Abandoned

Oh gosh. I didn't realise that I've abandoned my poor little bloggie for such a long time.
LOL.
Okay. Peeps.
Life still goes on. Year 2010 is coming to an end.
Sometimes we're too focused on what lays ahead of us.
All of a sudden, there's an urge in me to turn back and take a glimpse.
I wonder how is everyone getting on with life back in Malaysia...
Hmm... I really do miss everyone.. and I do mean everyone. Not just my BFFs. *chuckles*
Anyhow, I'll be back in Muar real soon.
Can't wait! :D :D

What a scintillating discovery!
Because of you, I've been trying new things.
Because of trying, I've begun to like them.
Well, I guess deep down, I'm more of an artsy person rather than a sciencey person. Lol.

*Schön Rosmarin playing right off my mind now*

I'm leaving so soon. Sooner than I thought. That's less than 1 week left now. T.T
I think I'm a little worried. Not sure about what specifically.
How I wish I could stay a bit longer (and that holidays would never end. lol.)
Haha! Almost done with my packing. Everything settled.
Hope I could meet up with a few friends before I leave.
Also, I'd like to spend more time with my family~
Ah, I'm supposed to go play golf at the course for another time before I leave..but I'm kinda lazy to do so. Lol. Typical me.
Too bad. This time I didn't invite any friends to my house for dinner. Bad timing maybe. Maybe next year. I don't know.
One thing I'm glad is that quite a number of Malaysians will be going to UK to further their studies this year. (of course, some are my friends, my friends' friend, etc.) :D

1. Stop blabbering won't you? There's nothing worth showing off, even if it's your penny of thoughts.
2. Ah. Don't just come to me when you need me help and not talk to me when you need none from me.
3. It's not a big deal. It's not even a secret. Even if you try to lower your voice, other lips will blabber. Eventually I will know it too. I was just plainly asking. There's no need to avoid any contact cuz I'm so not interested. I thought we were close friends. Gotta think twice. Maybe we're not.

Period.

It has been some time since I last reflect on things around me.

I ought to have kept some thoughts to myself. Sometimes I reveal too much.
*note: I'm not that same old 'secretive' self, like what my secondary school friends used to say.
I know I wasn't a talkative person all this long.
Sometimes I just don't feel like speaking at all.
And people just don't understand.
But this time, when I'm back, I talked a lot. My parents found me a lot noisier. Perhaps I talked more to my friends too. If it's the old me, I guess I would have just kept quiet in an awkward manner. I thought this is a good change in me. :)

Okay. I thought I should involve myself in some sports.
Somehow there's a pressure on me.
These 'sportsmen' just expect me to be just like them. They always set a target.
Seriously I just want to know how to play. I don't want any achievements because I know I'm poor in sports. I don't expect much.

I've always been glad to ask my friends out for some sort of gathering.
I used to love doing so.
But this time, I stopped doing so. Ah maybe I'm just lazy.

Ah Joo, if you're reading this post, I must say I'm kinda like you.
I've also been saying "I'm going back....!"
I shouldn't have said that too. :(

p/s: Maybe I shouldn't have offered any help. X(

友情会变质吗？

友情真的会变质吗？
是因为太久没见？还是因为大家变陌生了？
我一直在思考这个问题
明明当初友人之间的关系都很好
突然有种匪夷所思的距离感把大家拉得远远的
或许有某种误会成为了他们之间的围墙
但往往即使误会解开了，并不见得会拉近友人之间的距离，难道是心里的阴影在作怪？
无法释怀
或许他们根本并没有把过去的这份情谊放在眼里
他们只想着勇往直前，因为过去比不上现在，甚至未来
有些人很轻易地就能够与过去话别
有些人则迟迟地无法抽离，太执着

你学会坦白了吗？
更能坦率的面对问题吗？

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面对变质了的友情，
是该接受、放下

Ok. I know there's something to look forward to but it's not something to be overexcited about.

I have loads to do and yet I am still lazing around.

Mum has been nagging me.

"Why didn't you make sushi in the morning for everyone to eat in the afternoon?"
"You should go help your dad in his clinic."
"You sure you want a new pair of specs?"
"You're not going for golf this afternoon?"

Okay. I ought to have made some sushi. Oh. I'm just lazy. Lazy to have the japanese rice sticking onto my palms.

Okay. I should have gone to my dad's clinic. Well, I did went to help for a few times. Maybe that's not enough. So I'm going tomorrow to train myself so I could work in place of those nurses during hari raya when there's a shortage of staff.

Okay. Mum didn't want to get me a pair of new specs. But she gave up in the end. So specs done! :D

Okay. I went to practise golf. >.< I don't mind being hot & sweaty. I just can't seemed to utilise my right hand well. More impact is needed! Power! That's what I'm lacking of right now.

Oh. I'm in the process of packing my luggage. I still need a pair of shoes. Not sure whether I should get a pair of flats or sports shoes. :S I need a new purse too. Can't seemed to find one. :(

p/s: I heart Canon DSLR! ALOT. X)