20 Safar 1439H

My first entry via the 'new' phone.
Forced to use it because the seemingly durable iPhone 5 went blackout 2 nights ago.
And funny coz I can't seem to find the familiar Blogger app at the app store. Which means I'm now typing away in this blogger website, moving the screen to right and left ever so often. huaaa..
Which also means loads of info stored were probably unretrievable? Like the Notes I had for passwords of various apps. hehe.
Thanks to me who disregard back ups.

Oh well, nothing will ever last forever anyway, isn't it?

Speaking of which, my dear Busu just passed on last Tues (7 Nov) at the age of  88.
Busu who looked after Mak last time ("sebab busu garang lah, Mak pandai masak, pandai jahit...." Mak was saying these lines repeatedly). And Busu who looked after me when I was about 2-4 years of age I think. By then Busu was no longer fierce, rather so caring and kind <3 p="">May Allah Reward you with abundance of goodness dear Busu, rahimahallah :')

Ok enough.
This website has been reloading itself (due to some 'error' or 'problem' with the website) THREE times.
<3 p="">
<3 p="">Shall continue with RP tmr, start w coursework, coz the upcoming weeks will be filled with moderation, UbD and planning (lots of them!) for next year's Tarbiyah n Ta'dib Department...
<3 p="">Allahul Musta'an!

I truly enjoy reading others' Joy Jots in the group, and ponder upon them.

Some of which i myself might have taken for granted.

I'm still shy to share in the grp, so let's share with my khad-safiy then :')

As Allah ﷻ Says:

Wa amma bi ni'mati Rabbika fa haddith,

Here is my 15 Joy Joys for this week (besides the 10 that I've jotted in my exercise book :))

In random order:

1. Ability to multi-task

2. Ability to run (after trains, buses, and to reach school before 7:30am!)

3. students who do'a for me

4. able to ghaddul basar (still out of conscious effort though. should work on it until it becomes natural, automatic)

5. That RP (where I'm currently taking my Specialist Diploma) isn't too far from my place 

6. always have food to eat when i return from work 

7. ability to read the Qur'an very well alhamdulillah 

Shall pause here. Eyes becoming too heavy....

Just finished my 4th exam just now (Curriculum Design) and going to start on the 6th module this coming Saturday!

4 more classes (of marking IH papers) to goooO! #fightoooo

Yesterday, I went to SGH to visit my bro-in-law's sister who is fighting a Stage 4 cancer...

Prior to the visit, I pictured someone who might be unconscious, unable to interact much...

But I was pleasantly surprised by how welcomed she made me feel. Talking and asking me loads of questions (her eldest son is in madrasah Al-Arabiah, previously in Irsyad), eating whatever hospital food they provided, showed me pictures after pictures of her 3-year old boy... praising his cuteness, to which i can't agree more :'D

Doctor predicted it would be a miracle if she could make it till her 45th Birthday which is this coming Friday!

I discovered that her left side of the body, including her left hand can't be moved. "Not paralysed... it's the nerves that have stopped working.." she said.

Then she continued: "but I will try to do some exercise... People thought i sakit... i have to be strong...." determined, despite sounding so exhausted due to the morphine that she had to take.

O Allah! Please make things easy for sis Dahlila Bte Ismail... Protect her from all harm and bless her with abundance of rewards and closeness to You, for all the pain & tests that she's going through..

I am indeed inspired and touched by such strength, patience, brilliance (I can sense it through her conversations) and content. Yes, she seemed content with her condition (has been fighting cancer since the past 5 years).

Meanwhile, met another interesting person there; Nek Haliza. The first 84 years old that I came across who have FB, IG and Whatsapp...

Was the first woman Malay editor of a woman magazine before Sg even gained independence. 25,000 copies sold per week in Indonesia, Malaysia, Brunei n Dg...

N her language was goooood! Rarely we hear Malays who use vocabs such as "marhaen", etc. (i forgot the words, but they sure weren't mainstream)...

Before we parted, she reminded me to add her on FB.

And it was really hard to depart with Kak Dahlila... she prayed her Maghrib on the bed, then she kissed me, held my hands, kissed my hands as I kissed hers, thanked me profusely (of which i don't deserve!)  and requested do'a...

Ya Allahu ya Allah....

Khadijah!

Please.stop.thinking.about.students.

In buses. trains. staff room. canteen. classes (duh). home. before sleep! (exactly what i'm doing right now whilst fighting off this headache).

What u need to do now, instead, is make lots of do'a, do'a n do'a.

Esp in my sujuud, as Anisah Iman advised us 2 weeks back during our Jalsah Syamiyyah @Huda's new abode.

Meanwhile, just set up a 12-member strong whatsapp grp consisting of the Pelajar2 Harapan from Sec 1 Iman.

It's time to shift my focus and spend time with those who are willing to strive.

Bismillah!

of being a MINIMALIST.

("Less than 10 clothes and a pair of shoes". How liberating is that? Not to mention the ease of cleaning up n wasting time in making choices. astaghfirullah..)

of making charities in the name of our goals (as niyyah)...

of continuing to be in a state of wudhu' and sharing the great rewards of those who do so as shared by Ustz Iqbal Zain on 24 Sept ago (esp. when all the wudhu' parts will GLOW on the day of judgement, hopefully making us more prominent, easy for Rasulullah ﷺ to spot us among the ZILLIONS of ppl...)...

of reading more of aqidah-based topics, answering 'scary' questions (am i prepared???)...

of calling more asatizah to discover Tauhid Ihsan...

of being organised. organised. organised.

Yaaa Rabb!

In the train, heading towards Novena, the so-called short-cut to Madrasah Aljunied.

Don't have the heart to start my ODOJ coz broken the wudhu'. Cobaan betul.

And so I thought: why not start listing some GOALS (a.k.a. Resolutions?) for 1439H? :')

So here it goes:

1. Sleep no later than 10:30pm. (Edited. Initial target was 10pm but I was afraid of breaking it ever so often. tsk. So i put 10:30pm as the max limit, but will try to sleep the earliest time possible, insyaAllah!)

For the obvious reason to enable me to rise even earlier, biidznillah.

2. Be consistent in reading at least 3 pages of anything beneficial in any language, as part of my mini Reading Whatsapp Grp Iqra' war taqi! (Read and Rise!)

Btw Qur'an and Awrad NOT included coz they are our daily lifelines, aren't they? :')

3. Revise at least 2 verses/day? huhu... Admittedly that's awfully little, yet if this weak self is able to be consistent with that small amt (as a start), it'll do wonders insyaAllah...

yaa Rabb!

[Continued on 1 Muharram]

4. Keep quiet unless there's benefit in what I'm about to say. 

5. Stay fit and look after my health as an amanah. Face included (huhu. Lazy me!) What I consume included.

Having said that, gotta resume my spoonful of honey intake each weekday morning! Whose benefits are guaranteed by Allah ﷻ in the Qur'an <3

Allahul Musta'an!

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Meanwhile, alhamdulillah for yesterday..

Went to Maqam Habib Nuh with Fatimatuzzahra' Razali, Zahra Roslee and Afiqah Tajuddin after work, then proceeded to Masjid Wak Tanjong for the Awal Muharam event. Habib Abbas was there :')

And it brought much pleasure to realise how they enlivened the Tarimis way of flfilling the time just before Maghrib..

Astaghfirullah lil mu'miniina wal mu'minaat...

Followed by:

Justttt before the azan Maghrib.

#Rindu

Oh and the bukhour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3

Thank you Allah ﷻ

withOUT my phone.