Hello! (:

Today's New Year's Eve.
1 more hour to New Year 2009!
Goodbye to 2008!

I'm getting old.
Sec 4 next year.
Then leaving dance.
Taking O's!
It's really taking a toll on me!
I'm gonna miss everything!

Goodbye to laziness!

I'm gonna miss my seniors!

2009! It's a year I'll have to get used to!

Dancers we have to make it worthwhile kay?!
I love you guys! (:

I've done my reflections earlier on!
But I guess I'm still not done letting go!
I can't!

Welcome the year!

It's been a year,
I'm still making the same mistakes.
Still hold it dear,
Too much it took, and it still takes.
Can't tell if it's a sweet dream,
Or a beautiful nightmare.
The way your eyes gleam
Still hold so much I care.
It's a new year
A brand new start.
Breeds new fear
Right from the heart.

Now I'm afraid,
So afraid.
It's unsaid,
'Cause I'm afraid.
'Cause it still
Feels like yesterday
I fell totally
Into this trap you lay.
Yet it'll be next year,
When it's tomorrow.

Tomorrow's 'today'.

Helllllo!

I'm in a gooooooooooood mood!
Today's combined practice was funnnn! And like we made new friends with crescent dancers.
(: FUN FUN FUN! (:

Amelia thinks I'm tooooo wierd! Am I?! I'm not. q: I'm just MYSELF! I hope she sees this!

q:

Byebye.

It's beautiful,
Too beautiful,

Hello!

I'm completely sadded and siianed that school's starting in 4 days.
Tomorrow have combined dance practice. (:
Wednesday going shopping! (:
Thursday sleep as much as I can.
Friday school! ):

So saddening!

Tata.

A reprise
Of verse right from the start.
A promise
Not to poach my heart.

No matter,
You still did away with it.
No better,
The rest no longer fit.

Return it back,
The world's so dull.
It's turned all black
And white, so vile.

You promised,
But didn't keep.
Can't resist,
This urge to sleep.

Sleep away the centuries,
Time will heal my broken heart.
A broken branch from growing trees,
Actually, I'd rather you keep a part,
A part of me.

Hello.

I'm feeling particularly bitchy this particular sunday afternoon. I wish I could slap someone. Well there is someone I would like to slap, anyone wanna guess who?
Well, secrets are secrets no more if more than 1 person knows, and incidentally that person has got to be you. Hmmm?
Agree?

Can't wait for shopping!

P.S. You're still a bitch. *NOT LINGYUAN* Seriously, I mean it. You are a fucking bitch!

See, told you I was feisty.

P.S.S WILDCHILD ROCKS! Watched it on DVD!

Sealed lips,
Swayed peeps.
Strange tips,
Word never keeps.

A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta

It never crossed my mind at all,
That's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone,
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you,
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.

And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why,
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me,
I'm not over it.
Tell me why,
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you.

Memories,
Supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it be this hard,
Should be strong,
Moving on.
But I see you,
Sometimes I try to hide
What i feel inside.

And I turn around,
You're with him now,
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why,
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me,
I'm not over it.
Tell me why,
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe i regret,
Everything i said.
No way to take it all back, yeah.
Now i'm on my own.
How i let you go,
I'll never understand.
I'll never understand.
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why,
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me,
I'm not over it.
Tell me why,
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why,
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me,
I'm not over it.
Tell me why,
I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.

I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you.

And here I thought the whole self-pity, self-destruction state was over. How wrong!
The damn DAM broke on me. And out it came rushing.

Hello.
I'm posting.
Had dance today! (:
Rewindddd!
24th-25th Dec.
Joanne, Lingyuan, Olivia, Angelina, Jinghui, Yilin, Benedict, Douglas, Tianjun, Tianyi, Wenxuan, Shenyong, Leon came over to countdown to christmas! (: They brought ALOT of food! (: haha And also some choya(alcohol). Then we drank some beer... LOL.
Olivia got drunk, Joanne was a little tipsy! We went to watch Twilight after Tianjun, Tianyi, Wenxuan, Shenyong left. It was a midnight movie. HAHA. Ben always wanted to go to one =.= . Anyway the movie was quite boring, it was so slow-moving. But, while I first thought that Robert Pattinson was disgustingly ugly, he looks better and better in the movie to me. WIERD! And also, Taylor looked so fugly with that hair, like some tribal person! PLEASE CUT IT! lol. Went back home while Angelina left. Joanne left at 5-6am. We stayed up till then. Then slept till 8! Olivia & Douglas left. Went for breakfast, finished at like 10:30am. Then, guess what?! We went all the way to Paya Lebar for Converse sale. Bought nothing! -.- Went for lunch. Well Ben and Leon ate, AT 12?!!!! LIKE OMG RIGHT. AND THE UNFAIR PART IS, THEY DON'T GROW FAT. WTF! And I'm fat! ): Anyway, after that, they left. Then the rest of us met up with Olivia at Bugis! Talked, walked. Went home. BATHE. SLEPT TILL 8. Ate dinner and slept till today morning! (:
Woke up, got dressed, bus, dance, meeting, peixuan's house with alyssa, yilin, angelina, jinghui, olivia, lingyuan. TOOK SUPER LOT OF PHOTOS. zilian! (:
HAHA.

Peixuan's nephews are uber cute.
Nigel reminds me of someone when they were young!
Super super cute. LIKE OMG.
HAHA! (: Ian took a liking to ANGELINA! BAD TASTE! LOL.

byebye

P.S. I left my phone at Peixuan's house. AND SHE'S COMING TO ORCHARD TOMORROW JUST TO RETURN ME. =.= I FEEL BAD. SHE'S TOO NICE! ):

When I think about it,
I know that I was never there or even cared.
The more I think about it ,
The less that I was able to share with you .
I try to reach for you,
I can almost feel you.
You're nearly here ,
And then you disappear .
Disappear, disappear, disappear.
You disappear.
Disappear, disappear, disappear.

French fingertips,
Red lips,
Bitch is dangerous.

I'm baaaack!
Shall not post about the rest of shanghai! Fairly uninteresting.
(:
Was sick in the morning when just arrived!
(:

Byebye.

I'm hot.
I'm feisty.
I've got
No modesty.

Hello! (:
Thanks for tagging. I'm ignoring the comments about the apartment.
Miss you all! (:
It's been around 4 days since I posted.
Saturday, after I posted, I went for a lunch with my parents' friend at a restaurant, we kept like playing around. That is me and my brothers. LOL. Then after that we went to this place to buy materials, you know to make clothes. Yeah, Lol. After that, was tired so we went home and the tailor came to our place. (: My bro made a suit, 2 shirts, I made 2 shirts too. Looks kinda formal, but it's nice! (:
Okay, so after that watched prince of tennis. sleep.
Sunday, woke up. I can't really remember... SKIP! (:
Monday, woke up. Looked around for something my bro wanted to buy for his friend. 0.0Then couldnt find it. So we went to eat japanese all-you-can-eat! OMG. we eat until cannot walk!! 0.0 haha Super filling! Chinese food is oily and salty. and it's an overdose! 0.0 HAHA. After that, we took a walk around. Looked out for interesting stuff, then we went for dinner and then home! (;
Tuesday, woke up at around lunch time, so we had lunch. Was a short day, walked around the place but bought nothing. Went home, played alittle tennis. I'm getting fat! ): Dinner delivery... Prince of Tennis. Sleep. (:
Wednesday, woke up and then went out for lunch, walked there. (: My youngest bro's last day in shanghai, he gotta go home to take his school posting! ): aww. he wasn't feeling well. he and my dad took a cab home after lunch, my bros and my mom + me walked home. Talked and played around on the way home. Fixed my unsightly phone, but still can't press the play button! My bro and dad left for the airport, my eldest bro and mom went for massage, me and my 2nd bro stayed home. Watched more Prince of Tennis then ate lots of toast! (: HAH. Tailor came over for fitting. LOVED MY SHIRTS! (; HAHA MORE Prince of Tennis.
Then here I am, stealing this time to post! (; haha. my bros have collapsed on the couch.

Holidays are fine, but I'm missing home.
Even more so, you! (:
TATA.

P.S I know I've put on weight, I can feel the extra weight! 0.0 I'm fat! 0.0

A break,
They tell me to take.
Somehow,
Doesn't feel like now.
It feels like running away
From a game I know I must play.
It feels like pausing a game
Where the ending'll be the same.
I don't wanna face it,
I don't wanna admit.
I'm missing you.
Oh yes, I am.

MY BLOG IS DEAD!

Hello.
It seems like you guys don't miss me 'cause you didn't tag!
RAWR! Anyway, nope, I'm not back. I just have internet access here! (:
So I'm posting. Okay about these first 6 days.
Sunday, reached shanghai international airport at around like 6am. Got into the car and went to our apartment on 1 Park Avenue, I so love this address. HAHA
And after that we went to eat lunch at some restaurant,it was really good xiaolongbao and other stuff. After lunch we went to a tailor, where I altered many of my clotheds, shirts and jeans. While my eldest bro and my mom made like TONS of stuff at a cheap price. wow! Then off to the shoemaker, my mom made her heels, my bro made his leather shoes. Also at a good price. Went home, while mom and my eldest brother went for a massage. Fell asleep until at night. Ate some supper. Then back to sleep.
Monday, first thing was waking up at 11? LOL. My parents went to the bank, the last time I was online too. After that, we went for lunch I think. Then to the photo studio for a family portrait. So next time you're at my house, you'll get to see it! 0.0 HAHA. It was fun! (: And then, we went shopping!!!!!!! My brother bought a BABY MILO HOODIE! (: Nice, green and white. WARM TOO! (: haha. Then we walked around and saw nothing else, so we went for dinner. SLEEP!
Tuesday, BREAKFAST. Then we went shopping, shop and shop and shop. AHA. I got myself a BABY MILO HOODIE TOO! White, brown and gold! (: I like it. ahha. Bought school shoes, a bag, trackpants. I think that's it. Anyway there'll be more. Then I think lunch, more shopping at the dvd store. I bought circus, I Am... Sasha Fierce and Jennifer Hudson for CDs. For DVDs, I bought GG2, House4,5, 90210, Heroes2,3. Shit I didn't realise it was so little. I wanted DesperateHousewives5 and GG1, but my mom don't allow, cuz my bro's friend has GG1, ask me to borrow. Andd... they scam, GG2 is not complete, LOL obvious, not even completed online, Heroes3 also, I think House5 also. ): BUT IT'S GOOD ENOUGH. My bros bought other stuff too. Then dinner at home! (:
Wednesday, went to HANGZHOU, FRIGGIN LONG! Was on the same highway as the CHINATRIP'07. Thought about them, then fell asleep. It was a long journey, lunch dinner. Hotel.
Thursday, went to the HUANGSHANZHEN. Wanted to go up the mountain but it was too late when we reached there. We stayed at the Traffic Police's Hostel-Converted Hotel. AMAZED?!?! ME TOO! I stained my hoodie here. WHAT A BITCH! I will get it off.
Friday, went up the stupid mountain! STUPID MOUNTAIN HURT MY KNEES AND ANKLES. STUPID. REGRET THE WHOLE THING.AFTER THAT LUNCH, THEN WE WENT ON OUR WAY BACK TO SHANGHAI. ON THE LONG LONG JOURNEY IN A CRAMPED CRAMPED CAR, I THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING. I thought about next year, when I would graduate. Thought about ord'08. Thought about dance. I miss dance. Thought about my brothers, I think we got closer. Thought about AABDLLLPTWYY. Thought about click8(sounds wierd). Thought about what will happen after ord'09. Thought about what the hell I'm gonna do after I graduate. Be a scardey-cat or just do it. I don't know. But I still hope it'll be fine. (; ANYWAY reached HOME,SHANGHAI. watched dvds. SLEEP.
WAKE UP, here now, ilgotta get ready soon for a lunch.

Byebye.

What the future holds
Is unforetold.
We need believe our destiny
Is unbounded, free.
Our hands mould our path,
Our minds light the way.
We only need fear our own wrath,
No matter what they might say.
Believe,
And limitless possibilities.
Believe,
And reach into the infinities.
Believe,
And watch your story unfold,
Believe,
But I am neither brave nor bold.

Departed.

Byebye! (:

You won't see me for 14 days! Miss me! (:

See you guys, have a good holiday! (:

This body's scheduled for departure,
But his heart's pulling it's way.
A lifetime filled with all adventure,
And it's the last day.
He seemed to live a life of no regrets,
So why's he hanging on?
His friends spoke of no neglect,
So why's he not yet gone?
He's struggling through every night,
Putting up a futile fight.
He's in a place where others wouldn't try,
But he's not one to give up and cry.
Determined to never fail,
His heart's not yet ready to set sail.
'Cause you're still kicking,
And a promise to never leave you waiting.

Hello.
My tagboard is like dead! ): NO FAIR.
Hmph. Anyway today was the last day for dance two weeks. SAD but relieved at the same time.
Yesterday was practice in the morning then ORD and dance camp.
It was super fun. In the morning then pump alot then like go NHPS then the whole practice thing where I sit on my ass for 2 hours. Then after lunch we came back for ORD.
Mass dance with all the seniors, then the videos. Super sad can. ): Then the red carpet. Then stupid peixuan go cry. I at first not crying one lorh! ): Then after red carpet then sec3s present our song. (: We sing sing sing then like we too fast, sorry douglas. Then like very sad already, almost cry but not yet. Then they ask for encore. Then this time, we sing more in sync. Then sing sing sing, then suddenly start crying. OMG can. Super sad. Then after that going to buffet, then laoshi teared while we singing. Then olivia go hug laoshi and tell him don't cry. Then she start crying, then everyone cry, then I cry worse. Then I LOOK SUPER UGLY. So we cry cry cry. After the dinner, then dance camp. Played with gross stuff (: WAS SUPER FUN. If anyone want to complain then complain lorh.
Hmph!
Today was a short practice, pump alot again but super tired. Then we run and run, did a mini-mass dance then crescent teach us a little bit of VITALITY. Then zhongyi jihe and talk to sec3s. (:
After that we go eat kfc. Angelina is a big mouth! lol
Anyway after kfc, I go cut hair.
After I cut hair then I go meet my aunt who brought me home then I bathe and change, get ready for her party.
Then like after I get ready, I went with all my bros. Lol
We had fun lorh. (: Barbeque for people to eat, we're the chefs. (: HAAH super cool.
I rediscovered why I can't stand my younger brother again.
He's super childish. Anyway came home, and now I'm here.

THAT'S IT. (:

It's like a whole new world,
Redefined by love.
No need for any other words,
A feeling above.
I've seen clearer,
Tasted better.
Music more calming,
Scents more soothing.
But most of all,
Your gaze still as warming.
Your touch still electrifying.
Your voice still as loving.
Your scent still as inviting.
Love's just great.

Hello.
Today was. let me just put it in a way people would understand. BAD.
Horrible.
We're a sinking ship with 10 tonnes of rice on it.
Goodbye.

We've sacrificed,
We've tried.
And now, I'm tired.
I'm afraid.
I'm paddling so hard,
But we're still sinking.

Hello! (:
I spent today SLACKING! (: yay
haha. It's not as if I don't like dance or anything, but these few days I'm feeling kinda homey. I guess it's a good time to go overseas. Dance just disappoints I guess, ORD soon, I'm feeling sqeamish.
I love my brothers, okay that's weird coming out from me but yeah it's true.
Especially my older brothers. (:
Anyway! I found this quiz at jieying's blog. you know how I'm like with quizzes:

1. What is your CCA?
: Imma proud NANHUADANCER.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
: Maybe. I think I might. LOL

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
: I do actually, I get to see all my friends.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
: Migrate to California. Go shopping. Get all the materialistic things on my wishlist. Charity?

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend ?
: It's most probable.

6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved?
: Being loved. (:

7. List out your 15 favourite songs.
: Britney Spears: Circus, Unusual You, Shattered Glass, Out From Under, Kill The Lights, My Baby, Quicksand, Amnesia, Trouble.
Beyonce: Halo
Shontelle: T-Shirt
Ashley Roberts: Played
Nicole Scherzinger: Until U Love U
Jason Mraz: Beautiful Mess
Various Artists: Just Stand Up

8. If the person you like is secretly attached, what would you do?
: Secretly attached? huh. I'll hurt inside but pretend I'm okay with it.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
: Uhmm not really. *WARNING to Angelina* don't gimme smartass comments.

10. What makes you angry?
: Being sad all the time.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
: Famous, Rich and Completely Successful.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
: Family and Friends.

13. What is the most important thing in your life?
: Happiness, Love, Success, Materialistic Satisfaction.

14. Would your rather be single and rich or married but poor?
: Single and filthy rich just like Jieying.

15. What is your favourite colour?
: Hot Pink! (:

16. Would you give up a person that you obsessed so long & had another relationship with another guy/girl?
: You mean like what? Give up on it cause it's hopeless? Depends.

17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick ?
: I don't know.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
: How horrible? and who?

19. What do you want to tell the person you like?
: A confession.

20. What type of person will you fall in love with?
: Someone who's a friend and understands but not completely.

heh!
Dance tomorrow, I hope I actually get around to doing something.
Maybe accomplish something.

Byebye.

I endured the insults,
'Cause I knew you didn't mean them.
But now I'm starting to think,
That you have all the intention.

Hello. (:
Dance at NanHuaPri today. Alot of seniors came down, really missed them. ):
ORD soon! I can't believe it.
Today I slacked again, and I know where laoshi's coming from but still I wish I could dance.
(: Nonetheless, NHDS is still the bestest thing that ever happened to me.
Jiayou! (:
Bye.

Wipe up those fearful tears,
I know you've had to try.
Confide in me, your fears,
Those that made you cry.
I'll listen to them all,
So don't keep it bottled up.
I'll break your dreaded fall,
Even stay to help you up.
Watching over from far away,
I'll think of you everyday.
You're breaking my heart,
Even when you just got cut.
Imagine my shattered state,
When you're crying in the dark.
Every single time you prayed,
I'll wish you all the best of luck.
So tell me what's bothering you,
I'll try to my best to fix it.
In truth, I'm just really selfish too,
Just don't wanna admit.

Hello! (:
Well... I'm bored. Tomorrow have dance at NHPS. lol (:
Cool! I'm young again! (:
Anyway, I didn't go lick floor yesterday ):
'Cause I was rudely awakened by my eldest bro at 11am in the morning, with no consideration whatsoever that I've been sleep-deprived for the last 5 days, only to tell me that we were going out for lunch to celebrate my youngest bro's birthday, when it's on 1st Dec. I dressed as I always do when I lick floor and I went and we ate and ate and ate and talked and talked until like 3+pm. By that time too late already, I'm sorry! ):
Anyway, somehow the discussion of birthday presents came up. And my mom remembered I haven't gotten mine yet!
YAYYY! SOOOOO.... we resuscitated the promise that if we got good grades, my mom will get us a PS3. Buttttt... instead my eldest bro said that the Wii was more family oriented. AND SOOOO WE GOT A Wii! For my birthday and my results, on a day whereby we were celebrating my youngest bro's birthday. Hey... he got his Ipod TOUCH! earlier in the year. Makes no sense right?! anyway when we got to Best at Takashimaya, we saw GUITAR HERO WORLD TOUR!!!!!! haha. Well, I love mommy! (:
HAHA. So all in all, I got a Wii and guitar hero world tour + 2 other games. How cool is that!
YAY! (:
sigh. Today was boring. My fridge's full, I'm fat, my brothers agree, I'll try not to stuff myself.

Tata.

We're breaking,
Like glass in heat.
Been faking,
Trick or treat?
Played along,
Like you really did.
Right this wrong,
I'm strong, not a kid.
Fragile, perhaps.
But this is how I grow.
Crazy, perhaps,
But I'd rather you just go.
Take away all you want,
You've left me bare.
Spoken the words so blunt,
Why d'ya even care?
Just leave me alone,
Stay far away,
Don't haunt me.
I cannot condone,
The words you say,
Don't you see?

I really cannot settle to be just a friend,
How do you expect,
With those mixed signals you send,
For me not to be a wreck?

quizzes. skip if you dont enjoy them.

You Are an Impulse Shopper

When you go shopping, you have no set strategy. You just browse until something catches your eye. You like sales, but you mostly like them because they're an excuse to shop. Of all the types, you are the most likely to be a shopaholic. You can't stop shopping! You're not the kind of person who makes a list or plans what to buy. So sometimes you end up with too much stuff.

What Kind of Shopper Are You?

What Your Cupcake Says About You

At parties, you tend to be a social butterfly. You enjoy making conversation and making sure everyone is having fun. You have a fair amount of restraint in your life, but you don't go overboard. You let yourself enjoy life. The most important thing in your life is your significant other. You are laid back, flexible, and easy to get along with. To know you is to care for you.

The Cupcake Test

You Are Very Approachable

You can talk to anyone, and it shows. People are eager to start conversations with you. You are open and friendly. You are willing to connect with almost anyone. While it's great to be approachable, there is such a thing as too approachable. Eventually someone will try to take advantage of you. Don't be afraid to say no or end an awkward conversation.

Are You Approachable?

You Are the Bow Pose

You are an open hearted person. You seek connections and make them easily. You are naturally generous - especially with your love and your time. You have a knack for thinking up interesting ideas. You are an inventor and a creator. You approach everything in life with a relaxed attitude. You accept what you can't change.

What Yoga Pose Are You?

Your Heart is Feeling Passionate

Your heart is brimming with passion, intensity, and extreme lust. You definitely have desire for one particular person, and it seems like nothing can squelch your craving. You are ready to walk across fire for the one you love. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Distrust and aggression . You're determined to get what you want. Your current outlook on love: Love equals obsession. Love equals mania. Love equals thirst. Your love life will improve if you: Follow your passion far, but not so far as to ruin your life. Watch out for: False feelings. Your emotions are intense, but they could easily mislead you.

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

You Are a Crossword Puzzle

You are well read, and you have a good head for remembering facts. You are a wordsmith. You have a way with words, and you're very literate. You are a mysterious person who enjoys dropping little clues every now and then.

What Kind of Puzzle Are You?

(:

Hello! (:
I'm just home from Alexandra Hospital!
Don't worry, I'm fine. haha.
For once, I'm visiting and not actually the victim/patient. (: But that doesn't make it any better.
Let me start from the top! (:
Today I came to school at 9+! But wasn't late cause from 9-1 is optional. So... I saw like everyone slacking.
Slack slack slack.
Then alyssa and peixuan came. YAHOO! (:
ahaha And they are like good people. They came for our exco meeting until the part about ORD! (:
haha Thanks!
They help quite alot.
Dance was better. But I was boredd! ):
And when laoshi pai at the parade square, we improved! (:
And then for our last full up, Tianjun fell while doing some somersault on the bamboos.
Here comes all the gore!
Yingying's feet got sat on by michelle, or so I heard, and couldn't walk/stand.
Another sec1 got cut by something and bled.
And giant(rachelphay) got cramps! ):
OUCH.
But tianjun was worst, his cut was so deep and by looking at it, i knew there were gonna be needles involved! (:
So Meiman Laoshi and Laoshi went to alexandra hospital with him! (: so nice. (:
And we were alll hurrying. Sooo we hurried and alot of sec2s and sec3s went. So the sec2s left first while liangyuan was helping/pushing/shoving yingying into mskee's car! I still don't get her. She insisted on going home/walking home by herself when she couldn't even stand. 0.0
(: Then together we all went to the hospital. Saw laoshi. Then talked with tianjun's cool mom, Dajie. AHAH anyway the sec2 girls left soon. And we stayed for super long, from 7+ to 9+. Doing lots of crap. Like talking and scaring people.
But nicholas and lingyuan were stupid. They kept exploring and found the mortuary. Even the words chill me! ); And they got scared. LIKE freaky! 0.0
HAHA anyway it was fun, quite except the needles and tianjun falling part. ):
(: we're together. Love nhds.
HAHA tianjun has a cool mom! (:
lala! (; I'm home
Take care dancers! (;

I can't turn my head,
These feelings never fade.
You just take my breath away
With every single word you say.
I cling to every exclamation,
I breathe with every period.
I burn with sheer elation,
I cry with all I've feared.
Weakness comes with greed,
And addiction alike.
These demons start to feed,
No strength to stage a fight.
My weakness
Stems from sheer addiction
To fight this thirst,
Bring a dose of strong sedation.
Like a bottle of classic wine,
To a hardcore alcoholic.
A very likely high incline,
Burning out the candle wick.
Cure me of my ailments,
And take this curse away.
I pray with the elements
Or I might never see the light of day.

Hello! (:
Dance was demoralising.
Sadded!
Sigh...
It's so sad.
Anyway.. today was not a good day!
):
I WANT DANCE!

I'm like the ring leader, I call the shots.
I'm like a firecracker, I make it hot.
When I put on a show,
I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins.
Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break.
I'm like a performer, the dance floor is my stage.
Better be ready, hope that you feel the same.

Hello!
Dance today was tiring but I didn't dance at all.
I only keep lifting people and let nicholas step only.
And I'm not even sure if I'm gonna do shuangrenwu.
I really want to!
Sorry Angeline and Olivia! (:
I think I pulled a muscle. ):

BRITNEY KICKS ASS! (:
ahah

Mister photographer,
I think I'm ready for my closeup.
Tonight,
Make sure you catch me from my good side.
Pick one,
These other hoes just wanna be me.
Is that money in your pocket or you happy to see me?

When we wish,
We truly believe there's no other way.

Hello.
I'm kind of irritated.
I'm in love with my blogskin.
It speaks so much to me on so many levels. (;
Anyway back to being irritated, I want to dance!
And laoshi haven't start to pai our part yet.
SIGH.
Hope he will tomorrow.
UNFAIR. The parts he pai already are so much fun.
Tomorrow dance again.
Hurrah.

P.S. LAOSHI IS SUPER CUTE! haha he's very funny. RACHEL IS JU REN(giant). SO SARCASTIC. ahahahaha

And now, I'm wishing that it could all turn well overnight.

We cannot defy
Our very nature.
Oh yes, we can try,
That's for sure.
We'll fight at all costs,
To be someone else.
But I'm tired of loss,
It's only what my mind tells.
I've put down my sword,
And decided to embrace
Our selves dark and flawed.
Time to rest my case.
And so they tell me I lie,
I don't care but I'm sure,
When I'm alone, I don't sigh.
For I'm The Great Pretender.

I thought it was time for a change.
Comments on the blogskin will be appreciated.

HELLO! (:
AFTER DANCE TODAY, I'M SO HIGH.
I guess we're dancing AYG afterall but laoshi also gonna pai SYF but not competing just for the lower secs to grasp the feel! (:
We might be performing that for next year Cultural Potpourri X. (:
So all's well. (: I'm happy.
I'm happy because there's like super lot of dance practices! (:
(:

ANDDD I'M SUPER JEALOUS OF PEIXUAN AND PEARLYNN ETC... THOSE WHO GOT PERFORM FOR THE 45TH ANNIVERSARY GALA! GET TO TAKE PICTURE WITH ELVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RARH. 0.0

DANCERS TAKE CARE

P.S. SENIORS HAVE A GOOD PROMENADE! (: I'm sure you guys look stunning! (:

When will the clock strike twelve,
I pray soon for the good of me.
Please pray for me to restraint myself,
For this leash to not break free.
For if I find the perfect one,
I might not come back anymore.
For if I always get what I want,
I'll start to lose my very core.
I'm hopeless in this way,
I'd fall hard and straight into.
Captivated by every word they say,
Don't think I'd ever get through.
Five minutes more to control,
And I couldn't do so.
Hence this story starts to unfold,
This is how it goes.

Hello! (:
Today had open house!
SUPER FUN. SUPER HIGH.
ALL NANHUADANCERS ARE CUCKOOOOOOOOOO! (:
OR AT LEAST TREADING LIGHTLY ON INSANITY. (:

haaha We had super lot of fun!
First performance was OKAY! (:
Then we slacked around. Had to round up a search party of 8 girls to look for a guy.
A record breaking event in NHDS history! I think.
(:
Anyway we had fun in our second round! We continued dancing in the rain! (:
I was soooo HIGH!
Hope you're okay wenxuan! (:

ANYWAY
After that went to KALLANG! (:
Had dinner.
It was fun.

But nothing's greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace,
And in this world of loneliness,
I see your face.

Hello!
Today had practice for openhouse. It was completely tiring.
We had funn! (;
It was a good time.

I don't want to feel like this,
It feels so wrong to be.
Perhaps a subtle hint I've missed,
But it hurts so much to me.
I'm starting to believe,
You'd probably love him more than me.
Maybe I'm supposed to leave,
It's hard for me to open my eyes and see.
See what I really cannot be,
See all the flaws I'll always have.
A cage from which I cannot flee,
See what I am and what is left.

Hello!
Yesterday was Cultural Potpourri IX. Hope we did well.
I'm gonna miss dance. It might be our last large-scale performance including the sec3s'08.
It's so horrifying to think that we're already going to be sec4s and that we're going to leave NHDS soon.
I remember that when we're in sec1, we were sooo completely stupid and blur. We didn't cherish the time together with our seniors and batch by batch they left. First was Yihang's batch, I really remember that year's ORD. I remember even if we weren't so close. I couldn't like comprehend why it was so completely heartbreaking and sad. I remember crying, I felt completely at a loss. I couldn't understand the atmosphere, it felt like someone had died. And in truth, now I know it truly feels like that. We're going to leave and there's a possibility we might not meet again. We're never going out there together, with the same ultimate goal, to perform and bring glory to NanHuaDanceSociety. Last year's ORD had the lack of atmosphere but it was also heartbreaking to see Junyang's batch go. We danced SYF together. We were closer and had done so much, achieving our Gold With Honors. I really miss the times we shared. Though they were strict with us and we were afraid, we were still friends. Too see them go was really hard for us. This year's speech day was the last performance for Alyssa's batch and we didn't do so well, I bawled my eyes out. It felt so horrible that their perfect ending wasn't that perfect afterall. I foresee lots and lots of tears at this year's ORD. And to think this might be our last large-scale performance. ALREADY. It's not enough. I'm greedy, I am. I really want more. 3 years, it's really really not enough. Not enough, I tell you. I can't believe that we're going to leave soon. 4 years just zipped past. I hate it. It's not enough, not enough at all!. We must promise to stay together and keep in touch. We must.

It's all been
A large photo album.
So much seen,
Candles have burned.
Our time's not up,
I refuse to believe.
I won't give up,
So much, we've received.
We'll stick together,
We'll be forever.
We'll defend our honor,
Fear will not deter.
We'll keep in touch,
I promise I'll try.
Time left's not much,
But we won't cry?

NG JOANNE, YOU BITCH!

I WAS PRANKED.

P.S. NOT EMO ANYMORE. MISUNDERSTANDING BECAUSE OF THE BITCH! RARHHH OMG. I'M SOOOOO NOT GETTING OVER IT.
I'M GONNA WHOOP YOUR ASS TOMORROW!

Hello! (:

Just came back from MADAGASCAR ESCAPE 2 AFRICA. ahah Super funny. I was soooo embarrassed.. ):
haha It was fun. Went with Joanne, Lingyuan, Rachel, Yilin, Angelina, Jinghui, Benedict, Wenxuan, Leon, Tianjun, Douglas, Liangyuan. Me and the girls went after we finished the noticeboard. I waited for 2 hours for them and olivia. but olivia didn't want to watch ): SAD!

It's me being selfish,
But I could have lived without having to know.
Really can't help but wish
With all my heart that it was unlikely so.
I'm sorry, really I am,
I promised I could handle it.
I'm sorry, really I am,
I promised not to throw a hissy fit.
I'm sorry, really I am,
But I really can't help to be a grouch.
I'm sorry, really I am,
But all I really can say now is, "Ouch!"

?noitarepsed ot em nevird ev'uoy taht yppah uoy erA
.dab sa tsuj truh s'eno ,yawa selim fo sderdnuh s'eno ,siht gnisuac s'enO
.eno on htiw tfel m'I ,tsom eht ot klat ot enoemos deen I nehw emit siht tA
.leurc si etaF

Hello!
Went to PA today. Didn't do much.

Is it just my luck?
Or does life just suck?
I was merely getting used to it,
But it just had to take another hit.

Hello! (:
I'm completely tired, my back is aching like OMGOMGOMG.
(: Dancing is funnnnn!

It's like I'm falling,
All over again.
Sounds like my calling,
Driving me insane.

Broken defense,
It's juvenile.
It's more intense,
Completely wild.

It's strangely obsessive
And more to believe.
Till it comes crasing down,
Then I can't turn 'round.

It's sadistic isn't it,
For me to expect.
You'll strip me complete,
And leave me a wreck.

But it's all I can do,
To prepare for the blow.
It's all I can do to
Protect me when you go.

Dancedancedance.... No more practices for Cultural Potpourri!!!
LIKE OMG?!

sighhhh.

We're gonna do dance noticeboard soon.

I'll live for myself,
I'll be who I am.

Dance today, I'm completely shagged.
Doing cultural potpourri today and tomorrow.

A stubborn perception,
A severed connection.
A heartless rejection,
A sincere reflection.

The twist and twirls,
Inviting melody.
The story unfurls,
A nostalgic degree.
A promise unsaid,
A pact unbroken.
We're all afraid,
To be awoken.
This beautiful dream
Splitting at it's seams,
The bells are ringing
And morning approaching.

My emotions seem to have flatlined.

hello. I'm back.
I've been bored, so I went to revisit the past.
I think I've reached a point whereby I can't feel anymore or where I feel minimally.
Am I getting used to all the ups and downs? Is it possible?
I don't know.
I remember when I used to be so naive, so ignorant, so innocent.
It's like I could still be me.
Even though the way which I used to speak in irked the hell out of me now, and that I could not stand to even look at it, it was all so natural. I don't mind just being us again.

What happened?

The days swept past,
They went too fast.
I wished I could have caught on,
But I'm left holding on,
To the shattered bits and broken parts,
Like weathered notes and broken hearts.
But my mind registered too slow,
Inside, I didn't want to grow.
It didn't matter if I didn't know,
At least these weaknesses wouldn't show.
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep,
The wounds never ran so deep.
The mornings always spoke of beginnings,
And I held hope I'd die and sprout wings.
Now all that's left are the withered roses,
I'll take my heartbreaks in smaller doses.
It feels like I've violated the third decree,
I'm never going to be able to see,
The world as it used to be.

We only create words
To speak our ideas.
Sometimes they really hurt,
Perhaps bring tears.

Three words
Make a difference.
Three words
Might raise concerns.

Forget what you speak,
Just move your body.
We're all a little weak,
And it's too wordy.

Communication,
Disconnection.

A state of trance,
Feel this music.
Let's just dance,
To this music.

Our eyes meet,
My fingers tingle.
I look at my feet,
Your gaze lingers.

Takes the edge off,
Distracts me for a while.
Takes my mind off,
Seems a little juvenile.
But it numbs the pain
When it hurts too much.
Acts like a bout of rain,
Cooling to the touch.

hello!

Today was chinese O levels. It was quite easy compared to EOYs for higher chinese.

Not in the mood for blogging these days.

might disappear for awhile.

It's aching,
Just a little.

HELLO!

CHINESE O LEVELS TOMORROW AND I DIDN'T STUDY! WOOT GOOD GAME.
ADDING TO THE FACT THAT I HADN'T SPOKEN OR WRITTEN A SINGLE WORD OF CHINESE SINCE I-DON'T-KNOW-WHEN. SIGHH.
DIE LIAO! (:
I'M ONLY WORRIED FOR COMPOSITION BUT OTHER THAN THAT I'M FINE.
GOOD LUCK.
REMEMBER YOUR IC, ENTRY PROOF AND DICTIONARY! (:

BYEBYE.
WE'LL BE FREE AFTER TOMORROW.

Time will flow,
Friends will come and go.
Life goes on,
Nightmares come to haunt.
We move on,
New memories, hence born.

Hello. I'M HOME FROM SENTOSA! IT WAS SUPER FUN. MY LEGS ARE SUPER TIRED BUT I'M THE FIRST HOME OUT OF ALL THE REST.
Okay. I woke up then I go and meet the rest of them after their movie, The Coffin. I never watch 'cause I watch already. So I went to meet Tianjun, Leon, Shenyong, Joanne, Lingyuan, Yilin, Jinghui and Angelina and I realised Tianjun's brother also came! (:
YAY! (: The more the merrier. So we all went up to buy our tickets and waited for Benedict! (:
We went over to Sentosa, then we walk to Palawan beach first to eat koufu. HAHA since I ate at home already, I watched all of them eat lorh. heh. After we eat then, me and the girls go ride skyride and luge. SUPER FUN CANNNN! (: HAHA. then I screamed while the rest of the guys were watching. So PAISEH! ): BUT IT'S 'CAUSE THE TRAIL DAMN WINDY, then I keep banging into the sides. so I scream. ahah it was the end already anyway.HAHA. THEN WE STARTED FOOLING AROUND IN THE WATER AND AT THE BEACH. AHAHHA. quite sian at first but after that then super super fun. ahahah STARTED DUNKING PEOPLE INTO THE WATER.
AT LIKE 6+ we went to clean up and stuff. haha we couldn't find a toilet at siloso so we walk until palawan lorh.
after cleaning up we went to go back and like reach vivo at 8+? CAN'T DECIDE WHAT TO EAT SO WE WALK AROUND AND AROUND AND DECIDED WE ALL GO BUY WHAT WE WANT THEN TAKE AWAY then meet at the balcony there to eat.
We went to buy carl's junior then we started eating without waiting for the guys. WE WERE RIGHT TO DO THAT LORH. They went upstairs haha so we would never have started eating larh. anyway we eat super long. CARL'S JUNIOR IS LIKE A LOT OF FOOD CAN... jinghui and angelina eat subway. me joanne lingyuan eat carl's junior and yilin eat some jap stuff.
haha. (:

we eat super super long until 9+ then we go home. (:
I'm home and clean. (:

SUPER FUN TODAY. HAHA I'M CLEAN!

It's a memory I'll keep
Under lock and key deep
In my heart or clasped tight
In the locket I wear with pride.

HELLO!
I'M TIRED. MY BACK IS ACHING LIKE WTF?!?! HAHA STAND UP DURING THE WHOLE 48MINUTES MRT RIDE.
(: sighhh! (: I'm in quite a good mood.
BEYONCE'S NEW SINGLE IS SUPER DUPER NICE! haha I fell in love with the mv before the song. So IF YOU LIKE THE SONG,YOU WILL LOVE THE MV. it's kinda abstract. my kinda thing. (:

'Cause you're hot and you're cold.
You're yes, then you're no.
You're in, then you're out.
You're up and you're down.
You're wrong when it's right.
It's black and it's white.
We fight, we break up.
We kiss, we make up.
You don't really wanna stay, no,
You don't really wanna go.
'Cause you're hot and you're cold.
You're yes, then you're no.
You're in, then you're out.
You're up and you're down.

Hello. Today was a boring day again.
Had dinner with Olivia at Tiong. AGAIN! ): ahah

quiz from JIE.

A - Available: I am totally. I'm available to the point of boredom.
A - Age: 15 years 1 month 9 days 23 hours 16 mins as of 2138HR- 31/10/08. but who's counting anyway.
A - Annoyance: BORED LIKE MAD.

B - Best Friend: bestfriendS.
B - Band: hmmm.... solo acts are kinda more my thing.
B - Birthday: 21/09/93

C - Crush: It's a secret.
C - Country: SINGAPORE. boring.
C - Cat: no thanks.

D - Dead Pet's Name: no pets.
D - Dad's name: UNINTERESTING.
D - Dogs: no pets.

E - Easiest person to talk to: hmm. myself. I know who's the hardest.
E - Eggs: OLIVIA EATS TONS OF THEM. that vegan that eats eggs and lobsters.
E - Email: killerboi5@hotmail.com. STUPID.

F - Favorite color: HOT PINK
F - Food: LOTS OF THEM.
F - Foreign Language: hmmm... french seems interesting.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: bears (:
G - God: ideologies...

H - Hair Color: Black. i wanna change that soon.
H - Height: 176. according to my report book.
H - Happy: currently neutral. (: you never know when i might moodswing.

I - Ice Cream: gahhhhhhhhhhh! fat.
I - Instrument: nah i have no musical talent whatsoever.
I - Idol: ZAC EFRON.

J - Jewelry: bling's really not my thing. maybe an earstud or two?
J - Job: student and proud nhdancer.
J - Jokes: hmmm. sarcasm?

K - Kids: don't know. don't plan on having any now.
K - Karate: haha violence is bad.
K - Kungfu: kungfu panda is cute.

L - Love or lust: lust will come with love.
L- Longest Car ride: bus ride is china trip.
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: what?

M - Milk Flavor: hate milk. but i drink chocolate milk.
M - Mother's Name: uninteresting.
M - Movie Last Watched: the coffin.

N - Number of Siblings: 3
N - Name of Siblings: uninteresting
N - Name: mememe!

O - One Wish: To be sixteen forever.
O - One Phobia: eremophobia

P - Part of your appearance you like best: hmmm im not very happy with it. but mommy gave it to me. so i gotta live with it.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: my expressiveness. never bottle them up. except some maybe.

Q - Quick or Slow?: depends on the situation
Q - Queer or Straight?: now that's a hard one. JUST KIDDING.
Q - Queen or King?: king of the world! muahahahaha

R - Reason to smile: because there's no reason to cry.
R - Reality TV Show: project runway/top model
R - Right or Left: RIGHTY.

S - Song Last Heard: Just Stand Up!
S - Series: GOSSIP GIRL. TWILIGHT.
S - Sex: uhmm 18+ (:

T - Time you woke up: 11+am. (:
T - Time Now: 2154hr
T - Time for bed: i slept at 5am today. so i dont know.

U - Unknown: a lot.
U - Unicorns: are imaginary.
U - U are: me? i don't know.

V- Vegetable you love: lots of them.
V - Vegetable you hate: CELERY! BITTERGOURD! PICKLES!
V - View on Politics: obama. democracy. human rights.

W - Worst habit: laziness. often wallowing in self-pity or rather easily depressed.
W - What's up: trying really hard but still failing.
W - Wijadija: gibberish.

X - X-Rays: broken arm, broken collarbone, almost torn ankle tendon.
X - X-Rated: horny. hormones. sex.

Y - You have something to say?: hear my innate voice.
Y - Year it is now: end of 2008
Y - Yellow: is bright. used to be my favourite.

Z - Zoo Animal: i donno.
Z - Zodiac: Rooster
Z - Zoolander: completely hilarious.

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning,
Wondering what is what,
Don't give up!
Through it all,
Just stand up.

This awkwardness evident in the air,
Was a mist that turned a fog.
Where were the times when everything we'll share,
This fear has solidified, a rock.
Instead of solving,
We run away.
We'll play pretend,
And just not say.

As you can see my utter plight of nothing-to-do-ness. (: I got a quiz from ANGELINA! (: and coincidentally she last tagged me!

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't
really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___
___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to
understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a
memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family


Dear Angelina :

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped under a state of trance and I saw you sit on my avocado plant. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your grades from college as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked Oprah Winfrey imitations.

Best Regards,
Yiyang.

It's not as funny! ):

Hello.
Today was another boring day! It's the second day I've spent at home!
And I'm gonna die soon! It's completely ridiculously boring! RARH! Tomorrow will also be like this!!!! ):
Sigh. I've got nothing to blog about in my boring life.

It's like catching lightning,
The chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million,
The chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together,
We just keep on getting better.
So can I have this dance?
Can I have this dance?

I have a map in my pocket,
But I still wanna ask directions.
I lead a life of no regret,
But there're things I kept hidden.

I've got a compass in my hand,
But I still wanna continue lost.
Then perhaps my fate will bend,
And this end's just a subtle pause.

I've got a sweater in my bag,
But I still say I'm cold.
Just in case it raises a flag,
Or breaks this comfy hold.

I've got a letter sealed away,
But I'm still afraid to let it go.
I'm still waiting for the right day,
Where the words conveniently flow.

Having one of my moodswings again, I'm sorry.

It's starting to sting,
Every word, everything.

Some words are not meant to be said, 'cause they'll hurt more knowing it hurt others.
It's called demonic love, it's as wrong as it sounds.
What I'm doing is wrong and I know it but I can't stop.

I can try, but I can't stop it.

Hello! (:

Dance today! It was quite boring actually cause it was so super short and like so many sec 3s weren't there larh! ):
Haha. Just went through cultural potpourri a little and then do some of Open House! (:
After dance, me, olivia, jinghui, yilin, angelina, rachel, joanne and lingyuan went to pizza hut! ahah we were super AA. AND like we scared like so many many people. We scared the staff of the pizza hut and like the customers! OMG.
Anyway it's like super fun and then we went to a playground and talk for 3 hours? I think we're like super powerful can? Talk so much! (:

THEY ARE CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! They holidays then bored until crazy, say tomorrow go study?!?! 0.0

byebye.

Star.

I'm taking home my dreams,
It's too far to reach, it seems.
It's flashing across the sky,
And I don't want to try.

I'm burnt out,
My dreams reduced to ash.
What about
My hopes completely dashed?

The glow emitting dims along
With my special song.
Outshone by the overwhelming sun,
It's over, I'm done.

Shooting star,
It's reaching out so far.
But eventually,
It'll be over.
Nothing left surely,
No more to see,
No more to hear.

Hello! I realised I'm double-posting almost everyday! (:
haha. Well, I spent today quite plainly.
I woke up and went out at 1+. My dad was sending me to commonwealth to meet with Olivia.
He started commenting on everything! He was like, " Why you wear pink? "
Then he went like , " Why you wear so tight pants? " and I was like, " It's not tight" and gave him 0.0. ahha and then he said, " So hot wear so tight! " and I had to look away to stop myself from bursting into hysterical laughter. LOL! (:
Then I met Olivia who was wearing shorts again after I told her she'll freeze. -.-
HAHA then we went to eat lunch. After lunch we walked to queenstown station and took a train to tiong bahru. (:
We bought our The Coffin tickets and then walked around aimlessly, kept eating though! (: ahah
THE COFFIN WAS ABSURDLY RIDICULOUS. It's like 0.0.
It was shorter than 1 & 1/2 hour! and I only yelped twice, I DIDN'T EVEN SCREAM. I'M PROUD OF THAT! (:

YAY!
we went home after that. (:

Monotonous and cold,
We're slowly losing hold.
No more bright and cheery,
Getting weary, worse still dreary.

We used to have decent conversations,
That actually involved emotions.
Now they're just exchanges of relevance,
I finally get my "importance".

No longer friends,
Just acquaintances,
Friendship ends,
'Cause of our differences.

I really wished we could go back,
Before all this could start.
Where a talk didn't mean fact after fact,
Where I didn't feel like a retard.

I guess it's on an absolutely need-to-know basis,
Where all I should give is information or ask questions.
There'll be no need for irrelevant or friendly chit-chat,
It's strict down-to-business non-distracting style.

But that just doesn't go my way,
It doesn't fit what I have to say.
It's been lonely for awhile.

Oh, and I'm supposed to put that in the file.

Hello. It's already 2145 but I've been awake for less than 8 hours. HAHA

(: I woke up at 1420 today cause I slept at 0545! HAAH
It's all Joanne's fault! HMPH! haha but it's okay.
Today was boring just slacked around.

I'm going out with Olivia tomorrow! We're going to catch THE COFFIN at Tiong Bahru Plaza! (:
It's going to be fun! (:
Yay!

I'm starting to wonder,
When will these feelings cease?
Perhaps a gold autumn day,
Carried away by the cooling breeze.

I'm starting to wonder,
When will this mist start to thin?
Quickly, I've begun to pray,
So I can clear my overflowing bin.

And while I'm hoping for the end,
This feeling is surfacing.
It's nostalgia, I can't comprehend,
Why I still feel longing.

Even as I don't want to be,
I'm still loving every moment.
It's become a part of me,
Letting go, the end's distant.

Hello.
I know I know, I just posted hours ago and I'm posting again at this unearthly hour of the night. haha.
Well I spent the last hour and a half looking through all my posts since july 2006, reliving the old times.
And I realised that I used to totally type like a horribly TWIT. ): haha. Some of my old poems are really really nice and even though my sec2 poems are mostly lost, I re-read angeline's poem and I remember her natural talent for it. (:
I used to miss 210'07 and I do but some of the people I USED TO miss, I don't anymore. Because they've changed, so much.
HAHA I realised this year was also my most emotional. HAH. Talk about teenage angst. (:
Thanks to all my friends again. love you guys.

[edit] It's 4am and I'm still awake. It's all Joanne's fault, we talked for 2 hours already. 0.0 Shall go to sleep soon. I'll probably wake at like 2+pm? Haha. So I'm not sure if I'm going to post anything later. (: [/edit]

Remember how we used to be?
When you were you and me just me?
We'd laugh our troubles all away
And never run out of things to say.
But now, you've changed,
A hundred-eighty, or I'm deranged.
We'd look at the other, awkward,
We'll not talk about the things that hurt.

hello!

Today was a boring morning then when it came time to leave the house I couldn't find my phone! ): I was like wtf?!?! totally at lost. I looked for like around 20minutes and then found it under the cushion of the sofa I was sitting on! LIKE OMG?!
haha went to meet joanne and jinghui and jiaen to lick floor. Angelina couldn't make it cause she had to wait for some delivery man at home... BUMMER!. ): for the first session of lick floor, it was fun and tiring.
More floor-licking soon. (:

Can you say something please?
This silence's deafening.
There's no rustle of the leaves,
Nor thunder rumbling.
All I hear is the void of life,
Hollow and empty.
Yet it's as sharp as a knife
And cuts through as cleanly.

okay. was kinda emo in the morning but i'm totally hyped after a shopping spree and HSM3.

Shopping spree was fun. we met at raffles city shopping mall and bought donuts for brunch. (:
Then we walked around but didn't find anything interesting so we headed to orchard.
FIRST STOP, Heeren.
We looked around billabong but nothing interested us so we went up! To DCP. Joanne bought a pair of slippers in white, the sole reason being the smiley face hole in the soles. HAHA SHE THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE AND IT WAS. HAHA and Olivia bought a blouse. (: They were happy with their first purchase. Then, I showed them the bag I wanted and they said it was a typical NICE billabong bag. haha. (: anyway it's still nice. We continued to walk around then we went up to the fourth level. (: We bought earstuds, well me and joanne anyway being people who had earholes. Olivia's jealous but she bought a cap. q: I think. HAHA. Then we went to this shop called four-something ahahah.. I can't rememeber. I bought a pink tee while joanne bought shorts. (:
After that, we went over to cineleisure to buy my tickets for HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3; SENIOR YEAR. haha It was 1420+ when I went over to cineleisure to buy the tickets for a 1830 show. AND THE LINE WAS LONG. When I went to buy the tickets there were super a lot of filled ones. ): AHHA it was 1420+ AND IT WAS FOR A 1830 SHOW?!?! WTF?!?! ): Then we went over to Far East Plaza. (: We saw Yilin, Jinghui, Merrien, Regina and another 301-ner(I'm sorry I'm no good at names). HAHA We were looking for cargo pants but couldn't find. Joanne and Olivia went on a rampage. HAHA buy! (:
Our next stop is Wisma, for cargo pants and Joanne and Olivia bought more stuff and Joanne found 2 pairs of cargo pants in ESPRIT and it was like super nice. For guys cut, it was like quite expensive and vaguely uninteresting so I decided against it. (: We walked around looking for my cargo pants along lucky plaza and got to TANGS where I finally got them, not very eye-catching but it was okay and reasonable. After that we parted ways and I went over to meet Michelle for HSM3 at 1820. (:
We were scheduled to meet at 1730 but she rescheduled to 1800 then to 1820 at cineleisure. Turns out I was later than her. HAHA. anyway on to the movie.

BEWARE! SPOILERS MAY BE HINTED!
I'll try not to reveal too much.
The whole show was 100% completely, absolutely fantastic-ally PHENOMENAL! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! It was actually pretty interactive with the audience for a cinematic show. THAT'S PRETTY INCREDIBLE. well if you get an audience like ours. OMGGGDO it was seriously great. The musical numbers were even better, the choreography was something non-professional dancers will find hard to imitate! (: OMGGGGGG! AND LADIES! ZAC HAS A SHIRTLESS SCENE! SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM! Well, it's only his back but still it's one pretty sexy back! LOL. anyway omg! even I agree that LUCAS is cute in some of the scenes. (: ASHLEY WAS POSITIVELY TOTALLY INCREDIBLE. VANESSA WAS JUST WOW! (: And we were sitting like in front of two guys who kept making stupid commentary in chinese and they sounded like they were in their late teens or early tweens. WTH!?! they went like, " WALAU! THROW THE PHONE LIDDAT, DON'T WANT GIMME LARH!" or in a dialouge like:
A - "WHAT IS IT ABOUT"
B - "SHE NOT GOING PROM LARH"
-.- SUPER ANNOYING I WANTED TO SHUT THEM UP LIKE SAYING STFU IN THEIR FACE?!?!
and there was this super cute kid.
She/He went like " DON'T DO IT!" during a kissing scene between zac and vanessa.
Then she/he went " ewwwwwwww!" after it.
LOL the whole cinema laughed. SUPER CUTE CANNNNNN! (:
All in all I loved it, even if the last musical finale wasn't as good. (: but it still rocked.
I'm going to miss the cast. ):
Goodbye HSM! ): I'm so hyped up and pretty sad there'll be no more.

SIGH.

P.S. I embedded the playlist for HSM3 on my blog. You'll see what I'm talking about.

I'd look into photo frames,
And smile to myself.
These sweet moments, our games
All to myself.
Then I'd turn around,
And start to tear.
Is this who you've found?
The real you? I fear.

I fell in love with the 'you' in my memories
so I thought I loved you
because you looked like the 'you' in my memories
but you're not 'you' anymore.

hello! (: IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND IT'S OVERRRR!

haha. I'm just home and I finished bathing feeling all oil-free and comfy.
Went to Joanne's house after school to have a steamboat. We just slacked around and disturbed Joanne's sister.
WE'RE SORRY! (:

sighh ahah today was happy but I'm tired so I shan't post too long. (:

Tomorrow is filled with shopping and ZAC EFRON + VANESSA HUDGENS + ASHLEY TISDALE + LUCAS GRABEEL!!! (:
It's only going to be me and michelle. How sad. BUT WE'LL STILL HAVE FUN! (:

yay tomorrow!

It's another year,
It's been a long way here.
The bells are ringing,
A remarkable ending.

Hello! (:
Today was a good and happy day for me. (:
One of few.

School was well school! BORING. haha. Anyway we had bio SPA for first period and I wasn't the teeniest bit nervous. 0.0 I finished 10 minutes earlier but I'm not sure if I got sources of error correct. sigh. (: anyway after bio SPA, we had a one-hour recess. HAHA we went late for chinese. Mr Phang don't even care. We spent like the whole 1 & 1/2 hours talking about ghost stories. (: It was interesting but the weather was so horribly hot! SWELTERING I TELL YOU!

After school I was bored and I don't have anything planned so I went to find Yilin, Olivia and Rachel. Well the gang. (:
Along with Regina, Jinghui and Joanne we went JE library to borrow books before we went IMM. (: ahah We got wet from the rain. LOL. anyway. I made a new friend today, well sort of. (: ahah They said I scared another stranger ): I mean that's no fair. Joanne took my extra PE tee and wiped her shins. I reserve every right to scream okay! (: ahah. LOL anyway we ate MOS for lunch and then we walked around and around. It was fun (: I was tired at the end and I didn't get my nap but it's okay. (:

Tomorrow's gonna be great too. I mean after school.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! (:

The melodic bells,
Sounding a beautiful epilogue.
It's an omen that tells,
And secures this year with a rounded lock.

400th post and it's a quiz:
Skip this if you want today's news.

From jie!

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
Sad to say, yes. F OFF BITCH.

How do you flush the toilet in public?
uhhhmmm just flush. REMEMBER TO WASH YOUR HANDS.

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
yes. but sometimes i'm lazy to.

Do you have a crush on someone?
(:

Name one thing you worry about running out of:
the will and energy to carry on.

What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?
is anyone famous as fat and ugly as me?

What is your favorite pizza topping?
barbeque chicken! (: less cheese. i hate cheese.

Do you crack your knuckles?
nope.

What song do you hate?
none really.

Did just mentioning that song make it get stuck in your head?
nope.

What are your super powers?
extremely advanced and progressive mental evaluation

Peppermint or spearmint?
both? (:

Where are your car keys?
I don't own car keys though my house keys do look like car keys. They're in my wallet.

Whose answers to this questionnaire do you want to hear?
I'm doing cuz I'm bored.

What’s your most annoying habit?
EATING and being lazy.

Where did you last go on vacation?
Japan. Going shanghai soon.

What CD is closest to you right now?
Jesse McCartney's Right Where You Want Me.

What color are your bed sheets?
blue. i think.

Would you rather be a fish or a bird?
I wanna fly but I don't want to be a bird.

Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?
I don't drive..

What is your favorite Harrison Ford movie?
WHO?

What song is in your iPod?
manyy.

What music will be on your iPod in a few minutes?
I Will Still Love You - Britney Spears

If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
^^

What do you do when no one is watching?
I cry. sometimes I cry when they're watching too.

If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would be you?
someone remotely unknown and ugly and fat. just like me. Actually no one could play it better than me

Coffee or tea?
depends on my mood.

Have you ever been in love?
i think so.

Do you talk to yourself?
sometimes.

What is currently making you mad?
just me being me.

What are you doing?
feeling bored and talking to leon.

What do you hate?
hmmm... lotsa things.
Ranging from cheese to being alone to mean bitches.

Would you always support your friends even if they are very wrong?
not really.

Have you ever slept in the nude?
no....

What would you do if you were pregnant right now?
I can't get pregnant.

What shoes did you wear today?
partially white school shoes. ugly.

Have you ever done something embarrassing in public?
yes. 0.0

What do you plan on doing tomorrow?
waking up at 5:30am. bio spa exam. slack in chinese. eat.

Do you have a Facebook?
nah.

If you could illegalize anything what would it be?
smoking

What do you usually call people when your mad?
uhmmm i'd say something along the lines of : " FUCK OFF MY CASE YOU INSENSITIVE BITCH." well that's what i feel like saying now.

What are you listening to?
the song listed above.

Do you fold your underwear?
i don't fold. someone folds it for me.

Are you happy all of the time?
nope.

Would you ever dye your hair red?
nope. i don't think so.

How many hours of sleep do you need each night?
8-10 hrs.

Where would you like to be right now?
in bed with my arm around someone.

What bothers you?
me being me. lots of things.

Do you like Chinese food?
i'm okay with it.

What movies do you really want to see?
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 SENIOR YEAR. AND TWILIGHT!

Do you like weird surveys or normal ones?
hmmm i like to just do surveys cuz they keep me occupied.

Something random that you would never do?
bitchslap a stranger. it's the only thing i can think of right now. bitchslapping someone.

They said I was fat,
So I starved myself.
They said I was stupid,
So I got my As.
And the comments
Still remained unchanged.
Are we friends?
'Cause it hurts the same.

Hey. I'm home already, on a weekday at 2:30pm.

It's early for me. This why I can't be home too early because when I'm home, I'm at the most vulnerable, I feel the most alone.
And I think...

I've been thinking y'know.
The person whom I love, loves another. I don't want to know who, but I also want to know. It's conflicting within me.
I'm unsure if it's still the same or if it's a different one.
It's tough for me to feel happy now I know.

Ignorance is bliss. I want to forget that lovely smile, the cheeky laughter. I want to forget the comforting presence, the imminent radiance. I want to forget the disappointing moments, the heartbroken thoughts. I want to forget the beautiful memories, the tempting desires. I want to forget.

It's hard to know but it's even harder to know that you don't know.
Please tell me if you do know, please.

I have to drill it home that you'll never love me the way I do.

It's not the lack of hope that's crushing me, it's the disappointment I feel from my hope.

I don't want to go back
Into that dark period.
It's frightening, pitch black,
It's also where I hurt.

Quizzie. from angelina! (; skip on to the bottom if you're uninterested.

quiz:

Name the most craziest person you know.
LINGYUAN! :D
her contact in my phone is CRAZIEST person ever!

The most random.
Myself. -.-

The most handsome.
Uhmm hard for me to decide. ^^

The most prettiest.
Olivia. (:
haha her contact in my phone is Prettiest person ever!

The most sweet-looking.
Sweet? all my friends are raving bitches... oops. sorry.
uhhhmmmm sweeet... that's too hard.

The most attention-seeking.
hahah omgggdo. I KNOW THIS ONE. ^^
I shan't be mean and post it here.

The skinniest.
JOANNE NG WHO THINKS SHE'S FAT.
MAUL THAT CRAZY ANOREXIC BYOTCH.

The most irritating.
lotsa people! don't bug me.

The most charming.
aww.. I SHALL PUT ANGELINA! (:
but on there's someone else too.

The most sensitive.
olivia as well. I KNOW WHO'S MOST INSENSITIVE.

The most indecisive.
i don't know.

The lamest.
uhhhhhhmmm..... i donno.

The most optimistic.
ANGELINA! LINGYUAN!

The most caring.
YILIN! i think.

The most dirtiest.
ughh... definitely my brother.

The tallest.
Jianhao. 0.0

The shortest.
RACHEL.

The most bad-tempered.
Tianjun but that's changed.

The most easy-going.
everyone!

What was one of your most missed memories of the 80s or 90s?
N/A i wasn't born.

If you could travel back in time, where would you go first?
hmm? to before i was born.

What is your favourite website?
http://my-private-plane.blogspot.com

What is something that annoys you greatly?
HAVING MOODSWINGS.

Who or what do you miss?
^^

Do you have any secrets?
It's a secret.

What was your biggest mistake ever?
having certain feelings.

What are you thinking of now?
^^ and if i should go to sleep now.

(:

hello.

We had dance today and we celebrated laoshi's birthday! (;
It was sooper fun. (: HAHA it seems the chocolate cake is good (: YAHOO! We baked it yesterday.
We also gave laoshi a bad. The cake and bag are by the whole dance society! WOOT.
AND we sec3s gave another card. (:

I'm quite happy! Today's practice wasn't much but there was effort put in. (:

It's school day tomorrow. I'm tired. Don't wanna go.

You play the lead
In my most beautiful memories.
But you also breed
The most horrifying degrees.

You'll take home an "Emmy"
For making it all come to life.
You'll live boundless and free,
And you'd never seem deprived.

The dreams you star in
Tempt too much.
The nightmares, my sins,
Losing touch.

The credits rolling
Taunt my tears.
This story's closing,
No doubts here.

hellooo!

today was fun! i didn't moodswing like i expected! lols

Joanne, Lingyuan, Olivia, Yilin, Jinghui, Benedict, Leon, Wenxuan & Liangyuan came over to help with baking the cake for tomorrow. And they "surprised" me with a muffin and sang a birthday song about 28 days late. (: LOL quite nice larh. THANKS (:
Love them!. ahaha then Liangyuan left and Tianjun joined US (:

ANYWAYYY we bake and bake until everyone damn dirty with chocolate. (: ahahah then after that wooot sooper fun
Shall cut it short.
We went in search of a cake box then we went for dinner (:

tadah. I hope the cake isn't poisonous. (:

good job people.

Love (:

Our eyes speak the language of love,
The brilliance of true-spoken chemistry.
It's as natural as a perfect-fit glove,
The intensity of a long history.

TODAY WAS A BORING SATURDAY!!! ):

I went out in the morning to buy some books (: Bought devil wears prada, everyone worth knowing and chasing harry winston.
(:
On the way I got jieying's present (:

hope you like it! (:

and i ate lunch and watched mean girls. read a little of DWP (: anddd im here. (:

I'm waiting for dinner to arrive -.- HOW PAINFULLY BORING.
I'm sooper bored. I have no idea what's coming tomorrow.

HELLOOO someone tell me what time you guys are coming... pleaseee! -.-

bleahhh. i want dinner.

byebye

P.S. Happy 21st Birthday ZAC EFRON!

You're the star in the skies
That outshines the sun.
You're the one who never cries
That never tries to run.

You're the only one.

hello.
got back all my results today and it's a ritual for me to post them.
Note. it's only the EOY papers.

English: 75.9/100 A1
-Paper 1: 44/60
-Paper 2: 37/50
-Paper 3: 34/40

Chinese: 72.5/100 A2
-Paper 1: 68/90
-Paper 2: 77/110

E Maths: 84.3/100 A1
-Paper 1: 68/80
-Paper 2: 67/80

A Maths: 71/100 A2

Chemistry: 89/100 A1

Physics: 78/100 A1

Biology: 75.5/100 A1

Comb. Humanities: 66/100 B3
-Elective History: 35/50 A2
-Social Studies: 31/50 B4

Aggregate L1R5: 8.

I'm very satisfied and quite happy this time. I worked the hardest I have ever. (:

Good luck to you as well (:

And to my friends who didn't do so well. JIAYOU! (: Don't be down.

Trials and tribulations,
Further strained relations.

Got back 3 1/2 subjects today.

I'm feeling blah.
Not really because of my marks.

I think I'm getting on everyone's nerves with my constant ranting and my insatiable needs for me to feel happy. Sigh. I really don't know anything anymore. I'm confused.

Life's a fair trade. In exchange for something, you have to give back something of equal value. If you want good results, you give your time and effort. In exchange for friendship, you give trust, love and time. Time is our currency for non-materialistic goals, it's the most basic thing one must be willing to sacrifice in order for gain. However, more important things require so much more and that's where we add on effort, trust and love. However, there are things that are so unattainable because what we have to offer is so much less than what is needed. It is because what we have to offer is insufficient, it does not meet the standards and requirements, so this trade will not be able to commence. I feel just like that, insufficient and inferior. I have nothing to offer and so I can gain nothing. To you, my time is worthless. It's of nothing to you. My care and concern is weightless in your heart and mind. Hence, your love, recognition and appreciation are things I cannot gain. Thank you for letting me realise that.

Hopes
The crushing hurt,
The lengthened pain.
Every word,
Falling rain.

Win to lose,
A ticking bomb to defuse.
Lose to gain,
Fair trade is life's game.

Believing in wishing wells
And christmas' santa claus.
Hallucinate the sleigh bells,
You'll need medicated gauze.

It's a heartbreaking affair,
A living, breathing nightmare.
It's a destructive ritual,
A wake-up call for that little girl.

skip this post to the next one under the same date if you have no time or are not interested in quizzes:

You Are Much Closer to Your Friends

Your friends are so great, it's hard not to be the closest to them. As for your family, your relationship with them is probably a bit strained. It's okay though. While you can't pick your family, you can pick your friends. And you've picked some amazing friends who count as family to you.

Are You Closer to Your Friends or Your Family?

YAY FRIENDS

What's Sexy About Your Name

You are sexy because you are sensitive. You feel deeply. You're the type of person who loves being seduced and pursued. You're too passive to ever take the lead, but you don't mind waiting for someone to notice you. And once someone is chasing you, you love every moment until you are caught. Everything inside your head gets a little intense at times. You can get a bit overwhelmed in the bedroom. Your senses are very sharp. You are easily stimulated and turned on.

What's Sexy About Your Name?

QUITE TRUE.

You Are 72% Interesting

You are a fairly interesting person. Many people find you to be intriguing. You have a dynamic, adventurous life... a life that others envy. You are genuinely interested in and open to the world. You love making new friends, and you're always up for an unusual experience. Like everyone else, you can get a bit boring from time to time. That's normal. But unlike everyone else, you can pull yourself out of a rut. You don't stay boring for long.

Are You Boring or Interesting?

0.0 really? i think im quite boring. im always bored.

What Your Black Umbrella Says About You

When faced with adversity, you respond with authority. You don't let problems faze you. You are naturally powerful and commanding. People look to you to take charge. You are elegant and classy. You know how to always say and do the right thing. While you stand out, you also fit it. You thrive in a variety of situations. On a rainy day: you carry on as normal - a little bad weather isn't going to get in your way!

The Umbrella Test

0.0 i don't know about this one. I do feel sleepy on rainy days though.

Your Hair Should Be Blonde

You are outgoing, light hearted, and a ton of fun. You don't take life too seriously, and you do your best to charm everyone you meet. You are very energetic. People tend to underestimate you, but you can get a lot done. You do tend to be a bit sensitive. If someone has a bad opinion of you, it truly hurts. You are cunning and clever. You are smart, but you aren't “book smart” or academic. Some people may think you're superficial, but they're not seeing the whole picture.

What Color Hair Should You Have?

I'VE ALWAYS WANTED BLONDE HAIR. IM NOT DUMB. IM BIMBOTIC BUT NOT A BIMBO. bimbos are pretty! i'm not -.-

WILL TIANJUN EVER BE THE SAME?

We decided to commemorate this day, 15th October 2008, as the first annual TianJun day! I'm telling you if evelyn saw Tianjun in that state of hysterical laughter, she would have a stroke! OMG larh. Head of discipline was laughing and laughing uncontrollably at Clementi Mac. I guess I should start from the top.

Today I met olivia, rachel, lingyuan, joanne at clementi mrt at 0815 hour! haha lingyuan was late with valid reason. (: LOL. While waiting for them I saw jinghui and angelina and yilin. They went to mac for breakfast first! Then, we slowly walk to school and like evelyn bumped into us, well she freaked rachel out but yeah anyway we went to mac and saw jh, ange and jie! (: haha We walked to school together! We were like totally going to be late and were like talking about the 90 pumping we'll have to do, 130 for excos. HAHA. But we weren't late! q:

We got there sweaty and stuff but still early! (: HAHA dance was fun did cultural potpourri. quite slack for guys at first but then later super tiring. okay fast foward to the funny.

Then we stayed for discussion, woot stay until 3+. Then 19/30+ who stayed for the meeting stayed to play BBALL. ahah SUPER FUN. but tiring. Olivia fell sick so yeah. GET WELL! and and.... so after all that playing we went to sumo to eat. while ben, leon and wx they all go other place to eat I THINK, jh jie ange tianjun and jianhao go play somemore. So after dunch. Yes it's dunch cuz it's dinner and lunch. thennn we went to mac to talk then we saw the bball gang (sorta). then we started to talk and joke. LOL angelina then made all of us had laughing fits. TIANJUN ESPECIALLY. after jianhao left. WE LAUGH UNTIL EVERYONE STARE AT US! WE STAYED AT MAC TILL LIKE 6+? WE LAUGH AND LAUGH AND LAUGH. TOLD ALL THE JOKES WE HAD AND SAW OUR BELOVED HEAD OF DISCIPLINE/i/c boys squirm with laughter. OMG angelina can be comedian! haha kept laughing and laugh until stomachache, knees wobbly and teared like madddd! omggg then everyone stare like mad and i think the mac shake until gonna dao bi already. Touch wood. anyway on the way to station also take 10+ mins cause we kept stopping to laugh and laugh. On the train also laugh and laugh. esp. tianjun the half-cooked lobster. super funny larh he... anyway he looked like a mad man.

SO TODAY IS TIANJUN'S HAPPIEST DAY OF HIS LIFE. (: HAAH HENCE, TIANJUN DAY!

HAPPY TIANJUN DAY EVERYONE! (;

haha bye dance was fun.

Change, as the time goes by.
Change, as friends say bye.
Change, as green turns gold.
Change, when it's time to let go.

I would like to start off today's post by saying:
I'M BLESSED WITH GOOD FRIENDS. I LOVE THEM!

Was already feeling fine in the morning when I woke. Kinda moped around the house with a splitting headache and very very moist eyes. I don't know why. they were glistening. (: I WASN'T CRYING. =.=

Talked to leon from 10 - 12 (: haha we were bored together! (: haha then I went to get ready to meet olivia at queenstown at 2. (:

I left at 1220 to eat lunch I finished lunch at 1. Then i went to somerset station and took a train to city hall! (: haha LOL. when I reached city hall it was only like 1:20. =.= I sat down and played icy tower on my phone till like 1:45 then I got on the train and I still reached queenstown 2 minutes earlier than olivia. ahah then we walked to queensway. it was like a 20-30 mins walk (: just talked about random stuff. felt good to be out of the house! (:

when we reached queenstown we walked around to find olivia's FBTs first and we got it all done in less than 10 mins!!! 0.0
ahah then we looked for my bag and slippers. but I only bought my slippers. couldn't find anything intriguing. I still want my $80 billabong brown leather silver buckle bag!!! ): sighhh. anyway it was quite fun. then we walked around bored. haha olivia bought a pair of earstuds for me! black dice! hahaha while i bought a bag of hot pink earsticks. you gotta have expected it. it's me! anywayyyy! we walked around more, looked at a few bags. and we saw the bag yilin and joanne both bought. it was like 67 only! cheaper than the price they bought it at. haah we had a laugh! (: then we snooped around for the $120 nike bag joanne wanted and we found it! it was $102. a little pricey but still cheaper!!!!!!! omg. we knew you were gonna flip joanne! (:

We walked to anchorpoint cuz it was boring in queensway. met a few nanhua people! in queensway. (: Then we walked to billabong cuz olivia wanted her black shirt but couldn't find it in the billabong in queensway. I understand why guys like to go there now. It's chuck full of guy stuff. HAHA. still not a wide enough variety for me. Anyway! anchorpoint also didn't have my bag or her shirt. so we walked around. sat down ate and ate. AHAH (: then we looked into this cute shop selling cute badges. (: ahah i bought one for jieying! SHE'LL LAUGH I SWEAR. AND SAY I'M A BIMBO! q: WHATEVERRR. we saw nicky and bryan and shenyong there. omg so coincidental. i mean not in the cute shop! (: in anchorpoint.

After that we went to tiong to catch a movie! we watched the house bunny. LOL it's a pointless show but it's hopelessly bimbotic and bitchy. HAHA yes guys, it's a chick-flick. (: ahah sorry if that offends anyone! (: ahah but it was like super funny. but me and olivia weren't dressed enough for the cinema. IT WAS COLD. MY TEETH CHATTERED AND I SHAKED THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE. i totally bet the girls behind us thought I was having a seizure or a fit! (:
LOL. but it was fun! and thennnn. we wanted to have dinner at commonwealth so we took a bus to get there. olivia insisted on 33.
when i saw that it wasnt headed the right way.. she kept "faith" that it was. though i personally think it's the total stubborn side of her! lol. well i had to prove to her and we ended up back at school ahahah we at school at 7:30pm on a school holiday. I waved to the security guard LOL (: we then decided to go to clementi central for dinner (: and we talked and talked about nothing in particular. we just talked! (: haha and we saw ben on the way there! 0.0 haha we said hi and continued to go central. olivia asked me: "what's he doing here?" and i totally gave her the shocked face did the exaggerated voice and said: " HE LIVES HERE!' LOL. we talked while having dinner. she ate bee hoon soup without meat. well she ordered that and the guy said: " yeah no meat only fishcake and fishballs" then she said:" yeah i don't want that too" and he said: " then what you eat?" then she said:" just the soup and the beehoon" and he said: "liddat plain also can eat arh? then he said how to do business liddat?" LOL but when her food came. it had a ton of veges I think the guy is niceee! (: haha and after dinner we went home. (:

I cheered up a lot thanksss people! (:

ahah love you guys.

I have the best friends.

DANCE TOMORROW!

Fear makes me who I am,
Paranoia makes me who I am.
But my friends remind me,
That it's deeper than that.