make it up for my mistakes.

FUCK MYSELF.
I CAN SCREW MY LIFE ALL I WANT IT, BUT WHY DO I SCREW OTHERS' LIVES UP?
Selfish. You deserve sufferings.

Maybe trying to treat someone you dont like good is not a good thing. i tried, very hard. yet i get the adverse effect. cause you dont feel the goodness, you feel the hypocrisy. what a shame on myself.

Confession: i dont hate you. i'm just irritated by things you do at times. In fact, very often. But,
I DONT HATE YOU.

but i deserve to be hated.


Feel free to hurt me, cause i know i've hurt you more than many times.

对不起
我还是很爱你

Living in my own reality, hopefully. ♥