Time Machine

It felt like a thousand years.

Just to step foot in there, let alone sitting and waiting. Oddly, amongst the little kid seats and the rushing around was stillness and peace. And yet it was just like yesterday. All those innocent faces, the biggest things on their minds were if they'd pass their exams, or if they'd get to the right destinations. Uncertainties and yet boldly storming on headlong.

Where did all this go?

I hope that it still is there, this fearlessness.
I hope that you will never lose faith.
I hope that you will trust.
I hope that you know.

Many are the facets of a person.
When they are with those close to them, with friends, acquaintances, colleagues.

So, I want to know you, the true you.
And I'm hoping that you do want to know me too.

It is better to have hopes, dreams and our lives than to think that you have nothing at all, for what are we but mere mortals. Our lives move in all sorts of different ways and may not be as how we envisioned it, but in the end: man can plan, but He is the one who guides.

Judgement

You were never around, so it's safe to say that you are not allowed to pass sweeping statements or judgements. You don't have the facts and I know it's just your way to do just as you would do right now. It's not necessary to let you know, or tell you everything as you never cared enough (first-hand anyway).

This statement however, makes me no different than you as I can see myself judging you.

So,
I won't ask you to understand as you will never understand.
I won't ask you to tell me, because you will never let me know.
I won't ask you to consider as you will not even have the mind space to think or the  time to spend.
I won't ask you to stand up for me as I know I'm no one to you.

But I know that even if you don't or won't, the ones that I care about and love, and who matter the most to me, will.
That is more important to me, more than the praises, or the fleeting moment of care that you can afford to give.

"Happiness is not given, it is found."

"Persevere in the challenges that come your way. Only then would you have lived wiser and experienced the love of God."

* I should write and read more. My English seems to have deteriorated/gone down the drain/kaput/reached a decline/screeched to a shameful standstill.
* A big thank you to the people who invented spell check. (and dictionaries)

Of Left and Right

I think I have a thing for the left-handed (and maybe the ambidextrous).
Think Bruce Willis, Gordan Ramsey, Ben Stiller, Jeremy Renner, Scarlett Johansson, Mark Wahlberg, and I didn't even work the Google yet (all awesome people, if you did use Google or any other search engine, please exclude JB- because he's a young Baby, Baby, Baby, Oh!).
Doing work/writing and eating at the same time: left hand, right hand. I always imagined ambidextrous people writing with both hands and finishing homework in less time it takes to "boil handphone porridge" -talking forever on the phone- with a bestie or getting rid of an annoying caller who curses at you if you don't buy their products/give away your bank account number/etc.

Recently picked up a book, "Crazy Rich Asians" by Kevin Kwan.
It's really Asian-guai lou posh and has a lot of funny, snort-worthy moments, whilst learning the basics on the various Chinese dialects (and curses), with helpful footnotes.

On a personal note, I think I will give it one month, as everyone knows that the first few days is the so-called "induction/settling-in" period.
Not sure how it will turn out but I hope that I won't come to resent it. Almost falling asleep at your desk on the first day is not the way to start. Thankfully that didn't happen today, and thankfully, I was the one who took the first step. It's not to say that I'm not learning. I'm squeezing every opportunity I can get whether it's given or taken but looks as if I'm going to have to keep making the moves first.


"If you don't give me a chance to handle work, I will never be able to help you on your level and improve myself."

"I would rather go home early because I finished my work, than go home early because I have nothing to do."

Let's just put it this way

The starting of a new beginning, and although it sounds redundant, it is another phase of life.
Stepping into adult-hood or as they say: Welcome to early mornings, late nights, practically no weekends and bills, bills bills.

On the top side of that, what used to be my elderly dressup-playtime has now officially become my "Greeeaaaaatt... what on earth to wear to work so I don't look too casual, but not bordering on the verge of cleavage-baring.." Oh man, sleeveless??!!! My arms look fat in those. What ever possessed me to buy/agree to buy that. Muffin tops.

It's the technology era where even the old fuddy duds are asking for Facebook requests, Instagramming, tweeting crazily, not to mention using words like #ootd #throwback (words and shortforms that I have to GOOGLE in order to make sense of anything typed), that makes me feel like I have suddenly switched places or have lived in a cave for the past few years of my life.

Songs? Wow, that sounds cool/nice. 
What? It first came out a year ago?
Right now, the best thing is to avoid becoming a k-fan of any k-pop band. 
Reason: Any group that debuts around 6 years after I graduate from high-school makes me feel like an ajumma fan-girling over toy boys. Geez, the guys are really flower boys and have soft features. Not to say they aren't pretty..good looking. And telling someone that you like k-pop immediately puts you in the what-the-heck zone. Like it's wrong to even think about it. I know you do.

So.. I've skipped over the so-called always mandatory "New Year's Resolutions" thing since it's already July tomorrow and just to say welcome back (if even lasting 2 days) to posting rants, bitching and just good-ol plain writing. I believe this is the longest post so far this year.

And to end with 2 quotes:

"You have to hurry man. Because there's a bunch of horny Chileans who want to go to a strip club. And there's only one bike."

"LIFE, dedicated to the people who made it."

I should have seen it coming. It was like you ripped part of my brain out and tried to put the remnants back.

Damn, this is such a bloody hazardous industry.



On another note, wherein the deep darkness lies, there REALLY is a light, if only you continued on this journey, you would know where to look and ignore the crap that lies in your path.

in case of emergency

where the survivors of a zombie apocalypse usually hold out:
mall, funfair, prison, a "zombie-free" town/housing area, basement..



only to find that there are more zombies there..

best way to escape:


a truck, sewers, boat, tank, modified vehicle, with anything to hit the undead with..

and go to a mall, funfair, prison, town, basement.. or anywhere else you think they might not be there..



never go to a "refugee center" broadcasted on the radio.. that's where all the dead and undead are.. =.=



well, here's to hoping that no such thing will ever happen.. cuz i dont think i'll be able to outrun them.. all these "zombie-apocalypse-hero-lone survivor" movies..

great. now back to studying for my law exam tomorrow. le sigh.. still got loads to read and all i did was watch zombie movies.

They said that if:

1) you eat sweets/chocolates before you sleep, you'll get nightmares
2) you eat heavy starchy food before you sleep, you'll get nightmares
3) you watch horror movies before you sleep, you'll get nightmares
4) you sleep during the "witching" hour, you'll get nightmares
5) you sleep facing the door, window or mirror, you'll get nightmares
6) you wake up in the middle of the night, sometimes you remembered that you just had a nightmare, but when you really wake up, you can't remember anything about it.

so what do you do if you want DREAMS?