If.....

If I know that you would keep doing things behind me again and again, I would rather choose not to have known you this lifetime.

Happiness??

Haven't been blogging for a very long time. I just feel this is the only place I could write down how I really feel. I seriously do not feel happy at all. Everyday I'm really trying to feel and be happy. But the more I try, the sadder I become and start to feel so miserable all over again =(

Happiness, is easy to say than done. Sometimes I really wish someone could be there for me every single time I need someone. I think I found the person but I do not know if he's the one who could be there for me. Sometimes I really do miss the memories, the memories which is so sweet but I know for sure it won't happen again. Because people DO change. Everynight I would hide under the covers and cry so hard, I don't know what has happened to me over the years. Thinking of the past makes my situation worse than it already has been cause you know you can't go back there anymore. I always think if I can turn back the time and make a choice, I would make a different choice. But as I think deep into it, I think I would choose the same answer and get myself hurt. Somethings you just can't revive it . I always tell myself it's okay. But whenever I think of the difference between then and now, I really cannot control my tears, especially when I'm alone. Tears just flow down continuously without stopping. This is how much unhappiness I have inside me. And no, I have no one to talk to. Tried telling him many times, but if he choose to turn a deaf ear and take it as nothing had happened, there's really nothing I can do anymore... 

I really miss the happier times we had, really...... =(

17 March 2011 Akashi

17 March 2011 Thursday
Went to meet him after his work, Akashi for dinner! Remind me of times when we just got together. Blog about this place before. Food was so-so, but I like the quiet atmosphere and it reminds me of happy memories.
His Favourite pork cutlet! Hahaha!!
We had set meals each but I always love gyoza so we ordered ala-carte dish. But their gyoza really...! $8 for 6 miserable small piece! Even Suki Sushi ones are better....

5 March 2011. Frienzie

5 March 2011 Saturday
Went to a new place in Punggol, called Frienzie. Waited quite long for our seats cause it's very crowded. Managed to order dessert as the main course is not fulfilling!!

Zhixiong's and Joyce's pasta.
Chicken wings for sharing..

26 February 2011 Everything with Fries

26 February 2011 Saturday

Dinner at Everything with Fries! Ordered NUTELLA milkshake and one-egg soup, breaded salmon for me and Joyce, grilled porkchop for him and Jeffrey. Was too hungry that I forgot to take picture of my salmon! Hee! Take-away NUTELLA tart. Went Joyce and Jeffrey house for mahjong and watch tv, ate our NUTELLA tart and went Giant for awhile. Near midnight when I reached home, lucky it's my off day the next day!

22 January 2011 Family Day!!

22 January 2011 Saturday

Went with him to his company's Family Day. Took alot of free gifts when playing games. Aft a whole day of being under the sun, felt so tired and dizzy. But overall it's fun. They even arranged bus trip to the workplace to let those workers family to see their working environment. Got the two super cute octopus plush toys after playing games! We got air-brush tattoo too! \(^-^)/

7 October 2010 Thursday
Went to my mum's friend 60th Birthday dinner.
Everyone there looks like those rich people!
I want to be as rich too! haha!!
Its those buffet kind but the food not bad,
especially those mini cakes! =D


9 October 2010 Saturday
Went with him to his friend's wedding dinner.
Borrowed my mum's car and we drove there.
The bride is very pretty on that day =D
Was wondering when its going to be my turn,
or will there even be this day.... =(

3 August 2010 Tuesday
Usually we don't meet on a weekday, but today is a special day.
Its our 3rd Anniversary!
I'm happy whenever we get to meet up during weekday :D
When working in the morning, my mum came in the room holding
a box of roses and said someone delivered something for me!
Shocked and surprised, and of course very touched i almost cried.
Before I receive it, he send me a message saying I will surely message
him later. After receiving the roses then I know what he meant.
Late evening after his work, he came to fetch me and we went to one
of our fave dining place, its quiet and cosy, food not bad but I had
no appetite due to my very serious headache, felt so nauseous!
Sorry Dear, I'm not feeling well that day, so was very moody,
I hope we can celebrate this day of every year happily together :)


They look so cute! This picture never fail to make me smile.





6 - 8 August 2010 Friday - Sunday
Seminar for 3 day!!
3 days not considered long, but its the time which makes it tiring!
1st day: 9am - 12am (drag to almost 1am)
2nd day: 9am- 12am (drag to 3.15am!!!!!!!!)
3rd day: 930am-7pm (drag to almost 10pm)
So glad after the third day! I can sleep at a normal time!
To most people its okay, but usually I sleep at 11pm!
So angry & tired!!! But the seminar not totally bad, its the time!!

This is the teacher / lecturer. Funny guy.

Following Tuesday, 10 August 2010, there's a revision for the seminar.
Rush there after my work! In the cab 从天亮到天黑。。。
Tied up my hair for the first time since I left school 6 years ago!



Below pictures found inside my folder, forgot when was it taken.


作工不作工，拍拍拍拍拍。。。。。！ Quite like this picture.
Finally a picture to end the day, very funny bah :D

8 July 2010 Thursday
Time flies.... Fast than one can imagine.....
As i was typing the date above i accidentally type 8 July 200
when i realise its not 200? anymore...
This picture was taken sometime ago..
Felt like so recently but actually its more than half a year.
I'm not young anymore, I want to be 18 every year can??

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16 June 2010 Wednesday
Took with Cinnamoroll, before going to bed :)
Haa! My Strawberry Shortcake nightgown!

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6 June 2010 Sunday
Fetch my mum to go for breakfast and then to work.
After that we went to collect laptop...
Loving my Chanel Sunglasses!!!

The sun is burning my face again! :(

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13 June 2010 Sunday
We actually took bus to Suntec, its been years since we do that!
Sorry to the aunty behind, dun mean to put up your pic,
but i don't know how to photo-shop to make your face disappear :(

After an hour, we went Tony Roma for lunch! Was so hungry!
Ordered quite alot! And the below food are for only 2 of us!!
Can you imagine the fullness after that?! Totally up to the throat!
But the food quite nice :) Will go back but not ordering so much again.

Forgot the name of this drink... I think its Funky monkey? Lol!
The left picture --> face as round as usual :(