im beginning to feel better these few days. thanks to the mates who talked to me while i was feeling depressed. thanks babe.

anyway mileage has been low for the earlier part of the week, but i managed to bring it up over the weekend. i really hope to start pushing more mileage, just by merely raising each ride by 10km, i'll have around 400 for a week. but that's not fugging enough. heard we should be going for tour of taiwan at the end of october for a 6 stage race. but hey boy, the taiwan is full of mountains. but i really would want to don the red/white colours again.

was back on the leppinsport recovery drink and it feels damn good. was on the saddle for 5 hours yesterday, and surprisingly i could still push damn hard this morning despite the saddle sores which are inevitable. attacks after attacks, sprints, i think i did damn well today. [=

went to help klimax to work on their office, and i got a knog messager bag in return. finally a new bag for school. whee!

argh. even before i bought anything criticle, i think i've only 230 bucks left in my account from the initial 300 bucks grant. damn!

wish list (to buy list):
riding gloves (to protect my hands when if i do crash during races *cross fingers*)
scicon saddle bag
new carbon sole shoes
polar hrm trasmitter

that's about all. am waiting for the 300 bucks for the powertap research, just lack a final lab test and a debrief before the cash register rings, and heard the next 300 bucks grant will be in by late november! whee! that means 900 bucks this year for riding alone!

luckily my mp3 player worked after playing with around with the buttons and reformatted it. i wouldnt want to spend a few hundred bucks on it. hope it will last for another year.

*rants* *rants* *rants*

okay time to chill a lil while more before i go for recovery sleep.

have a g'day mate.

im really scared now.
really really very scared.

just saw the postings of 2 cyclist that got killed along kulai-kota tinggi. i rode along that stretch of road a few times. although they are not singaporean, i do share their pain. and it hurt me even more when i saw the remains of their bicycle, which were reduced to scraps of metal, and the wind screen of the car was badly smashed and dented in. apparently the car was trying to overtake vehicles infront by going into the oncoming lane, but swerved and hit the riders when there was an oncoming vehicle coming straight at him.

i really dont know.
it could just happen to me. i've to agree that im really scared of death. i dont want to die riding. i love to ride. i enjoy riding. but i dont wish to end my life because of it. there were so many news regarding cyclist's passing these couple of weeks, like the duo who died on ecp and on the slip road to changi coastal.

i rode that stretch of road before.

im sure alot of cyclist are feeling the same like me, freaking disturbed by these. but yet our love of the sports make us put ourselves in risk. sometimes it's not your fault, it's others.

everytime i come across such incidents, i asked myself if i should give up riding. i still have my parents, my family, next time i'm gonna lead a happy life working for a chemical company, with a pretty wife, with kids, grandchildren, a nice home, car, everything i can ask for.

maybe someday i'll give up riding when i get a girlfriend. is it worth all the risks?

godbless the deceased.

i'm trying to sneak in a long due entry while i wait for the aloe vera gel on my shoulders to dry.

been pretty busy over the past few weeks. been riding really alot and preparing for the lck race over the weekend. some asked if i was okay during the hiatus. if you didnt realise, the only time i kept blogging is when i feel shitty, and if i didnt post anything it would mean that im doing pretty well.

heh.

the race held last sunday was pretty good. took part in the sports category, which is nevertheless more challanging than the juniors cat, but still more relaxed compared to the opens cat. total of 15laps of the 5km loop of lck, stayed at the rear of the peloton almost 90% of the time, except some surprise attacks round the corners because i was feeling real bored at the back. was actually planning to go for the intemediate sprint medals, but the pace was really too hard during the sprint laps. moved right to the front during the last couple of laps, planning my sprint in my head, and coming out of the last corner into the finish stretching, i was in the most favorable position behind the team schroder leadout train, absolutely sure of what they gonna do from all the group rides with them.

with about 500m to go, their leadout train move out of the paceline and went upfront at high speed, and with 200m to go, i jumped out to the left of the leadout train and dashed for the line. with around 20m to go, 2 riders came from my right and fought for the first two placing, while i cruised in for 3rd because of some spectators/photographers who crowded half of the lane after the finishline.

but i'm already really happy. at least i've achieved something worth mentioning ever since my win during the expo race for junior cat, and also to show some results to my sponsor and thank their support for the past few months.

life's easy and carefree. no more shitty feelings. went out with my classmates for kbox a few weeks back, sang for a total of 5 hours. that was good. since i quite like singing alot. i think i sing the sad sobbering songs really well. haha.

the reason why i've the gooey and sticky aloe vera gel on my shoulders is because of the class outing to sentosa on monday. what a good post race enjoyment day. played beach volleyball and some silly games in the heat of the afternoon, a total of 9 of us, and later on joined the rest of the 8 at cityhall for pizzas. went on to the fountain of wealth to take pics, and later on walked till explanade, sit by the water edge and drank some beer. the rest went off at around 10, left only me wj hazel, chilling out under the moon, talking crap (i think we trio got a lil drunk.) headed home around 1130 after a long search for the loo for hazel and wj. (i relieved myself at a tree =])

i think im suffering my worst case of sunburn, even worse than what i've got during the tour of egat. my shoulder and chest still burns, itchy and painful. hopefully they will be rid off my tomorrow. wakey at 0630 tomorrow for my second powertap itt at coastal road, did the first one on tuesday, and seriously i felt really crap after a late night, and was still a lil drunk when i first got on the bike, but surprising the timing was pretty good.

i guess it's time for me to tata, pretty long blog entry.

some pics.

three!


another day at work


negative babe magnet?


chill and enjoy your day mate.

i've a race tomorrow. brrr.

no crash, no puncture, strong legs.

ride strong, be strong.

live strong.