right now it still hurts quite abit to see all the websites and media advertisements when im not part of it. there's just disappointment that i cant hide away from myself. i would really want to be part of it, and im sure i was really really close to it. then i ask myself why do i still continue to train like this, waking up at 4am for my rides.

maybe i should look at the games like the world championship. not all the top riders in the pro tours represent their country in the championship. even lance will prefer to focus something more important to him, like the tdf.

there's always another race.

really hope the guys going up this year can get something back for cycling in singapore.

i guess i wasnt ready to be racing at that level yet, since when did i have the capability of riding infront of the peloton going at 50-60kph? i guess i still have alot to learn. so much more racing experience to absorb.

im not sure how long more am i going to race. im definately not going to give up cycling, but elite racing. plans were roughly made, perhaps maybe 5-6 years until i get my degree. hitting peak during my ns days, try to continue when i further my studies either locally or in aussie. but i really hope that i can don the national colours for the games at least once before i stop.

legs felt good today. 160km, 5.5 hours on the saddle.

thanks for reading. have a good weekend.

i guess i still cant hide the disappointment for missing the games. it's like the ultimate goal in the sport locally.

everything happens for a reason and for the best of it.

i guess i shall just train harder (harder harder harder!) for 2007.

"kit, you need to toughen mentally."

i guess it's true. perhaps it's time to get everything together again. enough play and rest. what i wanna be and what i wanna do next year will depends on what i do for this part of the year.

been riding hard almost every other day this week. all those pain in the legs, muscles burning, feels weird. perhaps it has been quite some time since i last suffered on the bike. but i was actually quite delighted on my performance today and received compliments. hope i'll be a more garang and aggressive rider next season.

school started last week. everything seems good. thursday is free since i've already made up my mind to drop aem. that will leave one extra day in the week for projects and training.

i guess that's all the updates for now. thanks for reading.