My
year in review 2012
1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
I online dated. You can read about it here, here, here and here.
I, also, drove 3 1/2 hours up north. In my car. By myself. It's silly I've never driven any long distance by myself before but it's even sillier that I did so in my old and very cantankerous car. It all worked out okay (my car was a champ!) and was way worth it.
1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
I online dated. You can read about it here, here, here and here.
I, also, drove 3 1/2 hours up north. In my car. By myself. It's silly I've never driven any long distance by myself before but it's even sillier that I did so in my old and very cantankerous car. It all worked out okay (my car was a champ!) and was way worth it.
2.
Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't have a resolution this year. Instead I wrote down some goals to work though this year. I didn't complete my list 100% but I did a whole hell of a lot better than I would have had I gone with a resolution. Goals, update 1, 2, 3.
I didn't have a resolution this year. Instead I wrote down some goals to work though this year. I didn't complete my list 100% but I did a whole hell of a lot better than I would have had I gone with a resolution. Goals, update 1, 2, 3.
3.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, not yet. I get to answer this question with a yes next year though...yay!!
4.
Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. Nathan (1/18) & Cyrus (10/26).
5. What countries did you visit?
Physically none, but I'm dating an Irishman so that's like visiting Ireland, right?!
Yes. Nathan (1/18) & Cyrus (10/26).
5. What countries did you visit?
Physically none, but I'm dating an Irishman so that's like visiting Ireland, right?!
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
Someone close to me not dying, especially if it's by their own hand.
7. What date from 2012 will remain
etched upon your memory, and why?
January 18th, it's the day Nathan committed suicide. Pretty much changed my life and definitely changed my whole year.
The night I walked in and found Cyrus dead pretty much seems to be sticking too.
Death is so....so... RUDE!
January 18th, it's the day Nathan committed suicide. Pretty much changed my life and definitely changed my whole year.
The night I walked in and found Cyrus dead pretty much seems to be sticking too.
Death is so....so... RUDE!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I guess it would be going out of my comfort zone and trying online dating. Actually meeting up with the *coughweirdocough* guys in person and not running the moment I laid eyes on them was a big achievement I think.
Or maybe I should say my biggest achievement of the year was online dating and NOT being axed murdered in the process. You know, because sometimes it felt like that may be an inevitable conclusion.
9. What was your biggest failure?
A part of me feels like my biggest failure was completely being side swiped by Nathan's suicide and having no clue something like that was in him mind.
I, also, feel I failed Cyrus by not noticing he was sick before he was super sick and not being able to get him into the vet before he died.
Or maybe I should say my biggest achievement of the year was online dating and NOT being axed murdered in the process. You know, because sometimes it felt like that may be an inevitable conclusion.
9. What was your biggest failure?
A part of me feels like my biggest failure was completely being side swiped by Nathan's suicide and having no clue something like that was in him mind.
I, also, feel I failed Cyrus by not noticing he was sick before he was super sick and not being able to get him into the vet before he died.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Does serious heartache count? If so then, yes. If not then, no.
11. What was the best thing you bought?!
I haven't bought anything "big" this year so nothing stands out.
Maybe Tristan Prettyman's new album 'Cedar & Gold'. It's all kinds of awesome. Raw emotional awesomeness.
11. What was the best thing you bought?!
I haven't bought anything "big" this year so nothing stands out.
Maybe Tristan Prettyman's new album 'Cedar & Gold'. It's all kinds of awesome. Raw emotional awesomeness.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Anybody who made it through this craptastic year.
13.
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Well, obviously Nathan's. Then there are 2 or 3 other's who I will refrain from naming.
Well, obviously Nathan's. Then there are 2 or 3 other's who I will refrain from naming.
14.
Where did most of your money go?
Bills, as always.
Bills, as always.
15.
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seeing Jason Mraz with Karie (again!) 10/2. And, dating an exceptionally HOT, charming and handsome 6'5" Irishman.
Seeing Jason Mraz with Karie (again!) 10/2. And, dating an exceptionally HOT, charming and handsome 6'5" Irishman.
16.
What song will always remind you of 2012?
Restless Dream by Jack's Mannequin
Distance by Christina Perry & Jason Mraz
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Sadder.
Restless Dream by Jack's Mannequin
Distance by Christina Perry & Jason Mraz
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
Sadder.
ii.
Thinner or fatter?
The same??
The same??
iii.
Richer or poorer?
Poorer.
Poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
NOT mourning and missing those that I love.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying over & missing those I love.
20.
How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas with my family & Irish on the 22nd, I hung out with Nick on Christmas Eve (dinner & a movie, saw This is 40), and had Christmas dinner with my BFF & the rest of the Hills on Christmas.
I spent Christmas with my family & Irish on the 22nd, I hung out with Nick on Christmas Eve (dinner & a movie, saw This is 40), and had Christmas dinner with my BFF & the rest of the Hills on Christmas.
21. Did you fall in love in 2012?
Yes.
22. How many one-night stands?
None. You know, cuz I'm just that good.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Dexter
Leverage
(Only listed my new favorites)
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Dexter
Leverage
(Only listed my new favorites)
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hates a strong word but I definitely don't have a lot of love & respect for a person or two.
25. What was the best book you read?
Glen Hansard
The Walkmen
Milo Greene
JayMay
Ray LaMontagne
The Walkmen
Milo Greene
JayMay
Ray LaMontagne
27.
What did you want and get?
A crazy love affair totally worth being written about...
P.S. Just cuz it's worth writing about doesn't mean I am writing about it (obviously). That would require time and words. Who has time or words?! Not I.
28. What did you want and not get?
P.S. Just cuz it's worth writing about doesn't mean I am writing about it (obviously). That would require time and words. Who has time or words?! Not I.
28. What did you want and not get?
I wanted a non-craptastic year and definitely didn't get it. This year will go down as the crappiest year EVER. And by EVER I mean to date. Which is kind of saying a lot because that is 34 (just shy of 35) years of calculation.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Once, though it wasn't a film from this year. It's just one I finally watched.
The Avengers
Happythankyoumoreplease
And, I do have to say that Breaking Dawn Part 2 didn't suck. I hated the book but pretty much thought both BD Part 1 & Part 2 were awesome. Even if BD Part 2 had me all kinds of pissed off during parts... those of you who watched it know what I'm talking about. I actually got yelled at for saying "That/this is bull shit!" too many times. Hee!
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Once, though it wasn't a film from this year. It's just one I finally watched.
The Avengers
Happythankyoumoreplease
And, I do have to say that Breaking Dawn Part 2 didn't suck. I hated the book but pretty much thought both BD Part 1 & Part 2 were awesome. Even if BD Part 2 had me all kinds of pissed off during parts... those of you who watched it know what I'm talking about. I actually got yelled at for saying "That/this is bull shit!" too many times. Hee!
30.
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 34, and I was sick. I don't really remember it but I do know it was the last day Nathan & I "talked".
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not to sound like a broken record but Nathan not committing suicide would have been a good start to a more satisfying year.
32. How would you describe your
personal fashion concept in 2012?
I wore a lot of dresses, maxi dresses & maxi skirts & wedges. Not sure what fashion concept that is but it's what I wore.
33. What kept you sane?
The same things as always, my 10mg's of Citalopram & my BFF, Karie. I can add Crystal to the 'BFF & keeps me sane' list this year.
33. What kept you sane?
The same things as always, my 10mg's of Citalopram & my BFF, Karie. I can add Crystal to the 'BFF & keeps me sane' list this year.
34.
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I finally got the whole Ryan Gossling thing. Not sure if I fancied him the most but I definitely took notice.
I finally got the whole Ryan Gossling thing. Not sure if I fancied him the most but I definitely took notice.
35. What political issue stirred you
the most?
Woman's rights and marriage equality.
Woman's rights and marriage equality.
36.
Who did you miss?
Nathan. We were just starting to hang out a lot.
Crystal, Bug & Claire. They moved almost 4 hours away so no more (weekly) hang outs.
Cyrus. I still can't believe the little bugger died on me... especailly, before Parker.
Nathan. We were just starting to hang out a lot.
Crystal, Bug & Claire. They moved almost 4 hours away so no more (weekly) hang outs.
Cyrus. I still can't believe the little bugger died on me... especailly, before Parker.
37.
Who was the best new person you met?
Irish!!
and Texas... but that's all I've got to say about that.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
It's better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all.
Also, to make sure the important people in your life know that they are important. To not be afraid to tell someone how you feel. You are less likely to regret telling someone you love them than to regret never having been able to say it at all.
Irish!!
and Texas... but that's all I've got to say about that.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012:
It's better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all.
Also, to make sure the important people in your life know that they are important. To not be afraid to tell someone how you feel. You are less likely to regret telling someone you love them than to regret never having been able to say it at all.
39.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
It's funny how the words we never say
Can turn into the only thoughts we know
'Restless Dream' ~ Jack's Mannequin
If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone
Carry on
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
Carry on
'Carry on' ~ Fun.
It's funny how the words we never say
Can turn into the only thoughts we know
'Restless Dream' ~ Jack's Mannequin
If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone
Carry on
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
Carry on
'Carry on' ~ Fun.














